THE LOVE I HAD
~REMAKE~
CHAPTER 2
-OUR LOVE STORY part 1-
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I always sneaked out from the classroom to the roof just to ditch my class.
My best friends (Hayato and Takeshi) always ditching class with me. Not to say, we were always eating bento together at the rooftop. That was all until a certain scary prefect knew our private place.
He made a rule.
That he would beat every one of us till death if we kept tempting him and crossed the rule. And as usual, we just ignore his warning and the next thing I knew, I confront him face to face.
We fight, and fight each other, but somehow, that fights turned to be the sparkle of love.
I, started to love him…
And I love him so much…
Even though we fight fairly strong, he seems to be always considerate of my wellness after the event. He would give me permission to come late to school if I am sick. Of course I get sick, because he truthfully intents to kill me if he can. Even Hayato and Takeshi were no match for him.
I didn't tell anybody, I keep it secret to myself.
The fact that I love him; and that one thing is enough.
I don't know why, but I think it was because I love him that my fighting skills had reduced. Unconsciously, I want to look feminine in front of him. I am turning feminine and weaker than my usual self.
I want him to look at me more. To notice me.
And so, I stop involving myself in the mafia war plays and activities and started to dress up myself as a girl. It was my first time wearing a school girl's dress and it was unexpectedly suits me very well. Whenever I look up myself in the mirror, I can't help but smiling when I feels like I am even more beautiful than my twin sister with my round brown eyes blinking like a doll.
Is it called narcissist like that? I hope not. Because, I'm just grateful of my whole being.
It was my first time growing my hair and acting as a girl. I stopped fighting with him and everybody else. Even both Yamamoto and Gokudera were shocked to see my new appearance; they didn't even notice that I was a girl all this time. And some of my classmates even forgot that I was their classmates.
They looked at me in awe. And I would look down with blushes on my cheeks.
Am I really that beautiful? If so, I want to be looked like that in front of him.
I want him to think of me as a girl not as a violent wimpy Tsuna that he always fought with.
….
It was then I made my first appearance as a girl in front of him. He stared at me as if I am an outsider and before he opened his mouth I gave him my first self made cookies and he kindly took it and I dashed away from his sights. I can feel my cheeks and face was burning hotter as he took it.
Who can ever think that the stern and straight face Kyouya Hibari would accept anything from girls? I bet no one dared to give him anything. But he took mine.
His face was indifferent, but that's what makes me fell for him even more.
I looked at him from my hiding place.
He ate it when he was at the rooftop. And a smiled curled up at the corner of his lips.
The happiness is warming up my heart. I can feel the feelings were blooming in my heart.
I didn't realize that I love him more than I imagined.
I really love him.
And that was the end of the year.
And he still does not realize that it was the girl who always picking a fight with him.
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It was later; I started contacting him through letters. I was in my second year and he was senior…I guess? I rarely seen him in school though.
But, through some coincidence, I got to know his address. And it's overwhelming..
I thought it was fate that brings us together…. Yeah… we were fated to know each other…
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Dear Hibari-san.
It is yours right? I found this letter, on the road and it was already soaking wet because of the rain. I hope you're not implying me, who did it. My mother thinks that, I should send this letter back to you somehow, because it got some serious or mysteriously stamps on it; are you a cop or something? I seriously thought it was a confidential since it has police stamps on it. I felt responsible to return it to you. Anyway, I hope you get it. Oh! And I didn't read the letter.
I'm sorry…There isn't much more to say.
Bye.
From Cielo.
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Few weeks later, he replied my letter. Surprisingly with long words coming from a silent man like him.
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Dear Cielo,
Thank you for sending the letter to me. It was indeed an important letter. There was no need for you to apologize when it's my fault or the herbivore's (postman's) fault that the letter was all wet and I should tell you it was hard to read. Or are you saying you didn't read it because you actually read it? Or were you so hesitant before you gave it to me and totally lose it while you're in washroom and drop it wet?
I can only hope.
From Nuvola.
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He irked me. But I love it.
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Dear Nuvola-san,
Why was there was so much in your letter that I didn't like! Here I am being a nice person and sending a letter, that I found for you, to you. Why are you insulting my kindness?!
And why are you Nuvola?!
From Cielo.
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Dear Herbivore,
I'm sorry that there was so much in my letter that you didn't like. However, did I read you through? When I analyzed back through that letter, I realized, it really does have a person thumbprints on that letter. And it's ripped.
Oh…and yes, it up to me for not using my name.
Herbivore should just be herbivore.
From, Nuvola.
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Dear Nuvola
So, what makes you?! Carnivore or something like monster?!
I hate the fact that you almost read through me…
I'm sorry... I accidentally dropped my drink on your envelope…while it's on my table…and it ripped while I tried to dry it using towel. BUT, honestly, I didn't read it even an alphabet. Did you really have difficulties while reading it?
From, Cielo.
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Dear Cielo,
So, I am right then. That's why I said, herbivores should just be like herbivores. Just be it. You are herbivore and I am carnivore…Herbivore can't beat the carnivore except to be eaten.
Back to the letter, to tell you the truth, it still can be read even with difficulties. Anyhow, I owe you my thanks. I don't like having debt.
So, tell me how can I repay you?
Sincerely, Nuvola.
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Dear carnivore-san,
Honestly, your words always insulting. Are you always so distant like that? People will hate you.
Sincerely, Cielo.
XXX
Dear herbivore,
I would appreciate if you don't call me carnivore like that when you were just a herbivore on earth.
Anyway, I dislike crowding and feel at peace when people avoiding me, fear me. I don't hope that you understand those feelings, though…
Just tell me, how I should repay you.
Sincerely, Nuvola.
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Dear Nuvola,
Sorry if I insults you. But I'm a human being too, a not herbivore and so is you.
Anyway…You don't have to repay me. It's nothing.
From Cielo.
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Dear herbivore,
I don't have an ill intention for you. Don't you like it? I think that name fits you better. Don't you think so? By the way, just tell me what you want. Does it not registered in your small brain?
From Nuvola.
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Dear Nuvola-san.
Small brain?! Do you really wanted to repay me? Are you seriously going to repay me in any way I want? Why don't we go out?
From Cielo.
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Dear herbivore,
I would do anything in my range, idiot. Just don't ever hope for me to go out in the crowd like that. Do I have to repeat myself? I HATE CROWDING.
Thus, there is nothing to do in this so-called "city", it was filled with all Mafioso in the world than you can imagine. I come to protect this town and its people. So, I suggest a small herbivore like you should just stay inside.
From, Nuvola.
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Dear Nuvola,
Hn... Sounds serious. Are you sure you want to tell a complete stranger something serious? I don't want you to do something you will regret later on. I am just a herbivore after all.
And for remembrance, you NEVER told me that YOU HATE CROWDING.
From Cielo.
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Dear herbivore,
Yes, I hate flocking and CROWD.
It's alright, since messaging with you isn't involving crowding and it isn't using mechanical support. I really hate all that stuff, thus I know I need it the most. Plus, what can you do when you're just a herbivore?
In the end, it been almost 3 months we're messaging…why haven't you tell me what the hell do you want?
From Nuvola.
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Dear Nuvola,
About that payment…you have been paying me a lot after that incident.
You have no need to do anything, when you hated CROWD.
From Cielo.
XXX
Dear herbivore,
What do you mean? Are you mocking me?
From Nuvola.
XXX
Dear Nuvola,
That's not what I meant. Since you've been writing for me, I've become a happy person… I guess. I just wanted someone to hear me and talk to me. And that's how you will repay me. Isn't that alright with you?
From Cielo.
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Dear Cielo,
…
From Nuvola.
p/s: I have nothing to say.
XXX
It's been months apart before I get a new letter...
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Dear Nuvola,
Do you not want to talk to me anymore?
Yeah…I guess, I can understand that. A stranger like you would find me a nuisance.
I'm sorry to bother you a lot all these time.. I appreciate it until now.
Thank you..
From Cielo.
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Dear Idiot herbivore,
Herbivore, to be truthful, you sound like you're a girl in a closet and dying. Just die then. I'll bite you to death.
I don't like it. You are turning very feeble each month I sent you letter. Long time ago, you sound like you're a type of weak herbivore who would try to survive and you did impress me. Where's the weak herbivore I'm slowly getting to know? Don't do anything stupid.
Furthermore, since when did I said I won't be writing to you? I just have a lot of works to do these days.
From, enrage Nuvola.
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Dear Nuvola,
You got me! I am a girl alright. So, was it okay with you?
Thanks. Your words really helped me. It's amazing that in just a few sentences you could do that. I'm sorry for acting like that. I just really needed to let those feeling out.
So, what work did you do? Something like undercover or what?
From curious Cielo.
XXX
Dear nosy herbivore…
I'm not anything like you think, thus, it's dangerous to know more about me. I will tell you when I feel like it, okay?
From Nuvola
XXX.
Dear Nuvola,
It's amazing how just getting a letter now can make me smile.I was just wondering…Can I ask you a question?
From Cielo.
XXX
Dear nuisance herbivore,
Is there anything you would not have to ask?
Anyway, just ask one question at a time. It's a bother.
From Nuvola.
XXX
Dear Nuvola,
Truthfully, I had a feeling that you were really kind in the inside even though you speak harsh words.
Don't get mad. It's just a saying.
The question is….Can we go…hang out together?
From Cielo.
XXX
Dear herbivore,
Have you not registered that I dislike crowding?
So, the answer is no. For now.
From Nuvola.
XXX
Dear Nuvola,
It took forever to get your letter as always. I've had a lot in my mind since then... Like do you hate me and things like that? You know, we not knowing each other…and I am afraid of losing a friend like you without knowing. I feel like, I have this feeling of growing needs towards you…I think I'm growing to like you…
I'm sorry…
From Cielo
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Dear My Cielo,
Not your fault. We've been sending letters for over a year. It's normal to grew fond like that. As for me, I'm not so open with people around me, and I hope you don't think too high of me. I will surely disappoint you.
From Nuvola.
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Dear Kyouya-san,
Why do you say that? I know we've been sending letters to each other for over a year. It killed me when you didn't send a letter for almost 2 months? I'm just slightly confused with my feelings. How can I say like that when you didn't even know me… It scares me, but I really do have this fond feeling for you, to hear your words of advice and just to hear from you. It feels kind of stupid, but it doesn't feel wrong at all.
I-I really like you.
From Cielo.
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Dear herbivore,
Now you're using my name. I'll bite you to death for that.
You're not completely wrong. It is scary sometimes, not really knowing who you are talking to. It does feel stupid but in a good way. I may not look like it, but I am a very different person at the outside. But, whenever I talk to you, I feel like I have someone I can express myself more. It feels comfortable when I'm talking with you, like you were there besides me. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I like you, too.
From Nuvola.
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Dear Kyouya-san,
I can't help but read your letter over and over again. It makes me smile and sometimes I cried also. I'm such a touchy.
From Cielo.
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Dear Cielo-san,
I told you not to use my name aren't I? I'll bite you to death when we met sooner or later.
So, just cry when I bite you is enough.
From Nuvola.
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Dear Kyouya-san,
Really?! Are we going to meet?! I'm excited!
If calling your name makes you wanted to bite me, so be it. So we can meet faster.
From naughty Cielo.
XXX
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And that was how I end up knowing who Kyouya Hibari really was. He was like entirely different person when we're all alone in our own world.
So,…without realizing it, I really really fallen deep in love him…
But I didn't realize, that he had been stalking me since then and know where I live.
And soon…he gets to know Natsu, my twin sister… and not me…
And it took me down to deepest hell…
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