Before the story even starts, WARNING:
I think this is a little too dramatic and so OOC! Man! Xelloss is the Trickster and I am making him sound so... Ah--! I don't even know the word for it! Sorry if you found it a little too OOC. I can't help. Filia is a little OOC as well. Forgive me for writing such poorly written story... And all the mistakes I made in here. And if you haven't read the other story that I wrote (And that's 'Loving the enemy - Xelloss & Filia'), I would suggest that you read that first before reading this. After all, I forgot to mention it earlier, this is the sequence to it. Sorry!
Chapter One
Sitting in his room, a man with purple colored hair sat by the window side and gazed out at the blue sky, the sea. His mistress wasn't around. He knew for he couldn't sense her presence. It was unusual for his mistress to leave the island. Especially without giving a warning. One moment she was here, the other she was gone. It made him wonder what could be going on. Even though it was not the first time this was happening...
But that thought didn't keep him occupied too long. His mind wondered off to a certain lady. A lady he hadn't met for five years. Well, four years to be exact. He had seen her four years back. It was the last time he had seen her. He swear to himself he was never going to see her again. Leaning against the window panel, he sighed. He had never thought that days could be this long and miserable... Get a grab! This was a utter nonsense! He felt like laughing at himself but no laughter came out of his mouth. The great Beast Priest-General, Xelloss was feeling miserable! He ought to be laughed at.
"Filia..."
If he had a heart, he knew his heart would have been broken a few billion times. If Mazoku truly had no feeling, why did it hurt him so deep, every time he thought about her? Why did it make him so miserable? Just by saying her name had hurt him like hitting him with giga slave. He was living his day like this even since then. Even since he took Val from her...
"I am really sorry, Filia... I am truly sorry..."
His tears traced down his face as he whispered that statement. How many times had he said that sentence even since that day? How many times had he apologized to the air instead of her? He didn't want to appear before her again. He didn't want to hurt her again. He didn't want to let himself fall deeper. Deeper? Deeper into what? Love? Yes... Maybe it was love. Maybe it was love that drove him insane on those night... Those night with her... Maybe it was love that made him so miserable with his life.
He could never leave his mistress' side. After all, he was created by her. He was supposed to follow all her orders. He was supposed to be her pet. He couldn't... No... He shouldn't let himself to be at anyone's side except his mistress. She was supposed to be his everything. But... Everything changed... He felt the needs to be by her side and not his mistress' . But one order changed everything. Everything that he thought would never change. The order to bring Val to his mistress.
He had thought he heard it wrong. However, the eyes of his mistress had cleared his thoughts. She was serious about the matter. He hesitated. He was tore in between. Tore between loyalty and love. He chose loyalty. Their love wouldn't be permitted. That was his thoughts. After all, their clans were enemies from even before the War of the Monsters' Fall. Yes, he is a Mazoku and she is a Ryuuzoku. He alone, had killed thousands of dragons. Thousands of her kind. It was impossible for their love to exist. He chose to keep his feeling hidden, hiding it deep down in his thoughts(not his heart). Keeping it as a memory...
Flashback
Monsters was attacking everyone in the town. Human was running everywhere, trying to find a place to run off to. Xelloss floated above the messy town and watched, tasting the fear and horror from the terrified human. If it had been the usual Xelloss, he would have laughed at the mess. However, he couldn't. He was there for a mission. That was to retrieve the egg of Valgaav, also known as Val, for his mistress. He knew he had to meet up with her. Taking in another breathe(though it was unnecessary), he faded out and re-appeared inside a house. The house was neatly arranged. Pots and maces in place.
"Xelloss?"
He heard her voice. Her magical voice. That voice that caught his 'heart'. He looked at the stairs to find her, standing there, dressed in a pure white dress. She was an angel! He thought. They stood at their position for a moment or two before Xelloss spoke up.
"Well, hello there, Filia-san," Xelloss smiled, putting his usual grin onto his face even though he knew it must had looked very unusual that day, "Aren't you going to prepare to run as well?"
"Why should I do that, Xelloss?" Her words were gentle. So gentle that it sounded it was going to break anytime. And she didn't gave her usual comment, 'Namagomi'.
"Well..." Before he could say a word, she continued while walking down the steps towards him, "Aren't you here to kill me, Xelloss?"
"What makes you think I am here to kill you?" He found his voice a bit wavy when he said that sentence. Filia stopped in front of him and looked up at him.
"Because you are here."
He opened his eyes and looked into hers. He could feel her emotions flowing into him. Sadness, miserable, loneliness. He could sense them all. It hurt him. He wanted so much to hug her in his arms. To embrace her in him. To hold her. To tell her that everything wasn't what she thinks. But he had a job to do.
"I am not here to kill you, Filia," He spoke, feeling the shock in her, "I need Val."
"You are going to kill him?" She asked in a tone, a tone that he had never heard before.
"It's not for me to decide, Filia," He admitted, "Jyuu-ou-sama's order. Please, don't make me speak of it anymore, Filia. I need Val's egg. Now."
She shook her head. "I can't let you have it, Xelloss. You know I wouldn't allow it."
"Please don't force me, Filia!" His voice sounded slightly bitter. There was pain in his words. He could feel it in him. She could feel it in his voice. "Just give it to me Filia... I don't wish to hurt you..."
"Kill me then." Her words crushed him. She was risking her life to save the ancient dragon? A dragon that wasn't even born. A dragon that almost got this very world destruction before... He wondered if it was really that worthy for her to risk her life for it.
"Where is he?" He closed his eyes once more, refused to look into her eyes. Silence came between them. Dead silence. "Now, Filia, you know how I am able to destroy thousand of dragons with one stroke! Are you sure you want to face the same fate as well?"
"Xelloss..." She shook her head once more, smiling slightly at him, "If you do have the intention of taking the egg, you wouldn't be asking me this would you? You would have just follow the order and take the egg without even asking me. So why did you even ask me? I'm sure you know where Val is..."
Yes, why was he asking her anyway? He could certainly sense the presence of the little ancient dragon. Why? Why was there a need for him to ask her? Why was there a need to... A need for him to let her give him the egg instead of just taking it away?
"I... I... I don't know..." Xelloss found himself replying as he took a step back from Filia, his hand clutched to his head.
"Xelloss..." He could feel her eyes gently set upon him. He could feel her sudden change in her emotion, a calm emotion from her.
"Hate me Filia," His voice betrayed him, his pain felt in it, "Please hate me Filia."
"You can never force another person to hate you, Xelloss."
"God damn it! Just do!" He sounded desperate. He needed her to hate him. He needed her to hate him so he could throw that part of him... That part of him that was holding him back in this job! It was then he felt Filia's lips against his.
"I love you Xelloss," Filia smiled as she pulled back, "I... I had fallen in love with you... I know you wouldn't have love me. But please answer me. I need the answer."
"What is it, Filia?"
"What will happen if you defy her order?"
"You aren't going to ask whether I love you?"
"I know the answer for that."
"She will probably kill me."
"I see..."
"Filia?"
Filia started to whisper a holy spell which made Xelloss immediately fade out in front of her and appeared behind her.
"You are serious, aren't you, Filia?"
"You will have to beat me to get Val."
The sound of her voice was serious, even her look was serious as she turned to face him. There was no hesitation in her eyes.
"Filia..."
Filia threw the spell at Xelloss before he could say another word and in which he narrowly escaped the attack. He rose his hand and whispered a spell, creating a ball of wind in his palm and sending it towards Filia. Filia evaded it with ease, however, it was then she realized that Xelloss had vanished from his position. Sensing his presence behind her, she spun around and swung her mace-san at him. (Which only L-sama know where she took it out from.) But before mace-san could hit him, he grabbed Filia's wrist and crushed his lips against hers. This action made her dropped her mace-san.
"I don't think our relationship can continue on, Filia," Xelloss said as he pulled back, opening his eyes and looked into her, "I guess this is the last time we should see each other."
"... Are you angry with me Xelloss?" Filia asked in intimidated tone.
"No... It's just... It's just... This is going to hurt the both of us if we continue. You know it very well."
"And you are going to let it go?"
"I have to! I don't wish to hurt you further. I don't wish to betray you further!"
"You aren't betraying me, Xelloss... You are just doing what you are asked to do..."
"I am a Mazoku Filia, and you are a golden dragon!"
"But you love me!"
Silence came upon them once again. Tears flowed down Filia's cheek and he hated it. He hated when he was the one who made her cry every time.
"I think this is the best for the two of us, Filia," Xelloss wiped away her tears, "You might find someone better than me, someone more worthy than I am."
"I will..." Before she finished her sentence, Xelloss kissed her one last time before she fell unconscious in his arm. Holding her in his arm, he re-appeared in her room and placed her on her bed. Brushing her hair aside and revealing her beautiful face, he traced his finger down her face. He was losing her. Losing her forever...
'Xelloss, have you got the egg?' His mistress called, causing him to withdraw his finger from Filia. He looked over to her desk, the basket where she kept Val was there. He walked over and took the egg. He closed his eyes. This was the end... Before he faded out, he whispered into the air, in hope that Filia could catch it in her sleep.
"I love you, Filia. Goodbye."
Okay, this whole chapter is about Xelloss' feeling. Why he left Filia and things...
To Gerao-A: Well, Maliska, I think this chapter answered you, didn't it?
To babi-gurl-chels: Well, actually I didn't think of that guest much, but hey, you gave me a great idea! Thanks! (Smile)
Review as usual! Thank you!