Sorry
that it took me forever to get on with my writing!
The next
chapter of 'When I open my eyes'! Hope you enjoy it!
p.s. Yes I do write misstakes! Sorry! English isn't my native language keep that in mind please!
Thin-K: Thx for the review! If you have any thoughts about it let me know!
Indigo Spirit: Maybe it's my point... that the story is not what you expect!
When I opend my eyes!
This morning I broke my mirror! I regret it!
Cause it was the only mirror I could actualy see myself in! Being a
vampire is hard... try to get your hair right when you can't see
it...
I was almost drowing in selfpity... Pick yourself up and be
a man!
"I should thank my reflexion, he doesn't want to
desturb my thinking. Sleeping is such a nice thing…"
The
moment that I was thinking that... I was wondering why? Why does the
beast inside me keep still? Is it because I drink blood... Still a
vampire loves the bite more than the drinking! To feel the shivers of
the person... there realisation that there is nothing they can do!
There dead awaiting...
I had to stop my thoughts! It was thinking
without a soul... I wish I could see my soul... Would it be black?
The most important thing is that I have a soul... My that's the key
of getting my soul free of all the harm I did! Looking at it and
shrink in horror when I see all the wrong I did, for it to get so
black! Would it be so terribly bad, that I would fear the
punishment... the hurt I would feel, of all the pain that I have cost
so many people! Thinking of it... it's like pain but nothing real
enough to feel because it can't reach my heart...
So being
granted the gift of life... would it be enduring pain each day I
live... for hunderds of years I did bad things, I killed people!
Alive...I would not live so long to get back all the darkness!
So
I needed to deside... Did I want to get my life back? They had cleary
set I still had to pay for all the dead that I caused... well not all
of it... but still!
My desicion would effect others! Like spike!
'They' had explained that he was second in line to get his life
back! Why? He got his soul back... but still he had no regret! He
knew he did lots of bad things but took the burden on his soul
without a blink! He could still hate...
'They' had also said
that there was a chance that I would not survive! a big chance...
After the last 'big' appocalypse, we all nearly died! We
still don't understand why we survived... It was like a storm of
demons. I still don't know how long we fought!
Then there was
the light... and... I couldn't remember! Why?
"Why
do you want to remember?"
Where
was that voice coming from? Who are you?
"I'm
all and nothing! I can make you remember but than you would want to
go back... I can't do that without changing... you and them..."
You
talk in ridles! If I would want to go back... to where you got me...
that means that I'm not at the place I'm suppost to be!
'Hahaha
you are smarter than the think you are! But I can't bring you to
where I got you! That time has come and gone. I think Three months
have gone... I can tell you... not all your friends survived! I have
an other of your friends with me... The one you call Fred?'
fred
died! Her body was taken...
'Yes!
I know! Good thing I like to keep what seems to be lost!'
So
will you send me back?
'If
that is what you want! But you should no, it will hurt and it will
seem like forever! And then when you wake... you will be in a world
whitch you do not know or understand! You might be crazy of the pain
you had to endure and you will have to fight for your live! You will
no longer be a vampire! But you will live in a sealed off part of the
world filled with demons!'
So
I will get back my life... but... I might be dead in a matter of
minutes?
'Yes!
This is one way!'
What
is the other way?
'I
could grant you the power that I collected...'
And
what will you ask in return?
'For
every demon you destroy you will collect there power! You will be a
body of power! And the day you will die... you will return the power
I collected and the one you collected!'
So
I will get more powerfull with every demon I kill?
'Maybe...
your aren't made to handle such power... So in time you might lose
yourself! It depends on how you can controle it!'
Will
Fred be returned?
'I
could... the other is gone... but her power is still there! It will
return to the body when her soul returns... so she will have to learn
and controle... I wasn't able to collect them... yet'
So...
is she going to?
'I
don't know... I can not read souls! And souls do not talk without a
body!'
I
want to go back! I decided! And I think Fred would go back to...
'You
think you can decide for her?'
Well...
I know her! And if she can't say... maybe it's up to me to talk
for her!
'Very
well! You will face the deads... she will face her wrongs and you
will both return and if you can finish this war, I will clean your
souls! If all is good the shield around the city will fall! You need
to create balance! in the city! As many humans as there are demons! ...'
I
was wondering wish mirror that I broke if I wasn't in reality, when
the pain stuck me and everything went black...