Chapter two: The Truth…oh God

3 months later.

The summer went by before both Jake and Peyton knew it. Peyton had a great time there. The days with Jenny and evenings with Jake, just talking. She loved how she and Jake could just sit down and just talk. That's one of the reasons why she loved Jake the way that she did, he didn't expect anything from her, and there was no disappointment in his voice when she talked about stuff. Peyton felt like she could pour her heart out with him. With all the closeness she still felt a huge gap between them, because there was one thing she just couldn't tell him. It's not that she didn't want to, she just couldn't find the words.

Flashback. A month ago

"Are you okay, Peyt? You've been in there forever." Jake asked with a gentle voice.

Peyton swallowed hard trying to make up a convincing voice. "Oh I'm fine Jake, just need some time."

"You don't sound fine to me."

Peyton splashed some water on her face and within the minute she opened the bathroom door for Jake.

"We really shouldn't stay up so late anymore." Peyton said a little more convincing.

"You're right, sweetheart. Listen, I made you some breakfast, but I got to go take Jenny to school but I'll be home in a half hour."

"Okay, thank you."

"You're welcome. Be right back!" With that Jake left. Peyton picked up the towel she conveniently dropped on the floor, under the tower there was a used pregnancy test, and it was pink, which meant positive.

End Flashback

Peyton didn't like the fact that she hadn't told Jake yet. She felt guilty and stupid. There had been a number of opportunities, but every time she wanted to bring it up something in her just made her stop.

"Hey Peyt," Jake said somewhat concerned, "when you were at campus today I made you bed and I found a blood stain on your pillow. I wasn't looking or anything I just…is everything okay?" Even though Peyton lived with Jake, they didn't share a room, they both figured that it would be too weird.

"Ow that's probably from the cut in my hand, see?" Peyton shows him her hand showing a small cut between her thumb and index finger.

"Jake," Peyton said a little more serious now, she felt there was no time like the present to tell Jake. Jake could see that Peyton was being serious so he locked his on hers. "What is it Peyt? You know you can tell me anything."

"I've been wanting to say this for so long now, and I'm sorry that I kept it to myself, but I just couldn't find the words to tell you." Peyton sighed, how was she going to tell him, she didn't know.

"It's okay, Peyt."

"No it's not," Peyton took a deep breath before she spoke again, "I love you Jake…I want you and me to be you and me again." This wasn't what she wanted to say, but she couldn't help herself, the words just rolled out of her mouth. "I love you Jake, I think I could be falling for you." Peyton blushed, she was blushing because she just professed her love out for Jake, but at the same time she was blushing because she was ashamed, she felt like a coward because she still hadn't told him what she really wanted to say. Her feelings for Jake were real, but this wasn't right. "Jake…I want us…I want us to be a family." Peyton turned around, in disappointment, because she got no reaction from Jake. "A happy family is but an earlier heaven." Peyton whispered, but just loud enough for Jake to hear it.

"Well I don't know about you, but these past three months have been heaven to me. Having you around has been heaven to me…and Jenny. Everyday I wake up and thank God for making me one of the luckiest alive. You are the one I've been waiting for. You're the right one for me, and more importantly you are right for Jenny. My baby girl loves you with all her heart. I'm so glad that you just told me how you really feel because I feel the same way." Jake took a deep breath after his speech.

Peyton smiled but it quickly disappeared, because if she and Jake were going to be a family he had to know the truth. She couldn't hide it forever, eventually she was going to show anyways, so she just had to spill it and she knew it.

Jake brought his hands up to cup her face.

"I love you, Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer"

"I love you too Jake Jagielski." Peyton stuttered out. Jake turned his head trying to kiss Peyton. Peyton almost gave in, but she turned her head.

"Wait…I need to tell you something."

"Oh God"

"Yeah… 'Oh God' kind of sums it up."

"What?"

"Just…please just let rattle please, I really have to say this. Okay where do I begin…?" Peyton knew it was now or never, she chose now.

"Remember that about a month ago I was in the bathroom for a really long time."

"Sweetie you're always really long in the bathroom." Jake tried to make Peyton lighten up a little. Peyton looked at Jake and he knew that had to shut his mouth.

"Sorry…please continue."

"Well it was taking so long because I was waiting for the results…I was waiting for the results of my pregnancy test." Peyton set her eyes to the ground with shame.

"A pregnancy test? Oh God…what was the result…was it positive?"

"Yes it was."

"Oh God"

"I told you that 'Oh God' really sums it all up." Peyton said with a sarcastic tone.

As much as Jake wanted to say something else he just couldn't. Two minutes ago he had a whole future planned out in his head, but now it was just gone.

"Whose is it?" Jake almost didn't dare to ask.

"Lucas' "

"Lucas as in Lucas Scott?"

"Yeah.

"Oh God"

"I wanted to tell you so many times, but there just never seemed to be a right time. When there was a right time I just couldn't find the words. But this doesn't change anything about how I feel about you and me…us."

"Lucas Scott…from all the boys in Tree Hill you has to be with Lucas. My God Peyton. Last year I pushed you away I told you that you had to follow your heart back home to Tree Hill. You've been here for three months and you never once mentioned anything about you and Lucas being together."

"No you don't understand Jake. I don't love Lucas"

"Yes you do Peyton, you told him so yourself."

"No I didn't, where are you talking about?"

"Yes you did…do I have to remind you? The school shooting, you told him you loved him right there and then."

"Well I didn't mean it like that. I was shot, I was bleeding, and I thought I was going to die but I didn't mean it in the way that you think."

"If you really didn't mean it like that, how did he end up in your bed huh?

"I don't know, okay, it just kind of happened. Jake you have to understand that I've been alone for a really long time. People always leave, die or lie and with all the drama going on there was Lucas. He was there when I needed him, and I was there when he needed me, and it just kind of happened. But it didn't mean anything…I love you Jake."

"Yeah I know that you do Peyton. That is not the point. The point is that I still think that there is another man in your heart."

"Jake, what happened between me and Lucas wasn't like that."

"Are you going to keep it?" Peyton wasn't expecting that question, she immediately went into defensive mode.

"IT?! My baby is not a IT you hear me?!"

"Sorry Peyton, are you going to keep him or her?"

"Yeah I am. Just because Lucas and I aren't together doesn't mean that this baby doesn't have a right to exist. I didn't expect you to take me in your arms and say everything was going to be okay, but I did expect you to be a little more understanding. I'm here with you, I'm yours, Lucas is past tense. You are my future Jake. And if you can't handle me with a baby then I'm just going to leave. Because this baby is coming first, second, always."

Jake smiled at Peyton. "Why are you smiling?"

"Because of you. The baby isn't even here yet, but you're already protecting her/him. You're going to be a great mother Peyt. I'm sorry Peyton. I was just…it was the jackass in me talking." Jake said keeping the smile on his face, hoping that Peyton could forgive him for being an ass. He opened his arms offering Peyton a hug. She stepped in and immediately started crying. "I'm so sorry." Peyton managed to stutter out.

Jake pulled out of the hug and held Peyton by her shoulders. "Why are you sorry?"

"For not telling" Jake looked Peyton straight in the eyes, he could see the fear. He knew what she felt, he had been there not too long ago. He might not have carried Jenny inside of him, but he was the one that was always worried about her, protecting her. He knew the fear of not knowing what to do, the fear of telling people, the fear of being a good parent. He knew what Peyton was feeling and knew just what to say.

"We can do this, together. No matter what happens, I'm going to be there for you and your baby, you hear me Peyton?"

Peyton couldn't only nod her head in agreement, know that if she'd said anything she would probably break down.

"But I'll tell you now, it's not going to be easy…in fact it's going to be really hard, but you and me…we can do this."

"What about school? I just started…I'm not ready to give that up yet."

"You don't have to. SCAD (Savannah College of Art and Design) is just 2 blocks away and when you need me to I can take the baby whenever."

"I love you Jake."

"I love you too Peyt"

"No you don't understand. I didn't mean love, but I mean I think I'm in love with you"

Jake couldn't believe the words that were coming out of her mouth. He turned his head so they were facing each other. He smiled at Peyton, "you know what? I think I'm in love with you too."

Peyton and Jake shared a smile, Jake turned his head to Peyton's. "Well now that we've got that out of the way…" Before Jake could utter another syllable Peyton pressed her lips against his.

"Jake…"Peyton said with a little doubt in her voice.

"It's okay Peyt." This time it was Jake who initiated the kiss, Peyton didn't hesitate to kiss him back.

Before Peyton realised it, Jake had scooped her up bringing her to his bedroom. Jake was dropping kissing wherever he could.

"Jake, wait…I can't do this" Peyton said. As much as she wanted to she just felt like they were moving to fast.

"You're right Peyt…it's too soon isn't it? Jake asked

Peyton nodded. She loved the fact that Jake could truly read her.

"I just want us, when we do that, I just want us to be, you know."

"Yeah I know." Jake said

They lay next to each other, no words were exchanged, and they were listening to each other breath.

I live you Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer." Jake blurted out.

"I love you too, Jake" Peyton said with a smile on her face.

Jake wrapped his arm around Peyton's waist. Peyton turned on her side putting her head on his chest. Peyton fell a sleep and all Jake could do was thinking how lucky he was.