Its been three days since I've talked to Kieran. Whatever. I'm over it. I turn up my car radio as I drive to school, and scream the lyrics. I whip into the parking lot, and find a close spot. I grab my stuff, finish my song, and turn my car off. That's when I hear knocking on my window, that scares the shit out of me. I open the door and look up and to my surprise, its Audrey.
"Your little boy toy yelled at me just about five minutes ago."
"What? Why?"
"He knows I'm suspicious of him. Diana you didn't tell me he knew about your powers. I thought only Noah and I knew. Kieran knows about my plan."
"I'm sorry. I fucked up when we went to the café to catch up and he mentioned you before I even could."
"Well fix it. I'm not dealing with this right now. I already got enough shit to deal with because of Nina's death and the video."
I sigh and slam my door shut, and walk toward the school.
I sit down at a table and blast my music in my ears. I didn't wanna talk to anyone right now and I just wanted to go home and go back to sleep. And thats when Kieran sits down across from me. I look up at him with annoyance, and he signals for me to take out my earbuds. I slam them down on the table, "what."
He smirks and laughs a little.
"Don't get all mad at me, you're the invasive one."
"Get the fuck away from me. You've known me for how long? You know its easily triggered."
He rolls his eyes, "yeah, well, you gotta cut me slack, I'm readjusting to everything."
"Cool. If thats all you wanted to talk about please leave."
He gives me a disappointed look and walks away without another word.
The morning goes by like a blur. Lunch comes around and its silence once again. I finally blow up, "look seriously you guys? Get the fuck over yourselves. You're the only three, besides my family, who know I'm a witch. Get over it, stop being so childish." I turn to Kieran, "and you. You've known me since we were kids. If you're seriously mad at me over an accident don't bother talking to me. You know who I am and you should of known." The three of them look at me in shock, and turn away again. I sigh angrily and rip my tray from the table, throw out my food, and head to class.
The three of them didn't speak or look at me the rest of the day, and I hurry to my car when school was over. I hear my name get called but ignore it because I'm not in the mood. Well, until I feel a hand grip my shoulder. "What Kie-" I whip around and realize its Noah.
"I'm sorry on behalf of those two. Just ignore their pissyness and they'll be over it soon. As well I'm sorry I didn't say anything, I just didn't wanna start shit." He then starts laughing softly, "but now I know who you like. Thank you for mistaking me for him." He winks and runs away. I stand there wide eyed and bolt into my car before someone else can stop me.
I walk into my house and slam the door shut. I slump against the door, crying because I was overwhelmed. My mom comes around the corner and sees me.
"Are you okay sweetheart?"
"Yeah I'm fine, just having a shitty week."
"Well it's Friday! Go out and have fun!" I stare at her, fake a smile, and get up and go to my room. I close my door, lock it, and fall onto my bed to take a nap.
About an hour later I'm awaken by knocking on my door. I roll over angrily and glare at the door.
"Who is it?"
"Sweetheart you have a guest over! Can I let them in?"
I roll my eyes, its probably Audrey trying to make up everything or talk about suspects.
"Sure."
Instead, I'm greeted by coffee, some flowers, and a smirking Kieran. He sits on my bed and hands me my stuff. I raise my eyebrow at him, "uh, whats this for?"
"I'm sorry for this week. I've just been overwhelmed from moving and I just flipped out."
I smiled at him and he returns it.
"Thank you, the flowers are beautiful."
"I was hoping they were still your favorite."
I look away with a slight blush, because I wouldn't expect him to remember. He puts his hand on my shoulder and slightly shakes me.
"Alright so hurry up and finish the coffee, we're going out tonight."
"Oh we are?"
"Yes, I'm taking you to dinner and then a club."
I stare him and snort, "okay nerd."
He softly shoves me over and laughs, "you haven't changed a bit."
He ended up forcing me to wear a dress, and takes me to a fancy restaurant. We continue our catch up, and talk about everything thats happening in this town. We finish our meals and head off to the club.
"I've never been to one of these."
"What? A club?"
"Yes."
"Well you're just lame."
"What do you even do here?"
"Drink, grind, and get hit on by creepy men."
"Cute. Everything I wanted in life."
"Don't worry I'll protect you."
He leads me inside and I'm smiling like an idiot. He orders us some drinks and leads me to the dance floor. He twirls me around and we dance like idiots, smiling and laughing and stumbling on each other. Some older guy tries to hit on me, so Kieran pulls me in and grinds on me and the guy leaves. And we don't break apart. We get into the beat of the music and dance and grind until we're exhausted. We stumble off the dance floor laughing like idiots and sit at the bar. He orders us one more round of drinks, we finish them, and head back to his house since its closer.
"Are we home alone?"
"Yeah my dad is with his new girlfriend."
"Ohh okay."
We get into the house and throw our shoes off. I'm ready to go lay down, but I'm pushed against the door and he's staring at me. He starts leaning it, but stops himself, to my disappointment.
"Sorry, I'm horny when I'm drunk."
"Yeah, same."
He stares at me, and then leads me to his room. He throws me a shirt and some boxers to change into, and I go into the bathroom and wash off my makeup. I go back into the room and collapse on his bed. He goes into his bathroom, rinses off, and lays next to me. He turns toward me and starts a conversation, but I'm too tired to understand what he's saying. I do notice he is getting closer slowly, and I can feel his hand follow the curves of my body. He's an inch away from my face, and I honestly wouldn't mind a kiss, but he looks away.
"I'm sorry."
"For?"
"Trying to kiss you."
"Don't be, you're disappointing me."
"What? You want me too?"
"Yes."
He leans in and connects our lips. It felt like fireworks going off inside me, as cheesy as that sounds. He deepens the kiss and starts a make out session. We're all over each other, trying to close off any space between us. I start to grind slightly and we remove each others shirts. I go to unbutton his pants, and that's when his panic attack starts.
His tears are coming out fast and his breath is trembling, he's shaking and starts to curl into himself. I start freaking out and don't know what to do.
"Oh my god, Kieran are you okay? What happened? What's wrong?"
His words come out as sobs, so i just wrap myself around him, trying to calm him down and help him. He starts sweating and is now sobbing. The attack lasts for only five minutes, but it felt like hours. He finally calms down, catches his breath, and wipes his face. He looks at me immediately and starts crying again.
"I'm so sorry, oh my god I didn't mean for this to happen. Its because of my ex she scarred me about sexual stuff and now I have panic attacks if things get too sexual. I'm so sorry." He explains, sobbing in between each word.
"What happened? Like what did she do?"
He continues crying and shakes his head. He stretches his hand out, "just, just look for yourself." I clasp his hand between my own and let the memories start.
"Kieran! We're over."
"What? Why?" Tears are streaming down his face.
"Because you're nothing but a worthless person. The only worth you have is your money. Your dick is so small I had to fake every orgasm because you can't even pleasure a girl. Your kisses suck so much, I never once felt fireworks. No one is ever gonna love you, you have nothing to give to a person, except gifts. Good luck ever finding someone who sees any worth in you, because I sure as hell don't."
"Oh and by the way, I've been cheating on you this whole time, because I actually wanted to orgasm."
Tears are streaming down his face and he slumps against the wall, holding himself.
I break away from the memory and see he stopped crying, but is looking away. I pull him into a tight hug, and rub his back. "I'm so sorry." I coo, and I feel him tense and hear him sobbing again.
Eventually the hug ends, and he's still crying. I tell him to hang on for five minutes and that I'd be back. I stumble downstairs and grab some candy, water and pop, a comedy movie, and tissues. I go back to his room and place everything on the ground, and pop the movie in. I turn off the lights, wrap us into a blanket together, sitting up, and grab the candy and drinks. He smiles at me as he grabs what he wants, and we watch the movie, laughing and crying and eventually end up cuddling. He falls asleep, and I put everything on the ground again, and fall asleep not too long after.