All My Fault Chapter 2

Disclaimer: Still don't own the book. Never will.

Previously

Lillypadmonster101: she still mad at me? Is she ever gonna forgive me????

This_Be_Ali: um…yes, and she doesn't know yet. This is so not like you guys!

Uniquelyannie201: Ya! Normally you guys just make up the day after you get into a fight.

Lillypadmonster101: ya, well, idk. I'll talk to you later, dinner time. Byez.

I couldn't believe it.

She's STILL mad? This really is unlike her.

Lilly POV (one week later)

It's been NINE days, and she still hasn't talked to me.

If it wasn't for school, I'd probably be sitting at the computer again, I thought to myself. I was then pulled back into reality as Ali tugged on my arm.

"Lil, are you even listening?" Ali questioned.

"Uh, something about Friday night?" I guessed. I really hadn't been listening, so I had no idea if my guess was even close to what she was talking about.

"You mean tomorrow night? Yeah, it's about tomorrow." Ali sighed. "So, are you coming to my party? Brad will be there!"

I frowned. "Can't. Sorry."

Ali looked hurt. "Oh. Well, maybe some other time then. Aren't you hungry? You haven't eaten your lunch at all this week."

I looked down at my lunch tray that was full of untouched food. I shrugged, got up, threw the food away, and gathered up my things for my next class.

***

"Lillian, do you have your homework?" asked, smacking my desk with a book to wake me up.

I jerked my head up. "Have I had it the last three times you asked?" I asked him, annoyed.

He sighed, walking away to another desk. He turned his head and said, "See me after class."

I rolled my eyes and went back to sleeping until the bell rang. Sad that the period was over, I drug my feet over to Mr. Jameson's desk. "You wanted to see me?"

He folded his hands on his desk. "What's happened to you the past week? You were my best student, and now you don't do your homework, the assignments, what's wrong?"

I swallowed hard. "Nothing's wrong. School just isn't important to me anymore."

"But why? Just tell me what's wrong and I can help you-

"I said there's nothing wrong!" I snapped. I stomped out of the classroom, not even bothering to ask for a note since the late bell just rang. It doesn't even matter.

***

Emma POV (Lilly's mom)

"Mrs. Zephyr? This is Edward Jameson, Lilly's algebra teacher? I've been noticing a sudden change of personality from Lilly, and I was wondering if there was anything happening that might be causing this?"

"Well…I don't really know. She's been acting strangely for about a week now. She only eats enough to keep herself from passing out, she's always depressed, and she doesn't talk to friends much. Nothing really is going on here….well, Lilly and her best friend got into a fight."

"She's not doing her homework or the assignments I give her. She's rude, and she just sleeps through my whole class. Would that be what's making her do that?"

"I don't think so, she told me they made up days ago. Oh, she's home now. Is there any way you call me back tomorrow?"

"Of course Mrs. Zephyr, goodbye."

Lilly POV

I walked into the living room to see my mom hang up the phone and stare at me, searching my eyes for something.

"What?"

"Nothing, it's just….do you need to talk to me about anything?" My mom asked cautiously.

I groaned. "Ugh, you've been talking to Mr. Jameson, haven't you?!"

"Yes I have. He's worried about you, honey. And I am, too. I'd like to know why you were mouthing off to an adult, especially your favorite teacher!"

"I don't need this right now." As soon as I said those words, I'd wished I hadn't. I could feel tears coming, so I walked up the stairs to my bedroom.

"You can NOT talk to me and disobey me like that, Lillian! You are sixteen years old. You aren't an adult yet, and for the next year, before you can move out, you need to respect me! Just wait till your father gets home from his business trip!" I heard my mom scream.

I locked my door and dropped onto my bed, breaking down the wall that was hiding my emotions back. I'm not sure how long I cried, but after a while I fell asleep. I was glad, because when you're sleeping, all the pain goes away.

When I woke up, the blinking red letters of my alarm clock said it was two-thirty A.M. No one would be awake, so I walked down the stairs, grabbed a snack, and headed back up to my room. I opened my window, walked out onto my balcony and climbed the makeshift ladder up to the roof. It was where I always went when I wanted to escape everything and just think. I pulled my knees up, wrapped my arms around them, and rested my head on my knees.

I should have never said that to Emily.

Then why did you say it? I asked myself.

I was having a bad day.

That's not why. You may have had a bad day, but you WANTED to say it. You can't lie to yourself.

But, I didn't mean it!

You did at the time. And look what you did to yourself! No best friend and getting in trouble with your parents and teachers. Good goin'!

I didn't know this would happen!

But you knew SOMETHING bad would happen, didn't you?

Well…..

Then why did you do it?!

I need to stop torturing myself! So not another word from you, you're only making me feel worse.

But-

I said stop!

Realizing that I'd get no peace and quiet on the roof (and because I saw a Juvey Cop drive down the street…I don't see how they can stand doing that job!), I climbed back down to my room. Tears were falling silently down my cheeks as I lay back down on my bed and tried to fall asleep. I whispered, "This is all my fault."

A/N: I promised it would be longer, didn't I? So. Yes, Lilly's a mess. No, it won't get any better. At least, not any time soon. Sorry! In the next chapter, I'll try to put an Emily POV so you guys can see how she's handling this. I'm not sure how long this story is going be yet, but I have a basic outline of what's gonna happen. So, did you like it? Did you hate it? Let me know! And please don't not review because you don't have an account, because I accept anonymous reviews, too! :)

See you soon!