Thanks to everyone who gave me those awesome reviews! I hope this chapter reaches your expectations! I won't update until Monday/Tuesday though because it's my Birthday tomorrow and we're celebrating it today. So yeah... Here's the next chapter.

We started to plan your funeral today. We're going to have it tomorrow or the next day. Apparently, Simon and Theodore noticed you acting different when you came over to their house last. They said you kept telling them how much you loved them. So I guess you've been planning this for a while, right Alvin?

I still don't know why you killed yourself. I thought you were happy. You seemed like the same old Alvin to me. I'm on the verge of tears again. Just the thought of you brings me on my knees. I knew I loved you for a few years now Alvin, but I didn't realize how much until now… Alvin, I love you. Never forget that, wherever you are okay?

I never went to sleep last night. I stayed up all night, just thinking of you. I miss your voice already. I miss your touch. I've never felt this much pain before in my entire life. Not even the time I broke my arm and leg.

So I decided that writing to you helps somewhat… Jeanette saying that it isn't healthy though, saying stuff like "Just let him go Brittany." But I can't. I can't just get over you, Alvin. It's been two days. Two days since I wrote last. I didn't write yesterday because of planning your funeral…

I spent a lot of time looking through our old pictures. You drove me crazy half the time… Ha, we had some really stupid fights didn't we? I regret them all now… I regret ever teasing you Alvin.

Jeanette and Eleanor are growing more concerned by the day. By now, they'd decided I need a therapist. I've been going crazy without you. It may have been only 48 hours, but to me it's been years. I've been calling you Alvin. I've been waiting for you to come home. But you never do!

Ugh, just come back to me already! I can't take it anymore. I'm drowning myself in my own tears because of you. No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't be so cruel to you. I know you wouldn't have left me so soon if it wasn't something serious.

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So it's been an hour. I haven't left my room. I've been sitting on my bed… just sobbing. I can't stop. I haven't stopped for days. I can hardly breathe by now. I miss you, so much.

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I found your note Alvin. Why didn't you just tell me?! It's my entire fault you died. I was just too self-absorbed in my own problems to notice the pain in your eyes. You masked you pain and I should have known. I'm so sorry Alvin! It's my fault. All mine!

I hate them… the people who drove you to this. If I ever see them… I can't even write how sad and angry I am right now. I hate this! I hate life. Okay Alvin? I just do! Without you… the world is so dull. Every day since you killed yourself, has been gray and gloomy. To me at least. I can't find the sunlight anymore. Its warmth never seems to reach me.

I feel nothing but numbness. I feel as though the walls are caving in on me. My life just has no meaning anymore. How couldn't I see it before? I was supposed to be your best friend, your girlfriend. And I never noticed your depression? Never seen it in your eyes, because I'm an idiot Alvin! A huge bratty idiot!

I don't care if my fur is all matted or that my hair is practically ruined. How can I care about such pointless things anymore?!

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Alvin's Note:

Dear Brittany,

So if you've found this then I'm probably dead. Yeah I know. You're probably thinking I'm an idiot or something along those lines right? Yeah, I know you THAT well Britt. So you are wondering why I killed myself. Well, I can't take the pain anymore. I guess I'm really good at hiding it, because you never noticed. Don't worry though Brittany, I'm not mad at you. It's not your fault, just remember that alright?

Bullies are my reason, okay? They took everything I had. My ego, my pride, my voice, my confidence, everything, except you, they can't take you from me. Not even after death. Nope, your mine and mine forever, remember? I'll always love you. Even after I die, I will.

The bullies… they said terrible things to me. They laughed at everything I said until I no longer had words to speak with… no voice to sing with. I was mute, unhappy… unless I was with you. When you were by my side I felt as though I could do anything. I could be myself without being laughed at. Brittany, you were the only person who could make me smile, or laugh.

Never stopping smiling or laughing, or being you, keeping singing too, okay Brittany? That's all that I ask. That is my last wish. For you stay you. Never stop being yourself. We need people like you on Earth! Every day is dull and gray, unless it's spent with someone like you.

You can do so many things with your life. You're strong, stronger than me… I was too weak to carry on. But you can do it. Follow your dreams Brittany, and don't let anyone stop you. Love you babe, good bye…

-Alvin.

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I cried when I read your note Alvin. You are strong, alright. You WERE strong and you still are. You were strong enough to live with that for years… Alvin, you should have told me. I would have helped! I have to go… I'm sobbing again.

To be continued….