||forever and you're gone
||02. pH - Dan x Ryo
||notes :: Though I haven't exactly seen the episode, I'm pretty convinced Ryo had a crush on Dan. Prove me wrong. :P
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—pH
|they were an acid-base reaction|
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"I didn't mean it," he says, and this is why it's all the more painful.
Ryo knows he's not even on Dan's radar - Dan's life is tumultuous, up-and-down, stop-and-go, with no room for logic, or him. But Ryo - Ryo is different, yes, and this is why they gravitate around opposite ends of the spectrum.
He is defined by careful statistics, painful pragmatics, electricity and skyscraper's tall shadows. He doesn't understand things like adoration and respect - yet this is what he had given Dan, in painfully awkward unknowingness. Neither does he understand impatience and uncaring - yet this is what Dan had given him in return, in brash insensitivity.
He's weak, he knows, Dan's told him as much. Guilt-trips and fumbling apologizes won't change his docile nature or his paper-thin resolve.
And yet when Dan speaks empty words, transient as smoke, Ryo can't help but feel a spark of something inexplicably happy - because he's Ryo and he's Dan; this is who they are.
"I didn't mean it," he says, and Ryo is helpless to do anything but smile in return.