Chapter 2

BORROWED BODY/MEET THE CULLENS

Again I dreamed of Edward, or astral projected, I wasn't sure anymore, but there he was in front of me. Edward was at his Piano, and as always, I was struck by how unbelievably breathtaking he was. Stephanie had not done him any justice, and sorry, but neither did Rob. Don't get me wrong I adore Robert Pattinson and I think he's absolutely gorgeous, but Edward was indescribably beautiful.

Suddenly, I felt a strange strong pulling sensation. It was different from my usual flying pulling sensation. This was stronger and I felt like a vacuum was sucking me in. Instead of my bed, I crash landed on the floor.

My back hurt, my head hurt, I felt dizzy and queasy. I got up and dusted myself off and looked around. I was no longer in the Cullen house, but I wasn't in my bedroom either. I didn't feel right, sort of out of place. I was in a hotel room, a really nice hotel room, a penthouse suite maybe, and I felt like I was going to be physically sick. That was strange, because I normally didn't have physical feelings in these dreams. I went to look for a bathroom and realized I was on legs. Wait – legs! How did I have legs? I had never had legs before when I had these dreams!

Wait, this wasn't an astral projection! I have a body! Was I dreaming or was I awake? First things first: I need to sit down and breathe. Second, since I wasn't home, where the hell was I? I looked around the room and saw the hotel phone. There should be an address on it. I took another deep breath and walked over to the phone. The address was the Marriot Beach Club in Ko Olina, Hawaii. Hawaii! If I was in Hawaii, then I was I still dreaming or astral projecting. But, no, I had a body, so I had to be awake.

I decided to call home just to see what would happen, and a stranger answered my phone number. I asked for my husband and she said I had the wrong number. I repeated the number to her and she said, "Sorry, right number, wrong person."

This scene repeated several times as I called my husband's mobile, work number, my mom, my sister and several other siblings. I was occasionally interrupted by the, "you have reached a number that is not in service," automated message.

I was in Hawaii and I wasn't in my world. I was flabbergasted. I was also in a body, but who's body? I'd never had a body here before, but this body belonged to someone, Ugh! So not cool! How did this happen?

Okay, who was I? I needed a mirror. I looked around and saw one by door, but I also needed these legs not to buckle under me. When I got to the mirror I was not ready for the next surprise. I was looking back at me! Those were my hazel eyes in the mirror! I did a double take and realized that my hair seemed longer or was it straighter? I had dark brown mid-length wavy hair. I spun around to see better, this hair was straight and all the way down my back. Spinning had been a bad idea, I felt dizzy again and although I was paler than normal it was definitely my heart shaped face. How was I seeing me? That just didn't make sense.

When I read about astral projecting, no one said anything about body jumping. I vaguely remember something about not breaking the cord attached to your body, and if you did anyone could jump in. This person must have vacated the premises and somehow I got sucked in.

Oh no! What if someone was in my body! No, I couldn't think about all that now, I had to figure out what was happening here. Well, at least I didn't feel physically ill anymore. As matter of fact, this body felt great. It felt energetic and vibrant. She must have been an athlete. But why did I see my own face and not this person's?

I remember reading something about body jumping, but that was in New Moon when the bad guy, Utlapa, took over the good Chief Taha Aki's body. They didn't say if he saw his own face though, it didn't get that specific. Maybe you always saw yourself, no matter what body you were in. I wondered if I was even female. I looked around the suite and found a purse and some female clothing. I knew anything was possible, but I was going to assume I was in a female body. I definitely wasn't dreaming, but probably astral projecting, and maybe I had been all this time. And now I was in someone's body in Oahu, Hawaii, but why now?

Wait- hadn't I'd been praying for a chance to talk to Edward, and to explain to him the error of his ways. Maybe this was that chance. Who knew how long I had? And if someone was answering prayers, I'd stupidly only asked for fifteen minutes! Well, at least I was in Hawaii and I had the address so it was now or never.

I quickly realized that I was going to have to borrow some money from my overly gracious hostess. I knew that Edward was so proper and honest that he would give it back once I explained everything. I picked up the wallet and almost looked for a driver's license before I changed my mind. She had two thousand dollars in cash in her wallet! Well, whoever she was, she sure knew how to live. I borrowed three hundred dollars for transportation and any more surprises that I might encounter.

"But if I'm here, where is she?" I thought. No, I didn't have time to think about that, fifteen minutes might be all I had, so I had to get going. I went to the closet, she was a size 4 and I was a size 6 and 5'4. I wondered how tall she was, then I remembered it really didn't matter it was her body, her clothes should fit. I found a pretty off the shoulder light blue blouse, (I remembered Edward liked blue,) and pair of light blue jeans and sandals. I called the front desk and asked if the Cullen's address was on this island. When the receptionist she said yes, I silently thanked whatever stars that had aligned for this to happen. I asked for a cab, grabbed my host's room key and went to the lobby to wait.

The cab was already waiting for me when I got downstairs. As I got in, I was practically shaking with excitement at the prospect of meeting Edward and the Cullens. The cab driver said the ride would be about twenty-five minutes long. As we wound higher and higher into the mountains of Oahu it was awe-inspiring. Everything was beautiful and breathtaking. We were on the East side of the island; apparently the weather here was more overcast. Still, even in the rain, it was paradise everywhere I looked.

I was missing my previous mode of instant transportation. I was anxious and afraid that any minute, my fifteen minutes were going to be up. But this is what I was here for, Edward would read my mind see everything I knew about him and Bella, and then it would all turn out the way it was supposed to.

As we finally pulled into their driveway I recognized the house. "This was it," I thought, "the house in my dreams." It was mostly windows and glass. This was definitely it. I paid the cab driver and got out, waved him off, took a deep breath and knocked on the door. Esme answered the door. She was even more breathtaking live and in person.

I beat back my nerves, "Hello is Edward Cullen here?"

Esme gave me a warm smile and answered, "Yes. Is Edward expecting you?"

I quickly responded, "No, I'm on an unexpected trip to Hawaii." (That was an understatement to say the least!) "But it's important that I talk to Edward."

Esme continued to smile and replied, "Then please come in. Who should I say is calling?"

Good she invited me in, the Cullens were nothing if not well mannered, "My name is Jenny Latham; please tell Edward I am friend of Bella Swan."

I thought my heart was going to pound out of this chest. I saw the barest hint of her expression change when I mentioned Bella's name, but she just asked me to take a seat and she quietly moved out of the room.

Edward came in with his heels dragging on the floor; I take it that was for my benefit to announce his entrance. Most of the time that I had been here before as a ghost/astral projection, I hadn't even noticed how quiet everyone was. I took one look at Edward and almost died. He was breathtaking, sheer perfection. I thought that seeing him so many times before had prepared me for this, but I had not counted on this body's physical reaction to him. I felt my heart begin to pound faster, my mouth dropped open and I forgot to breathe for a moment.

I quickly recovered, closed my mouth and managed to speak, "Hello, Edward. I am Jenny Latham. How are you doing today?"

Edward took note of my reaction to him, his face was friendly and open, but his eyes were careful. His was voice polite and casual, subdued even. Still it was beautiful and musical when he spoke "I am fine, thank you for asking. So you are a friend of Isabella Swan?"

Okay straight to business, "You could say that, but I am here to see you, Edward."

I was waiting for him to read my mind, see everything I knew, and why I was here. "Thank God he could read minds," I thought. His ability was going to come in real handy at this point.

Edward answered with a puzzled expression on his face, "To see me? May I ask why?"

I hadn't thought of an answer, I just assumed he would read my mind and this part would all be easy. I said the first thing that came to mind and replied, "I came to see why you left Forks."

I saw him stiffen and for a split second something else registered on his beautiful features. But it was almost immediately gone. Then he casually asked, "Did Isabella Swan send you to talk to me?"

It was difficult to think coherently and breathe while looking directly at him. I closed my eyes just so I could get the words out, "No, Bella has never even met me. I am here to tell you that you must go back to Forks, back to Bella."

As I mentioned Bella's name I opened my eyes and for just a moment, Edward's mask had fallen, and he looked flabbergasted. But just as quickly Edward's mask was back in place. His eyes were guarded, his voice tight and controlled, and yet still unimaginably beautiful. "Why would I go back to Forks, and what do you mean, back to Isabella?"

It was strange to hear him refer to Bella as Isabella. I shook my head; not understanding why was he playing twenty questions when he knew the answers. It was better to just put all the cards on the table, so I replied, "Edward, I have come a long way to find you. You have no idea how long. We are losing precious time, so please just read my mind so we can move on!"

Edward did not show any emotion when I spoke this time. His face was frozen, and he was staring at me intently. I took his silence to mean he was reading my mind. Instead he looked exasperated and responded, 'I don't understand what you are saying. Are you well?"

Now it was my turn to look exasperated. "Really, Edward, I don't know what to tell you. I didn't think past you reading my mind. I don't even know where to begin! You seriously can't read my mind?"

Edward's only response was to give me an incredulous look. However, his eyes were guarded and I made a mental note that although his face was well practiced in the art of deception, his eyes weren't. So, I continued, "Okay, I am here because you somehow got off track. Your destiny lies with Bella Swan, and you were never supposed to leave Forks. Instead, you're supposed to stay, resist your desire to drink her incredibly tempting blood, and the two of you will fall madly in love." I paused to catch my breath, "Seriously, you can't read my mind?"

Edward didn't move a muscle. He seemed frozen to the spot. Great! He really can't read my mind, I sighed deeply and continued, "Well, there must be a reason for that. Maybe you're not supposed to know everything. Maybe that would somehow mess up the future or throw everything off balance. Maybe I am only supposed to get you back to Forks, and the rest will happen naturally."

Although Edward had still not moved, I suddenly felt six pairs of eyes on me. I didn't see them, but I felt them. I also immediately realized I was an unknown human in a house full of vampires, and that this body was borrowed. What would happen to the person if I managed to get their body killed, or worse yet, what would happen to me if I died in it?

Stupid, stupid, stupid girl! What was I thinking when I came here? That they would just take my word and that they would all pack up and go back to Forks? Even if Edward could have read my mind, a part of me wondered if I was crazy. "Well it was too late now," I thought. Now I had to convince all of them, while not saying too much about the future, and still managing to get out of here in one piece. I was praying Carlisle was here to keep the vampires in check.

I shook off those thoughts the Cullens were vegetarians and as long as I steered clear of paper cuts I was safe. I squared my shoulders and sat up straighter. Focus, Jenny. Focus. I was usually good at quick thinking so I decided to just wing it. "Look, Edward, I know you are a vampire who can read minds. I know that your whole family are vampires as well. I also know you are all vegetarians as you call it, and that you left Forks so you would not hurt Bella Swan. But the truth is that the moment you spared her, her number was up. Destiny is going to take her down unless you step back in and fulfill your destiny. If you don't believe me, just ask Alice to see Bella's future."

I knew Bella was hanging out with Jacob and the other werewolves so her destiny would be muddled, or maybe even look like a blind spot that Alice might interpret as death. Edward still did not move a muscle or respond, so I continued, "I know you were born Edward Anthony Masen in Chicago, Illinois in 1901, and that you almost died of the Spanish Influenza until Carlisle spared you and made you immortal. I know about all of you: Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice and Jasper, and all of your beginnings."

With my last words, a beautiful pixie-like young woman immediately appeared and asked, "You know where I came from?" It was Alice and the look on her face was full of hope, for a moment I didn't know what to say, "Yes, Alice, but I cannot tell you right now. All I can say is that you will find out this year. Alice, can you see my future?"

Alice looked perplexed, then looked to Edward and said, "No."

Wonderful, this wasn't going to be easy! "Can you see Bella's future?" I asked.

Alice looked to Edward again and he nodded almost imperceptibly. Then she said, "I will try – I see her running. She is being chased by someone and then she disappears."

Okay, I didn't expect all that, but it would do. "Okay, Edward, do me a favor. Make the decision to go back to Forks and be with Bella."

Edward looked at me then at Alice, and then Edward's eyes went wide and he said, "No."

I quickly questioned Alice, "What did you see?"

Edward shook his head no, but Alice spoke anyway. "I saw Edward and Isabella lying together in a meadow and…"

Edward interrupted Alice. "Enough!"

But I continued anyway, "And they were very cozy right, maybe even declaring their love for one another?"

Alice's eyes were wide as she answered, "It sure looked cozy."

Suddenly, the room was full of vampires. Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Jasper and Rosalie were all talking at once, and very fast, too fast for me to understand. It did sound musical and pretty though. I was busy marveling at how beautiful they all were, and I was also a little relieved they had forgotten me, at least temporarily.

Then my eyes came to rest on Edward, and I was mesmerized. Now that I could really look at him without having watch my reaction, he was breathtaking, unimaginably beautiful, even though he was angry, he was magnificent, and he was standing right there in front of me. I don't know how long I was staring at him, but I was so absorbed in just admiring Edward, that I barely heard Carlisle address me.

Carlisle spoke in a very warm, soft, musical, polite voice. I could tell he was well practiced at talking to humans and making them feel at ease. "May I ask who sent you to us?"

I warmed to him immediately and I answered him honestly. "I sent myself. I saw Edward had made the wrong choice. Bella was his destiny, and so I came here to rectify the situation."

Carlisle continued his questioning. "May I ask how you know so much about my family?"

I paused before answering that question: "All I can say is that where I am from, a lot of us having been watching all of you for a quite some time. We mean you no harm, but I could not stand by and see Edward miss out on the love of his existence."

"May I ask another question?

"Of course."

Carlisle seemed to hesitate. "You don't seem to be one hundred percent human. Are you human?"

Okay, I could answer this one. "I can tell you that this body is human, and I am temporarily utilizing it while I am here assisting Edward."

Wow, that even sounded other-worldly to me. Now they were all looking at me warily. I quickly continued, "Oh, don't worry. I intend to give it back."

There was dead silence and then Emmett started laughing. Now it was my turn to ask questions. "Will you all be returning to Forks, or just Edward?"

Edward stepped forward and answered, "No one is going anywhere."

But Esme countered, "Edward, you can't ignore this. What if Bella is your destiny?"

"We need answers first, and no one has to go anywhere tonight." Edward turned his intense gaze on me and asked accusingly, "Why is it that I can't read your mind, and Alice can't see your future?"

"I don't really know why. I was hoping you could. It would have made all of these introductions a lot simpler," I answered, waving my hand at all of them.

"Where are you from?" Edward asked me.

"If I tried to explain that to you, you probably wouldn't understand."

This time it was Jasper who interrupted me, "Oh, I think we could keep up."

I smiled because that was his line in the Twilight movie, then I replied, "I think what you really want to know is if I am from your world. The answer is no."

There was silence again from the room and this time Emmett didn't laugh. After an awkward amount of silence, I asked if anyone else had any more questions. More silence. I realized I was making them all uncomfortable. "How ironic," I thought. A room full of vampires was nervous because of a human. I spoke into the uncomfortable silence, "I apologize for just barging in here and dropping all this information in your laps like this, but I didn't see any other way. Thank you for your hospitality, I think I'll leave and allow you all to absorb everything I have said, so you can discuss it as a family. I am staying at the Marriot Ko Olina if you have any other questions or need me for anything."

I turned to Esme, "I am sorry, I don't have a car, would you be so kind as to call me a cab?"

Edward was the one that responded, "That won't be necessary. I will drive you back to your hotel." Esme looked at Edward and I could tell by her expression she was wordlessly asking him not to take me. She was worried about Edward taking me to my hotel. It was almost too funny; they were all worried about Edward being alone with me, like I was dangerous or something.

I stood up and Edward walked me to the door. Esme looked pleadingly at him again but he followed me outside into the light rain.

"This way," was all he said as he led the way to the garage. I was pretty happy with myself, mission accomplished I thought. Well almost accomplished at least he knew he had to return to Bella and why. Edward's car was in front of the garage and he opened the passenger door for me. As I got in the silver Volvo, all I could think was, "Stupid, shiny Volvo owner." I could not suppress my smile.

I put on my seat-belt and, true to form, Edward immediately started driving too fast. Staring at the road going by so quickly was turning my stomach, so I turned my head in Edwards's direction and just enjoyed that view. For a moment I was happy that he couldn't read my mind as I drank him in, from head to toe.

Edward, Edward, I was alone with Edward in his car! This was better than I expected. I knew he would be devastatingly handsome, but WOW! Then the unfortunate happened, the body I inhabited began responding to what I was looking at. My pulse started racing and I felt my heart pounding. Edward mistook this for nerves at his driving, and slowed down the car. I sighed in relief that he misinterpreted my physical reaction to him.

After a moment, I asked him, "Edward, do you have any more questions for me?"

Edward answered in a tight, controlled voice, "Yes. Why are you watching us?"

Ugh. I should have seen that question coming; I didn't know how to answer that one. I decided to say as much truth as I could. I knew he had a photographic memory, so I'd stick to as much truth as possible in case he asked me the same question twice. "Because Bella and your love story was so moving that it captured our attention. Prior to that, we were not watching you. May I ask you a question?"

Edward responded angrily, his hands tightly gripping the steering wheel as he spoke. "Why? I thought you had all the answers. What questions could you possibly have?"

I was taken aback by his anger. "You're angry with me?" It was more of a statement than a question.

Edward replied frostily, "Is that your question?"

I quickly responded, "It wasn't at first, but it is now."

Edward's expression was hard and cold as he replied, "You come into my home uninvited, to tell me that I have to go back to Forks to fall in love with the girl I am desperately trying not to go back and kill; and you want to know if I am angry at you?" He had turned his intense gaze on me while he spoke, and I was momentarily speechless.

Although his proximity and beauty was stunning my senses, his venomous tone cleared the fog, and I responded matter-of-factly. "Edward, you are stronger than you know, trust me. You are stronger than the monster inside of you. You beat it Edward. You save the day and win the girl."

With these words, I saw his hard expression momentarily crack. It was replaced with astonishment, but then it was immediately back in place. Encouraged, I continued, "Edward, you don't have to believe me, just believe in yourself."

Edward's eyes narrowed with suspicion, but there was something else in them that I couldn't quite place. Was it wonder or maybe hope? He then looked straight into my eyes and in a velvety soft, alluring voice, he said, "I believe that you believe in me. But why do you care so much?"

I was completely lost in his beautiful eyes, his intense gaze and his mesmerizing voice, so I answered without thinking, "Because true love is the one thing worth fighting for, worth risking everything for, worth taking that leap of faith for. And I know you don't believe that you deserve true love, because you think you are a monster, but I have come from across the universe to tell you that you do. You are more than what you think you are, and you deserve true love."

Edward's hard expression softened and he looked astounded at my words and responded, "When you say it like that, I can almost believe it."

We continued to stare at each other, and then Edward turned away to look at the road. The air in the car felt suddenly heavier and it was too silent. I turned on the CD player and Clair de Lune was on. I said, "Clair de Lune, of course!"

Edward sounded surprised. "You like Debussy?"

"No, just Clair de Lune. It reminds me of someone … who is important to me."

We sat quietly and just listened while the song played, then Edward asked me in the most human like tone I had heard since I met him, "What did you want to ask me?"

I was still marveling out how wonderful his voice sounded when he wasn't being hostile and I replied simply, "Honestly, I can't even remember."

All too soon, we were back at my hotel and Edward announced, "We've arrived."

I was reluctant to be leaving him so soon. Edward stepped out of the car, handed the keys to the valet, then came around and opened my car door. He spoke in that velvety, alluring voice again, "I have a few more questions. May I come up?"

I thought to myself, "You could have whatever you like," but banished the thought before I could start blushing. I practically whispered, "Of course."

We walked in silence as we entered the resort. I felt my excitement growing and my pulse followed suit; this wouldn't do. I started doing my times tables in my head to keep from getting too excited. Edward followed me as we took the elevator upstairs to my room and he casually walked in, not impressed the way I had been with the luxury of my suite. I was internally thrilled; Edward was in my hotel room, live and in person, looking stunningly gorgeous! "Keep it together Jen," I reminded myself. "Twelve times twelve equals one hundred forty-four," I silently chanted.

I pointed to the living room and asked if he'd like a seat. After I sat down, I braced myself to look at him. "Eight times eight is sixty-four," I silently multiplied.

Edward looked flustered, as though he were struggling to find the words, "I can't believe I am asking you this, but are you some type of celestial being? Like an angel?"

Wow! I was not expecting that question. My eyes went wide and I felt my mouth drop open, I paused, noticing that he looked so desperate, like he wanted to believe that I was an angel so badly. I immediately remembered how he worried about his soul, or lack thereof. How could I answer his question? I did my best, "Edward, what I am is not that important. Just know I am not a threat to you, your family, or your way of life. I am a friend who wants you to find your true love because you deserve true love. Love comes from the heart, as well as the soul."

Edward's expression was unfathomable and his next words tumbled out quickly. "Do I still have a soul?"

"Ugh," I thought. I'd used the wrong choice of words. I'd made Edward think way too much of me. I definitely wasn't some higher being with all the answers. But I also realized how this could look to him; to all of them. I must be coming off as other-worldly, but in a higher-being sense, as opposed to alien. I did my best and answered truthfully, "I do not know the answer to that question, but if I did, I would tell you."

His expression was unreadable, but he responded, "I am not sure why, but I believe you."

I tried to make sense of his answer. I wondered which part he believed. He seemed to contemplate what I said, and he didn't press it further. We sat quietly, and he was perfectly still, so still, it was a little unnerving. He seemed to be lost in his own thoughts, and then he suddenly spoke, "You are certain I belong with Bella?"

"Yes, I would not be here if I thought otherwise."

"Are you are certain I will not hurt her, if I go back to Forks."

"Yes I am."

"How can I possibly fall in love with a human? Especially that human, how would that even work?"

"Edward, there is only so much I can tell you without ruining your future. All of your futures. It's the best explanation for why you can't read my mind, and why Alice can't see my future."

Edward paused while he considered that. I took the moment to just gaze at him: he was beautiful, magnificent, mesmerizing. He was thinking I was this higher being, and here I was having all these very human thoughts about him. I felt my face flush and my pulse quicken. "Six times nine is…" I thought, but it was too late.

He must have heard my physical reaction, because he turned to me and looked questioningly at me. I was busted. I spoke, "I apologize for staring at you, it's difficult for me to not stare. You have no idea how far I have come to find you."

We continued to gaze at each other until finally, he spoke, "What are you thinking about?"

I realized I had been gazing, and he had been trying to read my mind, but I spoke the truth anyway, "I was just thinking about what a sucker I am for a nineteenth century romantic hero."

His reaction surprised me. He threw his head back and genuinely laughed and it was beautiful and magical. I was pretty sure I would remember the sound of his laughter for the rest of my life.

Still laughing he asked, "Is that what you think of me?" He looked at me incredulously.

I nodded my head yes and answered, "I know that's not who you think you are right now, but it's who you will become. So, when do you leave for Forks?"

Edward stopped laughing and regarded me, "What if I decide not to go?"

"Then I will just have to keep convincing you, until you do."

"Why?"

"Because I believe in you, Edward, even if you don't. It's funny that with your ability, you can see others so clearly for who they are, and yet you can't see yourself at all."

His expression was unreadable again, and then he turned and stared out the window, completely still. I just sat there and enjoyed the view, of him. I knew he must be lost in thought, and although I could have just sat there and stared at him forever, like I had done on so many occasions already, I spoke, "I think you should call Esme. She must be worried about you."

Edward abruptly headed for the door and said, "I apologize, I have overstayed. I shall leave."

I answered remorsefully, "No, no! That's not what I meant. It's just that Alice probably can't see you when you're with me. So they will both worry."

Edward stopped and softened his expression. "Still, I should go and talk to my family. You will be here?"

"Yes. For as long as it takes." "Or for as long as my fifteen minutes lasts," I silently added.

"I will be going then."

I stood up to finish walking him to the door. He paused as he headed out, turned around and said, "Thank you."

Surprised, I responded, "What for?"

Edward looked humbled, "For believing in me."

With that, he turned and headed for the elevators. Once he was out of sight I shut the door, leaned back against it and took a moment to take it all in. Edward Freaking Cullen! This had been an amazingly unbelievable day! I had been in the Cullen house, surrounded by the Cullen's, then alone with Edward in the Volvo! Then, he was alone with me in my hotel suite. It was all too much, but in a marvelously fantastic way. And it looked like he was definitely considering going back to Forks. I don't know what I was thinking when I headed out to the Cullen house, but I was sure happy with how it turned out. Now the only thing left for me to do was to wonder when the timer was going run out on my fifteen minutes.

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