To Love Again, To Love You Again?

By Mad Meg Askevron

Chapter 2: The Trembling Heart of a Dying Man

Sakura woke up that morning at six, the gray dawn was just barly touching her room, she could see the sky was still clinging to the last of the velvety darkness of the night. Sakura walked out onto the balcony, her arms hugging her slim waist. Her sofy auburn hair cascading, messily, down her back Sakura shivered as she looked down and saw the stone bench from her dream, she stared down at it, takeing in the almost too sweet secnt of the flowers waking. She didn't know how long she had been out htere but when she looked at the clock it was time to wake up Tomoyo. Sakura walked over to a large stero, and picked up a CD titled "Wake up call" she placed it into the CD drive and Hit number ten, "Sucide Note " she cranked it high, hit play and went into the bath room. All over the apartment the rooms were filled with this loaud throbing and the sckrich of electric gitars. Meiling fell out of bed to the sound of,

Every night, you wrote a line with a bloody broken bottel,

And everyday,

You wish it all away,

Why don't you pull the pen,

On Achrinidia McConnel,

I wanted to believe,

Bodies swinging from tress,

Struggling to stand,

With your head in your hands,

I stole a glass stand,

from a dying man,

I wanted to believe,

As I watched your world crumbling in your hands,

I wanted to believe,

As you raised a glass to your last stand,

I wanted to believe you would win,

The war in your head I did not understand,

I did not understand,

Every night,

The questions poured out,

Of your wounded eye,

Damn dark place,

Every day,

You use to pray,

Listen to the black raven sing,

You wanted to believe,

As you were falling to your daze,

Struggling to stand,

With you life in your hand,

The sad last stand,

I'm a broken man,

I wanted to believe that as I watched your world crumble in your hands, (male and female singing)

I wanted to believe,

As you raised your glass to your last stand,

I wnated to believe,

That you would win,

That war inside your head I did not understand,

I did not understand, (by himself)

I wanted to believe, (two again)

As I watched your world crumble in your hands,

I wanted to believe,

As you raised your glass to your last stand,

I wnated to believe,

That you would win,

That war inside your head I did not understand,

I did not understand, (by himself)

And the questions poured out,

And the questions poured out,

I did not understand, (woman in the back ground words ar unintelligable)

Did not understand,

Did not understand,

Did not understand,

The sound of you falling,

Did not understand,

There's the trembling heart,

Did not understand,

Of a dying man,

Did not understand,

The sound of a trembling heart...

All the while the song played Sakura was getting ready to face the world, She dried her smooth skin with a fluffy, white towel. She placed over her silky blakc under wear, a black velvet dress, the dress ended mid-thigh, and it was a full circle skirt. It was sprinkled wit rienstones, the sleeves were wide and belled down to her knees with a ring peice that fited over her middle finger, just a plain band of silver. Over that she slipped dn a really loose over shiert, it was to strips of lack leather, it laced up the sides, only covring her stomach and ending at her belly button. She tied the black cords tight, she pulled on torn fish net stokings, the boots were large and thick, lacing all the way to mid-shin. She pulled out her change card.

"The power of darkness that hides my star, I call upon thee, realese my card!" The change card zoomed out and changed her hair to a red, purple, black. her eyes slitted and became neon yellow. Sakura took her hair which flowly faded down to diffrent colors. She pulled up her hair into a really high pony tail, it had briads through it engin in little black bells, from the tie holding her hair, there were strips of torn black lace and cord running through her hair. Sakura put on really heavy eye liner and then shadowed it with an almost black brown to soften the edges. she then dusted the rest of the upper eye with a sparkly twilight blue. She put on a thick chocker of black lace that had a large silver cross hanging from it. She painted her nails a black that whne you turned it into the light it shimmered blue it was called "Obsidane blue" She stepped out of the bathroom and turned off the stero. Meiling and Tomoyo were up and dessing. Sakura went to the kitchen only to find that they hadn't bought any groceies.

She picked up her wallet and hooked the chain to a little loop she had added as a after thoguht.

"I'll be back, I'm going food shoping, I'll bring you back some breakfast buritos from McDonald's!" Sakura got sleepy grunts from the rooms and she left, her boots clunking on the floor. Skuar waited by the elvator, the doors opened and to her utter horro Syaoran was in it. Skura's face was placid and without emotion.

"Sakura-" He started to say, turning towards her. Sakura's neon yellow cat eyes narrowed as she looked him in the face.

"Do I know you?" she asked coldly, and with extra malice.

"Sakura, please won't you even hear what I have to say?"

"I don't care." She turned away from him.

"The elders would let me! I could even write to Meiling! I wasn't even aloud to leave the house!" Sakura slowly looked at him, he thought he had gotten her when she said so clodly that he thought he felt the tempture drom twenty decrese.

"What part of "I don' care." don't you understand. Sayoran give it up, I have Royo now, I love him and he loves me, He is the only reason I'm alive right now!" she thrust her arm at him baring the long white scar that was tinted pink and jagged, It was almost as wide as her little finger. "Do you know what this is? Have you any clue what you did to me?"

"It was my fault please Sakura."

"Then you shouldn't have loved me Li-san, it's as simple as that." He grabbed her arm as she was about to leave the elevator when the door opened.

"Sakura, no it's not, how could I not love you, even though you have changed, I still love you, no matter what you have become!" Sakura jerked her arm out of his grip and he could see the glimmer of tears in her eyes as she ran out the building.

* * *

Sakura cranked up the music in her jaguar, the laoud music dark and vibrating. She passed the green light heading a store she had seen before. It was a book store but she could do the grocireis later, right now she just wanted a whole lot of coffe. Sakura went into the little cafe at the back of the large book shop. Sakura was sitting at the table listing to the song that, ironically, was the wake up call for Tomoyo. Sakura looked over hearing raised voices. The was girl, she was not very tall, she had dark auburn hair, she had a hour-glass figure, smooth pale skin, roses in her cheeks. She had sleek, blue glasses, and Sakura coulodn't make out her eyes from here, but she could tell they were full and long, the girls face wasn't particullary beautiful, but it had so much animation and carachter that you never thought she was plain. She was wearing fairly baggy blue jeans and a t-shirt that said "My imagninary friend says you have issues." The woman was yelling at a much taller guy, he had fly away chestnut hair, he was strongly chisled and was classically handsome. He had honey brown eyes, and bronze skin. He wore black jeans with a firy bragon, and a plain gry shirt.

"No Jessie, I won't take it anymore. I told you when we got together that if you hit me I would hit you back and leave, and I am!" The woamn raised her hand to slap him. He grabbed her wrist with crushing force. The girl's knees started to buckle. Sakura noticed she was the only one who saw the whole thing. Sakura set a detrimened look on her face. As she approched the ex-couple she head the man say in a forcful voice.

"You will be mine Meg, you don't have a choice." Sakura gripped his bicep, her cat eyes narrowed and mencing.

"Yes she does. Now let go our I will brake your arms in four places." The guy spat at her feet, and she gripped harder, twisting his arm behind his back, making him let go of the giel who was sobbing. She shovd the man out the doors, and wrapped her arms around the sobbing woman. the woman could not be any older than Sakura, and she helped her back to Sakura's table. It had a dark red couch, and she settle the troubbled woman into the seat.

"I thought he loved me!' The girl violently ripped off an engagement ring and slammed it on to the table. Sakura hushed the girl, finally she stopped crying, it was then that she really looked at Sakura, Sakura was afraid the girl would be repulsed. The the girl smiled. "You remind me of my best friend back in oklahoma. He wore clothes like you do, he was really nice, I miss him. I only came to Oregan for Jessie. I don't know what I'm going to do though, I have no money to go home." Slowly tears leacked out again. She agrily wipped them away. "I'm sorry, I don't know why I'm tellling you my life story when I don't even know your name!"

"Sakura." She could see the girl's face full of confusement. "My name is Sakura." The girl smiled brightly at her.

"Thank you for getting rid of the creep for me, now all I need is a giant tub of chocolate ice cream." Sakura nodded, she gave Meg her phone number nad said good bye to the girl. Sakura finished her coffe, and left for home feeling whole lot better.

That night Sakura called Royo, for the first time since she got here.

"Hi is Royo Kenshin there?" Sakura asked politely, slightly confused that a woman would be answering the phone.

"Hi, this is Royo, can I help you." Royo asked politly if distractly, just the sound of his soft baritone voice warmed Sakura.

"Nice to know that you've already forgotten your future wife!" She said teasingly and sweetly.

"I would never. I take you're all settled in? I won't be long to join you, are you having fun over there?"

"Yep, and me Tomo have a new room mate. Meiling Li. Not having all the fun though, my ex is here it seems. Well I have to go, love you."

"Love you."

Later when all the girls got home.

Sakura, Tomoyo and Meiling sat in the living room just talking, sitting around eating chocolate in the P.J. Meiling wore a sliky, red out fint that was sort of a large shirt that reached just past her knees. Tomoyo wore a soft purple crop top that had spegitti straps and and matching short-shorts, and Sakura had a black silk chinese styled shirt with matching pants.

"How did you met Royo?" Meiling asked as a random convesation topic.

"Well..."

* * * The First Time Sakura Met Royo* * *

*Just a day,

Just an ordinary day.

Just tryin to get by.*

Sakura set up the picnic on a grassy spot, it had just enough shade and the perfect amount of Sunshine. She sat down on the soft blanket and set out the food her father had made the day before. This was a business picnic, Touya couldn't make it so it was just her and her father. Just then Sakura noticed a guy who was staring at her. 'Okay, I know I look strange but still he shouldn't be staring that much!' Sakura had on black, baggy, jean shorts that reached just past her knee, torn nylons, black combat boots, a shirt from Hot Topic that said "My imaginary friend says you have issues." She had on black, spider web lace gloves. Her hair was in a long braid with streaks of black in them, It had black cords and torn black lace braided into it. The out fit was of her own design. He had short black hair, and fair skin with a few freckles, a muscular body and a sexy smile. His eyes were fathomless blue and fringed with thick black lashes. He wore ordinary blue jeans and a green cotton shirt. He saw her looking and quickly looked back at the soft, fluffy, white cloads floating around in the sky. It was a solar eclips, he had put on welders glasses so that he could see it.

*Just a boy,

Just an ordinary boy.

But he was looking to the sky.*

He waved Sakura over and handed her a pair of glasses as well, she settled down next to him on his blanket and watched the eclips with him, looking out the courner of her cat eyes at him once and a while. She tried to think of what it was that reminded her of him. 'A shooting star, that it, when a star gets to it brightes and streaks across the sky, always moving and lovelyest thing in the world...He shines like a shooting star'

*And as he asked if I would come along

I started to realize-

That everyday you find

Just what he's looking for,

Like a shooting star he shines.*

He took his glasses off and asked in a warm baritone voice.

"Would you like to join me and some of my friends in a picnic, I got here first, who ever you came with is welcome to join us, I'm here with my mom. Would you like to meet her?" Sakura nodded, he got up and held out a hand toward her.

*He said take my hand,

Live while you can

Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand?

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words

Although they did not feel

For I felt what I had not felt before

You'd swear those words could heal.*

Even though she had just met him, Sakura could feel her cracked heart fill and slowly become whole. She knew that some how she had fallen in love with a total stranger. This stranger with eyes of bottomless blue, and shone like shooting star.

*And as I looked up into those endless eyes

His vision borrows mine.

And to know he's no stranger,

For I feel I've held him for all of time.

And he said take my hand,

Live while you can

Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand

in the palm of your hand.*

Royo and Sakura shared their first kiss, surrounded by roses, standing in what seemed like the garden of Eden. The stars seemed to glow all the brighter, and they glowed just like his eyes, and she knew that he too was in love.

"You are like a dream, like the shining of a star." He whispered to her and leaned in for another kiss.

*Please come with me,

See what I see.

Touch the stars for time will not flee.

Time will not flee.

And you must be

Just a dream, just an ordinary dream.*

Royo knelt down on one knee. "Will you marry me Sakura Nadashiko Kinomoto?" Sakura took the ring, placed it on her finger. Royo scooped her up into his arms and kissed her, the most passionate kiss in history, Cleopatra Anthony couldn't even compare.

*As I wake in bed

And the boy, that boy, that ordinary boy.

Or was it all in my head?

Did he asked if I would come along

It all seemed so real.

But as i looked to the door,

I saw that boy standing there with a deal.*

Royo was the first man she had ever shared a bed with. She had moved into his apartment, Sakura woke for the first time in her new life and she was afraid that when she opened her eyes she wouldn't be in his bed, in his room, in his house, but back in her little pink room filled with stuffed animals. Finally she got the courage to open her eyes, he stood in the door way with a tray of brakfast and roses.

*And he said he my take my hand,

Live while you can,

Don't you see your dreams right in the palm of your hand

right in the palm of your hand,

right in the palm of your hand.*

Royo sat at the couch on a sunday morning, snuggled up with Sakura watching T.V, eating ceral.

"You know what, ehydon't we go to Oregan University for collage next year for out third year. I know how much you want to get away from all the momries here, so lets move, we can make ourselves a life there, and you won't have to remember..." Sakura looked into his eyes and she smiled, nodded and kissed him for understanding her pain.

*Just a day, just an ordinary day

Jus tryin to get by.*

Sakura got off the plane and with Tomoyo and got ready to face her new life, soon to be joined by Royo.

*Just a boy,

Just an ordinary boy.

But he was looking to the sky.*

* * *End of the flash back* * *

Sakura smiled dreamily. Tomoyo had a little smile in playing on her lips, and Meiling sparkled.

"That is so beautiful Sakura, it reminds me of a song..."

"Just an "Ordinary Boy"?" Sakura asked softly. "That's our song." The girls talked late into the night, talking about past boyfriends and crushes.

The end of Chapter two

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