Alone
Pain
"Gobber what is it?" Valka asked, Gobber had burst into the home with a tired face one him and worried look.
"It's Hiccup..." Gobber said, Valka's heart just drop. He knew what had happened to her son, Gobber's expression was all she needed. Valka turned her head away, "Astrid still at the arena...she refuses to leave"
Valka quickly whip some tears away before she followed Gobber out of the house, Valka arrived at the arena and found Astrid in the same position she was when Gobber had left.
"Astrid..." Valka place a hand on Astrid's shoulder. Astrid didn't answer, she didn't even look back at Valka, she just stared at the blood soaked ground. "Astrid...you can't stay here"
Astrid whip some tears away, Valka walked around Astrid and stood in front of the blood.
"I'm...I'm... I can't..." Mumbled Astrid, Astrid broke down in tears. Valka went on her knees and hug Astrid's head.
"Astrid...please...I don't want you to see this...you've saw enough" Valka said while tears fell down her cheeks, "You still have Stoick...he's at home right now..."
Astrid broke away from the embrace, she slowly stood up and walked away from Valka without saying a word.
"Gobber...clean the arena and prepare Hiccup" Valka said, Gobber nod his head at her. Valka gave a quick glance behind her, her son was dead...she wasn't there for 20 years and she only spent eight years with him.
"You need to mourn too" Gobber said
"Just leave me alone for a bit" Valka just walked passed Gobber, Gobber sigh as he turned towards the blood stain ground. Astrid slowly opened the door of their...her home, Astrid didn't even bother to open the light. She simply walked in and closed the door, Astrid sat down and stared at the celling.
"I'm so sorry..." whispered Astrid as tears continued to fall down her cheeks
"Mommy?" Stoick rub his eye while he held a stuff night fury in his arm, Astrid whip some tears away and tried to put on a brave face.
"Stoick..." mumbled Astrid. Little Stoick walked towards his mother, Astrid took Stoick in her arms and gave him a hug.
"Where's daddy?" Stoick asked while he glance around the room, Astrid just burst into tears, she tried to look away so her son wouldn't see it. "Mommy?"
"Stoick...just go to bed" Astrid place Stoick back on the ground, Stoick stared at his mother in confusion. He look at his mother and he knew something was wrong, his father wasn't here and his mother is sad.
"Okay..." Stoick said as he made his way back to his bed, Stoick look back and saw his mother crying into her hands.
For the next few days Astrid tried to be brave for her son, but she could barely stop crying whenever she entered their old home. Stoick still couldn't understand why his father was missing, and didn't understand why his mother was crying every night. He tried to ask his grandmother but she wouldn't tell him anything, Stoick didn't know what was going on.
"Mommy...where daddy?" Stoick asked once more, Astrid leaned against the counter of the kitchen. She tried to make breakfast for the two of them...but had a break down. Astrid looked back at her son, she knew she couldn't hide this from her son. He had the right to know, Hiccup was his father after all.
"Stoick...come here" Astrid said, Stoick walked towards his mother and sat down on her lap. "You see...daddy...daddy is well gone" Astrid said
"Gone?" he asked
"Daddy is passed on...Stoick...you can never see him again, but daddy will forever be in our hearts" Astrid said as she gently place her hand on his chest, Stoick touched his mother's hand as tears started to fall down his cheeks.
"So...I can never see daddy anymore?" asked Stoick, Astrid whip some tears away with her thumb.
"No...your father is dead..." said Astrid, Stoick didn't say anything and just cried in his mother's arms. A few tears fell onto Stoick's cheek, Stoick looked up and saw his mother was crying as well.
"Do...'sniff'...do you miss daddy?" he asked
"I do...I missed him so much...Stoick" said Astrid while she whip some tears away, Stoick looked away and wrap his small arms around his mother. "I miss him...I...I just..." Astrid looked away from her son while tears overflowed her cheeks, "I'm...I'm so sorry Hiccup..."
"Mommy..." Stoick sadly held his mother's hand. The next day Astrid left Stoick home with Ruffnut, she had something special planned for today. She was going to say her final goodbyes to Hiccup, Valka and her both went along for moral support. Astrid and Valka entered the great hall, Astrid and Valka walked towards the large table at the centre of the room. Hiccup's body lay on the table with a white blanket covering his body, a large red stain, stained the blanket. Astrid just looked away from Hiccup, she could barely look at Hiccup anymore.
"Its going to be alright, Astrid" Valka said, Astrid covered her mouth with her hand, as tears continued to fall down her cheeks.
"I...I just can't do this..." mumbled Astrid, Astrid whip her face with the palm of her hand. Valka took Astrid's hands, "What...what should I do? Who chief now?" she asked. Astrid's mind returned to Stoick, Stoick is the next chief of Berk but is only four years old. Stoick would only inherit his birth right once, he turned eighteen...but who will lead Berk until then?
"Astrid...you were Hiccup's wife, the chief's wife... so that mean you are" Valka said, Astrid stared at Valka, she couldn't believe her ears. How in the name of Thor is she chief now?
"What do you mean?" she asked with a confused tone
"Its a tradition...if a chief dies without announcing an heir, the wife will take over his place" Valka explained
"I...I can't become chief..." Astrid said, Valka shook her head before she embraced Astrid in a hug. "I...I can't...I just can't...I'm the one who caused his death..."
"Astrid don't say such things" said Valka
"Its true...I'm the one who distracted him...he died because of me..." she said
"Astrid listen to me! Hiccup loved you with all of his heart, and I know he would hate you for this. You will always love Hiccup right?" Valka asked
"I could never love anyone else...Hiccup stole my heart...and it will always be with him" Astrid said softly
"Than you shouldn't blame yourself...I wasn't there for my son and spent very short time with him...but I know Hiccup would never blame you! He would love you, and he would tell you 'to move on, and be happy'."
"I'll always love him...Valka..." Astrid mustered enough courage to finally look at Hiccup. Hiccup's body was covered but his left hand wasn't, Astrid slowly reach towards the soft hands which held her tightly for many years...the very hands which will never touch her again. "I...I will always love you..." Astrid gently held her husband's index finger, as tears continued to fall down her cheeks.
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