X Chasing Cars x

We'll do it all
everything
on our own

we don't need
anything
or anyone

He unlocked his door slowly, his hand on his gun. It was just another precaution he liked to take, especially at this time of night. But his hand let go of the cold metal and his heart pounded in his ears at the sight.

"Amanda." His mocha eyes scanned her over. She was shivering and her blonde hair was matted to one side of her face from the rain. She had her pale arms crossed over her leather jacket.

"Hi." She mumbled out. She couldn't take the dark expanse of her apartment any longer. So she began walking, she didn't know when or how, but somehow she found herself outside Nick's doorstep.

It had been a particular challenging case for the whole entire team. A young woman was found raped and beaten behind a few trees in Central Park. No ID, no phone, but she did have almost 5,000 dollars in her cross body bag. They couldn't run her prints because her fingers were cut off. It took the team days to find her sister, Sarah. But Sarah claimed that her sister came to her for money and she kicked her out. And Sarah immediately blamed herself saying that if wouldn't have let her go she would still be alive.

If I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Amanda couldn't help but think that dead girl could've been Kim. No matter how screwed her sister was, she still loved her. She didn't want to sit alone in her apartment where her thoughts could torture her mercilessly.

"You just gonna stand there and let me die of hypothermia?" The blonde smirked slightly.

"That's not such a bad idea…" Nick raised his eyebrows as if actually thinking about letting her freeze to death. But he stepped back from the door and let her in. She rolled her eyes playfully. If their casual banter kept her thoughts from getting to her, she was fine with it.

"I'll get you a towel." The Latino detective smiled slightly. Even shivering from the cold with her wet blonde locks sticking to her face, she still looked amazing.

Amanda watched as he disappeared in to what she figured was the bathroom.

I don't quite know
How to say
how I feel

What the hell is wrong with me? Who just shows up at someone's door like this? Get yourself together, Rollins! She thought.

And not even 3 minutes later, Nick reemerged with a tan colored towel.

"Thanks. I'm sorry about showing up like this I-I just couldn't stay in my apartment—"

"Amanda, it's okay. I would've probably done the same thing if I was in your position." He placed a warm hand on her shoulder that sent butterflies through her stomach. "You should take the jacket off, unless you want a cold?" He chuckled slightly handing her the towel.

How is he being so nonchalant about all of this?

Those three words
are said too much
they're not enough

"Um, okay." That was all she managed to get out. She shrugged her small soaked jacket off quickly, but slowly enough to catch Nick staring at her. After she got her jacket off, she ran the towel over her wet hair before wrapping it around the white V-neck she had chosen. Not a great choice.

At some point, Nick had walked over to the couch in his living room and taken a seat. The air was lined with tension. She didn't want to have to think, or talk, or do anything really right now. What she did want however, she wasn't going to get, and at least so she thought. Amanda took hesitant steps over and sat next to him.

If I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

She could feel his eyes scanning her over. She wanted to look up; she wanted—no needed him to say something, anything.

It was like electric waves going through the air when Amanda finally looked up at his. Her sea green eyes found his brown ones and that's where they stayed. Every breath was heavy, every thought was clouded and if they dared move.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Nick asked softly as he placed his hand back on her shoulder. He didn't want to scare her away. He knew the consequences of what could happen. But he just wasn't ready to take the chance yet. No yet.

Forget what we're told
before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
around our heads

"I think you already know." She mumbled. Every time he touched her, she lost the ability to speak. He needed to stop.

"I do. But I can't understand until you do talk." His thumb started stroking the soft patch of skin beneath her ear. It sent chills down her spine and it was like a deep carpet clogged her brain.

I need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

Silence incased them like a coffin. "I just want to forget—forget that that girl could've been Kim."

"It's not."

"I know that. Even though she's put me through hell, t-that's still my sister." Her voice broke. Tears hit the back of her eyes. But she was not going to cry. Not here, not in front of him, not in front of anyone. "Maybe I should go." She stood up, but he followed suit.

If I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

"Don't." He tucked a piece of her hair behind her ears. "It's okay to cry." Nick pulled her close to him and wrapped his arms around her waist. Amanda's breath stopped in her throat and came out shaky and uneven. She was grateful. She was grateful for this. She leant her head against his chest and put her arms around his neck.

Forget what we're told
before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

The tears came out silent. Nick waited until her breathing returned to normal before releasing the embrace. He took a seat back down on the couch and beckoned her over. He pulled her into his lap easily. Her head rested in the crook of his neck. She was horizontal in his lap. They stayed like that in perfect silence. Nick drew small circles in her thigh.

Things had changed. They were closer now.

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

"Nick?" Amanda said barely above a whisper.

"Yeah?"

"Thank you."

He put a hand under her chin and lifted her face so she could face him. And ever so tenderly, he placed a soft kiss on her rosy pink lips. "Anytime."

If I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

So, I was listening to the song Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol when this idea came to mind :) Hope you liked. TBC?