There will be no author note(s) in this chapter. (or any of the next chapters) Thank you and goodbye.
That Thing That Happened That Was Maybe Possibly a Kiss?
I'm not sure why I wanted to do it. Maybe it was the look on her face, or her beautiful hair, or her outfit, or the sky above us. I don't know, but I wanted to do it so bad. To feel her soft lips against mine. To hold her to me, to call her mine. Mine, and only mine.
But I knew I shouldn't.
Mere seconds before we touched, I remembered her. My fiance. And though I hated it with all my heart, I had to push her away. And, of course, I had to tell her about my fiance.
Heh.
She looked pretty cute, all flushed and startled like that. And then she tried to be really casual and relaxed about it, which made me feel better. Then she got serious again, and talked to me more. Reminded me that I just couldn't die. I wouldn't.
And as I watched her, I decided I didn't want to. I wanted to stay with Erza, with my friends.
I followed her after that. Saw her become upset, then attack that poor (and also meddling) cat. Happy, I think. Saw her stand still, maybe talking to herself. Then start to shake. Then, a long time after the cat, I saw her slump to the ground, shoulder's shaking, head buried in her hands.
I felt horrible: I felt like the meanest, most horrible, evilest person on earth.
And I'm not exaggerating; I know how that feels.
I think I broke her, that night. Broke the strongest woman in the guild, the role model, the Titania.
Because of that one girl who reminded me so much of a certain red-haired mage that I just couldn't help myself. And now I had hurt her. My real love.
Forget I said that.
I left soon after, not able to watch Erza anymore. Watching her made my heart break, to the point where I was ready to collapse and cry, too. I left soon after, not sure if I would ever be able to return to Magnolia and Fairy Tail. Because she would be there, always, as a reminder of this night. And if I saw her again, I knew I would break down, and claim her. And because of my fiance, I couldn't do what I wanted to do most, more than anything else in the whole world.
This will tell you when the next chapter will come, just so you know.
Thursday.