Norulesinlove: "I am really liking this!" I'm very glad then ! ;D
"Loved how Sawyer was there for Ana and she only trusted him after the shooting." That's the way things were meant to be, don't you agree?
"Great start!" Thank You ! 33
Allie: "Love it please post more soon i want to see what her reaction to his little visit will be" Thank You very much ! I wanted to update sooner, but school didn't let me…
"...although i'm sure i can think of a few Lol" I bet You can ! :D
doublell20: "Excellent start to a new twist in a great story." Thank You !! :DD
"Loved how Sawyer took care of Ana and she trusted only him." I wanted this to happen in the show, but no… Well, that's why we got this site ! ;DD
Chapter 2
"Sawyer's honest."
When Ana recognized him, her pretty, chocolate eyes widened and she coughed. She dropped the half-eaten banana and ran her hand slowly across her mouth. Still staring at him with shock and confusion, she breathed:
"Sawyer…"
He risked a glance at her and his lips curled upwards, as he sent her an unsure smile. She looked completely stunned and of course didn't return his smile. Instead she glared at him with fury, that he saw the first time in her eyes.
"What the hell are you doin' here?" Ana hissed angrily. Sawyer flinched at her voice. It was so cold, freezing…, not nice and soft, like it used to be, when he's been taking care of her back on the island.
What was he supposed to response on it? He had no idea… That's why she was still glaring at him with rage and he was still gaping at her, half confused-half amazed.
"Get the hell out of here." The Latina growled, dangerously low and the Blonde man shook his head firmly, wanting to protest… but…
"Go away, bef--" Ana yelled, but unfortunately for her and fortunately for Sawyer she was interrupted. Sawyer frowned and stared at his ex-friend… -girlfriend?... , who seemed to froze, because of something. It soon turned out, that it was not because of something, but because of someone.
Ana glanced down, as she felt little, warm hands wrapping around her legs. A small boy emerged from behind her, making Sawyer look down, as well.
The Southerner suddenly understood Ana's weird behavior, as he froze at the sight himself, feeling his heart in his throat, as he was staring at his son…
Flashback
A young Latina with curly, dark hair and bronze, shining skin was sitting at the beach, staring at the ocean. Her eyes were expressing pure sadness and though it was a very sunny day, her face was gloomy.
The peaceful silence was clouded by a large man with dark skin. She didn't realize he was there, until he cleared his throat, making her look up.
"Hello, Ana."
She nodded briefly, before looking back at the ocean. The man let out a deep sigh and sat down beside her.
"How are you doing?"
The Latina stared at him and raised her eyebrows.
"Do I really have to answer this, Eko?"
He shook his head no slowly, eyeing her sadly.
"How long have you been sitting here all alone?"
Ana let out a sarcastic laugh, looking away.
"Too long."
"Why? Jack shouldn't have let you leave the hatch. It's way too early for that."
"No, it's fine. I'm glad I'm not there anymore…"
"Ana, I know, that you're hurt, but can't you just--"
"No!" she snapped at him "So don't even ask."
"Everybody makes mistakes…"
"Yeah, but he makes them way too often and… I'm all out of words." She finished and picked herself up from the sand. Eko looked up at her with the leniency, which she was thankful for… well deep down.
"Look, it's really great, that you want to defend him and all, but…" Ana paused, trying to find the right words "He doesn't deserve it… You're just wasting your time here."
"I'm not defending him, Ana." Eko stated quietly, before standing up. "I just want you to understand, that there are always two sides to every story."
"What the hell do you mean?" she demanded, her tone raising with every word. "You think, that it's also my fault!?"
"You need to stop overreacting. You misunderstood me." He explained calmly and she had this 'yeah, right!' expression on her face.
"Oh really?"
"Yes. You don't really know, why he ran away. You have no idea, why he left. And you didn't even bother to ask him."
"Ask him? Eko, life is not that simple, as you think. It's complicated more, that I can actually say. And in spite of everything… I'm not gonna be the first one to make peace."
"Maybe you should." He insisted stubbornly.
"Why?"
"He checks on you every day." Eko announced, out of nowhere. Ana frowned and sent him a questioning gaze.
"What are ya talkin' about?"
"He asks Jack, how do you feel every day."
She blinked quickly and stared at her friend in confusion, not understanding, or maybe not wanting to understand.
"He's the one, who brings the fruits to your shelter every day."
"Eko…" Ana breathed, looking away "Stop…"
"I know, that he hurt you and I know, that you'll never admit it, but deep down you know I'm right."
She closed her eyes and let out a heavy breath, feeling a warm breeze, which was ruffling her hair.
"He cares about you, Ana." Eko continued, ignoring her snort.
"If he had cared about me indeed, he wouldn't have left me." She objected quietly and swallowed hard, feeling, that she was at the verge of tears already.
"What do you actually know about this man?"
Ana opened her eyes, meeting his hard stare. She was thinking intensively about this question…
What did she know about Sawyer?
She knew the power of his hands, the smoothness of his skin, the taste of his lips, but…
She didn't know anything about his past life… She didn't even bother to ask.
Eko waited, though he knew there was no response on his question.
"That's right… I think you should go find out."
Ana was standing still for a few seconds, before gazing down and one word broke the silence, before she walked away:
"No."
The End of flashback
"Who dat, mommy?"
Ana stiffened, not knowing, what to say. She looked up at Sawyer. He was standing still, his face was pale, while he was gazing down at their son.
The boy was very small. He had blonde hair, just like Sawyer and dark eyes, just like Ana. He smiled a little, showing his dimples and making Sawyer swallow and sigh heavily. The kid was dressed up in pajamas with dinosaurs and he was hugging a teddy bear to his chest.
Sawyer felt, as if he was looking at his picture from childhood. He was like his reflection…
"Mommy, who dat?" the boy asked again, his voice soft and innocent. Ana had her lips parted in shock, but after hearing her son's question she shook her head and squatted down to the kid's level and put her hands on his tiny hips.
"He's just a salesman." Ana answered briefly "What's going on, honey?"
The boy didn't respond, but looked up at Sawyer, frowning. The Southerner had to stop himself form laughing, because he was looking, just like his mother doing that.
"Wot you got for me?"
Sawyer raised his eyebrows at this.
The whole meeting was almost too much for him. Half an hour ago he was sitting on the bench in a park, watching the sunset and now… his life turned upside down.
He stared down at Ana for help, although he was sure he wouldn't get it.
"Uh…"
She was just glaring up at him and he knew she hadn't said anything on purpose.
There was a silence for a few seconds and then the kid stared back at his mom.
"Mommy, why he not answer?"
Ana opened her mouth, but still no sound came out.
She remembered to yell at Sawyer for making her uncomfortable in front of her son.
"What's going on, Zack?" she decided to ask instead of replying. The boy seemed to quickly forget about Sawyer's presence and yawned sleepily.
"Can't sweep, mommy…"
"Okay then… I'll go with you, all right?" Ana offered and then picked Zack up and he buried his little face in the crook of her neck, dropping his teddy bear. She turned around to look at stunned Sawyer.
"Come in and lock the door up." She told him coldly and walked away, entering other room. He stared sadly after her and did, as he was told to…. Weird, huh?
He looked around and spotted a small cupboard in the corner. He made his way to it and noticed several frames with pictures. The Blonde man looked over his shoulder to see, if Ana wasn't coming and then took the biggest frame in his hand.
On the picture there was Ana and some older woman with dark hair, who he didn't know. The woman was holding a baby boy, who could have been maybe one year old. Sawyer's heart stopped at the sight of Zack, sitting happily in her lap and playing with a pair of sunglasses.
He smiled tenderly and put the picture down and then picked up another one. And his eyes widened a little.
There was Ana, laying on a bed in hospital, surrounded by people he knew very well. There was Jack, Kate, Charlie, Hurley and Sun with Jin. Claire was sitting just beside Ana with Aaron in her arms, while Ana was hugging a new born Zack. They were all grinning happily, hugging one another.
Sawyer's stomach dropped and his eyes began to water.
"Sayid took that picture."
He blinked away his upcoming tears quickly and slowly turned around to face Ana Lucia, who was staring at him with empty eyes.
"I wanted to ask one of the nurses to take it, but he said it was okay. I guess he just didn't want to be a part of it." She continued, turning her gaze on the floor. He put the frame back down on the cupboard and looked at her with pleading eyes. She gazed up and approached him slowly. He eyed her carefully, knowing, that deep down she was just as sad as he was.
"Ana, I--"
There was a loud smack and he changed his opinion, after her fist had connected hard with his jaw. She definitely wasn't sad… Sawyer backed away quickly from the furious Latina.
"Get out." Ana growled in disgusted voice. He wiped his hand across his mouth and licked his lips, tasting his own blood.
"Listen to me--" he started again making his way towards her and again he was forced to back away, after another punch in his nose.
"Get out!" Ana yelled "What the hell were you thinking!? He saw you, Sawyer!"
The Blonde rubbed his nose and glanced back at her. His face wasn't the only thing, that was hurting him…
"How could you!?" she continued to scream at him.
"You're gonna wake Zack up."
Whack!
Sawyer groaned in pain and stepped away the third time.
"Don't you say his name." Ana growled coldly. "Don't even think about him."
What was he supposed to reply on it? She hated him. He couldn't really blame her, after all.
It was his fault. He could have had so much…
Flashback
"I don't know, Sawyer, I truly have no idea…"
"Why? Tell me… You're hiding somethin'… What is it?"
"Sawyer, please--"
"What, doc!?"
Jack eyed him carefully as his hands started shaking nervously.
"I… She lost a lot of blood… Uh, I'm not sure if the heroin you brought is enough to…" he paused and looked up at the Southerner, who looked very tired. "… to keep her alive." Jack finished looking back down, not being able to face Sawyer, who was about to fall asleep in a minute. He refused to sleep, because he wanted to sit by Ana all the time. He was afraid, that when he wakes up… she'll be gone.
"Jack… "
The doctor gazed up, sadness filling his eyes.
"Help her… Pl-please, help her…" Sawyer whispered. If not the fact that his lips were moving, Jack would've never believed, that this actually had been said by the Southerner. The man, who shouldn't care if Ana was dead or alive, was asking him to save her life.
And Jack had no idea, what could be the reason.
"Why do you…" he even wanted to ask, but after a second of hesitation, he decided to let it go. It wasn't his business, after all. It wasn't in his interest to ask Sawyer about his relationships with women. "I'll try my best." Was Jack's last response as he walked off and left Sawyer standing alone.
The Southerner looked around unconsciously and sighed heavily, running a hand through his blonde hair. When he was about to enter the bedroom, somebody's voice stopped him. A voice of a girl, who he really didn't want to deal with then.
"You okay?"
Oh and now she cares…
"Yeah, Freckles. I'm great. You need something?"
Kate leered at him suspiciously and shook her head.
"Um, no… I wanted to check on you."
She wanted to check on him? On him? Rambina is lying in the next room, taking pains, when her every breath can be her last and she wanted to check on him !?
"Check on me?"
"Yeah, we haven't been talking lately…"
Yeah, since you were gone for all night, getting caught in a net with the good doc.
"I… can't talk to you right now…" Sawyer announced coldly, glancing at the bedroom. Kate followed his gaze and nodded.
"It's Ana, huh? How is she doing?"
She's barely breathing, you stupid--
"Better." He growled and without a second glance at the Brunette, he walked away, leaving her a little hurt… But he didn't care.
Sawyer entered the bedroom and came over to a bunk-bed. Sitting on the edge, his eyes roamed over Ana's tiny figure. Her face was very pale and her chest was rising and falling really slowly. He took her hand in his and rubbed her knuckles tenderly.
"Hey there, Chica… How's life?"
Her husky and heavy breaths answered him.
"I know, sorry I left ya here alone for so long, but I needed to talk to doctor Giggles and moreover… Freckles paid me a visit…"
Ana 's hand moved a little in his and he glanced at it and then back at her face and managed to smile a little.
"Yeah, I'm not that keen on her either, Lucy…" Sawyer breathed, squeezing her fingers lightly. "At least, not anymore…" he added sighing and narrowing his eyes at the floor.
"I hope she and doc are happy together…" Sawyer said sarcastically, grimacing. Ana shivered slightly and he turned his angry gaze at her and his eyes softened immediately.
"Sorry, Chica… I know you have a thing for the doc too… Damned women, what do you see in him? Not that I'm jealous or something, but give me slices and a cough syrup and I'll be an island's hero too…"
Ana grimaced in her sleep and he chuckled at it.
"Yeah, yeah… quit being an ass, Sawyer…" he stated grinning "Since when for telling the frikkin' truth you're an ass?"
She wasn't reacting at all, but it didn't stop him from continuing.
"I mean, he knows how to cut someone open or heal somebody's headache, but it doesn't make a saint hero from him, does it? It's his job. It's, what his good at! I don't see, what's so perfect about him…" he stopped and raised his eyebrows "Not that I'm jealous or anything… I'm just saying, what's obvious…" Sawyer added, more to convince himself, than her "And I don't care, if everyone loves him and hates me… I don't really give a damn, until you're the one, who hates me… " he smirked "But ya don't, do ya, Chica? Nah… I may be a chauvinistic son of a bitch and you may be pretending that you hate my guts, but I can see right through you and the thing in your eyes is tellin' me, that your feelings are nowhere near to hatred, Lulu."
She squeezed her eyes a little and letting out a heavy sigh, she opened them slowly. He looked at her in disbelief and his smirk faded immediately.
"Ana?"
The Latina blinked quickly, staring at the ceiling for a few moments and then her eyes locked with Sawyer's. She noticed his concerned gaze and frowned.
"Do I have somethin' on my face?" she asked quietly, her voice very weak.
"No…" Sawyer replied slowly, furrowing his eyebrows in surprise.
"So what are you lookin' at?"
He laughed in relief and shook his head, smiling happily. She smiled back at him and swallowed hard.
"Am I dyin'?"
Sawyer's grin faded and he gazed at her seriously.
"I don't know, hun…" he said, trying to comfort her, as much, as he could. "I don't know…"
Ana sighed and stared back at the ceiling. He was watching her for a minute and finally she broke the silence by smirking and saying without looking at him:
"But I do hate your guts."
The End of flashback
"Please, just listen to me--" Sawyer tried one more time, but she cut him off once again.
"I don't want to even look at you!" she shouted, though her eyes were expressing sadness, not anger anymore. "I ain't gonna beg you to stay! And it doesn't matter how much I missed you! I hate myself for that! And you're gonna walk away or I'll make you to! And I won't be asking you about anything…!" she yelled, her eyes glistening "But I just wanna know why! Just tell me, will you!? Just tell me why!" Ana cried and let the tears fall down.
And it hurt him to see her crying. And it hurt him to know, that it was because of him…
And it hurt him to agree…
"Okay…"
But for once he decided to be honest.
A/N: Thanks again for the reviews !! I don't think You know, how much they mean to me, so thank YOU !! I'm not sure, but I think, that the next chapter will be the last one. I'll try to update, as soon, as I can ! Promise !