Summary: When Hank drops off Erin for a typical two week visitation with Bunny, he didn't think that much of it. He hated the idea but it was court ordered. He had to do what he had to do. What he didn't realize was that this visitation rocked his whole world.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the character's from Chicago PD. I just have fun playing with them in a different world. The title and idea kind of came from X Ambassador's son "Unsteady".
So I was able to write the next chapter pretty quickly because the power went out thanks to the hurricane and I had nothing else to do for two hours till it turned back on. I was asked some questions in the reviews and I thought I'd answer them:
- Erin is not going to be the Erin we know. This story is placed in an Alternate Universe where Erin has an official diagnose that will make her need help for the rest of her life.
-Hank is Erin's biological father in this story. Hank is still the same badass cop, but he'll have some issues with Erin and Bunny that will come up later on.
-I have some ideas on how to incorporate Jay into this story but I don't know officially if it's going to be a Linstead story or not. I'm leaning towards the not, but we shall see.
I hope that helped a little. Now Please I want to warn you this chapter is a little intense but it's the way I want this story to go. Please let me know what you think! I really enjoy reading them.
Cause I'm Little Unsteady
-Chapter Two: Adventure-
"Home!" Erin voiced loudly. She tried being calm with explain what she wanted but Bunny wasn't understanding nor was she really giving a damn as to what Erin wanted. "Home now!"
"Erin, shut up. Be a good girl and be quiet while I think of what to do now." Bunny fiddled with her thumbs as her newest boyfriend of the month, Scott drove towards the Interstate 90 after they ditched her car at the motel Scott was living at.
The way Bunny met Scott was not the safest or smartest thing she's done. After visiting Teddy's father in jail for his mandatory visitations, Bunny met Scott- Teddy's dad's cellmate. When her ex decided that he was going to start over leaving her with a son to move with his family to the south, Bunny leaned on Scott.
As soon as Scott got out, he moved in with Bunny and Teddy till she got kicked out for not paying rent. Then they lived in the motel for three days till she got Erin and they made their plan to leave.
Bunny wasn't going to dare have them drive through the city. Hank will have every officer out there looking for her car and especially Erin. Hank knew people in all places, just like she did. But, Hank's friends had power; Bunny's just gave her things to help her move on.
"Home now!" Erin ignored the death glare from her mother. Erin clenched her hands into tiny fists, her face clenched into a look of anger.
"I thought you said you can control her?" Scott whispered under this breath to Bunny. "Do something."
They've been driving for three hours now and the tight space of the two-door car is growing worrisome for Bunny. The first two hours Erin slept, and now she was wide awake and nervous as she called for her one form of comfort. Bunny's never seen Erin's outburst but the stories from Hank made her worry, somewhat but Bunny wanted to prove that it was Hank's fault for babying Erin too much which caused her to act out and thus act like a baby.
Bunny wanted to hurt Hank were it hurt the most and that was Erin. She got the custody of her- some custody at least- and passed the randomized drug tests by having paid people for their pee which wasn't the best or worst thing to do. Bunny was doing what ever it took to get Erin away from Hank.
And she was succeeding.
They decided on New York City for two reasons. One, it's such a big city that even if Hank knew what city they were in, it would be nearly impossible to figure out where exactly they were in the city. Two, Scott had friends that lived in the city that offered a small basement apartment and a job for once he got out and they took him up on that offer.
"Mommy, home now!" Erin's voice got louder ever time she repeated it over and over again. And she continued to repeat it. Every time Erin's words were ignored, her voice got louder. Till she snapped.
Hank and Camille knew the warning signs- Bunny chose to never learn them causing her to be surprised completely. In one moment, Erin managed to unstrap herself from the backseat and pounded on the seat.
"Out Mommy! Home now!" Erin's voice was full of trembles. She was scared and nervous, Hank would be able to tell, but it is coming out as a form of aggression because Erin didn't knew any better. Pounding and pounding on the back of Bunny's seat, Erin used all her energy.
When Bunny chose to ignore her, Erin went for the next target. Ignoring a sleeping Teddy, Erin leaned back in the seat and kicked her little legs with all her might kicking Bunny's friend in the head.
Bunny's eyes turned into fright. Scott had a temper that when compared to Erin's was worse. Scott was in prison for child abuse of his own kids. Bunny believed that prison changed Scott for the better. "Scott don't hurt her, please." Bunny knew he wouldn't listen to her.
"She fucking kicked me and isn't fucking stopping!" His voice was strong and powerful as he pulled to the side of the road. "I'm dealing with this shit since you haven't."
"Because…." Bunny stopped because she didn't have a true excuse on why she wasn't dealing with Erin's behavior. Bunny just let Erin go usually and that made Erin calm after a while.
"Because nothing." Storming out of the driver side door all the way around the car towards Bunny's side. "Get out of the seat Bunny."
Bunny didn't even pause to think. She moved out of the car, taking a smoke out to relax herself. Technically she felt like she was running from the law but she wasn't. Erin is supposed to be with her for the next thirteen days, after that she was running officially.
Scott reached into the back and grabbed Erin tightly by her wrists pulling her out of the car. "Stop fighting and we will be back on the fucking road." Which they needed to be. The trip was going to take them eleven almost twelve hours. With only three hours down they had a tremendous amount of driving left.
"Off! Off!" Erin screamed trying to get her way free from Scott. It was a failure, Erin's small size was nothing compared to Scott's muscles. "Off me!"
Scott was muscular, scary looking. His eyes, though hazel, showed anger and hatred to all things in sight right now. His hair was long, greasy and pulled into a sloppy bun. Those man buns may be a thing but for Scott, they did nothing but show he isn't the cleanest individual around.
Erin's anger turned into tears and power to fight continued on. "Mommy home! Off me! Mommy home!" Erin repeated over and over again till Scott gained all control over her.
With one final scream of 'Mommy, home!' from Erin, Scott moved his hand back only to slap her right in the back side causing Erin to let out a loud yelp.
One after another, Scott struck Erin till she turned to limp knowing her mother will not save her this time.
"Enough!" Scott yelled right in Erin's face. "No more fighting not even a word from you! Silence all the way. Got it?"
But Erin didn't get it. She didn't understand what was going on. Hank and Camille's punishments were refocusing Erin to a new task or topic that distracted her from the one that caused her outburst or placing her in a quiet room until all things could calm down. Sometimes it took minutes and sometimes it took hours depending on how stubborn Erin was determined to be at that time.
"Get the fuck back into the car now." Scott shoved Erin back into the back seat causing her to trip slightly.
"You gotta be more careful with her, Scott. She's not all there, if you know what I'm saying." Bunny tried putting it nicely but she laughed at that comment.
When Erin was first born she was fine. A perfectly healthy little girl- that Bunny still did not want nor did she think she deserved at that point. Then when the normal milestones came and went with Erin delayed on everyone Hank pushed for answers. At three months, when babies are to smile- Erin didn't till six months. At seven months, Erin finally sat up alone. She didn't even crawl or walk till eighteen months. Hank pushed for answers, but doctor's said nothing was wrong- till Erin wasn't even talking by three but she still had massive temper fits. But the official diagnosis came at five-years-old.
"She'll smarten up." Scott smirked. "Time will let her know her place."
Bunny just shrugged climbing back into the car as they pulled off towards a new state. Things are going to be better and different for them.
-XO-CPD-XO-
"Did they find her phone?" Mouse, an IT tech guy who spends his free time digging through records after record and breaking into computer systems to find out information for fun.
Hank was fighting with his inner self in determining if he should've stayed home or went about his day at the District 21. He decided District 21 is where he was meant to be. Camille fought him saying that maybe little facts in Bunny's emails or text messages will give them a clue on where she took Erin or even Bunny's lawyer.
In the end, Hank did go to the court house as soon as it opened with Camille by his side to fight for Emergency Custody on the grounds that (1) the phone call alone was enough to send Hank into a fit of worry, (2) technically Bunny wasn't supposed to leave the state with Erin without informing Hank prior to the departure date with a plan and finally, (3) Bunny was supposed to have a stable living condition when Erin's there and she believed that a motel is not a stable living condition.
If he did not get approved in a court tomorrow then he would need to wait for those two weeks to end to officially file a Custodial Interference if Bunny never shows up to Dr. Zane's with Erin when scheduled.
Hank wasn't going to wait around for that. That would give Bunny a two week head start into disappearing from him. He was not having any of it at all especially if the courts don't agree with him.
Hank sighed, shaking his head. "No, Erin couldn't really inform me what motel/hotel they where at." He felt guilty that he didn't prepare for it more or teach Erin more. It more fell on Hank that Erin wasn't prepared for this. Erin was ten and Hank couldn't even get her to read a simple sign with enough courage. "It was one of those child phones with only three programable numbers in it. I don't know if that will help."
Maybe getting Erin a normal phone- not high tech but possibly a flip phone that will allow for a more targeted tracking ability.
"I'll see what I can do." Mouse went back to his cave in the basement. He knew he'll be able to find something at least, or he won't stop until he does for Voight's sake.
"We'll find her, man. You know Bunny, she couldn't have gotten that far." Alvin tried to be positive. "I had mouse break into the camera system last night seeing if we can track her car but I don't think they are in her car anymore."
Hank wouldn't be surprised if they weren't in her car anymore. He was positive Bunny's piece of junk car was in a junk yard somewhere. "What did you find, if anything?"
"Bunny was seen with this guy heading out onto the highway east bound earlier this morning." Alvin pointed to his computer screen. "I don't know where exactly but they headed out of the city."
"Him." He pointed to the screen, "I want to know who that guy is. Give me everything on him." Hank demanded. He had a right to know what kind of man Bunny is allow Erin to be around. "She never mentioned a guy around."
"I'll see what I can do." Alvin spoke. "But start at the beginning Hank. Look at Bunny's place."
Alvin must be stupid if he believed Hank didn't start there last night. As soon as Erin called him he rushed to Bunny's apartment in one of the worse parts of the city. Only was he then informed that Bunny was kicked out for not paying rent or something. But they did say she left with some guy and a baby less than a week ago. That didn't help him. They could be anywhere.
"Not there." Hank sat in his desk chair. "She had this fucking planed. I know Bunny and I knew this would fucking happen. But that stupid judge stated that girls need their mothers. Erin had Camille, she didn't need Bunny. For fucks sake, no one needs Bunny."
"After this I don't think she'll have that problem, Hank." Alvin stayed positive. He understood Hank's need to get this done fast but according to the law nothing was being broken. Bunny was having her time with Erin. Legally they couldn't do anything.
"As long as I don't kill her myself." Hank whispered. But Hank knew full well Alvin would stand by him and help him hid Bunny's body if need be. Alvin was that friend that was with him since the academy. He was there was Erin was born, when Hank gained full custody of Erin making him miss some shifts if he didn't have a sitter or if Erin had an outburst at school- Alvin was there.
Hank stared at the two picture frame his has on his desk of Erin. One she was smiling on the swing like a typical little kid who no one could tell is any different than the rest of the toddlers out there. The second was a newest one taken by Camille when Erin was finally allowed to join kids her age at school. She was standing at the bus stop with her backpack on and a pout on her face. Hank loved that picture because it represent perfectly Erin's attitude and personality.
"I'll bring you home, safe Kid. Trust me on that." He was never going to give up until he had Erin safe back home.
He'll fight.
-XO-CPD-XO-
Erin was quiet the next five hours. She only made a sound as a groan in pain when she tried to sit on her bottom which was raw and in pain. She was whimpering but Bunny and Scott blasted the radio louder to ignore the sounds.
That was until Erin decided she needed to go to the bathroom, and she needed to go at that exact moment. In the past two hours, they quickly stopped for Scott to pee and get some water for both Teddy and Erin to split till their next stop. But Erin chugged half of it down quickly.
"Mommy, I need to go." Erin looked embarrassed. "Now."
Hank was alone when the doctor's informed him he should slowly try to get Erin to potty train. The doctor's said to introduce the idea and slowly look for clues. But Erin was nonverbal and a female. He didn't know the signs. Potty training took a total of one full year before Hank could say Erin was at least potty trained through the day; the night was another story in itself.
"There's no fucking exit anytime soon." Scott insisted getting agitated. "She could've gone when we last stopped. She'll have to suffer till then. I'm not sure when we are stopping next."
"Then can you just pull over?" Bunny offered an idea. Looking around there weren't many people on the road and it seemed smart if they wanted to reach their plan of getting to New York by the night fall. Plus she'd rather Erin pee on the side of the road instead of the backseat of his car.
"Fine." He hissed obviously annoyed at the idea for a stop that wasn't for him. Putting his blinker on, he pulled over to the side of the road. "Hurry or I'm leaving her ass here."
Bunny knew that threat was possibly true; Scott was a 'When I say jump you better fucking jump' kind of person. Quickly getting out of the car, Bunny pushed the seat forward for Erin to climb out. "Quickly Erin."
"No here." Erin shook her head. She was embarrassed and wanted that privacy that Hank and Camille gave her. "Alone."
"Erin, it's here or you hold it till we get to our new home." Bunny was getting agitated. After five minutes of Erin just squatting on the ground crying her eyes out Bunny grew impatient. "Just go fucking pee or I'll put one of Teddy's diapers on you."
That threat did nothing for the young girl. She didn't realize what the threat was really and she truly believed she couldn't go with someone demanding she goes at that instant. Even for urine tests at the doctor's office, Camille gets the cup before they go and the moment Erin says she has to go, that is when they do it because they'd be waiting for hours if they didn't.
An impatient Bunny tapped her foot and let out a sigh before Erin started tearing up. "No can go."
"Bunny, we don't have all day." Scott yelled from the car. "Hurry her up."
"How the fuck do you expect me to hurry her up?" Bunny yelled right back. "She a kid not an animal."
"Then do your threat, or I'll handle it." His threat was going to happen. Bunny didn't approve of his way of handling things.
If Erin wanted to act like a baby, Bunny sure as hell will treat her like one. Pulling out Teddy's diaper bag, Bunny reached in and dug for her eighteen month's old extra diaper. Erin will need to wear that diaper to understand in some psychological state that peeing on demand will keep her going or a diaper will be her world.
"Get your ass over her and lay down." Bunny pulled on Erin's arm.
"No, Mommy." Erin fought against it with tears in her eyes. She wasn't a baby, she was a big girl. That's what Camille and Hank always told her. No matter what, she is not a baby. Things may come slow for her but she could eventually do it like others it will just take her a lot longer to comprehend and do it. "No Baby."
One of Erin's legs knocked Bunny right in the arm causing her to fall back on her bottom. That was it for her at that moment. Bunny stood up, roughly grabbing Erin by the waist shoving her into the ground. "You act like a fucking baby, I'll treat you like one." Bunny was roughing her up and Erin tried her best to fight back but it was not working. Bunny managed to pull down Erin's pants enough to rip them off her body and placed the super small diaper on her. Erin may be tiny for her age, but an eighteen month old diaper is still too small for her. It was uncomfortable for the poor girl. "Do not remove it."
To make things worse, Bunny put Erin back into her undies and her shorts before giving her one swat on the backside for the kick Erin did earlier. The diaper dug into her sides and made everything much more uncomfortable.
"The toilet is a privilege and if you want to be treated like a baby because you couldn't pee then so be it. No more toilets for you. Diapers or nothing."
"Mommy, no. Please no." Erin screamed being shoved back into the back. "Off! Off me! Off!" Erin kicked her legs indicating she wanted her pants off. "Gotta go!"
"Go in that, Erin. You're a baby. I'm going to start treating you like one." Bunny reached into the back seat. "Shut the fuck up." With tears in her eyes, Erin stared at her mother in disbelief. "Cry all you want Erin. We'll just baby you more."
"Want Daddy." Erin used this as her last resort. "Now."
With a sigh and an eye roll, Bunny responded "Well get use to this because you'll never see Daddy again. He doesn't want you, never has and never will. He's a bastard. Forget about him and let us enjoy our new life. Daddy doesn't love you and never has. He has a new life now and so do you."
"No, Daddy." Erin let the tears continue to fall. To protect herself out of instinct, Erin pulled her legs up to her chest, placing her face within the space to protect herself. "Please."
"I'm giving you one second to shut her up." Scott warned turning to face Bunny. "We should've left her behind. She's an ungrateful bastard."
"Just zone her out, Scott. Half way there. We won't need to stop. I have snacks for Teddy that Erin can eat. If we want to stop, she'll stay in the car. I'll make her stay in her pee to know its unacceptable for her to not listen to either one of us."
And after trying her hardest to hold it in, Erin's body had other ideas. Her bladder exploded making everything she wished didn't happen, happen.
Erin was wet for the rest of the drive with Bunny only changing Teddy because in her words Teddy was behaving. Erin learned not to say a word even when she became uncomfortable sitting in her own urine.
It was late, really late. When they finally reached the apartment it was close to one in the morning. Erin was passed out having to be awoken and dragged into the dingy apartment.
"Mommy, go?" Erin whispered softly, nervous of mention the thought of going to the bathroom. Erin only informed Bunny because she was nervous at what Scott would do to her. "Now."
"You know the new rules. You're a baby so you'll be treated like a fucking baby." Bunny exhaustedly dragged her to her new room. It was a small closet that had enough room for a crib for Teddy and a mattress of the ground for Erin. It was a crib mattress but it worked because there was no way Bunny was going to spend money on a bed for the girl. "Baby's that whine and cry get diapers. You're getting one till you grow the fuck up."
Being very uncomfortable, Erin tried backing away, "Potty, Mommy?"
Bunny let out a stiff laugh, "Potty? You think you're so big that you can go on the fucking potty? Think again. Diapers are for you."
Bunny got Erin to lay down with force and Erin being terrified. Her bottom was burning still and sitting it the hours old diaper is not helping. As Bunny ripped off the soiled diaper, she quickly placed a new one on her. "Scott thinks you should earn your right to use the toilet again. I agree."
Erin covered herself with her arms, and crawled back into the corner.
"Welcome to your new home, Erin. You're going to love it here." Bunny left and slammed the door behind her.
This new house was feeling anything but home for Erin.
Mama, come here
Approach, appear
Daddy, I'm alone
'Cause this house don't feel like home