SORRY GUYS! I know my last chapie kinda sucked sorry about that, but this chapter should be better because last chapie I was introducing everyone and kinda did a wittle too much, and it is really badly spaced sorry, I keeptrying to edit it and it lets me but then you look at it again and it didn't accept ANY of my editing! GRRR but sorry this should hopefully be better.

BTW gets alittle smutty in this chap, but its rated M for a reason its just a witlle bit too so ;) enjoy

DISCLAIMER: I do NOT own Big Time Rush or their characters, although I wish I did sometimes;) They belong to Scott Fellows and Nickelodeon

Instead of finding Camille in my room, I was greeted by none other than the arrogant son of a bitch, Kendall Knight lounging on my bed! "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM, MORE IMPORTANTLY WHATTT ARE YOU DOING ON MY BED?" I yelled at him angrily "And where is Camille?"

"I'm OBVIOSLY waiting for YOU to come to bed, MATE!" he yelled back And as for this 'Camille' person you speak of, when I came into our room, she wasn't in here, but since it's just you and me alone in our room…we could…. Fool around a little" he said "Umm… HELL NO! And yea last time I checked this is MY room not OUR room so make your way out, NOW" I screamed As I said this, I saw his eyes turn from a (beautiful) green to black, and then he pulled me on to our…I mean MY bed and pulled me close to him which sent shivers through me, in a GREAT way and I knew he could tell because he just smirked at me and then whispered/growled in my ear "mmmm..I love it when you get all...feisty" Then kissed me on the top of my head and then got up off of my bed and made his way towards the door, but of course had to lastly say "If you need me angel I'm in the room right across from me….you know if you want to come snuggle with me tonight." I almost hardly heard what he said because I was still dazed from that kiss he gave me on my forehead, but I managed to say "You wish" and of course he replied "That and even more."

When he left there was a part of me that wanted to run to him and jump in his arms and for him to stay with me forever, but that was just my wolf, so I ignored her which resulted from an involuntary growl coming from her... which meant it came from me, so Kendall immediately turned around and gave me a wink and I heard him whisper " I can see I'm not sleeping alone tonight" and then shut his door to his room , I then immediately left my room and used my wolf senses to try and find where the hell Camille was .

I was lead to a room on my floor and it was three rooms away from mine , I knocked on the door and was greeted by a boy with a boy my age with short raven hair and brown eyes , he looked nice and asked" hello I'm Logan Mitchell, how can I help you?", I instantly knew he was from Midnight Moon, and that he was Kendall's friend, which made this awkward for me because as I said "Hi, I'm Josephine Taylor, I'm daughter of Alpha Steven" (My dad's name is Steven) "But my friends call me Jo, I was wondering if you have seen my friend Camille Roberts, she has long brown curly hair a little shorter than me…" I said but was cut off by Logan "With beautiful brown eyes and the most stunning smile and..." He said but it was my turn to cut him off "Yeah… that's her where is she? We were supposed to be having a sleepover, and I walked into my room and she wasn't in there and I am really worried, and you like her and she's right behind you and your her mate." I said as she told me through mind link so I hugged him and said take good care of Cam, she's been my best friend in the whole wide world since we were babies, and if you don't I WILL hunt you down and cut your balls off!" I said with a smile but with all truthfulness "I assure you, I will and am treating her like the princess she is." He said with all seriousness "YAY I TRUST YOU OMG YOU'RE AWESOME NEW FRIEND" I yelled and I ran up to Camille and hugged her of course hearing me yell and believing I'm in danger, lover boy came running into the room, YAY note the sarcasm.

"Josephine are you okay?" He asked worried "I'm FINE Kendall, go away this doesn't involve you.." I said as he cut me off "YEAH IT DOES INVOLVE ME JO! ANYTHING THAT INVOLVES YOU OR SOMEONE FROM MY PACK ECSPECILLY MY SOON TO BE BETA INVOLVES ME JOSEPHINE!" He yelled in his Alpha voice so Camille and Logan took a step back scared and bowed their heads to show respect, except for me, because I'm basically immune to the 'scary' Alphas voice due to my own Alpha blood in me, but my wolf on the other hand was so sad about this and wanted me to beg for forgiveness which I ignored and instead said "Well, ANYWAYS since we were so RUDELY interrupted by …HIM! Cam, if you still want to have a sleepover you're welcomed to go into my room….but if you want to be with your AWESOME new mate , my new bestie, then it's fine and we'll just talk tomorrow at our usual place with Jake, Luke, Jason, and Blake. Bye guys!" I said as I hugged Logan and Camille, and purposely ignored Kendall. Then I heard "WHAT, no goodbye kiss?" Kendall said with his, apparently usual, smirk on his face. Then I said "HELL NO" and flipped him off and left but I knew he was following me also I heard Cam say in my head 'WHAT THE HELL?' but I decided to block everyone that night from talking to me tonight and went into my room.

Then I grabbed my guitar and sat in my bed while strumming/singing That's What You Get by Paramore and at the end I heard clapping from no other than the boy with dimples to die for...Kendall "That was amazing." He said with truth which shocked me. Then I said " …Thanks" Then he took my baby (my guitar) and started strumming and said "I play a little myself, and I made this song last night thinking about someone special in my life" as he winked at me and I totally blushed like crazy in response! "It's called No Idea" And he started strumming and singing

"I love ya If you aint got nobody to love And girl i adore ya When theres no one to adore And I'll show you aye That there's no one to show And i'll know you If you want somebody to know

Oh oh oh yeah

Every time you come around You put a lightning bolt on my face Baby every time you come around girl you take my breath away

And i just wanna breathe until I take you in So I want you to breathe until You take me in

But the truth is That she has no idea, no idea That i'm even here that im even here She has no idea, no idea I'm standing here I'm standing here

I kiss you, ya Whenever you wanna be kissed Oh i miss ya two seconds after you leave screaming come back to me come back to me let me see you let me please you let me take that heart of yours and i'll be whatever ya want me to be the good guy, bad guy just tell me baby

Every time you come around You put a lightning bolt on my face Every time you come around Girl you take my breath away

And I just wanna breathe until I take you in Cause i want you to breathe until you take me in

but the truth is that she has no idea, no idea that im even here that im even here she has no idea, no idea im standing here im standing here

please tell me you can hear me im expressing my love stop til i get ya im not letting go im running to your heart like a kid in a store take every ounce of love and beg you for more beg you for more

but she has no idea, no idea that im even here im even here she has no idea, no idea im standing here I'm standing here"

"Wow…" I said as I gazed into his eyes, once again, his eyes turned black and lustful, I can't believe I did it but I leaned in to kiss Kendall and when our lips met….words can't explain how it felt , as our tongues both fought for dominance but a low growl came from his chest, so I obliged and gave him the dominance as I let out a slight moan and Kendall then broke off our kiss which caused a whimper to come from me. Then he smirked and said "I don't want to start things I can't finish." He winked at me and decided to lay down on my bed and stare at the ceiling. He looked so innocent I just wanted to straddle him and make out and…. Well you know where that leads to ;) …. Then I got my head out of those yucky thoughts and lay down on my bed as well and stared at the ceiling. Then Kendall said "I really do love you Josephine, but why can't you just love me like how I love you. I want to wake up every day with you in my arms and at night fall asleep with you in my arms, and have a family together, and for you to be my wife and Luna of my pack, mother of my children, just you and me together forever." Him saying that totally broke and melted my heart and I know he meant it too… but I didn't respond and he got off of my bed and gave me the saddest look in the whole world, gave me a kiss on the top of my head and faintly whispered "I love you so much please, just please" and left my room. All I could do was cry, and cry, but finally at 4:00AM I cried myself to sleep contemplating all that Kendall had said.

I walked into Kendall's room while taking off my clothes, until I was only standing in my thinnest, laciest, and…well slutiest lingerie and then walked to his bed. I almost felt bad that I was about to wake him up because he looked so adorable. But lust took over, and got the best of me, so I slipped into his bed and laid on him knowing he'd wake up wondering what was on his chest, it was then I noticed he wasn't wearing a shirt so I raked my hands over his body, loving the feel of it. I heard a low growl radiate from his chest, of course that turned me on even more. So I started kissing from the hem of his pants to his neck , which in doing so, he let out a moan. Then he took my face and kissed me with so much neediness I moaned, then he moved down to my neck and bit me marking me to be his, it was one of the most pleasurable feelings I had in my life, so I let out an even louder moan, he kissed my new mark and then moved on to just staring at my body and said "Thank you God for giving me an angel. Am I dead?" I rolled my eyes and pleaded "Kendall I'm so sorry about earlier I do have feelings for you… I can't resist you even after how much I try Kendall I love you and –"

But he cut me off by hungrily kissing me causing both of us many moans. He started unhooking my bra, then took my breasts in his hands and put kisses all over them causing several whimpers. Then I started taking off his boxers and he took off my panties. Then we decided we both really wanted to mate right then and there (mating = sex}, and right when he was about to enter me, there was a knock at the door.

That was when I woke up and realized it was all just a dream and heard my mother say "Josephine you need to get up right now! Its 8:00 A.M. and your brothers said you were meeting up with them at 9:00AM, so get up now!" I decided I needed to take a shower, and then I put on a animal print hot pink bra and hot pink animal print panties.

I then looked in the mirror and blushed, because I didn't even know I was capable of those kinds of dreams, and I didn't like it. I looked in the mirror again and felt dirty like I needed to take another shower.

So to go with the way I was feeling, I decided to put on my skinny jeans and one of my brothers red flannel shirts and tied it, then I put on my cowboy boots, because after our little meeting I'll have to take care of the animals. It was an ordinary, casual outfit; I knew it would get dirty as well. I also put my hair up in a quick pony tail and WALAKAZAM I was ready to go.

I decided not to go wolf to meet up with everyone cuz I didn't feel like taking off my clothes shifting and then take them off shift back to a human, talk, take off my clothes shift go home, put on my clothes and then do my farm chores. So, I just ran there instead.

I love running as both a human and a werewolf, its relaxing to me and it gives my brain a time to think, and thinking I did. All I could think about is if I had feelings for Kendall. I've heard so many BAD rumors about him that he is a BIG player, and I know it's true by the way all the girls from his pack wink at him like they keep a little secret between one another, and that they can't wait to hook up with him again. 'UGH that stupid boy will be the death of me I swear' I thought when I ran into what felt like a tree but was really my brother, who looked beyond pissed that I was 30 minutes late then I looked behind him to see my brothers and cam pissed as well. All I could think was 'great this will be fun' and with a sigh I told them "sorry". They all just kind of nodded, but they still looked pissed. We then all looked at each other and started stripping until the guys were in their boxers and cam and I were in our bra and underwear, then we ran to the cliffs where we were going to jump from into the water I let everyone go first so I could do my impressive moves and show off a little. I took a running start and at the edge I jumped into the air and did 5 flips, and then dived gracefully into the lake. We all swam around for a while and then we got out and just talked, cam told my bros yesterday she found her mate Logan the beta from the pack midnight moon. I didn't tell them anything, even though my wolf wanted to scream to the world who her mate is, so it was hard to shut her up, but I just ignored it

It was then when we all sensed someone and looked up at the cliff and noticed four boys laughing and diving into the water (A.N. lol like the music video for windows down lol) my brothers looked annoyed but cam was really excited, and she screamed "LOGAN GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE BABE!) I knew if Logan was here… Kendall was too… well time to meet the rest of his friends…..yay

Then we heard "CAMIE YOU'RE HERE HELL YEAH!" and he made his way over to cam …but cam beat him to it by tackling him…. That's partially my fault because she hangs out with me and in turn my bros…were a package deal. Then I screamed "LOGIEBOO!" and joined they're hug. Cam just rolled her eyes and said "sorry" to Logan I let the love birds go and Logan, like a gentleman, met my brothers, instantly they became friends and my bros and Logan ran up the cliff and tried to outdo one another with their jumps.

That's when Kendall decided to make his way over to me…well more like run and tackle me, I released a scream when he surprisingly lightly tackled me and then he kissed my nose, and just held me, that's when I noticed that one, I'm only wearing underwear and a bra and secondly I don't want to be mates with this…sexy sweet guy… no no no no no- but thirdly, my brothers are here and probably angry. I tried to push him off me, but he nailed me to the ground and kissed me I couldn't do anything I tried to struggle, but my wolf started to take over…kind of ;)… and I kissed him back, but then one of my heroes(my bros) tapped him on the shoulder and said "EHMMMMMMMMMM! Why are you kissing my little sister!" Then Kendall looked at me and mouthed "sorry" and kissed me on my forehead and got off me, I just kind of sat up and awkwardly sat there and noticed that all my brothers were indeed there. I also saw Kendall's friends and I gave everyone a small awkward wave, and yet again realized I'm about 90% naked, and my brothers noticed that and threw me one of their shirts. "Now I will ask you one more time, why. . . .? "Jake asked using his mighty Alpha voice and his eyes started turning black ready at any time to go wolf, than I jokingly said "And people wonder why I don't have boyfriends all the time." I got a little chuckle out of the Latino boy with brown eyes and he all got glares but I smiled at him happy to relieve some of the tension. Then the boy said "sorry" And then Luke said in my mind 'Shut up Jo please.' That PISSED me off and I let my wolf take control and I said "FUCK NO LUKE NO ONE TELLS ME TO SHUT UP IF YOU THINK I'LL COMPLY YOU HAVE ANOTHER THING COMING!" I turned into my beautiful full white wolf (which is VERY rare and only heard about every hundreds of years meaning I am very powerful) growled and ran away into the woods taking off to my heaven that only cam knows about.

I started feeling all of my worries wash away as I was running and felt them absolutely drop as I reached my destination, it was beyond beautiful, and during the summer the big trees that almost looked like weeping willows turned white and had flowers on the branches and all around me I was surrounded by the most beautiful flowers from roses to sunflowers to morning glories and so forth, what I really loved was all the fruit that grew here, so I grabbed an pomegranate (I changed back to my human self) and some extra clothes I kept here and walked to the little lake that was here and put on my clothes and then sat down and took in my souroundings. Eveything that happened today that already happened played in my mind and I jolted up and just remembered what is Kendall going to tell my brothers about us?

Sorry I'll try to update sooner ;) REVIEW