Author's Note:
I am apologize for the delay. I was having a hard time thinking of songs for everyone. I intended this chapter to cover more of the other characters but it took a different turn. I'll try to update as soon as I can. This one have Blaine's storyline. Hopefully I can get more of Tina, Santana and some Finn as well. I did not proof read this yet so forgive my errors if there is any (which I am sure is plenty). ENJOY.
Rachel really did not stop crying after her performance, Kurt and Mercedes were still trying to calm her down.
'I just -sniff- wish that -sniff- we could have –sniff- spent more time together you know.' She said to the other two 'divas' as they walked, their voices echoing in the empty hall.
'I know sweetie.' Said Kurt, as he put some of Rachel's hair behind her ear
It was true though, because that's how he felt when he lost his mom. He is still amazed at how quick he got himself together, but it wasn't a solo effort. He has Blaine to thank that for.
As they got to the double doors, Kurt and Blaine gave Rachel one last comforting hug because they have to part ways when they get to the parking lot.
'Are you sure you can handle driving alone?' assured Blaine who has gotten closer to the trio at this time.
'-Sniff- Yeah –sniff-'. Rachel did a little shake, as if it was just this animate thing that she could easily get rid of. She fixed her bangs and smoothed out her yellow cardigan.
'I can drive you home.' Offered Mercedes
'I appreciate it. I really do but I just want to be alone for a while.' The three were giving her worried looks.
'I'll call you when I get home.' She said as if answering this silent bargain that was going through her friends heads.
'Okay. Just stay away from wine coolers okay.' Said Kurt
All four of them laughed a little at that.
'See you beauties tomorrow.' Said Mercedes as she gave to two boys a little flying kiss and slowly walked away from Rachel and to her car. The two girls did not park too far from each other so she talked to her some more.
'And you.' She said a little louder since the parking lot was almost deserted at this time.
'You can always talk to me, just as long as it's not about Finn though.' She continued, half-joking half-serious.
'I'm so glad we became friends.' Rachel replied, then ran a little towards Mercedes and gave her a tight hug.
'So do I, but girl, you need to ease on your need to get every solo ever invented because if you don't then we might go back to zero.' She said
Rachel merely giggled at her.
'You take care now.' Mercedes said as they broke off.
'You too, I'll call you as soon as I get home.'
They both got in their cars and drove off.
Meanwhile, Blaine and Kurt was a bit silent, both thinking about the performance and the visit they made the day before. Their fingers intertwined, walking slowly to their cars that were parked beside each other. When they got to their cars, they stood in the space between it and stood there a little longer. They both let out a deep sigh.
'It's beautiful.' Said Blaine, finally breaking the silence
'Thanks.' Kurt usually blushed whenever Blaine would say any form of compliment but this one felt so much more than that because Kurt made sure that it was, for her mom. It was an assurance. Kurt felt like Blaine always knew what to say especially in times like this.
Kurt let go of Blaine's hands and hugged him, because he felt like 'Thanks' wasn't enough to show him how much he appreciate everything he's done for Kurt. He's on the brink of tears again, he made a little sniff and Blaine caught it because he tightened the hug and his other hand went to Kurt's head and started caressing it for comfort, to tell him that he's always there for him, always.
They broke apart and Blaine cradled Kurt's face gently in his hands and wiped the tear on Kurt's cheek with his thumb and kissed the spot. Kurt smiled a little and felt a warm sensation on his cheeks. Blaine laughed at the sight of the blushing boy.
'I admire how you can do this to me.' He said as he wrapped his arms on Blaine's waist. This time, Blaine's the one who's looking a bit flustered but did the same so that their faces are inches apart.
'Speak for yourself.' Said Blaine
Then the boys kissed briefly and rested their foreheads on each other.
'So where do you want to go?' Kurt said a lot more cheerful now.
'Hmm. We could just hang out at your place.' He said.
'Are you sure? Don't you want to go Breadstix?' Kurt asked.
'Positive. I don't feel like going anywhere really. And besides, you cook so much better than the people at Breadstix. Plus, Burt can keep an eye on us too.' He winked at Kurt.
Kurt raised an eyebrow.
'You're still trying to make it up to him huh?' Kurt said as he crossed his arms.
'Well yeah, I mean, he found me on your bedroom that morning and we weren't even together then.' He said as he shrugged.
'Fine.' He said as he got into the car. Blaine got in his too and they drove separately to the Hummel-Hudson residence.
Kurt took out his house keys and opened the front door, he got in first then Blaine followed suit. Carole was in the kitchen cooking supper while Burt was in the living room watching a game, Finn was with Quinn again tonight.
'Good Evening.' Blaine said loudly but politely.
'Glad to see you back Blaine.' Said Carole as she approached the two, wiping her hands clean with her apron, Kurt hugged her briefly and planted a soft kiss on her cheek. She pats Kurt's cheek and smiled. Carole then gave Blaine a quick hug and he too kissed her on the cheek. She smiled at Blaine and winked at him, as if saying without words that he need not be shy around her or Burt.
Burt stood up from where he was seated when Kurt went to him and kissed him too on his cheek.
'Hi Dad.'
'Hey there Kiddo.' He paused. 'Blaine' and nodded to Blaine as a sign of welcome. Blaine approached Burt and shook his hand.
'What are you two up to?' he asked Kurt.
'Nothing, just hanging out, no heavy schoolwork whatsoever but I need to help Blaine pick a song for our Glee Club assignment.' He said as he dragged Blaine by the hand and walked up stairs.
'Remember Kurt, you matter.' Said Burt to his son a little louder than he should so that everyone else would hear particularly Blaine
Kurt sighed and said 'Yes dad.' while walking up the stairs.
Kurt opened the door and did not close it all the way so that Burt won't check on them like he always does when he closes the door.
Blaine settled his things at the foot of Kurt's bed. He sat there and his eyes followed wherever Kurt would go. His boyfriend walks fast, he would pace as he does his routine every time he would go home from school. He took his blazer off and hanged it on the chair by his vanity mirror and he took his hands out so that he could take Blaine's jacket and hang it as well. Kurt took off his shoes laid it by the door of his closet. Blaine lazily shook his shoes off and Kurt placed Blaine's shoes by his. After they're both comfortable, Kurt sat opposite Blaine, who was now sitting in Indian position near the edge of his bed and sat in a side-saddle like manner.
Blaine let out a sigh and Kurt caught that there was something Blaine have been meaning to tell him.
Kurt put his hand on the hand of his boyfriend which was fidgeting with his shirt's buttons.
'Hey.' Kurt said softly to calm his slightly nervous boyfriend. Blaine stops fidgeting because Kurt just has that effect on him. It's like he can be the one to bring him back to reality from a bad nightmare and be the one he'd dream of and never want to wake up. It's like he was both reality and fantasy.
'Are you okay? Did you have something you want to tell me?' concern was obvious in Kurt's voice.
'It's the homework we have for Glee Club…' he trailed off. Kurt immediately responded.
'That's why we're here right? I'll help you out.'
'No, it's just. I mean, you talk so highly of your mom and your dad. And I feel like I haven't even let you in my home life. And it's been bothering me.' Blaine's eyes were now fixed on Kurt's, wishing that maybe Kurt would see in his eyes what he's trying to say.
'I know I've told you about how my dad is trying to ignore the fact that I'm gay but I never really talked about my mom to you or even to some of my friends. I can't explain why, I just don't and it upsets me that I don't give my mom the credit she deserves.' Blaine blinked, hoping to control the tears that he can feel coming.
Kurt knew not to respond anymore. It was his turn to listen.
'When I was in my old school, the one I ran away from before I even got to Dalton, I got verbally abused by the other students and I never told my mom because I know she would go overboard. At that time, I could shrug it off but things got out of hand one day when someone who I consider as a friend told that I was gay and that I was trying to get into his pants. He did that because he wanted the attention diverted back to me when people started speculating that he was gay too. He was though. He was just not ready to come out yet, not in our school. One day, just before I even got to the main entrance, my bullies were blocking my way. I knew what was coming. I felt their hate so tangible. I did not dare fight back anymore because I know it'll be pointless. They treated me like trash, like I don't deserve to be treated as human.' Blaine was now staring blankly at the wall and Kurt was near tears.
'They left me there. No one came to my rescue because there was an event at our school and no one was out. It just so happened that my mom went to school because she was the secretary of the PTA and she was going to meet up with the principal. She found me there, all beaten up in the stairs of the main entrance. She held me and she was crying. She told me that whoever did this would be punished. She was furious. Other than the fact that I won't be able to speak even if she did ask, I think she knew even before that I was gay because she never asked why that happened to me. She rushed me to the Emergency Room and she went back to school. Did I mention that she took pictures of me so that she would have evidence to show all the other parents in the PTA. She fought for me Kurt. She even fought with my father, and they never fight. Never. She couldn't believe that my father would let what happened to me go. She was disappointed of him. She was the one who found the way for me to transfer. We both knew that I wasn't safe there anymore. She protected me from those bullies and from my father's silent hate of his only son. It killed her more than it killed me. She was torn. Up until this day, my mom and dad would rarely speak to each other. My mom still loves him, but she won't tolerate my dad avoiding the fact that I am gay. I never got to thank her and it's killing me' Blaine couldn't help it anymore. It was his turn to cry. He was sobbing into Kurt's shoulder, biting his fist.
'You don't have to thank her Blaine. She did it out of love, she loves you Blaine and you don't have to feel like you have to pay her back. She's doing what your father never had the heart to do for his son. You don't have to thank someone for doing something they wholeheartedly did.'
Blaine was still crying.
'But if you really want to thank her, you can do it through a song right?' said Kurt, his hand on Blaine's back, stroking it to sooth the pain he's feeling. Blaine sniffed away his tears and broke off from their hug.
'I already have a song.' He told Kurt, eyes still red from crying.
Kurt set up his video camera and positioned it exactly to where Blaine was seated with a guitar with him.
'Tell me when you're ready.' Kurt said.
Blaine took a deep breath and nodded. Kurt pushed the record button and then Blaine started playing.
It was time for more performance.
Will was in the choir room first and after a few minutes the students came rushing in.
Blaine and Kurt were the last two to settle down.
Kurt took out a CD from his bag and handed it over to Blaine. Blaine took it and Kurt kissed him lightly on the cheek and whispered 'She'll love it.'
Once everyone was settled, Will stood before them and said 'Whoever wants to go ahead, the floor is yours.'
Blaine stood up right ahead but not as eager as how Rachel usually does.
'I'll go first Mr. Schue, if that's alright.'
'Go ahead Blaine. Don't be shy.'
It's his first time to even reveal so much of himself through a song to people who have probably mastered it. He feels like he's invading their turf.
He took a high chair and took his guitar that he left earlier today for this performance.
'When you're ready' Said Will, who was observant to Blaine's shyness
He started playing. After a few notes, he sang along.
I've been beaten down,
I've been kicked around
But she takes it all for me,
And I lost my faith,
In my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She's all I need.
Clair put in the CD Blaine left for her in the kitchen counter that afternoon. It had a note saying 'THANK YOU MOM, FOR EVERYTHING. THIS IS FOR YOU. –B'
Well I had my ways,
They were all in vain,
But she waited patiently.
It was all the same,
All my pride and shame,
And she put me on my feet.
Kurt was so proud of Blaine, the emotions that he put on was not just to have a good performance. It was for something more than that. And it brought Kurt to tears again.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.
And when that world slows down, dear,
And when those stars burn out, here,
Oh she'll be there.
Yes she'll be there.
Clair was smiling and crying at the same time. She's watching her son, her beautiful son who deserves all the love in the world. The moment the video ended, she clicked the REPEAT button. She could listen to it forever.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She's all I need.
Applause came from his new team mates. They congratulated him. He said thanks to everyone but when he finished, he was only looking at Kurt and mouthed 'thanks' to him and Kurt winked in reply.
When Blaine got home that afternoon, Clair welcomed him with a big tight hug. They stood there for a long time and they were both crying.
'I'm so sorry mom that I never got to thank you. I love you so much.' Blaine was crying harder than he did back at Kurt's room.
'Honey' her voice calm and soothing 'I love you too. And you're welcome. But you don't have to thank me dear, that's my job. And I love my doing my job. I would never trade you for anything in this world. I'll fight for you even if it kills me.'
Blaine gave him a worried look.
She laughed a little and said 'Figure of speech honey.'
'And besides what fun would it be if I don't get to see you and Kurt get married one day right?'
They both laughed and hugged some more.