Buffy's POV:
Ever since that night, after Kakistos attacked and me and Faith had sex or fucked in her words we started doing that more. At first it started as taking care of our case of the hornies after most patrols, or at least the ones where the gang did not tag along. After a while I could not lie to myself anymore because it was killing me, so I finally sat her down and told her that if we were gonna keep this up that we had to date, there had to be commitment because it was killing me to see her with other guys... and girls. So now we are secretly dating, but I haven't told her about Angel being back because I know it's gonna strike a nerve for both of us, so I'm keeping Angel a secret from everyone, and I'm also keeping Faith a secret, all this secrecy is a full time job, not to mention I have SAT's coming up soon. Anyway back on track when I see the gang all talking, I walk up to them and smile, "Hey guys," I say cheerily, "What are we talking about?" I ask because all conversation seemed to stop when I reached the table.
"Your new boyfriend that we made up, unless we didn't," said Willow. I had to smile at this because it was so funny the way Willow sounded when she said this, "This is the topic of discussion?" I asked raising an eyebrow. "Well raised, never discussed," came Oz's voice. Oz is Willow's werewolf boyfriend. "So are you dating someone?" asked Cordelia who is Xander' psycho cheer-bitch girlfriend.
I had to stop and think but I made it look like I was trying to keep a secret, which was pretty much what I was trying to do anyway, "I wouldn't call it dating," I say because well generally when you date your friends know about it, "but I am going out with someone, tonight as a mater of fact," I say nodding when my average dark and beautiful date just happens to walk up, "Yo what's up? Time to motervate," said Faith as she put her arm around my neck. "Really we're just good friends," I say but out of the corner of my eye I see her face fall for half a second but she covers it up.
Faith's POV:
That really hurt, I don't get why she doesn't just tell them, I mean they love her and well at least she isn't dating some psycho vampire this time, so they should be happy, right? But of course with Buffy everything is about how you look to others and being gay would totally ruin her somewhat normal innocent girl routine she's got goin on. We walk out of there and she puts a hand on my shoulder when we're a good distance away form everyone, "Hey you ok?" she asked softly, "Yeah B, five by five," I say shrugging. "That's never good Faith," she said in her all knowing voice. "What are you talking about? Five by five is always good, it's great," I say but I know there is no hope. "I just, I don't get why you don't just tell them, it's not like they are gonna shun you. It's the 20th century B, they won't burn you alive. Besides you live in California, do you know the percentage of Californians that are gay is like 50," I ask her, "Trust me no matter where you go in this state you will find at least one gay girl in every city, or town," I say. "I'm sure baby, but I'm just... I need more time," she said. I sighed frustrated, "Fine it's not like I'm goin anywhere," I say to her and keep walking arm in arm until we meet the cemetery where we are supposed to meet Giles at.
Buffy's POV:
So last night was uneventful unless you count the part where watcher-bitch comes in criticizes Giles's training methods and makes it even harder for me and Faith to get in some quality Fuffy time. I really just said that, we are name material now? I must talk to her about this. Anyway I'm gonna have to keep an eye on Faith she looked about ready to stake this Gwendolyn Post woman right n the library and be done with it.
But anyway me and Faith are walking down Main Street on the way back from a patrol when we start a conversation about our past dating history. Faith went first "Ronnie, deadbeat; Steve klepto; Kenny, drummer," she had said, "Finally I had to face up to my destiny a looser magnet, "From then on out it strictly get some get gone, you know until you," she had said with such sincerity it made me want to scream and tell her everything that was happening with me and Angel, that we had almost kissed and everything but I didn't because I knew how much it would hurt her.
I smiled at her and moved closer resting my head on her shoulder, "You know not all guys are bad," I say trying to take up for the good ones in the world... "Really I've read about them," I finish no good male coming to mind. Well unless you count Giles. We chuckle then she asked about me, "You mean me and guys me?" I ask her, she nodded, "Not much to tell," I say shrugging. "Come on you-you boinked the un-dead I mean I've done some very weird people but never the un-dead, what was it like?" she had asked.
I had to stop her, "Look Faith, everything about Angel is still kind of with me," I said, maybe because he came back and I'm secretly seeing him behind your back, "so if you don't mind can we stop talking about him?" I asked her a little bit bitterer than I would have liked.
Faith's POV:
That hit hard, it actually kind of hurt the way she said it, "Yeah sure whatever," I say shrugging like it didn't matter to me at all, "Look we're 0 for 6 tonight, why don't we just blow this off?" I ask needing to be away from Buffy and her pro-Angel attitude for the night. She gave me that look and followed it up by saying, "I don't know Shady Hill is pretty close," but I had to stop her, "B, it's on my way home, I can swing by no biggie," I say shrugging really close to her now. "Alone? Faith I don't want you patrolling alone. I don't want you to get hurt," she had said, "Don't worry B, I'm a big girl. I paroled alone before Sunnydale, I think I can manage one sweep, besides I got Mrs. Pris on my back, I'll be fine. I promise," I say reassuringly as I kiss her softly on the lips before she has a chance to pull away. When she did I sighed and started walking before she could stop me, "Later," I said in my really sexy voice knowing that I'm gonna be in her dreams tonight, maybe she'll have one of those shared dreams guest staring me.
I go through the cemetery get my ass really, really kicked by this really ugly little fucker and now I'm at home with an ice pack on my stomach where I think he broke some ribs.
Buffy's POV:
So we were training, then we stopped and now we are kissing! Wait this isn't supposed to happen, I'm with Faith, not Angel. I can't treat Faith this way, it's wrong, and I love her, but I love him too, but I'm in love with her, but I used to be in love with him. Finally I broke away, "What am I doing?" I asked out loud, "What are you doing?" I asked him incredulously, "I don't know," is all he said, "Shame on you," I said to him but I knew it really should be shame on me, after all he doesn't know about me a Faith. Oh god I think I'm gonna be sick, "I don't even know why I came back here," I say as I start to gather my stuff. "No, wait Buffy, I have what you're looking for," he says to me and I look at him weirdly like 'what the hell are you talking about?' He takes me to this pile of cloth, "Great wherever this was gift-wrapped remind me not to shop there," I quip before he unravels it and reveal a glove, "The Glove of Mhynegon," he said, "The worlds ugliest fashion accessory," I say. When I go to touch it he stops me his hand on mine, "No, don't, once the glove is on, it can never be taken off," he said. "So no touchy, kind of like us, huh?" I ask as I look at our hands touching. Little did I know that Xander was watching everything?
Buffy's POV:
So not to bore you with details I'm gonna get to the point. Giles and everyone except Faith know that Angel is alive. They all confronted me with it and I thought I was about to punch Xander. Giles now hates me, so does Xander and Cordelia, I don't know about Oz, he is like Angel, and Faith when it comes to emotions, and Willow, well there is something goin on with her that she is just not telling me.
Faith's POV:
I WLAK IN THE Bronze and there is Xander lookin all kinds of pissed off so I go over, "Hey, you look pissed," I say. "Rough day," he says, "Yeah? Tell me about it," I say, "I'd rather just shoot," is what comes out of his mouth, "So your little private meeting got you all rowed up?" I ask him. "What do you know about the meeting?" he asked. "Nothing, just you know more about the glove than your letting on," I say shrugging. "Ah the glove, sorry but wanna hit at some real news? How about Angel is alive," he says and my fists clench, my stomach hardens and anger is pumping through my veins at top speed.
"The vampire," I state through clenched teeth. "Yep, back in town, saw him myself," he said. "Totin the all famous glove." He states and that just feeds my anger, "Angel. Guy like that, that kind of glove could kill a whole mess of people," I say. "Funny how I said that to Buffy and she didn't seem to care, all she cared about was sucking his face. Wait you mean Buffy knows? I can't believe her! She knows and she didn't tell m-us?" I said gripping the pool table till I felt it crack and the wood pieces start to break through my skin. "She says he's clean," he said. "I say we can't afford to find out. I say we stop him before he hurts anyone, I say I slay," she said, "Can I come?" her asked and I couldn't deny him the opportunity to see this. The whole way to his place I'm thinking about Buffy, about if our relationship is over because this really pisses me off. I mean the whole secret thing, I can handle that. But I can't handle this, I can't handle her lying to me, she could have at least told me. But no she was to busy kissing him which is the thing that really bugs me about the whole thing more than her keeping him a secret, it's her cheating. It's fine when she does it, but it's just the biggest sin ever when I do it.
Faith's POV:
I run in the mansion to find him attacking Mrs.Post. God I'm going to enjoy killing this bastard. Even if I die trying. "I can't believe how much I'm gonna kill you," I say to him when he realizes I'm there. "Your not getting that glove," he tells me but you know me, I'm stubborn and I start attacking him. Finally I flip him over the couch and knock him out. I pull my stake out and right before it touches his skin Buffy stops me, "What the fuck?" I ask as she throws me off of him.
Buffy's POV:
"I can't let you do it Faith," I say knowing that this must be hard for her but I still can't let her kill Angel, he is good, I know it. "Your confused baby, let me clear you up," she said, "vampire," she said pointing the stake at Angel, "slayer," she said pointing it at herself, "dead vampire," she said again. "There is a lot that you don't understand," I say trying to reason with her when Post cuts in and starts saying how I'm blinded by love. When I look at Faith her face shows nothing but her eyes give everything away. She's scared, she's hurt, she's pissed off, and she's in love whether she knows it or not. And she's in love with me, which is why she is scared of loosing me, she's hurt because I lied to her, and she is pissed because I'm protecting him. She may not be able to admit it to herself but she is in love. "Faith no," I say but it's too late I see her leg coming at me but I'm to shocked to stop it. So we start fighting and finally she has me in a head lock. I bend one of her fingers back till I hear a small pop. I know I popped it out of place so I let go, "Oh shit, you fucking ho," I hear her scream as she holds her finger and pops it back in place. God I'm so sorry, and I know I'm gonna so pay for that later. I don't say that though I just keep fighting until we both throw ourselves through the glass doors and hit the ground. We pop up and I look into her eyes again hoping she would stop this before we really hurt each other, but all I see there is anger, there is no love anymore, just anger. Of course there would be no love in my eyes either if she had just popped my finger out of place, that was her good hand too, even if we do make up, the make up sex that comes along with the making up will have to wait because I broke her hand kind of.
Xander comes in trying to stop us from fighting but she picks him up and throws him across the room. Now I'm mad because you can beat the hell out of me but don't mess with me friends. But I didn't have time because Mrs. Post had the glove and was reeking havoc, "Can you draw her fire?" I ask Faith, "Yeah," she said not really looking at me, "Then do it," I say. She does it well and I pick up a piece of glass and when she stopped moving I threw it at the watchers arm slicing it off and watching the lightning hit her and burn her from the inside out. We all stand quiet in a little circle before Faith walks out without a word to any of us. I decided to give her the night to cool off before I go talk to her.
Faith's POV:
I'm sittin on my bed reflecting over the ass beating I got last night, also over whether or not me and Buffy are through or not. I really hope not, but then again, I never felt this kind of pain before her, when it get some get gone, I never felt the pain of betrayal. I'm getting the tingles and I hear a nock. I now it's her so I say "Come in," and she does. "Hey," she said to me but I don't answer I just look away at anything but her. "You ok?" she asked me. She had the nerve to ask me if I was ok after what happened. After my girlfriend just spent the majority of the night kicking my ass to save her ex, and she wants to ask me is I'm fucking ok. There is no word for the anger that just came into me. I stand up to face her, "Am I ok? Am I ok with the fact that you kept Angel a secret? You know I would have been fine with it if you would have told me, at least me. I deserve to fucking know ok. I know I'm not fucking perfect, and I know I don't deserve a lot of things, but I deserved to know that Angel was here, that he was at least alive. But no you had to go beyond keeping him a secret, you had to sneak away to see him. You lied to me about having your mom pull you this way and that, about having Giles schedule you in when your mom didn't have you with her, but you were really with Angel, doing god knows what. But then you went farther than just sneaking off to see him, you were kissing him? How come its ok for you to screw around on me but its just a fucking sin for me to do it to you. You have the nerve to ask me how I am after you spent most of last night kicking my ass to save his. I can't-I can't even begin to deal with this right now," I say turning to face the wall so I can calm down and not hit her. I don't want to turn into my mother or my step fathers, or even my father and start beating on her, even though that's practically what we did last night.
"Baby please let me explain," she said in her pleading voice that she knows I can't fight again.
I turn to her still mad as hell but my arms are folded my hand flexing from where my finger still hurt, "Fine. By all means explain to me," I said pointing to a spot on the bed for her to sit down on. "Explain to me why you felt compelled to lie to me about everything. Why you think we should even remotely be friends anymore let alone together in another more intimate way," I said, "Enlighten me, please," I ask. her.
Buffy's POV:
Ok so she is a little mad. Ok more than a little, a lot and who could blame her but she is making me feel really small at how loud she is getting. When she finally stops the yelling I sigh, "Look Faith," I say as I sat down beside her putting a hand on her leg. She flinched and pulled away and it hurt me more than words could say, "I know what I did was wrong. I know it hurt you, and I'm so, so sorry. You know I would never intentionally hurt you. I love you," I said before I could stop myself. She looks like deer caught in headlights. "I know that's a lot coming from the person who you can stand, who spent last night kicking your ass and breaking your fingers," she said watching her flex her hand. "But I do. And I get you have trouble with saying that you love people, and I don't expect you to say it back any time soon. Heck I wouldn't blame you if you never said it after what happened last night but I'm asking you to think it over. I want to be with you, not him. I was confused when I kissed him. I am in love with you, but I was in love with him. I know that it's you I want. If I could do it over I would pick you any day of the week, any time, day or night," I say. "I want to spend the rest of my life with you, there is nothing that would make me happier," I say but when she stays quiet I sigh, "So please think it over and don't give up on us because I made a mistake," I say.
Faith's POV:
"Buffy," I say when she was finished. "I'm not saying that we are cool. We are no where near it, but you think you could stay here? I know you have school and all but just let me hold you? If I don't have you forever maybe I could just have you today?" I ask and she looks at me sadly, "You have me forever and for always," she said as she snuggled into me again like old times. I know there is a lot to work out, but I think we are going to be ok.