Olivia sat her desk thinking about how just last night Tucker had screwed her on the hood of his car. Olivia did admit that the sex was good but it was never her intention to start an affair. It was blackmail. After a one night stand with the IAB agent he had basically threatened to tell her squad if he couldn't see her again. So she said what the hell in fear of having everyone know. She was a sergeant now, with a win-win the last thing she wanted was the NYPD calling her a whore who probably spread her legs to stay on IAB's good side.

She sighed and leaned back in her chair. Tucker had left three bruises on her back. She was actually surprised a man his age could move the way he could. Plus he had ruined three of her shirts. She even put a hole in his wall when she snatched off a picture when he was eating her out against his hallway wall.

Olivia jumped when her phone ring, immediately answering it without seeing the I.D. "Sergeant Benson,"

"Hello Olivia,"Alexandra Cabot said on the other end. "It's great hearing that husky voice,"

Olivia blushed immediately. Olivia definitely wasn't attracted to women,but when it came to Alex-there was something there. But Olivia was definitely upset with her, for leaving in and out of her life. She didn't trust Alex, she stopped trusting her a long time ago.

"Is there something you need counselor,I have work to do," Olivia sighed impatiently.

In her office Alex was glad Olivia couldn't see the hurt on her features. "Uh...yeah, do you want to grab coffee at your favorites?"

"I don't know...I kind have a job," Olivia knew she was being a bitch, but she was exhausted and didn't have time for to argue with Alex.

"Please Olivia," Alex said.

Olivia bit her lip, feeling sorry when she heard the desperation in the blonde's voice."Okay,Okay. I'll be there at three,"

"Thank you, Olivia,"

"Yeah," Olivia hung up, looking back down at her now black screen.

-SVU-SVU-SVU

Olivia walked in the busy coffee shop seeing Alex sitting at a booth. She looked sublime, as she always did. With a tight blue dress that hugged her thin body. Those long pale legs nearly made Olivia pass out. All Olivia wanted to do was touch them. Those glasses also was a turn on, when Alex returned from witness protection she didn't really wear them. Olivia was devastated knowing the counselor got contacts, she was frustrated knowing Alex had changed. Olivia blushed again when Alex turned waving at her, Olivia knew she had been caught staring.

If there was one thing Alex Cabot loved, it was staring at Olivia Benson. At first she had thought the detective..wait...Sergeant, was gay. With the short hair ,deep voice, and the lustful looks she clearly gave Alex. Alex was devastated when she found out Olivia was straight. Alex herself was bisexual but preferred women. But Olivia could make any straight woman turn to the other gender. Alex watched that strut, her slender hips moving in those tight jeans. God, she was going to kill her. And those breast...Benson's breast always received a wondering eye from anyone.

Olivia stood above Alex for a few seconds before sitting in the booth across from her. Alex gave Olivia a smile that made her heart sore. Olivia bit her bottom lip only nodding-that made Alex's drop.

"So counselor...why am I here?" Olivia asked. She raised an eyebrow as a cup of coffee sat in front of her.

"It's French vanilla, just like you like it," Alex said proudly.

Olivia looked shocked but finally said,"Thank you,"

"Olivia...I know that you've lost faith in me," Alex started. "But I want you to trust me again, I want us to be friends, like we use to,"

"So do I," Olivia blurted. Once she realized what she did she shyly looked down in her coffee. She started to drink some to keep her from talking.

"No Olivia it's more than that...I don't want to be friends," Olivia looked hurt but Alex smiled and kept going. "I want...more than that,"

Olivia started to choke on her coffee, sending worried eyes thier way. Olivia raised her hand once she caught her breath, red from choking and embarrassment. "I'm fine,"

Everyone made sure she was okay before going back to their business. Olivia looked Alex, meeting those blue eyes. "Alex I'm I'm...str-"

"Straight...I know," Alex said sadly. "We can just be friends that itself would make me happy. I want you in my life, even if you chose how you want me in yours,"

"Alex I have a son...I can't have people walking out on him. Plus I've been hurt so many times even...even...,"

By you, Alex

Alex smiled sadly, understanding exactly what she was saying. "I know Olivia and...I'm so sorry. But I do need you in my life and I want you so much, more than you can ever know. I would never do anything to hurt you or your son, Olivia. I want to treat you...like a queen. My queen,"

Olivia began to speak again," Alex I'm straight...but I'm willing to try. It's been a long time...and...I've never been with a woman. And I'm done being hurt,"

Alex knew she was being rejected. Yet she was surprised when Olivia reached over and touched the hand she had on her coffee cup. "But that doesn't mean I'm not ready to try," Olivia said smiling.

"I want you so much, Olivia," Alex said. Olivia was about to say something until her phone began to vibrate. She looked at the text she was sent and saw it.

I need you in my office- Tucker

"I have to go," Olivia told Alex sadly. She wanted this thing with Alex to work and she knew she had to end this affair with Tucker.

When Olivia got up Alex grabbed her arm. "Olivia please...Come by my home tonight,"

"You asking me out on a date counselor?" Olivia teased. This time it was Alex turn to blush.

"Yes...please?"

"I'll be there," Olivia said. She paused for a minute before bending over to kiss Alex softly on the cheek. Then she brushed her lips against her ear. "I always knew your skin was soft,"

Olivia walked behind Tucker through the IAB office, with a straight face. There was barely anyone in and Olivia saw his office blinds were already closed.

Olivia swallowed the lump in her throat when Tucker opened the door to his office. She walked in, closing the door behind her. Tucker turned around to look at the beauty that stood in front of him. He knew he loved her, that he had to have her in his life. He locked the door walking towards her.

He began to kiss her neck, right on her pulse. He took pleasure in hearing her moan, knowing he caused it. "You have to be quiet Benson,"he breathed against her skin, causing another moan. "You can't let them know what we're doing,"

Olivia bit her lip, knowing what he brought. Ed was somewhat kinky, using all types of toys on her. Olivia had objected at first but being blackmailed she had no choice. She actually found it quite sexy when he used toys on her while she was being dominated. Olivia felt disgusted but at the same time aroused. He never hurt her but he did painfully slap her on the ass sometimes.

He pulled out a gag, holding it to those pouty lips. She opened her mouth letting him tie it around her head. He had her clothes off soon, leaving her badge around her neck. He laid her on the leather couch, licking her nipple.

"You're mine right Benson?" He said. He licked the other nipple chuckling as she lifted her hips.

She frantically nodded, moaning at the same time. "Good girl," Tucker said.