A new day
"Hold on.. can get through this..come on cant leave me not yet.. I. just not yet. Please.."
"Come on Stevie you know as well as I do there's no happy ending for the both of us. If I hold on any longer it will kill us both. I'm sorry my love."
With that he let his hand slipped from my grasp and he was falling and there was nothing I could do to stop what I knew was coming when he fell so far I couldn't see him.
"Buck"
"Buck"
"BUCK"
I lurched up in bed violently, breathing hard and sweating profusely. My heart was going a million miles a minuet. It was the same dream I had been having for the last six months and they have only gotten worse since being discharged. In a matter of months my life had changed dramatically. I went from being a caption in the armed forces and being with the man I loved, to being discharged do to PTSD, single, and an owner of a small bakery that I named "Americas baked goods".
So I guess you could say that it's not all that bad. The army helped me become the man I am today. I went from scrawny little Steve to a 6'4, 250pound muscle machine. The army had given me so much so when they discharged me I had no idea what to do with my life. The army was all I had I wanted to do since I was a kid but now I had to find some thing else to do. I remember my mom had always wanted her own bakery growing up. She had tot me all she knew, but when she died last year her dream became obsolete. With all the money I had save up being an officer I decided to open a bakery in her memory. That way I had a job that I loved doing and my mom continued to live through all the people that came to Americas baked goods.
The dream had shaken me so much that going back t sleep was not an option, so the only thing I could do was get up and go for a run. Maybe it would clear my head but really I think the only thing I really was hoping for was that if I got far enough from the city I could find a place that I could be with Bucky in memory. But no matter were I went or how far away I got the only place I felt him was in my nightmares when he slips from my hands.
My run took me through central park. It was still super early and not many people were out just yet so I plenty of time before people would be up and at the bakery door wanting any thing. I ran for about an hour maybe two at the most before heading home to take a long hot shower were I let the water roll down my aching body. I looked down between my legs at my poor member. I hadn't had the erg to even pleaser myself since buck died. I dowte I will ever find some one like him again. Some one I can care about as much as I cared about him. I'm going to die a virgin. I'm sure of it.
I washed myself then got out and put on my work clothes. After getting dressed I headed down the stairs to the bakery. I unlocked the bakery doors and switched the sing from closed to open before heading behind the counter and stocking my selves full of fresh backed goods. The door dinged and I looked up to see my favorite costumer.
"Good morning Mrs. Potts what can I get for you today? The same as always?" I said heading to the Coffey machine
"Steve how many times do I need to tell you it pepper? And yea same Coffey order. Same three muffins and as always surprise me with some thing new." She said with a smile
"So how's that crazy boss of yours, he still making you do all his work for him?" I asked making small talk
"Same stuff different day you know what its like. Lucky for you, you get to be your own boss and not have to worry about the one you work for." she said digging in her purse
"You say lucky I say stressful. It's only me around here. He's lucky to have a worker like you that cares so much."
"If it's so stressful why don't you heir some one to help you out around here?"
"And risk all my secret recipes being sold off my strangers I think not." I said playfully "Any way I do just fine on my own. Now I have one black Coffey, one cappuccino, three greasy monkeys, and two mystery muffins. Will that be all for you."
"Thank you Steve you know you just made my day so much better. My boss is always cranky when he doesn't get one of your muffins. How much do I owe you today." She said as she stared to count out money
"$15.50"
"Here you go"
"Thank you. We still on for lunch this afternoon?"
"Of course ill see ya then. Bye" and with a wave of my hand she left
All morning I was full of people coming and going. Then by 11:30 pepper stopped back in with to fast food bags. Pepper was the only friend I had managed to make so far. We had lunch together at lest once a week and those were one of the few moments were I didn't think of Bucky and want to break down. Flipping the open sing to be back in a few I sat down at one of the few tables I had on the opposite side of her and grabbed a burger.
"what kinda muffiens did you give me this morining. they were so good and deffinetly my new favorite."she said grabing a burger of her own
"first off you say that about every muffien i give you and second cherry swirl." i replyed bitting into my burger she gave me one of those go to hell looks before rolling her eyes at me then started to eat before she put her food down wiping her mouth like she had good news.
"So I have good news." She stated with a smile
"Yea what?"
"I get to go to France. Well really its for a business conference that my boss doesn't want to go on so I'm going in his sted." She said
"that sounds great so what's the office going to do with you gone and him un able to get his grease monkey muffins every day?"I asked taking another bite of my burger
"well the way I see it he'll ether find a way to live with out them for a week or he'll get up and come get them him self."
"oh lucky me I will get to meet my best costumer."I said letting out a laugh "when do you leave?"
"tomorrow morning"
(please some one tell me what you think so far)