Baby doll gone wrong

Chapter 2 : before I knew it

Time started to pass by so fast, and I didn't feel a thing. For once I didn't have to think about Edward, and that was the best feeling in the world. I wanted it to last forever, but in the back of my mind I knew it wouldn't. Everything felt so right, but at the same time wrong. Claire came over to me after having some shots of Mad Dog with a smile. "So how do you like it?" she said with her words a bit slurred.

"Great, everything feels perfect" I said with a smile. She laughed and dragged me up and to the kitchen where everyone else was. Melissa was running around looking for food, and that's when I noticed I had the urge to eat, and eat a lot. "Wow I am so hungry." I said sounding like I haven't eaten in days.

Melissa came bouncing up to me, "Munchies time!!" I laughed not really knowing what she meant, but I followed her anyway. Some of the boys joined in with us while getting cereal and brownies. I started to feel numb and before I knew it everything went back into place. I couldn't describe it, but I knew that I wasn't high anymore. I was off the trip I was on and it came back to me that I could feel. I didn't like to feel ; I didn't want it, and before I knew it I was craving to be high again. I guess everyone else felt the same way because we smoked some more. For a second everything stood still, and in that second I was able to think about my life. It was as if I relived everything that happened in a second. My whole stupid existence.

I sat back and watched everybody. Somehow I still couldn't imagine that I was here. Doing what I was doing, why was I doing this again? I thought to my self. I was hallow and I thought I would hear my own thoughts bouncing all around my body. I was the weirdest experience ever. I shut my self off and was lost inside my own head. In my head everything was right with the world Edward didn't leave, and I was picturing how my life would have been.

We bought a whole lot of stuff from them, and then we left. We were laughing and sometimes I forgot I was driving, but I somehow was sober enough to were I was able to drop them off and drive my self home. When I pulled into the drive way I saw my dad waiting for me on the front porch. O shit was the only thing that went though my mind. Here I was fucked up and my dad was waiting for me. Not only that but he was a cop; the people that bust others for doing drugs and all of that. Thank lord Claire gave me perfume before we left, but I didn't know if it could out do the weed, cigarette, and alcohol smell off me.

"Hey dad" I said as I opened the door and shut it. I was so fucked cause I stumped out of my truck, but he didn't seam to notice.

"Where were you?" He asked in a serious tone. I tried so hard not to laugh because his face was all moving in a circular way and his face was multicolored. I never knew that I was missing out on so much in my life.

"I was hanging out with some friends." He looked at me and smiled. He looked relieved for a second, but then his serious face came back on.

"That's good, but next time could you be home before 12." I swear it was 11, it had to be.

"What time is it?" I asked

"1:30" Holy crap cakes, where did all my time go.

"Shit I am so sorry dad; I didn't mean it." He looked at me and I noticed that what I said didn't make sense. "I mean that I didn't know the time could fly by so fast. I promise to be home earlier." I said with a fake smile. If he didn't noticed something was up her was rather the dumbest cop ever, or in denial. He nodded and I ran up the stairs; I didn't really want to be stuck talking to him while I was in this state. I got to my bed and quickly fell asleep while I was trying to forget about hands that used to be around me as I did. The hands that would save me time and time again. I had tears slowing sliding down my cheeks, but I refused to wipe them.

Ok that was a little short, but that's cause I started to write more and then I was all that should be in the next chapter so I can make that one even longer. This is more of a wrap up of the first chapter. So I hope you like. O and Mad Dog is a alcoholic drink, in case you didn't know. A good one at that!