Disclaimer: I don't own Girl Meets World or anything else except the idea for this story.
Summery: Week two and SHE has gotten a lot worse.
Warning: This story is rated T for bullying triggers. The messages the bully sends are not nice at all. The language in this chapter is a little stronger as the bully gets braver. Warnings for depression as well as small hints of self harm. If you or someone you know is being bullied or this subject is sensitive to you, I urge you to read with caution. Also, know that you are not alone.
Note: Thank you for the reviews on this I hope you enjoy the last chapter. This chapter has a lot of sexual innuendos and contains the word "Bitch" just to warn you.
XOXOX
(Day 7)
By sunrise Monday morning, Riley wanted nothing more than to lay in bed and never get up. From Friday night till then, her phone kept going off and off with messages from her least favorite person...her bully.
The messages ranged of course, SHE couldn't just keep saying the same things over and over again. SHE brought up topics from her long, stringy, brown hair; styled the same way since she was seven years old to her parents, her brother, her friendships, everything and anything in between.
The only time she's gotten peace this weekend was Sunday afternoon; apparently SHE is a religious girl.
*Bing*
(Talk to you later skank; have to go to church. I'd pray for you but even God wouldn't grant you any mercy)
"Even God wouldn't grant you any mercy" The parting words from HER rang through her mind the rest of the day.
Maybe that was true. Maybe she wouldn't get any mercy from anyone, even God. Maybe it was just her destiny to be bullied and teased the rest of her life because she was too nice; too naive to defend herself. Would it be better for her to become more like Maya; tough and fearless, even if it meant being untrue to herself? The thought hurt her heart more than she was willing to admit.
Her phone made it's familiar noise making her heart start thumping so loudly, she was sure Auggie could hear it in his room.
*Bing*
(Wake up little slut. Unfortunately it's time for you to get ready for school and grace us with your disgusting presence)
Her insults have gotten worse since Friday. SHE started calling her a tease, slut, skank, and even worse. Apparently, she's being sending signals to Farkle and Zay as well as Lucas. She was desperate for attention and everyone was too embarrassed for her to flat out reject her because they knew she would make a big deal about it and no one wanted to deal with her more than necessary.
She walks to her closet and puts on her teal printed high waist pants with suspenders and a black short sleeved shirt. She would have wore her baggy sweater to hide her growing body but it was starting to get too warm out.
She walks into her kitchen with a nervous frown and sits in her usual seat without a word.
"Morning Riley." Her mom mumbles as she stirs the oatmeal on the stove.
"Morning." She mutters back uncomfortably as she remembers a message she received Friday night.
(Your mom seems to care more about Maya than you. What a shock...NOT).
A big part of her wishes her mom could see something was seriously wrong with her. Her mom was always so smart and perceptive, especially when Maya was going through something. Why can't her mom see how much pain she is in now?!
"Here's your breakfast, I have to run to the office early today and I have a meeting tonight so I won't be home till around six. Can you make sure you clean the kitchen before I get home?" Topanga asks her daughter as she places her bowl of oatmeal in front of her and then putting two more down. One for Auggie, one for Maya,
Riley gives a small smile and nods her head.
"Sure." She answers her mother and she can see her nod satisfied as she gathers her things.
"See you tonight! Tell Auggie I love him." She says before rushing to the door. She opens it just as Maya was about to walk in.
"Oh hi Maya. I have to run but I'll see you tonight sweetie. Love you." Topanga says kissing Maya on top of her head before rushing out the door.
Maya bounces towards the kitchen table and starts digging into her food.
Riley can't help but notice that her mom, her own mother said I love you to Auggie and Maya...but not to her.
She takes a bite of oatmeal and it taste like ashes.
XOXOX
During History, she sees HER stalk past her classroom like a lion stalking her prey and she can't help but dig her nails into her arm to keep the tears from falling.
*Bing*
(God can't you wear something a little less see through, I can see you flab from out here!)
She changes into her long sleeved white shirt that she had in her locker right after, despite the fact that it was almost 75 degrees outside and she was sweating like a pig by the end of the day.
All day she watched her group of friends laugh and joke around with each other and wishes she could be happy again.
*Bing*
(They all talk shit about you when your not around. They think you are a dopey little loser)
She bites her bottom lip so hard that she can feel it start to bleed.
*Bing*
(You're a nothing Riley. Do us all a favor and get out of everyone's way or I'm going to shove my foot in your weird stupid face!)
She goes through the motions at school, not paying attention to what her lessons her teachers were trying to teach her. It didn't matter, everyone thought she was an idiot anyway.
She sees HER right before last period, where SHE rammed right into her almost knocking her on her butt.
"Watch where you're going." She yells, making Riley flinch.
"Stuck in Riley Town again Riles. You gotta be careful." Maya teases her friend before taking her arm and leading her to their last period.
*Bing*
(Maya makes fun of you right to your face and you still call her your best friend! That's hysterical.)
As soon as school gets out, Riley runs home and locks herself in her room until dinner. When she finally gets out her flinches when her mom teases her that she forgot to clean the kitchen.
Riley stands up halfway during dinner, hoping someone will follow her.
But no one does.
*Bing*
(You're such a screw up. A plain ugly sight)
XOXOX
(Day 8)
*Bing*
(You know maybe if you give Lucas or Farkle or Zay more than a smile, maybe they'd be interested in you. You're so desperate you'd do ANYTHING to have them like you)
That was the message that she woke up to on Tuesday morning after a night of nightmares. She was afraid to fall a sleep but what was worse was she hated being awake.
Despite what people thought; the implication of her morning message was not lost on her. However, she had no energy to think about how sexist and wrong it was.
She stares into her closet and wants nothing more than to put on her new purple shorts but she knows that will only lead to her getting a message about how fat her thighs are or how she was wearing something so short so Lucas would like her.
It just wasn't worth it.
She throws on a pair of light jeans and a baggy Tshirt and throws her hair in a pony tail.
There she can't get too much ridicule for this outfit can she?
*Ding*
(Steal that outfit from Charlie Gardner? We all know he wants more than a peck on the lips from you and I bet you gave it to him you hoe).
"Are you okay Riley, you seem a little off?" She hears Lucas ask her and she gives him a small smile.
"Yeah I'm okay Lucas. Thanks for asking." She says and he gives her a look of confusion but drops the subject.
Lucas can never know. He would only pity her and if there's one thing she's learned about this whole experience is that she would rather be alone than be pitied. Pity was usually fake anyway.
Lucas would never understand anyway. The only one that would is Farkle, since he was bullied before last year but Billy wasn't as persistent as SHE is. She knows Farkle would understand but he would tell everyone and that was something Riley couldn't handle.
(Day 9)
Wednesday when her and the rest of the gang all get to art class, their teacher Miss Kossal told them to paint how they were feeling without using words. As she was explaining some examples of how this could be done and what techniques to use, she took a big bottle of purple and placed it in front of Riley's desk.
"Try not to use it all." Miss Kossal says mockingly and Riley stares at the bottle blankly before looking over at HER. SHE was smirking at her because it was obvious that Miss Kossal didn't like her and never would. She admired the woman because she's helped Maya find her true calling as an artist but she never understood why the teacher never liked her. She personally thought her bowl of Lucas drawing was pretty good.
"I actually don't need that." Riley mutters to her least favorite teacher before handing the bottle back to her.
Maya looks over at Lucas who looked just as confused as everyone else. Riley always uses the purple paint. It was actually the only color she would use.
Riley stood up and grabbed the midnight blue, the black, the white, the yellow, and the red.
She spent the rest of the period trying to put a picture together of how she was feeling. She could feel the stares of her friends but for once she paid them no attention. She had to get this all out.
*Bing*
She stopped for a second when her phone goes off. She looks over at HER and can see the evil grin on her face but once again she goes back to her work.
She'll read the message when class is done.
Right before the period was going to end, she hears her teacher approach her and Maya's table.
"You know Riley, I really thought you were on the brink of something. A multicolored cat isn't a feeling. You should really rethink taking art when you get to high school." Miss Kossal shakes her head in disappointment before she goes to Maya's painting and starts praising it.
"Just when I thought you couldn't get better Maya, you shock me! This is amazing! You can really see how much of a struggle you've been having in your life. Wow, I think we can use this in one of our shows." She can hear but the words echo through her ears as her body turns numb.
When the bell rings she looks at her abstract painting of a female body curled in a fetal position. She guesses she can understand why Miss Kossal would be so quick to dismiss her work. She's been making purple cats in her class ever since Maya saw all the drawings she had of Lucas.
Maya takes a look at her painting and stares at it for a couple minutes.
"Riles...this is a cat isn't it?" She asks her hesitantly.
"What else would it be?" Riley asks her, hoping that her best friend could see the message in her work. Maya could always read art better than anyone she knew; she just hopes she could read Riley just as well.
"Well it kind of looks like...it's almost like it's a..." Maya stutters before looking at her friend worried for another minute.
While she waits for her Peaches to find the words she finally looks at her phone.
(No one loves you Riley. You're worthless, you're nothing. No one will ever want you. No one even defends you when Kossal treats you like the idiot you are)
She looks up from her phone and sees Maya still looking at her painting. It was true. Miss Kossal was never nice to her but because she was her teacher, Riley was always respectful. However, she wishes Maya or Lucas or anyone really would defend her.
"It's a cat Maya. You don't have to try and make it into something deeper. We both know you're the artist; I'm just the girl who loves cats." Riley gives her fake smile and puts her arm around her friend.
Maya breaths in a sigh of relief.
"It's so weird for a minute I thought it was painting of a girl crying." She laughs as they start to walk out of the art room.
Riley's heart stops when SHE bumps her shoulder into hers roughly when Maya wasn't looking.
"That's silly, why would I paint something like that?" She says emotionless.
"You're so right! I mean you have the perfect life Riley and you even have your own Riley Town! You have no reason to be sad." Maya laughs again and Riley has never felt this anger towards her friend before.
"Yeah I don't have a leaky roof and an absent dad so my life must be a dream." She mutters angrily.
"Hmm, what did you say Riles?" She asked her distractedly.
"Nothing." She says simply before walking a head of Maya towards their next class.
Maya used to say she would always defend her but she's let her favorite teacher treat her like a nothing for over a year.
XOXOX
(Day 10)
After her usual morning message, Riley actually left her phone at home. She didn't even realize it until she didn't hear the familiar *Bing* during or after first period.
"What's wrong Riley?" Zay asked her a little concerned.
"I forgot my phone at home." She tells him in amazement. Wow, maybe she should have just left her phone at home this whole time.
Zay laughs as he wraps his arm around Riley.
"I know how you feel baby girl, I feel lost without mine too." he jokes and she laughs along with him. Probably for the first time in almost two weeks she is laughing.
"No, it's not that. I can live without my phone." She says and he nods.
"Of course you can, when you're with us, you don't need that thing." He says warmly and Riley can feel her defenses she's had up all week slipping.
Maybe she will just leave her phone at home every day so SHE can't get to her.
"Just tell your dad to text one of us if he needs you. You're going to Topanga's after school right? I feel like we haven't seen you all week." Farkle pipes in and Riley gives a bright smile.
"Yeah I know what you mean! I'll definitely be there." She smiles and walks with them to their next class.
She felt like she was on cloud nine. Why didn't she think of this before?! Leave her phone at home! It was genius!
She spent most of the day talking with Lucas and the rest of the gang like she used to. When she saw HER in the halls, she did her best to ignore her. She felt amazing and she was going to make this feeling last as long as she could!
"Hey Riley, I know usually Maya does this, but I was wondering if I could walk you home after Topanga's tonight? Maybe stop to get some ice cream?" He asks her giving her this look that makes her heart melt.
"I...I'd really like that." She smiles brightly.
"You know...that's the first real smile I've seen from you in a while." He comments and she looks at him trying to look confused.
"What do you mean? I'm Smiley Riley, eternal ray of sunshine." She jokes halfheartedly which makes him frown.
"You know Riley...you don't have to pretend with me." He says softly and Riley wanted nothing more than to tell him everything.
Unfortunately, SHE took that opportunity to show up and mouth "No one loves you Riley." .
Riley looks away from HER and sees Lucas looking at her a little worried.
"I know I don't Lucas. I've just been in a little funk." She says and he nods understandingly before he hesitantly wraps his arm around her shoulder.
"We all have those moments." He comments.
All of a sudden her father pops out from his class room and glares at Lucas.
"YOU! ARM. OFF. SHOULDER. NOW!" He says in his most intimidating voice making Lucas immediately drop his arm.
"Good!" Corey smiles at his own success and was about to go to his class.
"Wait dad! I left my phone at home, if you need me text one of the gang." She tells him and he nods in understanding before he goes back into his class.
"Sorry about him." She says embarrassed and he laughs.
"Don't worry about it. I'm just glad he didn't steal my shoe." He jokes which makes her laugh.
"Yeah but I gave most of them back." She comments.
"All except one." He points out and she turns red, not wanting to tell him she keeps it so his presence is always in her room. He makes her feel safe.
"I don't know what your talking about." She says but he could see the smirk she was trying to hold in so he doesn't say anything.
The rest of the day was the greatest she's had since the first *Bing* last Monday. The only thing that stopped it from being a perfect day was the few times she ran into HER. SHE tried to shove her a couple times but she was always at least one of her friends.
At Topanga's, her and the rest of the gang, including Smackle, did their homework and just hung out together. Katy was working and helped the kids to some sweet treats while talking to her daughter.
"Hey so when we get to your house Riles, do you want to watch a movie?" Maya asked her and Riley stopped smiling before looking over at Lucas.
"I'm so sorry I forgot to tell you. Lucas asked to walk me home after we get some ice cream. Rain check?" She asked her friend and she sees Maya's face fall.
"Oh you guys have a...a date?" She asks in a small voice looking at Lucas longer making Riley's heart sink.
Why did she look at Lucas like that?
"Oh no, we just want to hang out a little longer." Lucas answered laughing nervously as he scratched the back of his head.
Riley looked between the two of them in confusion until she hears a familiar laughter. She whips her head around to see HER sitting the back of bakery with one of HER friends but she was looking at her; laughing at what was happening right in front of her.
How long has she been here?
She slowly turns her head away from HER and looks back at her friends.
"Are you ready to go?" Riley asks Lucas and he nods before he grabs their stuff.
During their time in the ice cream shop, Riley couldn't help but think about the exchange between two of the most important people in her life. Was something going on that she didn't know about? Was SHE right this whole time?
"I'm sorry if Maya is mad at you." He says and she gives him a shrug and a half smile.
"It's okay. She doesn't like to share sometimes."
"Only child problem." He jokes and she gives a real laugh.
"Yeah I guess you're right."
When they get to her building she gives him a tight hug.
"Thank you." She mumbles into his neck until they unfortunately break a part.
"For what?" He had to ask.
"For being you." She answers before she walks inside.
After greeting her family she makes her way to her room and sees her phone laying innocently on her bed.
With shaking hands, she opens her phone to see no less than 37 text messages, 32 of them being from HER.
(You're so stupid looking. Wear make up to cover that ugly face)
(Heard you left your phone at home. Shame but I know you'll be thinking of me. I'll make sure of that)
(You know why I hate you? Because you exist, you exist and your weird, and you get in my way, so stop being weird and stop being happy)
(No one should be as happy as you. Get the hell out of Riley Town and face the real world before I put my foot where the sun doesn't shine)
(Flirting with Zay AND Farkle in front of the whole school?! Wow you must give it to them good)
(Maya and Lucas are totally going to be a thing. She is so much hotter than you. Well anyone is hotter than you but I heard they made hottest couple in the yearbook)
(LMAO OMG EVEN YOU CAN SEE THE LOOKS THEY GIVE EACH OTHER! They were totally flirting)
(You're probably home now so you know this; if you leave your phone at home again I will not only show that video I took Friday to the whole school but I will hurt you so bad you'll have to wear a body suit to cover the bruises.)
(Goodnight bitch)
By the time she read the last message she was cradled in her bed crying silently.
XOXOX
(Day 11)
It was Friday again and she already knew today she would not be doing her Riley Awards like she did every week. It's not like she had any reason to reward herself anyway.
She was a coward.
She was ugly.
She was stupid.
She was fat.
She was a tease.
She had no friends, no family, no hope.
She was nothing.
She skipped breakfast that morning and was outside already when Maya got to her building.
"What's going on Riles?" Maya asked and Riley just shrugs.
"Nothing." She replies as she starts walking towards the subway.
"I didn't even get breakfast." Maya grumbles before following her.
"Sorry Peaches." Riley says distractedly patting her pocket to make sure her phone was there. She couldn't forget it again.
"Oh I get it! You wanted to gush about Huckleberry without your parents freaking out." Maya smirks at her and Riley can't help but smile.
The best feeling was being wrapped up in Lucas' arms like she was last night.
"You caught me." She smiles and starts talking about last night.
"Maya is there something going on?" Riley stops in front of the subway entrance and looks at her friend seriously.
"What? What would be going on?" She asks looking around nervously.
"Anything you want to tell me? About Lucas?" Riley presses and she can see Maya look at her with slight fear.
"No sweetie, nothing is going on." Maya says looking right into her eyes.
She was lying. She knew Maya better than anyone.
She guesses it's only fair; she's been lying to Maya as well.
XOXOX
History class she got two messages.
*Bing*
(I know you missed me yesterday you little loser so don't worry I'll make sure to pay close attention to you since no one else does)
*Bing*
(Your own flesh and blood would rather choose Maya over you. Hell I heard your own godfather wants nothing to do with you)
She tried to keep a happy face on like the one she had yesterday but even her friends could see something was up with her today. They all asked her what was wrong but she just said she couldn't sleep last night. Maya made another comment about Riley Town and of course Lucas but Riley paid her no mind. She was getting sick of Maya making fun of her.
During Art she not only had to listen to Miss Kossal tell her she was the only one with no talent in the class as she handed back her abstract painting but the teacher thought it would be a good idea to switch everyone's seat.
And of course she gets seated with HER. While Lucas and Maya were seated together, looking cozier than she's ever looked with the Texan.
The whole class SHE would mutter insults at her, subtly elbowing her so she would have to redraw the still life in front of her multiple times.
She was in hell.
Gym wasn't too bad except the message at first bell.
(So glad I don't have gym with you. You already smell like trash I can imagine what you smell when you sweat)
When the day was over she wanted nothing more than to grab Maya and run home but of course...her phone goes off.
*Bing*
(I'm waiting for this weeks award show! You better not keep me waiting)
The threat was clear. SHE was going to make her go through this whether she wanted to or not.
She goes to the hallway while Maya was at her Art meeting and sees HER standing there, phone out ready to record her humiliation.
"Well?! I'm waiting! I've been looking forward to the award all week." SHE mocks her with a smirk.
"I don't have a reason to award myself this week." She tells her.
"And why is that?" SHE asked because she clearly wanted Riley to tell her all she's learned.
"Because you're right. I'm nothing. I'm fat, stupid, ugly, talent-less, and worthless. I flirt with my guy friends when they're clearly not interested while the guy I really want wants my best friend. The same best friend who makes fun of me." She tells HER in a monotone yet believing everything that was coming out of her mouth.
"Everyone likes Maya more than me, my classmates, my godfather, my own parents. I don't deserve an award." She finishes her little speech and sees her finally lower the phone before she starts to clap.
"Bravo Smiley, I thought it would take a lot longer to show you the real world. Riley Town should be good and dead." She smirks as she walks closer to her so their faces are inches apart.
"And what do you have to say to me?" SHE asks Riley in a fake sugary sweet tone.
"Thank you for helping me." Riley says softly trying to give her a little smile.
SMACK
Riley looks at her in shock as she cradles her sore cheek in her hand.
"Don't ever smile at me again. Have a nice weekend I'll be sure to write." SHE threatens her before she pushes past her to the school's exit.
Riley watches her go, her body frozen in place; numb.
This was only going to get worse. She couldn't keep this pretense up. She had to believe her friends really did care about her and that her bully was wrong. She was going to make them see that something bad was going on because she just couldn't handle this anymore.
She wasn't strong enough.
THE END!
(The end is obviously the episode Girl Meets Riley Town. I had to make this end with Riley deciding to tell her friends about her being bullied without actually telling them because it bugs me that Riley says it was going on for a couple weeks and they all had NO FLIPPING IDEA. I may do a one shot sequence of each character talking to her about her being bullied but I don't know. Anyway I hope you enjoyed)