Broken Trust
chapter 2
Authors note: I wasn't going to continue this since I only received one review (thank you girl who loves Jensen) but I decided what the hell, I kind of enjoying writing it and I haven't had anyone tell me that it sucks aside from dramaqueen07 (thank you so much dear, but I don't care much)--so…here's chapter 2 which I had so much trouble writing until I finally figured out where it was that I was going with this; I hope you like reading it as much as I liked writing it.
"Your brother's injuries were severe and he is in a comatose state."
"No." Dean said looking from him to Ellen. "No."
"I'm sorry." The doctor said walking away.
"Oh god, Sammy," Dean had slumped down against the wall, his head in his hands, everything from the last couple of days coupled with this causing him to crack under his usually tough exterior.
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Ellen didn't know what to do, or say. She'd never seen Dean like this, ever, and she didn't have an answer for him, he almost--still might--lose the only family he had left in the world, and for all greater purposes, it was her daughter's fault. After all she had told him, after all she had promised him. That they were reliable, that they weren't like so many of the other hunters out there, that they were like family….Jo pulls something like this. She didn't understand it, and she knew sure as hell that her Bill neverwould have condoned that. Even John, who cut a lot of corners, played dangerously, he had never gone this far. She just hoped to god that for all of their sakes that Sam would come out of this okay, because if he didn't, she wasn't sure if she'd ever be able to look at her daughter the same way again; and she didn't know if it was possible for Dean to lose his brother again and survive it.
"Dean." Ellen rested a hand on the young man's shoulder, struck once again as she looked in his eyes how young he really was. "Are you okay?"
Dean nearly laughed at the irony in her question. Was he okay? His brother might die. The brother who he had fought so hard to protect, all these years, all because Jo had shot her mouth off to a hunter...how could he possibly be okay? Sammy was fighting for his life--not in any way could that ever be defined as okay.
"Dean..." Jo said, standing next to her mother as she took in Dean's broken down, beaten appearance. "Sam's going to be fine; everything will be okay. You just have to keep it together."
If Jo hadn't been a girl, Dean was pretty sure that he would have taken a swing at her, at that precise moment in time; as it was, it was difficult to control his anger when he looked at her and was reminded of whose fault this was. But that was too much. She had no right to tell him what he should be doing right now. No right at all. What the hell did she know about the kind of pain he was going through?
"Keep it together?" Dean repeated his voice dangerously low, as he stood up to look her in the eye, the glint of anger obvious. "You--you have no business telling me what I should do. It's because of you that my brother is fighting for his life; because of you I might lose him. Do you know what that's like? Do you know what its like to lose the only person you have left?"
"Yeah, I do." Jo shot back, finally pushed to her limit. She was unbelievably sorry for what had happened to Sam but she had never meant for it to happen, but Dean was treating her as if she, not Ruby, had done this to Sam. "You're not the only one who's lost someone," Jo started, before finishing, "If it wasn't for your father, I'd still have my dad."
Ellen couldn't help but to just stand, there, frozen in shock as she heard the words leave Jo's mouth.
"You know what? You've held that over my head ever since your mom told you, and I've had it. I don't know what happened out there between my dad and yours and whatever happened, I'm sorry about it, I am; but it's not my fault, and it sure as hell isn't Sam's. And if this is about that..."
"What? It. Was. An. Accident--kind of like what happened to my dad. My dad died, Dean, and he's never coming back. I understand it real good."
"You still have your mom." Dean told her, "Do you understand how lucky you are to have her? You've sat here over the past year and did everything in your power to push her away and I've never understood it--I would do anything to get my mom back. Do you understand what its like to not have parents anymore? Sam and I, we've lost everyone that we've ever cared about; our mom, our dad, Sam lost his girlfriend...Do you know how it feels to know that you are totally, completely alone. You don't, do you? Jo, if Sam dies I won't have anyone, and even if he doesn't, I only have a few months left and he's going to be alone. I thought I could trust you to be there for him, to let him know he's not alone. Knowing you're alone...its the scariest feeling in the world."
Dean walked away without another word, not caring about whatever excuse it was that Jo had for him this time; and feeling like he was going to collapse from emotional and physical exhaustion by the time he made it to Sam's room. When he got there he collapsed into the chair and didn't even bother to control the tears as he took it all in. Sam was hooked up to what looked like, it looked like he had to be hooked up to a dozen machines with all the wires and tubes running from him, though in reality Dean knew it was only a machine or two, and his every thought was punctuated with the beeping sound that came from the nearby monitor.
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"Sammy, you got to wake up." Dean begged, the tears rolling down his face as he looked at his brother, his baby brother, that he'd sworn to protect, his brother that he had failed to protect again. "I lost you once I can't lose you again. Sammy, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry; I never should have told her, I never should have trusted her…trusted anyone--I'm the older one, I'm supposed to know better. I screwed up Sammy, I'm sorry…"
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"I should have gone with my instincts. You shouldn't have to pay for it Sammy. Please, don't leave me alone."
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"I'm sorry." Dean cried as he looked again at his brothers pale, bruised face again. "I'm so sorry Sammy."
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please review...this was a bit of exposition and setting things up but there's going to be a really big twist coming up in the next few chapters and the return of some certian characters.
Chailyn