The sun peaking in through the curtain woke Jenny up. She didn't even bother to upon her eyes fully yet. She relaxed back into the warmth that surrounded her. Buck in her front and Sour Cream at her back. She decided to just enjoy it a little more before the other two woke up which wouldn't be long. Jenny smiled as she remembered the night they had. She had stopped them from going beyond kissing wishing to do more when they were sober. Buck started to stir so she let him go so he could sit up. That got Sour Cream groaning awake. The two got up stumbling around looking for the pants they had thrown away the night before. They've never really been worried about showing skin between them. Sour Cream held his stomach as he ran to the bath room. Jenny laughed as she set back against the headboard of Sour Cream's large bed. Buck grabbed his phone going through it as he sat down on the edge of the bed.

"Morning sunshine." Jenny said nudging him with her foot.

"Morning." He grumbled back holding his head.

That was not what she was expecting but she brushed it off because the other two were pretty drunk. Sour Cream came creeping back into the room wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. Jenny tossed him a bottle of water from the night stand.

"Thanks Jen." He said taking a sip. "Ok so what happened last night. I was so drunk I don't remember."

Buck frowned along with him as he tried to remember. "I don't know man. Everything after Lars challenged me to a drinking contest is a blur." He said shaking his head but then regretting it.

"Yeah man remind me to never be your tag out partner again. Who knew Saddie could drink like a fish?" Sour Cream said laughing but then grimacing when his stomach disagreed.

Jenny didn't say anything. For once she was a lost for words. What could she say that wouldn't voice her heart break in this moment. She slowly stood up stepping around a confused looking Buck as she gathered her stuff. She was slipping on her shirt when Buck spoke up.

"Jenny do you remember anything?" He asked hoping she could help them out.

Jenny paused as she felt the tears line up. She blinked them away as she pulled up her skirt. "You guys just made a fool of yourselves on the dance floor and pulled me into it." She said as she looked over her shoulder offering a tight smile.

"Oh damn." Buck said laughing a little.

"Sorry about that Jenny." Sour Cream said as he laid back down on the bed.

"It's no problem it was fun but I think I'm going to head home." Jenny said calmly as she looked for her keys.

"Oh you don't have to leave so early. Did you forget yours and Buck's secret stash in the closet? You can shower and change here." Sour Cream said as he threw his arm over Buck's body who had laid back.

Jenny stood as she found her keys. She wasn't looking at them. She couldn't. "No I think I better go. Girl stuff." She said opening the door.

"Oh well call us later." Buck said as she shut the door.

She just focused on her breathing as she existed the house. She kept doing that as she drove home. She released the tight grip on the steering wheel with a shuddering breath when she pulled into the driveway. Focusing on her breathing was abandoned for getting to the safety of her room. She opened the front door taking off her shoes like she's been trained to do. A choke sobbed escaped her as she slumped against the door for support. Her breath became spazmatic as she tried to get it under control again.

"Jenny! What's wrong?" She heard her sister's worried voice before hands were on her.

She crumbled and fell broken into her sisters arms. No longer able to stand on her own to feet. She didn't care how weak she looked for doing this. She just couldn't handle the pain on her own. For once she was going to rely on someone else and trust that they knew what to do when she didn't. She had a idea to bury away everything until it stopped hurting but she knew that wasn't the right decision. She let her sister lead her into her room. She heard her shoo away their dad and grandmother with promises to explain later and that she could handle it. She let her help her out of her clothes in the bathroom. She had stopped crying for now. Kiki was even nice enough to help her into the shower.

Kiki sighed as she closed the door to the bathroom giving her sister some privacy. She slumped into a computer chair and put her head down on the desk. She had never seen her sister so broken and vulnerable before. Even after there mother had died. She had a clue as to what had broken her sister. If what she had seen last night was anything to know. She now knew why sister has been acting so strangely lately. Who wouldn't when they realize they're in love with both their best friends. With no idea as to how it should work out. She thought it was strange that she wasn't freaking out and wanting to tell her sister she needed to pick one. That she was crazy if she thought a relationship was meant for more than one person. That it was something only two people should share. Because when she really thought on it. She couldn't find anything wrong with it. They had always been together and somehow it just seemed more right than wrong. Like they were already together just without knowing it.

She set up straight when her sister came out the bathroom with a towel over her head and nothing else. Kiki bit her lip ready to help her sister with anything she might need but Jenny didn't say a word. She just dressed quietly and then crawled onto her bed. Kiki rolled her eyes when she threw the towel on the floor and face planted into her pillow. She got up and picked it up tossing it into the chair. Kiki hesitated for a moment before getting up on the bed. She slowly lowered herself beside her sister not wanting to startle her and reached for her hand. She squeezed it letting her know she was there for her.

Jenny sniffed and looked at her. "Thanks." She mumbled looking down at their hands.

Kiki waited for her to say anything else but she didn't. It didn't look like she was all there. Like she had drifted off to some safe place. Other people might have left and tried again later. But she knew her sister and there would be no later. So with guilt already building up inside her for what she was about to bring up. She pressed on. "I saw-" Kiki hesitated before pushing herself to finish. "I saw the three of you last night."

For a moment Kiki thought Jenny would yell at her to mind own business or go into another round of tears. To her surprise though Jenny rolled over on her back as she laughed throwing her arm over her eyes. "Then you missed the big finale this morning of my heart breaking. It was spectacular really. Even I didn't see it coming." Jenny deadpanned.

"Jen-"

"I mean one minute I had them." Jenny said her voice cracking as she reached up into the air and grabbed at nothing. Her hand fell back to the bed with a thud. Kiki wanted to reach out and pull her into a hug but knew other wise. "I had the loves of my life for one night. Doing nothing special besides dancing and laughing. But it was the way we did it that finally changed things. That had or relationship shifting towards my dreams. We kissed. We touched. I held them." Jenny said sounding so broken from it all coming undone.

"I'm sorry I know you guys were close." Kiki said not really knowing how to go about this. She realized she made the wrong choice when her sister sprung up and was glaring at her with angry red eyes that still held tears.

"I love them! I've always been in love with them!" Jenny said panting from her out burst. Yes she was shocked at her on volume but she couldn't bring herself to care. She folded in on herself trying to hold off the tears. "Why? Why did I have to be born like this? With these thoughts? With these feelings? Why can't I just bring myself to change?"

Kiki really didn't know what to do but she wouldn't allow her twin to keep talking like this. "Jenny there's nothing wrong with you!" She said reaching out and putting a hand on her shoulder.

Jenny shrugged her off shifting her broken gaze over to her. "You can't tell me that! You don't know how I feel! None of you do!" Jenny shouted making Kiki flinch back. "The only person I ever told was mom. I've always felt like I was born into the wrong the body. I knew even from such a young age that I wasn't right. And you know what mom said. She said I was to young to be questioning things like that. Instead I should be focused on loving my body and myself." Jenny said glaring off into space before she laughed dryly.

"Well I'm older now mom and those thoughts never went away. And while I did grow up to accept my body. I don't accept much else. Especially now since I'm in love with my best friends. And I'm going to go ahead and tell you. I put on smiles for everyone around me so no one can see how I'm falling apart. I hate myself. Resent myself for not being a normal person. Normal may be boring but I can cope with boring. Not this." Jenny looked down sadly at her toes. The last of her tears splashing on them.

"I remember the accident like it was yesterday. If you hadn't pushed me out of the way. Then you'd be here and I'd be there mom. When I was younger I used to wish that you hadn't. Because the family would of been better with you here. Dad wouldn't have put his whole life into the restaurant. Grandma wouldn't have had to raise us and she could of retired by now. And you would be so proud of Kiki. She's like the perfect daughter or something and everything I'm not." Jenny was suddenly on her side with her sister on top of her. She was about to question her but she felt a wetness on her shoulder.

"Stop." Kiki begged choking a sob. "Please." She said sitting up some. Her tears dripped onto Jenny's face as they stared at each other. "Don't ever say that again! I want you here. I need you here. I love you no matter who you love, what you think about yourself, or how you think you should be. All of that is meaningless. Your my favorite twin! So please stop talking like your going to disappear on me. I'm here for you. I will help you through this. You just need to let me!" Kiki said closing her eyes as the tears started to block her vision.

She yelped as she was pulled down into a warm embrace. "Okay." She heard Jenny whisper softly.

Kiki cooked dinner as she watched the rest of her family interact. Jenny was reassuring them that she was fine. Kiki could tell her laughs and smiles were a bit strained but she was trying if not anything else. When everything had calmed down and the two eldest family members retired to their rooms. The twins went outside and watched the sky.

"So how are you going to handle this? Are you going to tell them." Kiki asked Jenny as she looked over at her.

Jenny never took her eyes off the sky as she spoke. "I'm not sure but I'm not going to tell them. I don't think it would be the best way to. A part of me feels like they'll feel like I took advantage of them when they weren't in their right minds. Which I kind of did for my own needs. And the other part doesn't feel guilty. Like I did the right thing and should tell them. Take advantage of the situation and see how it goes. Ruin our friendship for a chance at my own personal gains. But I'm not. I think I need a little space from them to figure this out. To figure out what my needs really are."

Kiki looked back up at the stars. "It's going to be hard. You guys are always together." She said frowning. She wasn't seeing this work out anytime soon. Her sister my have felt alone but she never really was. The two boys were always at her hip.

"It's already been hard. I've already made a step in that direction. All I got to do now is keep walking." Jenny gave her twin a small smile.

"I'll be here for you. Whatever you want I've got your back." Kiki said smiling at her.

They sat out there a little longer just enjoying the silence and for once not thinking. It would be later on that night when Kiki was going to get a cup of water. She was going to check on her sister. Her hand froze before she touched the door knob hearing sniffles and muffled cries. She carefully stepped back a couple feet away before turning around and heading toward the stairs. She sighed rubbing her face. Things just didn't fix themselves after one night. She would leave her sister be and not mention this tomorrow.

When the Pizza family arrived at the restaurant the next day Jenny went straight for the kitchen. She knew it wasn't where she usually worked but she was happy that nobody commented on it instead they let her be. Her dad even came in and helped her prep. Kiki just watched looking to see if something would happen. But her dad did deliverers, her Nanefua took orders, and she was the waitress. When Jenny's break came she disappeared out the back door and they all exhaled a deep breath.

"Is everything ok?" The voice of Steven caught them off guard.

"Steven I told you to knock first." Pearl said coming to stand behind him.

The two eldest in the family went back to work knowing they were here for Kiki.

"Sorry but I wanted talk to Jenny." Steven said looking around for her. His shoulders slumped when he didn't see her.

"I'm afraid my daughter isn't in much of a talking mood today." Kiki heard her dad say.

"Steven you shouldn't pry." Garnet said as she went and sat at a table.

"I told him that already." Pearl said rolling her eyes as she went and sat down in her lap.

Well that was new. Kiki thought as she felt her eyebrows raise. Pearl noticed and glared at her but Kiki smiled. "New but cute." She said making Pearl blush. Garnet smirked as she wrapped her arms around Pearls thin waist and kissed her cheek.

"Yeah yeah that's old news!" Steven huffed as he crossed his arms adorably. "I came hear to congratulate Jenny on her relationship." He mumbled the last part.

Kiki gasped as she pulled Steven over to the table knowing what he walked to talk to her sister about. "You saw last night didn't you?" She groaned when he nodded his head smiling. "Well don't say anything about it. Everything didn't go so great."

"What happened?" Steven asked looking horrified. "They were so cute together!"

Kiki slapped her hand over his mouth. "Shh! Steven gosh! Our father doesn't know yet and I'm sure she wants it to stay that way." She glared at him as she pulled her head back.

He looked down ashamed. "I'm sorry I was excited."

She sighed putting her head in her hand. "It's okay. But anyway now Jenny's all sad and needs to figure everything out but I don't know how she's going to do that. Her best friends aren't just going to leave her alone without a good excuse."

"She needs to leave for a bit if she wants to do that." Garnet said making the other three look at her like she was crazy. She shrugged tugging Pearl closer. "Well how else is she going to figure it out."

"Hmm Garnet does have a point." Pearl said thinking of a solution.

Kiki was wondering just where in the hell could her sister go. And there was no way in hell she was just going to let her go by herself. There was no telling what trouble she could get into.

"Oh my god! Garnet your so smart!" Steven said bouncing on his toes. Garnet nodded adjusting her shades. "Me and dad are going to take another trip to Empire city because last time was for him and Pearl. So how about you guys come along and we can stay for a week or something!" Steven said waving his arms around as he gave off his idea. "The gems can come along as well. It'll be so much fun! We can call it The Runaway Family trip."

Kiki thought the idea over as she blocked out whatever else Steven was saying to the gems. It sounded like a good idea and they both liked the gems. Plus with Steven around she new it would be full of surprises. "Ok it sounds like a plan Steven. I'll talk to Jenny later and see what she says." Kiki looked at her watched and jumped up out of her seat. They had five more minutes until Jenny would come back from break. "Alright guys I'll let you know how it goes. I need you guys to go before Jenny gets back." She said shooing them to the door.

"But-" Steven said the only one to protest as the gems were already on the boardwalk.

"Because if she comes back inside and sees that I didn't let her know that you guys were here. She'll be all suspicious and I don't need her losing trust in me anytime soon." Kiki said rolling her eyes. Steven could be a bit much in serious situations.

"Oh! Sorry see ya later!" He said running off to up catch up with the two gems.

Kiki sighed a relief as her sister came back in. She was going to close the door back it swung back open catching her off guard. She jumped around coming face to face with Buck.

"Sorry Kiki I didn't see you there." Buck apologized. He looked embarrassed as Kiki clung to her shirt.

"No it was my fault for not paying attention." She said releasing her shirt with a sigh. "What can I get for you?" She took out her notepad and waited.

"Oh no where not here to eat." Buck said waving her away as he walked fully inside.

"Yeah we're here for Jenny!" Sour Cream said as he followed Buck in. Music blasting from his headphones.

"Oh um..." Kiki said glancing towards the kitchen. "Let me go get her for you." Buck nodded his head and Kiki was off.

Jenny was in the kitchen making pizza dough. "Hey sis?" Kiki said as she walked up beside her. Jenny raised a eyebrow as she kept rolling the dough. "Your friends are here to see you." Jenny rolled the dough a couple more times before she sighed. She grabbed a towel and wiped off her hands. She didn't say a word to Kiki as she passed by.

"Hi guys!" Jenny said smiling brightly for her friends.

"Jen!" Sour Cream yelled as he took off his headphones.

"We called and texted you yesterday and this morning but you didn't reply." Buck said taking off his shades to look at her. Jenny smiled because he only did it when he was talking to them sometimes.

"Yeah we thought something was up." Sour Cream said as he leaned back in his chair.

It was then that Jenny realized she left her at home. "Damn sorry guys I was in a hurry and left it at home and yesterday I wasn't feeling to hot." Jenny lied easily.

"Oh still girl stuff?" Buck asked giving her a worried look.

"Yeah I don't know why but it's a little different this time." Jenny sighed.

"Need us to get you anything? Like Chocolate or we can watch movies at my place?" Sour Cream asked as he put his chair back down.

"Or we can go to mines and you can take a bubble bath." Buck offered.

Jenny really wanted to give in and go with both ideas but she couldn't. It wouldn't do anything but make her feelings grow. "Thanks guys but I think resting and sleep would do me better." Jenny said cringing at her own useless lie.

Sour Cream glanced at Buck who shrugged. "Um well do you want to get out of here and stop working for the man?" Sour Cream asked as he got up.

"Just a few hours then you can get back to having your alone time." Buck said jumping in when it looked like she was going to deny them.

Her dad came out of the back at that moment. "Jenifer if you want to leave you can. We can handle it from here." He said smiling at her as he brought the trays to the back. Jenny turned and caught her sister's eye. Kiki gave her a encouraging smile.

"Whoa! You better get out of here before he goes back on his word." Sour Cream said laughing as he headed out the door with Buck.

She didn't say a word as she went to the counter to hand her apron over to her sister. "Truthfully you knew better than anyone else that you wouldn't be able to avoid them for as long as you did. They were bound to show up at some point." Kiki said as she took her apron to hang up.

Jenny rolled her eyes as she grabbed her jacket and headed outside. "So where to?" She asked as she got in the family car.

"There's this cool neighborhood in the hillside that I wanna check out." Sour Cream said as he plugged in his phone.

Jenny nodded her head as she looked over her shoulder at Buck. Who was leaning on her seat. "Are you cool with that?" She asked pushing his shades up on to his head.

He smiled and leaned into her touch before she pulled away. "Yeah as long as were together."

"Yeah!" Sour Cream yelled as his tunes started blasting through the speakers.

Jenny chuckled pushing Buck back as she pulled away from the curve. She didn't talk much just asking for directions here and there. "So what made you want to check out this part of the city?" Jenny asked as they drove through what looked like the upper class part of the city.

"Lars told me about it." Sour Cream said shrugging.

"That kid works my nerves." Buck said breaking his silence from the back seat.

"I agree." Jenny said as she looked around. But she had to admit this time Lars had pulled through.

"Yeah but he told me about this really cool abandoned loft in this old building." Sour Cream said as he pointed to a medium size building on the right. Jenny pulled over in the parking lot and they all got out.

"Are we allowed to be here? Buck doesn't really feel like getting arrested today." Buck said crossing his head. He stumbled forward when Jenny slapped the back of his head.

"Buck should stop referring to himself in third person its creepy and uncool." Jenny said matching the glare her friend gave her. He rolled his eyes as he stuck his tongue out at her.

"Yeah it's open for people to look around because it's open for sale. But nobody wants to buy it because it needs to be fixed up." Sour Cream said as he grabbed their hands pulling him to the door. "There's no lights put the windows offer enough light." He said opening the door for them. He closed it behind him coming up behind his friends who were looking around. "Want me to give you the tour?" He asked placing his hands on the small of their backs.

"Sure." Jenny said smiling up at him and Buck shrugged.

"Okay well there are three floors. This is the main one, the loft he said pointing over to hanging staircase, and there is a basement." He stepped around them going over to a space that looked like a run down bar. "As you can see this has potential that can be turned into a spacious kitchen." He said moving past it into the rest of the giant spaced area. "I'm down with this space." He said turning around in a circle. "I'm seeing fairy lights hung up. A dining table and a booth against the wall. There should be a desk over on the right wall and another one over there in the corner by the window with shelves and art along the walls."

He came to the middle of the room and motioned the other two close. Sour cream head up his fingers and made a box. He squinted at it and then smiled at Jenny. "What do you think? TV station right there with a table where we're standing and couches around it with some spaced out laps."

Jenny put her finger on her chin while she thought it on. She turned around imaging each area with his visions. "Yeah I think you came up with some pretty dope ideas S." She said before going to look around.

"Wait what about this?" Buck said as he went over to what appeared to be a garage door.

He looked down and noticed that cement came into the room. A good five feet before in it turned into hard wood flooring. The other two gathered around as he pulled on the chains opening the door. They gasped when it was finally pulled all the way up.

"I was not expecting the view." Jenny said as they stepped outside.

There was a larger open grassy area but they hadn't realized that it went off down a hill. They could see the where the forest turned into the ocean and it was breath taking. They looked a little more before heading back inside.

"What would you do with this area Buck?" Sour Cream asked as Buck started to unravel the chains.

"Hmm well I would rail this little are off and put openings on each side. You know like a bike area or something. Then I would also like gate off the cement are in the yard as well and attach lights from the building to the gate." Buck finished explaining as closed the large door.

Jenny and Sour Cream nodded their head liking the ideas they were coming up with so far. "Wanna see the basement?" Sour Cream asked leading them back up front to a door off to the side. He opened it for them and then followed.

"Wow this is a nice area for DJ area." Buck said looking around.

"Yeah probably gonna need to sound proof it as well." Jenny said inspecting the walls.

Sour Cream went over to what looked like a water heater. Touching it and looking off to each side. He turned back to his friends finding what he was looking for. "Hey I guess this area could be for a washer and dryer. Well that's what it looks like to me." He said going over Buck who was peaking out of a window on his tippy toes. Sour Cream smiled and put his hands on his hips.

Buck jumped smashing his face into the window. "Owww!" He hissed rubbing his forehead.

Sour Cream bit his lip so he wouldn't laugh. "Need a little help?" He asked raising him up before he could reply.

Buck blushed as he mumbled a thank you. Jenny smiled from where she was leaning on the wall. Her boys were just so adorable. Especially Buck who was always so easy to blush. She stayed where she was not wanting to interrupt them. As Buck was telling Sour Cream what he saw. She got lost in her thoughts until something flicked her nose. She reared back rubbing at her nose angrily. Glaring at the two laughing boys in her face but it held no menace. So she relented and laughed pushing them out of her personal space.

"Come on show me the upstairs you losers." Jenny said walking around them. She took the stairs two at a time going a little faster when she heard them shouting for her to wait on them. She was only a couple steps in to the loft when they came up behind her. "Took you long enough." She mocked them as she walked past a few windows and stopped at a window seat.

"Well what do you think?" Sour Cream asked as he came up beside her.

She ran her fingers through the caked up dust on the window sill. It was then that she was starting to see the building for what it really was. That she was breaking through the haze of all their talk but that's as far as she let her mind go. She refused to actually start thinking about this whole thing. She walked away slowly and stood in the middle of the room. It was quiet for a while as the other two watched her. Jenny was trying to envision what she wanted but her thoughts kept trying to speak up. Finally after what felt like forever she spoke causing the other two to jump. But they became more aware of what she was saying. Like it was the most important thing out of everything else their little adventure had brought them.

"There should be a queen size bed back over there against the wall. A TV hanging from the ceiling. A little bit in front of the bed. A dresser on the right and another two on the left. A huge mirror can go against the right wall over there. Two arm chairs and a hammock. Then of course closets need to be built and they have to be walk in's because of shoes. Then the balcony needs to be fixed up but after that water proof chairs and a table can be set out there." Jenny finished breathing a sigh of relief. It felt like she had just talked the most in her whole life.

She turned to the other two to see them advoiding her gaze as they looked about the space. Jenny had to go before the illusion she was seeing began to clear up. "Hey lets head back. I think I should go lay down. I'm getting tired." She said not waiting for their answers.

She gripped her arms as she went she went over to the stair case. She casted one last glance at them before going down stairs. She kept her eyes on the floor and on the floor as she walked through the building and out of the front door. She leaned against the door closing her eyes and exhaling deeply.

"Jenny we're ready." Buck said as he stood in front of her. She opened her eyes and smiled at him. Turning and opening his door she motioned him inside.

"Thanks for taking us here Jenny." Sour Cream said softly as they backed up out of the mini parking lot. She nodded her head not really interested in anything else besides getting home.

"Um hey Jenny?" Buck said from the back seat catching her eye in the rear view mirror. "You've been kind of different lately. And we we're wondering if it had anything to do with us?"

"Like maybe if you're mad at us?" Sour Cream asked looking over at the driver.

Jenny held in the groan she wanted to let out. Instead her grip tightened slightly on the stirring wheel. "No I'm not mad at you guys. I could never be." She said turning her head enough to offer a smile. "And I've just had a lot on my mind lately."

"Anything we could help you with?" Sour Cream asked playing in the wind.

Maybe be in love with me and each other Jenny thought. "No I need to figure this out on my own." Jenny said actually happy to see the board walk come back into view. She felt a guilty for waiting to be away from the two people she was in love with but after today she needed it.

"Ok but don't forget we're here for you Jenifer." Buck said as they pulled up at his house. He hopped out and waved bye as he went in to the house.

Two blocks away and they pulled up on Sour Cream's house. "Yeah don't forget about us while you're getting your mind right." Sour Cream joked as he was getting out but Jenny caught his arm before he was fully out.

"I could never forgot about either of you." She said glaring at him a little. When she released his arm he rubbed it some. He didn't know how to respond to that so he just closed the door and head into his house.

Jenny didn't even bother to see him go in. She needed to get home and away from behind the wheel. She was so relieved to be taking off her shoes and hanging up the keys. She almost just sat down on the floor until she had enough energy to go to her room. But she trudged on denying the food offered to her because she had no appetite. She flopped down on her bed looking up at her fan. Today came flooding into her thoughts like a busted dam. Sour Cream showed us a old building and we turned it into our home. I went house shopping with them. Was the only thing that bounced around in her head.

She sighed closing her eyes. "What am I doing?" She asked out loud knowing no answer would come. A knock on her door had her sitting up as her twin walked in her room.

"I need to ask you something?" Kiki asked standing in front of her.

"Ok what's up?" Jenny asked hoping nothing important happened in her absence.

"How would you like to take a trip to Empire City with me, Steven, and the gems? Steven's dad became rich a couple weeks ago and they went. And he wants to go again so they can actually do something this time. Since last time was just for his dad and Pearl to make up or bond or whatever." Kiki said confused some.

Jenny thought it over. She did want to get away and think about things. Plus a new seen could help out. And she did like the company she was going to be keeping. "Sure why not." Jenny said smiling up at her.

"Really? I'll text Steven later." Kiki said waving away it away before she forgot to ask about her sisters day. "So how was it?" Jenny's smile became sad and she immediately regretted it.

"We went and looked at a house." Jenny said quietly. "We planned out everything exactly how we wanted it. It was perfect. The perfect place for us to live together." Kiki just looked at her sister helplessly. She wasn't sure how to comfort her. "And everything was going as fine as it could. Not one thought passed through my head as we mapped it all out until we went up into the loft. That's where it clicked into my brain that that would be our bedroom. That the building could be ours. A place for us to live as as as..." Jenny said as tears blocked her vision and ran down her cheeks.

"Why?" She gripped her shirt over her heart. "Why couldn't I-?"

"Why couldn't I just fall for one of them and not go through this. Friendship shouldn't be painful. Friendship shouldn't make you want to cut your own heart out and throw it away. Friendship shouldn't turn into a love that breaks you." Jenny cried into her hands and Kiki didn't go to her side.

Instead she took slow backwards until she was at the doorway. There wasn't anything she could do for her. Anything right now would be seen as being in the way. With a trembling hand she reached for the door and slowly shut it. Blocking out the cries of her sister from other's ears. She put her head on the door and released a shaking breath.

"I'm sorry." She whispered. "I'm so sorry. I wish I could take away all the pain you feel. I would gladly take it on if I could see your smiling face again." Kiki said as she backed away. With much force added to her feet she made it to her own room.