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Here's your new update.

Enjoy.

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[11/23/09] {14:26}

John,

Today I had to stop a girl from getting strangled to death. I hid my face and left immediately.

I'm bored. I want someone to entertain me. You were always very good at that.

I miss you. I wish I were one hundred percent sure that you were safe, because then I could tell you. Then you'd know I was alive.

Fuck.

I never swear, but fuck I miss you, John. I can't ever tell you how much I miss you right now, at this moment in time. Sometimes, it makes me want to die.

I hate myself.

Why did I hurt you like that? There had to have been another way.

I tried to tell you… "it's a trick, John. It's just a magic trick." But that wasn't enough. I didn't try hard enough. They weren't monitoring my phone. They weren't going to bug me. They didn't know what I was saying. I'm an idiot.

You told me that once. The day after we met. I called you an idiot, and you called me one in return. I think about that a lot. It still makes me smile.

Someone told me once that your woman should say you're an idiot instead of I love you. "If she calls you an idiot, you're a lucky man," she said. I guess… your man should be the same way? I hope so. I hope it means… I don't know. I can read you in some respects, but you're good at hiding your feelings from me. I'm actually not sure about you. I could never tell if you loved me or not.

I fancied you. For a long time, I fancied you. That day that we met, was actually as close as I get to being awkward. I was actually flustered. I had to leave right away. I leaned against the wall and breathed deeply for a minute, just to clear my head. Then I had to go do work things. Anyway…

I think…

John, I think I love you.

No.

I love you.

God, I'm glad that you're probably never going to read this. It's way too embarrassing. I don't even know if I'll get to see you again, let alone show you these unsent emails…

I miss you.

Don't forget me.

Move on, but don't forget.

Love,
Sherlock

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I hope you like the longer chapter! I'm not sure how well I do with the character of Sherlock, it makes me a little nervous that my Sherlock is unrealistic to the canon version of Sherlock. Then again, he's weird. He's surprised me many a time.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy my Johnlock fluffy shit, and, you know… have a good day.

Don't try to kill yourself.

It's not fun.

Love,
Allie