~ Chapter 2 - Hiding Memories ~
Still flying through hyperspace, Rey took off the seat belt to the pilot's chair and headed to the crew's quarters - "Where he lay..." her thoughts leaked into her mind "NO, where Finn is." Rey had to correct her thoughts. She came to the doorway, the metal door slid open, her eyes directly gazed upon the dark clothed figure that lay there motionless. That burning pain was back, hotter than before, stinging her chest. Rey just shook her head focusing back on Finn, she walked over to him and addressed his wound the best she could. Finn was on his stomach still, her eyes looked down his back and a shudder ran down her spine, at the large gash that smelled like burnt flesh. Rey reached up and grabbed some meds, bacta saulve and gauze from a cupboard. Rey glanced over at Him, "That Monster." she thought, furrowing her brow in disgust. She bandaged up Finn as best as she could, till she could get him to a medical bay.
She then remembered the Whisper "He will need you..." Those thoughts dug like daggers in her head, "Fine.." Rey grunted, hesitant she stood up and walked to where Kylo was laying. The burning pain got warmer every step she took. She took some small scissors from the cupboard above Kylo and started to cut away parts of his cloak and set it aside. Rey tried her best to keep her eyes on what she was doing and not dwell on him. Now starting to cut off his arm wrappings. She was careful not to touch his skin, fearful in some way she'd become like him at the slightest touch. Also the fear of waking him, the thought what he would do, scared Rey. She looked back a Finn and his back, she winced at the thought of him hurting anyone else. Rey unraveled the rest of Kylo's wrappings to see his wound that had sliced and burnt the skin on his shoulder, her eyes followed the trail the light saber had left, "Such pale skin..." Her eyes drifted down "...and nice Abs..." She paused, and covered her face in that was now red with embarrassment, "THE FUCK HEAD? GET IT TOGETHER!" She screamed internally, flustered at the thought of thinking of Him like THAT. Rey had not seen his face since the forest, where he laid, Smiling - She hoped he had stopped.
Rey traced his wound up his neck and finally to his face - eyes closed, long lashes that complimented his face, with locks of curled wet dark hair splayed across his brow and down his narrow cheeks, the sharpness of his jawline, "Thank the force .." She said under her breath, as her eyes trailed down to his lips, that were soft and splayed slightly open still snoring, they weren't smiling anymore. Kylo was breathing Softly, but heavy, like he was content - A thought flicked through Rey's mind "Can a Monster have good dreams?" The burning in her chest flared out like she was being stabbed, She gasped and clutched her chest. A moment of silence had passed before Rey could block the pain enough to continue bandaging Him up. Wrapping his face, he had not moved once while she bandaged him.
Kylo's muscles flinched when Rey's hand had brushed against his face, as She was wrapping gauze around his wound. Suddenly they both felt something, not pain, but more of a pin prick in the Force, they both could feel. The burning in both of their chest's surged and flared out. A flash of light and then darkness followed, Rey could hear a voice, His voice. "It hurts... This burning.. My chest is on fire... Am I dying?" Rey noted that Kylo's voice sounded scared, a tone she had not heard from him. She felt a growing pain first in her side, then her shoulder and face. "I feel like I have to find something... or ..." He paused, "Or Someone.." His voice trailed off. Rey was confused, then there was a small light that sucked her back to the present in a swift motion, Rey flew back and landed ass first, on the floor, next to the bed where he was. "WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!" Rey screamed under her Breath, clutching her chest.
She was breathing heavy, as she just sat there rubbing the burning in her chest. Rey looked up at him, His face now had a twinge of pain, his brow was furrowed deeply and his blood had already started to stained the gauze. Rey took a moment to compose herself and get up of the metal floor. "It's not like I feel bad about doing that, If i hadn't, He would have killed me." she thought frowning. "I should hate you." She said under her breath looking down at the floor. Rey looked back up to him now the burning pain was worse when she thought of what she was going to do with him - Either give him to The Resistance "Or..." She thought, "I could just drop him off on a deserted planet...A desert..." She couldn't help but smirk at that idea. "Take him to Luke..." The Whisper rang in Reys ears again, "And how to you expect me to do that, for one? And another where the hell am I supposed to hide him? He's not exactly small." She gestured at his sature - Which to Her was immensely huge. "Also there is NO WAY Leia is gonna let me just waltz in with her First Order, Dark Side Ass son and tell her I'm gonna take him to Luke." There was no answer back from the Whisper. "URGGH! Why do you have to make things so complicated?" Looking at Kylo, still confused and frustrated about the things she will have to do. - Do for Him.
Rey let out a sigh threw her nose "Fine..."
She felt herself getting tired, her eyes were hard to keep open, she couldn't remembered the last time she had fully slept. Rey got up and walked to the hallway, looked back at Finn and then Him. "The Monster" Her thoughts growled, her mind reminded her of how he just killed his own father, maimed Finn her friend, and tried to kill Her. But yet the burning in her chest intensified when she even thought thought of Him.
Chewy let out a bark from the cockpit, that snapped Rey's attention to the problem ahead - "How to hide the Fucker." Rey came to the front where Chewy sat, manning the controls, the Wookie looked at her in a concerning way "Urrruuurrr." he barked to her, "We've got to hide him before we get to the Resistance Base, Rey said now fidgeting with one of the console buttons, the lights to the large cargo hold. "Will you help me?" She asked looking right at him, all he could do was nod, after a moment of silence. "I'm Sorry... But the Force-" Chewbacca shook his head as he interrupted her her, he put his Paw right on her hand and looked straight at her and he nodded again - as for her not to worry.
It hit her right then that Chewy's was Han's bestfriend, and Kylo Ren was his son, it did not dawn on her till then that, He and Chewy might have had at one point some sort of relationship, or even considered each other family.
Chewbacca got up and switched on the autopilot and walked towards the back of the ship where the crew quarters were. "Now I feel like complete shit." Rey thought, pulling her hand to her face, to hide her now red, angered face. "WHY should I let that, That MONSTER LIVE?! He has destroyed SO many lives!" She screamed at her mind, almost in tears. "He will need your light..." She felt a light brush against her cheek wiping the tear that poured down her face. Rey Winced and pulled back, "Han?" She whispered at the touch, then feeling was gone. Rey had tears running down her cheeks,"WHY ME? What makes me so Special?! I'm No Light! I suck at all this" Gesturing to all around her, this time she said her thoughts out loud, again no one answered back. "Some help you are." She scoffed and wiped the tears from her face.
Rey tried to compose herself enough and headed to the crew quarters, where the Monster slept - soundly at that. The memory of His smile flooded her mind, it was creepy, but yet...peaceful, almost beautiful.
Rey met up with Chewy and she helped him move one of the unused beds to the storage hold where she planned on hiding him behind some leftover cargo. Chewy was still setting up the bed, while Rey went back to get some more bacta saulve and a life meter from the cupboard above Kylo. She could feel his breath on her arm, still soft and heavy, as he slept. Rey had the life meter in her hand and was bringing it down, when she felt her hand brush against his skin again. A bright light flashed over her again "NO NO!" She screamed being pulled in, but instead of darkness, she now found she was in a meadow, where light surrounded her, it was warm. She heard a faint laugh, -of a child. The small being ran past her side, he had dark curly hair and a smile from cheek to cheek. "Daddy! Daddy! Pick me up lets fly through space!" The child exclaimed to a man, who picked up the child. The sun was right behind him, she was unable to see facial features, she stepped closer hoping to get a better look, "Han?..." She thought confused. The small boy was lifted onto Han's shoulders, they both were smiling and laughing, as they ran in a circle making space ship noises - a flying motion.
Rey finally got a closer look at the child's face, she couldn't help but focus on the child's smile, she had seen it before- "Kylo..?" He was this child, so happy and full of light and good? Rey just stood there eyes wide, in shock. The vision faded to black nothing, with her eyes still focused on his smile, the same smile she saw back on Star Killer. Rey was flung back to reality again, back on the Falcon, she took steps back just staring at the Monster in front of her. Rey started to sob uncontrollably "WHAT THE FUCK!?" She yelled under her breath, Chewy came into the room, looking concerned. It took a moment for her to regain what composer she had left. A long moment had passed "Ok...Lets Move him" Rey said to Chewy, as he moved closer to Him.
Even Chewy had problems lifting him, "See it wasn't just me." She thought. Chewy slung his arms around his neck and drug him to the large cargo bay, holding on to all of his weight. She went out of her way to make sure she did not touch him again, that feeling in her chest burned. Rey knew how much the Fucker weighed. - A ton. Chewbacca laid him down on the bed next to some old crates that were stacked on the floor. Chewbacca looked down at Kylo, to his side where he had shot him, and he couldn't help but feel horrible for doing so. "It is darker in here than it was in the crew quarters, a perfect pace for a creature." Rey thought, Barely able to see the outline of Kylo's face. "Why would I need, nor want to see his face." Rey thought with her own face in disgust, but knowing that his face was basically perfect, it turned her stomach. The burning was now a dull reminder he is still there.
Chewy left the cargo hold and went back to the cockpit. Rey knew that they would be on D'qar - At the Resistance Base soon. She gave Kylo a strong sedative, he would stay asleep for as long as they were there, "No more than a day." Rey assured herself. She heard Chewy up front in the cockpit, She quickly moved some cargo around, to hide Kylo's body more, before leaving the hold. Rey ran to the front where Chewy was sitting before. They were coming out of hyperspace, She buckled herself in and helped Chewy land, the planet was green and had some water here and there. "Still better than Jakku." Rey thought, still amazed that there was green all over the place. The Falcon flew down and sped past the tree line across a lake. Rey could see a landing area that was to their left, it was right below them, The Falcon started to descend. There were people celebrating and cheering - At the collapse of Star Killer Base.
The Falcon landed gently, as people and droids rushed over. Rey lowered the ramp, "Chewy grab Finn and take him to the medical bay." She said, unbuckling her belts. She followed Chewy who was now holding Finn in his furry arms. Rey stopped on the ramp when she saw Leia, They both slowly walked up to each other with pained expressions on their faces, knowing that Leia lost her husband, Her Love, and Rey lost a friend/father figure. They hugged, a tear had rolled down Rey's face. Chewy set Finn on a transport and the medical personnel surrounded him, Chewy followed behind them.
"I'm so sorry..." Is all Rey Could think about in that moment.