Chapter 2

"Bella, I'm not upset—enough—I just can't figure out why you never told me" Jake squeezed my hand pulling me back into the garage before letting go and walking a few steps away to lean against the table again.

"How exactly was I supposed to tell you Jacob when you wouldn't talk to me for two years, two years Jake? That's a hell of a long time to wait for you to at Least show yourself to me!" I said trying to hold back my irritation as if it wasn't obvious I missed him.

"I couldn't face you because I didn't want to lose the memories of the Bella I knew, Trust me Bella it hurt not to see you." He explained meeting my eyes every so often. "Bella it killed me enough when I lost you…I don't want to feel that again" He added with an expression that looked miserable and I believed it truly hurt him to hear that I chose Edward over him.

"Jake, you don't have to lose me" I walked over to him leaving a foot between us grabbing his hand intertwining our fingers. "I'm right here. I'm the same Bella just a different look on the outside." I smiled softly to him as the rain poured down outside the doorway; Jake pulled me into a hug right then like he always did when I was human—a long loving hug. We pulled away together and smiled like old times before Jake slowly let go of my hand returning to his bike.

"What did you do to the bike? The paint job looks scratchy and your fixing all the parts." I asked gracefully sitting on the small table beside him. Jake looked away and mumbled something I almost wouldn't be able to hear without my vampire hearing.

"I-I wrecked it the day we said goodbye" He mumbled softly under his breath grabbing another part putting it into the bike securely. I glanced down at him and I noticed he had an unreadable expression—something that meant I hurt Jake more than I thought myself.

Silence fell around us as I listened to Jake's calm breathing and the rain pound against the roof. I thought of how everything would be if I chose Jake instead…he was there for me when Edward left but Edward is my soul mate—my true love. Could it be possible that I doubt Edward? Or having feelings again for Jake? I shook my head at the thought hating the truth behind it wanting to scream aloud.

"Jacob? I—I have to go." I said rising to my feet as he looked up at me with a questioned face. He rose after I glanced away and pulled me into a tight hug that I just relaxed into. While we were still locked together I opened my eyes knowing I could never come back—he wasn't part of my world anymore. We met each other's eyes and Jake showed something I'd never thought I would see again…Love. He grabbed hold of my chin in which I looked away lightly pushing against his chest; He tightened his hand at my waist pushing me to him and before I could react—even at Immortal speed he kissed me like we had kissed on the mountain the day he found out I was getting married. He was fighting for me by reminding me he still cared for me. After the kiss, I slipped back into his hug for a moment and left his arms the next second walking out of the garage.

Jasper would certainly find out of this soon enough.

I pulled up to the house to find all my family home. Edward was welcoming me with my lullaby, Esme, Renesmee, and Carlisle were listening to him play. Jasper and Alice were upstairs, and Rosalie was nowhere to be found along with Emmett. I pulled into my parking spot between Emmett's jeep and Alice's Porsche only to be greeted a second later by Jasper alone in the doorway.

"Why do I feel lust in your mood?" he whispered for only me to hear.

"I went to go see Jacob, that's all." I knew if I said anything more Edward would find out and I wasn't in the mood to start anything with him. I put on an almost worried look to show Jasper I did something I should regret but actually don't. He stayed composed but understood that I probably did something with Jacob but didn't officially know.

Renesmee went flying through the door a few seconds later after Jasper and I silenced ourselves practically saying we would talk about it later. Renesmee smiled brightly showing her sharp teeth; I reached down to hug her as Jasper left the room possibly back upstairs to Alice. I held my little girl close as our cold and semi warm bodies touched I thought of Jake again—ugh why can't I let go of him? She wrapped her little 2 year old arms around my neck as I lifted her up to carry her into the living room; Edward was standing at the piano when I set Renesmee down before she ran off to find Grandma Esme. I didn't even look at Edward before I sped upstairs to shower and change the "wet dog" smell off before anyone completely asked where I had been although the smell and common sense of the moment gave me away.

"Bella, my dear you could have told me you wanted to go see him. I would've gone with you." Edward said wrapping his arms around my half naked body. He placed kisses along my neck and down my shoulder as I stood there thinking about what I was going to say to him; I turned in his arms to face him knowing this wasn't going to end well.

"Edward I didn't tell you because I wanted to go alone. I wanted to see him again alone." I said it softly with a slight hesitation but Edward didn't notice; he only replied that it was fine. I slid my arms up his while he tangled my fingers in the swell of my back. It was late and we could both here Renesmee being wrestled into bed by Emmett, we smiled to each other as I pulled off Edward's shirt quickly and we unclasped my bra. We'd let instinct take over from there…we had all night.