A Letter that You'll Never Read
By xSunnySideUp
Disclaimer: Again, none of Gakuen Alice belongs to me.
Summary: FOUR-SHOT. "You write a letter to someone special in your life, and then you give it to them! Tsubasa-senpai, Misaki-senpai you should try it!" TxM
PART TWO
From Tsubasa
Why am I doing this?
That was the one and only question that ran through his mind. On a peaceful, Sunday night such as this, there could be millions of other things to do. Like hanging out with friends, studying, taking a nap, eating, anything- just what on earth was he doing?
His hands gripping tightly around the ink pen he held in his right hand, the frustration elevated as he stared at the piece of lined paper on his desk top- blank.
What am I doing?
He dropped the pen carelessly and heaved a sigh. He didn't intend to write a letter, at least not tonight. But for some reason that morning, he had the sudden urge to write to Kaname and see how he was doing in the hospital. And after writing a letter to Kaname, his hands had acted on their own. And before he even knew it, another piece of stationary was whipped out, and on the very top he had written:
Misaki,
He knew who this person was. In fact, you could say he knew this person just a little too well. Everything from the most embarrassing secrets to family problems that rarely ever got told while you studied at Alice Academy. He knew all her favorites- food, music, clothing, and even her preference in guys. And he knew all her pet peeves, strong points, and even the weak points.
In a way it couldn't have been helped. After all, being stuck inside the school at only age three and without a family, soon your classmates become your family. And that was exactly what happened with him and Misaki.
At the very beginning, she was the type of person who would drive him nuts. It wasn't because she was as dumb as a rock, or she caused problems for other people. It was just her rightful personality. The girl had an iron backbone. And you'd have to do years of convincing if you wanted her to see things your way. And there wasn't anything wrong with that. It just seemed so... tiresome. He had always been the mellow fellow- going with the flow of the chaotic classroom. But Misaki had always been the one beating up bullies or lecturing other kids to follow the rules. She was a goody-two shoes, and needless to say got along fine with most of the teachers.
He may have been mellow with his classmates, but his teachers were another story. The work they gave the students was ridiculous and could maybe even be considered as child labor... mentally. And since he admitted that he wasn't the brightest kid around, he had trouble keeping up with the schoolwork.
And it wasn't just his homework problem- the teachers just seemed to hate him. Apparently the "mellow fellow" attitude just doesn't go well with certain teachers. They had always mistook his laid back personality for someone who didn't care about school. It just all seemed so superficial- the entire school. The star ratings, the classes, everything. All people did was judge people. What kind of school was that?
He may have known Misaki since he was three, but that didn't mean they immediately bonded afterwards. It was around the time the curse happened. The "star" curse that he just didn't really mind nowadays. It was almost like a permanent tattoo, except you didn't need to drill needles in to get one.
He didn't even remember what he did to get cursed. All he knew was that whenever someone said something along the lines of "I will curse you", he'd just laugh. And that was exactly what he did when that maniac middle school student took him out onto the schoolyard that day. Really, maybe he abused his Alice a few times on him. So what? It was his own Alice to abuse. And all he did was make him do jumping jacks for a half hour. To suddenly tell him that he was going to curse him- wasn't that a bit too overboard?
Apparently not for the maniac. Before he knew it, the star-shaped "curse symbol" was already embedded into his flesh, and it wouldn't disappear until Mr. Cursing-maniac decided so. His star ranking dropped, and it was around that time when he and Misaki finally noticed each other.
It started out innocently enough. Just simple questions about what happened to his face, from which he lied and said it was a tattoo. Then the conversations started to become longer and deeper, and pretty soon she became the only person he ever talked to.
He told her about his Alice. About how people classified him as a delinquent because he enjoyed using his Alice on people just for his amusement. She told him about her Alice. About how people had just assumed that she was a model student and had a useful Alice, when in reality being a doppelganger made her see sides of herself that she never saw before. He told her about his best friend Kaname, who was still in the hospital for the time being because of his weak body and Alice usage. She tried to help him with his schoolwork, and in return he actually studied for tests.
In just a year's time they had become the best of friends. And becoming friends with Misaki also opened the door to a whole new circle of other friends.
She found out about his curse sooner than he had thought. And she became his salvation whenever indescribable pain shook through his entire body. Some of their friends kept their distance from Misaki because of him. And he had thought that she would eventually leave him. She was a model student after all, and she had many better, smarter friends. She was at a higher place than he was, how could he ask her to stay? It was just too selfish.
"Tsubasa I don't care what the teachers say. You're a good person. You don't deserve to be cursed! Don't listen to them!"
So strong. Her words, they always had such a strong impact on him. Whether it was just a small "Thank you" or even a whole lecture about something, they always revealed her independent character. He had always admired that about her. Compared to her, he just seemed like a big coward.
"I don't care if people think of me differently. That just means I've stopped living life they way they want me to."
Slowly, he picked up his ink pen once again. Suddenly he just seemed to have so much to say to her. So much to thank for. The first fourteen years of his life, they would've been so different without her in it. It even scared him to think about what could've happened if he hadn't met Misaki. She was so important to him. Just so important...
Misaki,
I've known you for a long time, and I bet you know that as well. And through all these years, I only have two words to say to you.
Thank you.
Thank you for being such a great leader. You always chose the right choice instead of the lazy choice, or the easier choice. And that's something not a lot of people can do.
Thank you for listening. You always listen. No matter how boring it may be, or how long it takes for me to tell you something. You'd always be willing to listen.
Thank you for understanding. You're smart, we both know that. You knew just what to say whenever I worried about Kaname, or whenever I talked about my curse. You may not have understood what it felt like for me in those situations, but you understood me well enough to understand what to do or say to comfort me.
Thank you for tutoring me. Self-explanatory.
Thank you for showing me that it didn't matter what other people thought of me. You always did things your way, and you attract a lot of people towards you because you always trust yourself. And trusting myself was something you taught me to do within time.
Thank you for taking care of me the times when I was sick. I don't know how you managed to burn chicken soup, but you did it. Still, you made the effort so I appreciate that.
Thank you for helping me make other friends. The only person I ever wanted to be friends with was just Kaname. But you introduced me to all these great people, and you opened my boundaries to places I never thought I'd be able to go to.
Thank you for sticking up for me. Whether it was against students or teachers, when it came down to it, you always stood up for what you believed in. That time in sixth grade when Jinno-sensei was yelling at me because he thought I cheated on a test, you were the only one who had enough guts to yell at him back. And you weren't even scared when he threatened to lower your star ranking or to shock you with his lightning Alice.
You may think this is a lot of thanks. But I do have a lot to be thankful for because of you. I don't often show my gratitude towards you, so I thought I'd try what Mikan did with the letter thing. I hope you know that you are a very special person to me as well.
Thank you for being my friend. And thank you for coming to this Academy.
Tsubasa
P.S. Also thank you so much for being the person I love.
Tsubasa stopped short. What just a minute. What did he just write?
Thank you for being such a great leader.
"A leader?" he snorted. "As if! All she does is beat people."
Thank you for listening.
"Listening?" he repeated. "She never listens to a word I say. Either that or she just completely ignores me."
Thank you for understanding.
"Understand my foot!" he yelled. "As if she'd get anything through her thick skull."
Thank you for tutoring me.
There was a short silence. "Ok, no excuses for that one."
You always did things your way, and you attract a lot of people towards you because you always trust yourself.
"Yeah she attracted a lot of people... a lot of angry people," he muttered.
Thank you for taking care of me the times when I was sick.
"Why am I thanking her for the chicken soup that almost blew my digestive system?" he exclaimed, shaking his head.
Thank you for helping me make other friends.
"Wow. That just made me sound like the biggest loser ever," he rolled his eyes.
Thank you for sticking up for me.
"And that also makes me sound like a big wimp," he frowned. "Which I'm not. Anymore."
P.S. Also thank you so much for... being the person I love.
Complete and total silence.
Being the person he loves? And not in past term either. Yes, he was definitely out of his mind when he was writing this.
But just then the picture of Misaki smiling at him flashed into his brain. Ok, he admitted she had gotten a lot prettier over the years, but that didn't mean he liked her or anything. In fact, it was just his hormones kicking in. And he had just turned to the girl closest to him. That was all. It had nothing to do with the time he got mad at the guy who was flirting with her before special abilities class. And of course there was just no relation to that other time when he felt incredibly embarrassed when she gave him chocolate for Valentine's Day last year. And the time he felt like crying when Misaki got punished for something he did was just irrelevant.
Right?
"I'm going to write another letter," Tsubasa confirmed to himself. "There's no way I'm giving a letter like that to Misaki."
Within the last half hour before the clock struck eleven, he had quickly scribbled down a new letter, stuffed it into the envelope, and left it on the desk to send off the next morning. He tried not to think too much about his first letter. All he knew was that his second letter was something he could actually give to her. Nothing mushy or words that would make things awkward between them. And that just seemed to be all that mattered at the moment.
What a coward.
Author's Notes.
Part two! I had difficulties starting off this part, but after the first few paragraphs I got into it pretty fast xD Heh, some of the stuff may be made up (like about their past, etc.) There's not much information about Tsubasa's curse or his and Misaki's childhood during Gakuen Alice, so I hope nobody thinks these things actually happened.
Next chapter will be from Misaki's POV- look forward to it! R&R!
xSunnySideUp