I was in my bed pretending to sleep when the girls came up to check on me. I was thinking about what had happened. I just kissed James Potter and screamed at him in front of the entire Common Room. I showed him how much I truly cared yet I ran away. I was afraid. After all he never did stay with a girl for very long and he hadn't been with anyone since halfway through last year. But why should that make a difference. I had completely fallen for him. He finally won but he didn't care anymore. He didn't want me. He'd matured and he probably wanted that blonde girl. The one every guy wanted and the one that I knew James had already gotten. I hate this feeling of jealousy it's a monster. I fell aslepp that night hours after the girls had come back from the party. I had cried myself to sleep and ended up with nightmares. I was tossing and turning to thoughts of James with the blonde girl. It hurt and I didn't sleep well. I woke up that morning feeling terrible. I hadn't sleep very well or very long. I saw that no one else was up but I got dressed anyway and went down to breakfaset. I walked into the Great Hall and saw barely anyone was there but Remus was sitting at the Gryffindor table. I walked over to him and sat down while grabbing myself some food.

"Hey Lily. How are you feeling?" he asked me taking in my disheveled and exhausted appearance.

"Hey Remus. I feel terrible. I got barely any sleep last night" I sighed.

"Well do you want to talk about it?" he asked and I smiled slightly. I was always thankful for such a good friend and I knew that I could tell him anything. He was like my brother.

"Well I saw James flirting with some girl and it bothered me because he didn't even acknowledge that I was there last night but he had the nerve to talk to her. I got jealuos so I left for a while and practiced some spells until Dumbledore sent me back to the Common Room. I talked to the girls a little before getting up to go to my room. And then...well you were there for the next part."

"He doesn't have a girlfriend. The only girl he ever talks about is you – and don't give me that look ask Peter or Sirius if you don't believe me. The reason he ignored you was because he couldn't hear you. When we asked him later why he didn't say anything to you he instantly started looking for you. That girl knew where you were and was flirting with him because she didn't want him to find you. He saw you leave the Common Room and was going to follow but we held him back. Oh and you do realize that he is highly confused right now. He thought that you didn't like him."

"Is he really that oblivious?"

"Um...I guess so. I don't understand how he could've missed it since he notices everything about you."

"What am I supposed to do Remus? He didn't kiss back last night so that was enough to show that he doesn't-"

"You do realize that he was still under the notion that you hated him right? He didn't kiss back because he was surprised as was everyone else except well...you know. He would've if you gave him the chance instead of running off crying" he said looking at me but I wasn't looking I was staring at my plate. "What are you afraid of?"

"He doesn't stay with girls very long Remus. He's considered a player. He's one of the hottest most sought-after guy in the entire school. He's the captain of the best quidditch team in the entire school. He's one of the smartest people in the school when he actually applies himself and isn't showing off. What is there not to be scared of?"

"He never stay long with other girls because he has his eyes only on you ever since first year on the train. They were like a distraction for him since he couldn't have you. He really cares for you and he matured because I told him what you told me the middle of last year. I told him that you'd go out with him if he stopped being arrogant, cocky, if he stopped hexing people, and if he started taking school more seriously. He stopped being a player and stopped going out with girls. He wanted to impress you. That's the only reason that he did all of those things. He made sure he asked you out a thousand times..."

"Actually it was 2,476 times" I said cutting him off.

"Alright he asked you out 2, 476 times in the most annoying way so that he could have your attention. He bullied Snivellus because he was jealous that you gave a death-eater more attention than him. He craved your attention and he didn't know any other way to get it rather than that" he smiled "Oh and really have you been counting?"

"I've always counted" I said sheepishly "I always fancied him a little bit but I refused to go out with him because I thought it was a only a crush and because he was arrogant and a bully..."

"There's something else isn't there?" Remus said.

"Well...Snape doesn't like him and I didn't want to ruin my friendship with him so in a way you could say that he brainwashed me..."

"Why don't you just talk to James?"

"After last night? Are you crazy?"

"I am best friends with James and Sirius" he pointed out making me laugh. I looked towards the entrance of the Great Hall and saw James walking in with Sirius. "You're staying here by the way" Remus whispered.

"What?" I hissed "He probably doesn't even want to see me!" Remus smiled at me but didn't comment. I looked down at my food taking a sudden interest in my waffles.

"Hello Remus! And oh look! It's our very own Lily-Flower!" Sirius cried happily.

"Hey guys" Remus said and then elbowed me making me jump a little.

"H-hey g-guys. F-fancy s-seeing y-you h-here" I stuttered earning shocked looks from James and Sirius but a huge smile from Remus.

"You seem awfully nervous Lily" Remus smiled and I shot him a glare. I was about to stand up but Remus said "Sit" in a very stern voice that shocked us. I nodded and sat back down.

"Wow and I thought I was the dog" Sirius commented.

"I'm not one to mess with Remus. I'm not stupid" I replied simply still not taking the chance of looking at James.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Sirius asked angry all of a sudden.

"Remus is amazing with spells he knows all the ones that I do."

"Well so do James and I" Sirius protested while James glared at him for dragging him into it.

"Well Remus has a little more tact than the two of you...no offense James...which makes him a lot more of a threat." I replied and smiled slightly at James who smiled back. I noticed how nervous he was which didn't seem to make sense. Since when was he nervous. I shot him a questioning glance but he just smiled.