If you had asked Rima, even just a month ago, if she would ever pursue a friends with benefits type of relationship with anyone, much less Nagihiko, she would have laughed and called you a moron. She wasn't partial towards guys, so she didn't want to date, but she did not have any reason to believe that she needed to have sex in the first place.
But it was in the days that followed Nagihiko's confession where her opinion changed.
She became more aware of the boy's presence at that point, and for some reason she constantly found her eyes drifting over towards his face. She didn't know what was happening, but she felt herself drawn to him. No, no matter what Amu or the others would tell her if she dared to ask, she was not in love with him. It wasn't so much of a feeling of like, but something different…. She would feel herself heating up as she stared at him, and thoughts would fill her mind that she hadn't known she was capable of imagining. Her and Nagihiko, doing this and that. Hugging, kissing, touching each other… several times her mind had spiraled out of control and she found herself daydreaming about sex as well. Nagihiko and her, doing the deed….
It took a while to place the emotion, but after she did it was unmistakable: lust. What she felt for Nagihiko was purely lust. She didn't love him, she barely even liked him, but she lusted after him.
And Rima wanted him. She wanted all of him. But yet she didn't want to date, didn't want to be tied to another being who she must call a boyfriend. And then it hit her: they could be friends with benefits.
Yes, all of the fun without any of the annoying downfalls of a relationship. Rima's lust could be fulfilled, and maybe Nagihiko would be pleased by this as well. He did claim to love her, right? He would do whatever she wanted, and if she wanted to use his body and nothing else, well then he would let her.
Maybe it was wrong to manipulate him like this, Rima wasn't sure, but he was the one freaking out left and right, he was the one drawing all kinds of weird emotions out of her so that she could barely think straight. It was all his fault… everything was all his fault.
And if he ended up hurt, well that was his fault too.
Nagihiko wasn't sure what had happened, but he left the vacant classroom he and Rima had been in in a daze. She had called him there, told him she only wanted his body, and then kissed him. Nagihiko, probably too in love for his own good, had agreed and the next thing he knew Rima's mouth was on him again, her tongue pressing against his lips and then dipping in between them. He found himself drawing her body into his as her tongue touched his, his fingers pulling at her hair as she ran her hands through his.
Nagihiko hadn't been thinking; it physically wasn't possible for him to have done so in that moment. All of the thoughts and worries that plagued his mind vanished, and the part of him that always thought out situations well was silenced on the spot. He couldn't think of the consequences of his actions, he couldn't think of what may happen the next day. All he could think of was Rima.
Until she pulled back, her lips red, practically begging Nagihiko to capture them again, and gave him a slight smile. "I'll see you tomorrow, okay?"
"Ah… okay." Nagihiko didn't really want to separate from her so soon, but also didn't really want to push things much further yet. Yes, he loved Rima, and nothing would satisfy him more than screwing her right there on the teacher's desk, but he knew that she didn't love him. And he didn't want his first time to pass quite like that.
Maybe, he thought, if he held out long enough and spent enough time with her, she would grow to have the same feelings for him that he had for her.
It took Nagihiko at least a minute to realize that he was alone in the classroom and leave it. Figures that Rima would run off after such a thing. She probably didn't want him to ask her to hang out or something.
As he headed down the hall to leave the building, Nagihiko ran into the two people he didn't particularly want to see: Tadase and Amu.
"Hey, Nagi! What did Rima want?" Amu's expression made it plain as day that she suspected nothing.
"She wanted to ask me a question about the homework," Nagihiko lied without skipping a beat, which was a skill he was glad he had mastered over the years he was his female ego.
"Oh, but why did she have to be alone with you?" Amu asked, tilting her head in her confusion as the walked down the hall. Nagihiko was quick to reply.
"She was embarrassed to ask in front of anyone else." It was a perfectly believable statement; Rima didn't try to hide her feelings about Nagihiko, so no one would doubt that she was embarrassed to ask him for help.
"Hey, now that I think about it, you look happier then before," Amu noted, causing Nagihiko's breath to catch in his throat. Oh god, what was the excuse for that?
"You think so?" Nagihiko asked, wearing a skeptical expression. Amu nodded earnestly.
"Yeah. Did the girl you like suddenly have a change of heart?" Nagihiko stumbled over his own feet at this, his heart pounding at top speed.
"Unfortunately, I don't think she has. Besides, I was with Rima-chan the whole time, so I wouldn't know," Nagihiko said quietly. Amu frowned as she moved to push open the doors at then end of the hall and stood there for a moment.
"Yeah, of course. What was I thinking anyway?" Amu furrowed her eyebrows, leaving Nagihiko with the feeling that she might have subconsciously known what was going on after all.
"Well, that's quite a shame," Tadase said, giving his friend a sympathetic smile. Amu finally pushed the door open, and the group walked outside.
Nagihiko was glad he had chosen to bring a scarf, not only because the chilly winter wind was hitting him straight in the face, but he had the feeling that his expression may have ended up giving something away. As he wrapped the fabric around his neck, he replied with a weak grin, "Thanks, but I'll be fine."
"Well, I'd better be heading home! We'll see you tomorrow!" Amu said happily from beneath her coat, her voice coming out a bit muffled. Nagihiko smiled at her.
"Bye!" he said with a small wave, watching as Tadase and Amu reciprocated his gesture and then walked off in the opposite direction from him, quickly picking up into another conversation about something else.
As he watched them go, it suddenly hit Nagihiko right in the face; Tadase had been rejected by Amu ages ago, but he still could hang around her just fine. He didn't freak out every time she looked his way. Maybe Nagihiko could do the same with Rima.
Yes, he would give it his all to act just as he had for the past five years. He would treat her no differently at all.
maybe it would be easier than he thought.
The next day dragged on a bit too long (not as if the past week hadn't) but it was for a different reason. Nagihiko's mind was spinning with thoughts of Rima and him. What Rima and he had done in the deserted classroom, what they could very possibly be doing later that day… Nagihiko was finally understanding the lovesick feeling.
But that wasn't accurate, he supposed; only he was in love. Rima made it plain as day that she didn't love him at all. But that was alright, right? He could maybe convince her to see the light.
The only problem at the moment for him was that Rima was still acting very distant. Sure, Nagihiko wasn't expecting her to act like they were best friends or anything, but he had figured that he would get more than the normal distant attitude from her. Maybe a greeting or a smile. But no... she ignored him as usual.
That didn't matter though, because Nagihiko was too busy trying to keep his mind on class; if Rima was talking to him or anything else like that he had a feeling he'd completely lose his attention to the lesson. Just because his life was being rapidly heading down a path to disaster didn't mean that he should let his studies fall behind.
As hard as it was to focus on his work, Nagihiko somehow managed to for most of the day. He took the proper notes, did the correct work, and even managed to study his text book when that was what he was to do. He was focused until the end of class, when he felt Rima nudge his leg from underneath the desk. He looked up at her, a small blush growing on his cheeks, to see that her jerk her head towards the desk slightly. He was slightly confused until he noticed that Rima had her arm under the desk and immediately moved his so that it was underneath the table as well.
Rima's hand moved around blindly for a moment before Nagihiko's met her's. He felt something slip into her palm before she pulled back and turned back to her book. Nagihiko held the small scrap of paper in his hand and unfolded it carefully, making sure that nobody else saw it, and read in small, curly handwriting the words, "My mom is getting home late. Come over at five."
Nagihiko's stomach flip-flopped at those words, knowing full well what Rima was implying; there was only one reason she would invite him over when her parents weren't home. She wanted to have sex.
Nagihiko quickly scribbled down underneath her own words in hurried handwriting, "Are you sure you want to do this?"
He reached over and rubbed her knee, causing her to reach down and grab the paper once more. She read it quickly before letting out a quiet scoff, quickly writing two words down after Nagihiko's. She pressed her hand into his, slipping the paper into his palm. As he opened it Rima gave him a confident look and he read, "Of course."
Nagihiko wasn't expecting this to happen so soon, he really wasn't. And although his body wanted this so badly, he wasn't sure if it was right. To do something so serious without being together or thinking it out properly before hand, well that was just reckless. Didn't that go against everything that he had ever learned from his parents and teachers? Wasn't sex supposed to be a sacred thing between two people who loved each other? While Nagihiko truly loved Rima, he knew she didn't feel the same way. Would agreeing to this end up hurting her?
Nagihiko wanted to say no. He wanted to suggest that they wait a while and think things out more, but couldn't bring himself to, because he was honestly scared. At this point, he still had Rima. Maybe not in the way he desired, but he still had her. What if him saying no made her mad, she blew off the whole relationship, and got together with one of her sleazy fanboys? Wasn't it better to be in a relationship like this then be without her and let someone horrible get her instead?
Rima looked up and met his eyes, and it only took Nagihiko half a second to nod in response. He would do it... he would have sex with Rima.
But, deep down, he knew it wasn't the right decision
Nagihiko had never been so nervous in his entire life, even when he had to tell Amu that he was Nadeshiko. He just stood outside of the door to Rima's house, hand poised to knock, yet unable to connect it with the door. What was he doing? He couldn't do this! He needed to go home right now! But yet, even though he couldn't bring himself to go inside, he couldn't bring himself to walk away either. As much as he didn't want this, there was an equally sized part that did want this.
Before Nagihiko could make up his mind one way or another, the door had been opened and a scowling face appeared below his. "Are you going to stand there all day?"
"Ah, no," Nagihiko muttered, embarrassed that Rima had caught his moment of hesitation. She held the door open expectantly, and with a now-or-never type of feeling, Nagihiko slowly walked inside, slipping his shoes off at the entrance. Rima walked on ahead of him, and he struggled to keep up, his mind so muddled and his heart beating so sporadically that he was surprised that he could walk straight.
When he finally made it to her room, he walked inside reluctantly, slowly shutting the door behind him. Rima stood before him, a vaguely amused look on her face as she gestured him over to her. Taking small steps, Nagihiko approached her and she reached up and stroked his face. "You're so nervous."
"Ah, a bit..." Nagihiko admitted. Rima moved her hand from her face and placed it on his shoulder in unison with her other one, taking a brief moment before pushing down on them so that Nagihiko fell backwards and was now sitting on her bed.
"That's alright, I'll take care of everything," she murmured lowly into his ear as she sat down on his lap, her legs on either side of his body as she wrapped her arms around his neck.
She leaned forward and met his lips in a kiss, her soft lips slowly moving against his as she pressed her chest up against his, grabbing Nagihiko's hair in her hands as he let out a small moan. As he desperately wrapped his arms around her waist, he found something wet sliding over his lips, and opened his mouth so that his tongue could touch her's. He let Rima take control, enjoying the feeling of her tongue slowly sliding over his before chasing it back into his mouth and licking his teeth. As she kissed him she rolled her hips into his, delighted when Nagihiko let out a groan into her mouth.
When Rima finally ran out of breath she pulled back, a small trail of spit reaching from her lips to his. She could see that Nagihiko was quite overwhelmed in this moment and decided to take that to her advantage as she began to undress him, pulling his shirt from over his head as he worked it off of his arms in a bit of a daze. As soon as the shirt was discarded Rima leaned forward and licked his neck, causing him to moan and squirm a little under her. Getting quite the reaction that she desired, she began to unbutton her own top as she sucked at the base of his neck, not quite worried about the hickey that would surely be there when she was done.
Rima slowly pulled back from Nagihiko as she tossed her shirt aside, leaving him wide-eyed at the sight in front of him. With a devilish smirk, she slowly reached behind herself and unlatched her bra, discarding it before Nagihiko reached up and rubbed her breasts eagerly. She moaned as he did this, her hands pulling his head in towards her neck as she ground her hips into his once more. Beneath her she could feel that Nagihiko was quite turned on, and smirked triumphantly to herself as Nagihiko applied kisses to her neck. She broke away from him after a short while and pushed him down to the bed, so that she was now straddling him.
Slowly, she began to pull down her skirt, but this was where Nagihiko's voice of reason finally came to it's senses and tried to stop it. "Rima-chan, I'm not sure if we should do thi- ah!"
Rima cut Nagihiko off by grabbing his crotch. She smirked at the boy as he moaned beneath her. "But it feels good, right?"
"Ah," Nagihiko couldn't argue with that statement, especially when Rima touched him like that, so instead he brought up another point, "What about protection?"
"I've got it," Rima assured him, taking the opportunity to pull of her skirt and panties in one smooth movement. "Any more objections?"
If she hadn't had done that, maybe Nagihiko could have came up with some sort of a rebuttal, but faced with the sight of Rima's womanhood all he could say was, "Oh god."
"I thought not," Rima smirked, and even though Nagihiko had promised himself that no matter what happened, no matter what took place, they were not going to have sex that day, minutes later he found Rima riding him into oblivion. It felt so very good that Nagihiko couldn't even try to stop it, and even though he knew he would later regret it he had let himself get sucked in.
It certainly said something about their relationship when Rima forced him to leave only minutes after they had finished, so that he was still sweaty and pink-faced, but Nagihiko brushed this off; she probably just didn't want her mother to catch them. As Nagihiko left he felt like even though Rima wasn't in love with him yet, she could fall in love with him soon, and that maybe this wouldn't be such a bad way to court her. Yes, this wouldn't be quite a bad way at all.
Too soon would he realize just how wrong he was.
A/N: Oh my. That was so embarrassing for me to write. (What am I saying, it's not even all that detailed xD)
Oh, and sorry I'm like a week late with this chapter. I have good excuses as to why, but won't bore you with the details. ;) The next chapter probably won't be up for another two weeks as I'm going on a long camping trip but I'll try my hardest to finish it soon. Thank you so much for reading! And if you see any errors, don't hesitate to point them out- I wrote this with a really bad cold and can't think straight. xD