Here's another chapter. Hope you're not confused about the story. this chapter is yet another one of sakura's POVs well actually this fic would most likely be in someone's point of view or mainly team 7 and a couple of other personalities... and uhm... short third person view so yeah... hope you still stick around.

Sigh.

Every since that day all I ever do is reminisce and reminisce and reminisce, reminding my self of my idiotic way of thinking. still even now, now that I've made the worst decision of all and I totally miss judged him and that I found my mindless wonderings irksome and it caused me to realize things that I shouldn't, now when I can do the right thing and demand my rights back and gain my passport out of sasuke's life forever... hn. I just stayed and stayed. This somehow gave me the idea that maybe I'm a retard or something. I've felt foolish around him almost all the time but nothing close to I hate you or I've had enough had passed my mind and went out straight thru my mouth. They just stayed as thoughts and what ifs inside my mind trying to find its way out of my lips.

Gosh maybe the way I think is the reason why I've always held my self back. C'mon it's not like I can keep up with his cold treatment for the rest of my life!

If this thing had happened a couple of years ago when my feelings were the same I would've been the happiest girl in town. I could've died in that spot even though he really didn't mean anything he said. I could've discard and totally ignored his blank stare and pretended that he's acting all romantic and stuffs like that but you see, it wasn't even close to that. I suddenly found my self trying to cut the bonds I tried holding on for as long as I can remember. there were times when I tried telling him about the disadvantages of our 'relationship'. I said things that will surely make his mind turn its back to the whole idea of marrying and settling down. I've tried persuading him to go and find the perfect girl or something like that. Not that I find my self unworthy but rather, I find him the one who's unworthy. Odd, I didn't thought that I would have thoughts of him being like that but now I think it fits him the most. In some occasions I tried talking him out of the relationship but every time I start to insert the topic about a possible break up he would always ALWAYS pretend not to find my ideas and my hypothesis logical. He would even say things like, that is not a very good thing to think about especially now, sakura. Or something like, I don't really mind this whole thing at all. Or you're just thinking too much, don't do that anymore. Or the worst I've ever heard from him, you're annoying. Uhh. Now am I the one who's annoying.?!

At first, the thought that maybe he really didn't want to break up crossed my mind and yeah it felt good and warm but I pushed them out of the variety of possibilities I have. He would never ever be the boyfriend type. sasuke uchiha is far for that specified category. Then maybe he really was just too high and mighty to ever be seen courting some girl in konoha or anywhere for that matter. Yep. That's definitely his reason. And I blocked any ideas snooping in my head. I settled for that and actually it really made all the possible explanation something could get out from uchiha sasuke. He was never an easy person to extract emotions from, after all.

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My gaze slowly turned southward and I found my self staring at sasuke's gift resting peacefully around my neck, it's a necklace.

A thin silver necklace with a pendant, an outline of a heart that is coated with what seemed like grounded diamonds with a small out line of the uchiha fan hanging inside. I would've felt happy about the gift if I hadn't had the feeling that somehow the necklace had been worn by another girl. And a woman's intuition is something you can count on. I never asked him about it nor did I ever say anything about it being worn by someone else. everyone would think that he's cheating or something and I don't want his 'greatness' to discontinue and if ever that thing could've happened he would be loathed by everyone and will be treated as a garbage by those people who says I'm important and such. And I don't want him to think that I don't really trust him. I do, I just find it hard not to feel that he's playing around.

Everybody thought about it as a very wonderful gift and I can't quite disagree. It looks expensive and it gave out the image that he really is decided that I'm the perfect one and only one who deserves to be his wife. The uchiha fan dangling inside the heart seems to stand out and distribute such thoughts in their minds. Sasuke had done the 'act' professionally, he came in to me and greeted me a happy birthday and pulled out a black box which contains the necklace. He opened it in from of everyone and took it in his hand and made me turn around for him to lock it behind me. Everyone present honestly thought that he's a sweet as fluff boyfriend towards me but I know better than to believe him. Even then in my birthday he never made me feel that he was even sincere in saying I love you or happy birthday everyone believed him beside me and perhaps sai. How did I know? Well sai told me that after the said 'act'. Sai had been known to be blunt and I really don't mind him being like that. It's better than to hear does kind words lying their way to your heart. Truth is better. And I deserve it more than anyone else.

Sai approached me after the commotion. He practically dragged me along and never did he forget to piss sasuke a little. Hey beautiful I wanna have a word with you. He said as he took my hand or was it snatched away from sasuke's'. Sai rarely call me beautiful. Before sasuke's great comeback sai would always call me ugly. He would point it out to me as if it's the most obvious thing in the world and know what? On some weird situation I actually believed him but that time sai acted totally different from what I and everyone had known him for, maybe because he really is annoyed by sasuke and pissing him off makes his day and maybe it's a personal matter involving the both of them. Sasuke glared at him not because he's jealous or anything, he just hates sai being a bastard in front of him well, they show a number of similarities, much like twins. Sakura. Sasuke said with a low and cold voice. He said my name but he was still looking at sai. They seem to be having a glaring battle and I'm the reason why. I hate being in the middle of those two but I somehow end up there most of the time. I sigh. And it felt awkward like how it is when they argue or have such a battle. they seem to find that little hobby quite entertaining but really I don't get sasuke's point on why he lets sai piss him off, I mean I know sai's reason but I really don't want to think about that it makes me feel really sad and bad at the same time but sasuke, I really don't know what's in his mind. Sai seemed to notice that, unlike sasuke hn. Stupid sasuke he ignores me most of the time. Sai tore his eyes away from him and looked at me somehow I found his gaze quite pleading even though he smiled. I turned to sasuke and told him that I'll go and talk to sai for a while. He just shrugged off. I felt really mad but I'd rather not show it to sai, he'll be mad at him and they'll start an awfully long argument.

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Everything became troublesome when sai and I talked. Things became really err... how can I say this... heated? Uhm... I don't really wanna recall what happened after that, it bothers me up to this point even though sai had supposedly explained everything but really it made things WORST.

I looked up, this time focusing my eyes on the reflection of the clock resting on my bedside table. It reads 7:45 pm.

'Hmm, it's almost 8 o'clock and he's still not back. Maybe I should just walk around for awhile.'

I glance at my reflection for the last time and headed for my bedroom door. I took my pouch and locked my front door to be greeted by the cold night breeze.

I started to walk to nowhere in particular my heels clanging with the street echoes making the night feel more cold like someone is leaving and never to come back.

'I guess I should start clearing my thoughts. I've been spacing out for quite some time now and it's not really healthy for a medic like me. I'm suppose to be always alert and focused' but somehow I can't find that calm and relaxed feeling anywhere, even in my own room. Maybe because the things that'll happened later on will change half of my life. I just wish that'll he'll show up before my decision changes and my courage runs away and hides itself on the back of my heart. I don't want to have these little flashbacks anymore. I might find something to change my mind that'll just further this hell's pit that I'm going thru.

This will be the last time that'll be a fool for love.

Yep. That's all for this chapter.!! Gomen if it's err... short?! Anyway please tell me what you think! I would appreciate it if you review... please don't send reviews about the grammatical errors!! I know there's a lot but I've warned you already... and don't flame me... I'll just feel discouraged and I might lose all the ideas I have for this one so uhm... there...

Xiao..!!

akatsuki shi