Disclaimer:

The characters of Twilight are owned by the glorious Stephenie Meyer.

This story is completely fictional. The sorority involved, Sigma Gamma Beta, is a figment of my imagination.

BPOV

I can't believe that the god that I had a crush on for so long was standing in my living room, ever so casually. MY living room, the place that a year ago I would have killed to have him visit.

Ah, that man is almost inhumanly gorgeous.

No, Bella, you can't think like that! I scolded myself.

"Hey guys, I gotta go check my…um…email really quick. I'll be right back," I said, getting up and practically sprinting to my room. I stumbled in and slammed the door.

Could I be any more of an idiot? It is completely obvious that I was flustered at this point; and as usual, I had no problem making an idiot out of myself in front of the whole gang and Edward.

My crush on Edward is part of my past and has no bearings on my current situation, I kept chanting to myself, over and over again.

I walked to my bed and threw myself down. Reaching in my pocket, I grabbed my cell phone and dialed Jacob.

"Heya Bells! I was just thinking about you!"

"Oh really? What were you thinking?" I said, practically rolling my eyes.

"About how badly I want to see my beautiful girlfriend tonight. Can I come over, or are you not done with sorority stuff?"

"Ah, I don't know about that Jake. I actually am in the middle of a discussion about the sorority right now. I just broke away from it for a bit caused I missed you and wanted to hear your voice." Lies of course, but I couldn't tell him the truth. I am sure that Gee, Jake; I left the room because the guy who I had a crush on for the longest time just came over and I realized that I am still infatuated with him. Did I mention that he is going to pledge my sorority and save our chapter? Oh yeah, I will have to spend a LOT of time with him, seeing that he will be one of my pledges.

Right…I can just see Jacob running over here and pulling me out of the apartment, throwing me over his shoulder caveman-style and towing me out of town, never to see my friends again. No, I would rather have him not know at this moment, I don't need his overreactions to the situation add to my ever-growing amount of stress.

"Oh, okay then. As soon as you find out if it's okay that I come over, will you let me know? I can't be out too late tonight; I work tomorrow at 7am."

Jake works at the local Subway as a "sandwich artist." God, I hate that place like none other…not because of the food, but because of the way that Jake smells when he is done with work. I openly refuse to let him come over here in his work clothes because I get nauseous at the scent of marinara sauce and bread mixed together with scents of olives and tuna. Yeesh. Second worse smell in the whole world, second only to blood; which actually causes me to faint when I catch a whiff of it. No fainting spells due to Subway, at least not yet; thank goodness.

"Sounds great Jake. I will call you back as soon as possible, okay?"

"Okay Bella. I love you!"

"You too Jake. Talk to you soon."

I took a deep breath and paced around my room for a second. I almost felt awful not being comfortable with saying the "L" word to Jake yet. He is a great guy, don't get me wrong; we have been best friends since we were in elementary school. He has been with me through everything, and I cherish his friendship more than just about anything.

It's just the age-old saying that applies directly to me: I love Jacob, I just don't know if I am IN love with him. I am attracted to him, sure (it's hard not to be attracted to him. Best words to describe him are tall, dark and handsome), but I don't get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about him. I am almost positive that has a lot to do with the fact that we have known each other for so long that the butterfly phase is long gone, but I don't know for sure.

I know that it may be selfish for me to keep Jacob around even though I don't know exactly how I feel for him, but I don't want to risk losing him. His friendship means too much to me to risk losing.

Sighing, I reached for my door, opened it, and walked out into the living room.

When I got there, the boys were sitting on the floor, engaged in a game on Play Station 3 and Alice and Rosalie were huddled by the coffee table, filing their nails. I pursed my lips at the sight in front of me and almost giggled to myself as to how prissy Alice and Rose seemed.

"Hey, Bella. Good thing you came out of your room, I was just about to send Emmett in after you," Rosalie grinned to me. Why oh why does she have to have a big, burly boyfriend who, by brute strength alone, could possibly make me do whatever he wanted me to do?

The boys paused their game and Emmett looked up to me with a huge smile on his face. "You would've enjoyed that a lot, wouldn't you have Bella?"

"Oh yeah, she'd love it so much that he next time Jacob is over, she would have him retaliate by doing something to Rosalie. Wouldn't you, Bella?" Alice said, pausing while she was filing her nails to look up at me.

I raised one eyebrow and smirked. "OH yeah, you know me. Abusing the powers that a strong boyfriend brings," I said sarcastically. For anyone who knew me, they knew that I didn't like things being done for me. This includes surprises, presents, and unnecessary favors such as the one that Alice was describing.

"Speaking of Jacob, I just got off the phone with him and he was wondering if we would be done talking official Sigma Gamma Beta business so he could come over. He can't stay up too late; he has an early shift tomorrow. Let's get this show on the road," I said, as casually as possible. I don't know why, but it was really hard for me to talk about Jacob in front of Edward. It shouldn't be hard for me; Edward did not care about me at all nor did he care if I had a boyfriend or not. In fact, after last year, I am sure that I could be a lesbian and he wouldn't even bat an eye.

Edward got a peculiar look on his face that made it seem like he was deep in thought. "Who is this 'Jacob' everyone is talking about?"

"Oh, Jacob is Bella's boyfriend. Which is something that you should know if you are going to be one of Bella's pledges," Alice said, not even looking up from her nail file.

I continued looking at Edward, mainly because I simply could not look away from his perfect face. Did I just see a look of jealousy in his eyes? No, that's not possible…I must be misreading him. I am, after all, out of practice.

"Okay, so being this is more my show than anyone else's, I want to make sure that you boys know exactly what you are getting into," I said, licking my lips and staring at Rosalie's nail file as though it was interesting or something. "Your pledge period will be a serious matter, and you will get no special treatment from me. We do not haze because it is against university policy, but we don't take it easy on you, either. You will have to follow all of the pledge requirements, and at the end of your pledge period, there will be a test as to how much you know about our organization. You must pass this test to become an active member in our sorority. It is my job to make sure that you guys follow and complete all of the requirements necessary so you are activated into our group."

I looked over at Emmett, just knowing that he would be there to cause trouble, and I noticed he was snickering to himself. Frowning at his behavior, I continued. "I am not kidding, Emmett. I am also not kidding when I say that we are really counting on you guys, if you guys fail to become an active member, our chapter will be taken away from us. Do you all understand?"

This time it was Jasper who spoke up. "Whoa, when did Bella take on traits reminiscent of a drill sergeant?"

Alice giggled. "When she was voted as vice president of SGB. Really, you don't want to mess with her when it comes to her job as VP."

Alice was telling the truth. Normally I was docile, perfectly happy to blend into the crowd as the normal, shy, and plain girl who bites her lip too much. After three full years as an active SGB member, I became pretty passionate about the group. Now that I had actual responsibilities to fulfill that people counted on me for, I wasn't going to let anyone down, even if that meant for me to break character every once and a while.

I reached into my pocket and grabbed my cell phone out. I texted Jake, telling him that he may as well start heading over because we were almost done talking. He texted back, telling me that he would be on his way in a little bit and should be to my place in less than 10 minutes. I put my phone back into my pocket and noticed that Edward was looking at me. I felt my cheeks turn pink and looked away from him, hoping he didn't see me blush just then.

I sat down cross-legged on the floor so I was sitting directly across from the boys.

Taking an unsteady breath (thanks to the look from Edward), I turned to the guys who seemed attentive. As attentive as possible with a paused video game in front of them. "You guys are all serious about this, right? I mean, you are willing to help our chapter out?" This question was more for Edward, I knew that Jasper would walk over fire for Alice and Emmett would have to stick to his word or Rosalie would have his man parts stuck in a vice grip for two weeks.

Edward nodded. "Sure. I mean, why not? Isn't this a 'man's dream come true'? I'd be crazy to ignore the opportunity to 'bond' with over 60 beautiful girls, right?"

I should have been mad at his response, furious even; because no one talks about my sisters as though they were just some piece of meat. But I could tell in his voice and see it on his face that what he had just said wasn't sincere. There was something going on, there was another reason why Edward Cullen, the most stunning man I have ever met, was joining my sorority.

Hmmm…I wonder what the reason could be.

Leaning in towards Edward, I looked him in the eye and prayed that I wasn't blushing. "That didn't sound so sincere, Mr. Cullen. Care to explain what your real reasons are?"

Edward reached a hand out and grabbed mine. This time I am sure that I was blushing like a maniac. He looked as if he was going to open his mouth, just as Jacob barged into the door.

"Bell…a…um, hey guys," Jacob said, through gritted teeth. He was angry, I could tell that much. "Bella, can I talk to you for a second? In your room?"

Gahhhhh. He probably saw me with my hand in Edward's hand. I shouldn't have texted him, telling him that it was okay for him to come over. Now he is just going to be mad at me, mad at the fact that Edward, my longtime crush, was in my apartment. Good thing for me, though, Jake had no idea about the current status of my crush on Edward. If he did…well, that just brought back the "caveman" imagery.

Getting up from the floor, I stole one last glance at Edward and noticed that he was looking at me too. That couldn't be…maybe he was looking at Jacob's retreating form. That had to be it; there is no way that Edward Cullen would be looking at simple old me.

I waved goodnight to everyone and slipped into my bedroom, closing the door behind me.

I was right, Jacob was irate with the circumstances. It seems that he hadn't forgotten about how strong my feelings had been for Edward, and he wasn't happy about the situation that had been thrust upon me. I begged and pleaded with him to calm down, and he finally did. Jacob had a terrible temper problem, and it has taken some getting used to, but I have learned ways to calm him down. I hope that there won't be a day when I can't settle him down, god knows what he could do if he couldn't compose himself.

Jacob and I watched a movie until I got sleepy. I got ready for bed and gave him a short good night kiss before he headed back home.

Sighing to myself, I climbed into bed and closed my eyes.

Of course, my night was filled with dreams of Edward. Vivid dreams of his beautiful face and perfect body, an image that no matter how hard I had tried to suppress it, it kept coming back.

His perfect green eyes haunted me. They were so expressive, it is as if you could see right…well, right into his soul. I know how corny that sounds, trust me; but it's the truth. His eyes truly were a window into his mind and they told no lies- if he was sad, you could see it in his eyes. If he was happy, you could see it in his eyes. All of his emotions shone through perfectly through his beautiful green orbs, and I could get lost in them forever; and in my dreams, I was lost in them forever.

I was deeply attracted to his hair, of all things. Bronze in color, it was perpetually messy. Not in a "tangled up, homeless man hairstyle," but in an "unruly, attractive bed head" way. In my sleep-induced trance, I ran my hands through his hair repeatedly, never getting tired of it.

His body- oh, his body! I have never been blessed enough to see him without his shirt on, but the clothing that he wears gives away his perfectly muscled form. What I wouldn't give to just run my hands up and down his chest. I don't care if it's clothed!

Dreaming that I was snuggling next to Edward, holding tight to his clothed chest, I heard my alarm go off. Groaning, I sat up to shut off my alarm, and noticed two faces looking down on me.

"OHMYGOD Alice! Rosalie! You guys scared me half to death!"

"Sorry Bella, we couldn't help it. You were having crazy conversations in your sleep, and we couldn't miss out on them. They were just too funny!" Alice said, practically bouncing on the corner of my bed.

"Yeah Bella, you were talking full sentences. Good thing the boys didn't spend the night…talking about a future pledge would surely be frowned upon…"

"Rosalie…what are you talking about?" Oh crap! I must've said his name…

"You were talking about EDWARD in your sleep. I may be wrong, but I am sure that you still have a crush on that man!" Rosalie clapped her hands excitedly. "SPILL woman! Tell us what's up!"

Alice looked at me seriously. "Bella, please tell the truth. We won't judge you, even though you are with Jake. Do you still like Edward? What happened anyways, to make you stop liking him?"

I looked at my friends suspiciously. I didn't want to tell them what happened, but I really had no choice. I was going to be in close proximity to Edward for the next seven weeks plus that once he is an official SGB, and I needed someone to know the truth. My two best confidants are president and VP of the sorority, so who best to tell?

Taking a deep breath, I prepared myself to tell them something that I hadn't told anyone about; something that I promised not to think about again.

A/N: Review, review, review! :) I started this second chapter because of the response that I got from you all. It's much easier to push through a chapter if you know that someone is waiting to read it :) Sorry this chapter is short, I wanted to post it before I went to bed.

If you are reading this…thank you so much! It means the world that you are reading my story.

I am hoping to update really soon…if not tomorrow than the next day at the latest!