Can you tell me, who called the race?
Can anyone stay in one place?
And when you get to the finish line
Will you wish for more time?
I say one day
One day you will
But maybe one day you will find
That you just can't push rewind
Elliot woke up to hear banging on his front door. He was trying to get the vision of all those poor dead children out of his head. He knew who was at his door. She was hurting just as bad as him. This case hit them both hard. They had a mandatory two days off because of it. He sighed as he got out of bed. He slipped a shirt on and walked into the living room. He opened the front door to see an Olivia Benson in tears. It's broke his heart to see her cry, Olivia Benson never cried. Not in front of anyone anyway. She was visibly shaking, the second he saw her he opened his arms and she walked into them. He pulled her close and let her cry on his shoulder. No words needed to be said yet, all that mattered was right now.
All we have is this moment
Tomorrow's unspoken
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me?
All we have is this moment
To put our love into motion
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me?
Be here with me now
"Liv, you ready to talk?" He asked quietly. She shook her head no into his shoulder. She tightened her grip on him. They were still standing with the door open. He ran his fingers through her hair. He moved them and shut the door. She let go if him to go and sit on the couch. She walked over and sat with both of her legs underneath of her. Elliot followed her and sat down.
"God, those children Elliot, we were too late" she murmured.
"Come here Livvy" he whispered. She slowly slid over into his arms again.
"We tried Liv, we got him. He's going to jail for the rest of his life." He soothed kissing her head.
"They still died El, I wasn't fast enough" she let a sob slip out of her lips.
"Hey, hey, it was not just you, it was all if us. We did what we could. We did out best. As much as we want to, we can't save everyone." He breathed.
Do you ever think that, we're just chasing our tails?
Like life is one big treadmill
And we pop what is prescribed
If it gets us first prize
But you know I, who I think will win
Are the ones that let love in?
Are the ones that take the time
"Is it really worth it? Do we even ever make a difference?" She asked out loud.
"Of course we make a difference Olivia; we've put many Pricks behind bars. We do what we can. We try our hardest do our best." He whispered.
"What if our best isn't good enough?"
"We all put 110% into our cases, why are you questioning yourself Liv?" He asked.
"I just feel like- I don't know. Cases like this make me second guess myself and my abilities." She admitted.
"You are an amazing cop Olivia, one of the best. Don't question yourself. If you start questioning yourself then everything will go to hell" he spoke softly.
"I just can't get those kids lifeless bodies out of my head; I just want to forget it." He murmured. Her crying subsided and he was just sitting there holding her. Making her feel safe.
All we have is this moment
Tomorrow's unspoken
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me?
All we have is this moment
To put our love into motion
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me
Be here with me now
"I just want to feel something other than Loneness!" She huffed.
"I'm so sorry Olivia" Elliot murmured into her hair kissing it softly.
"Why are you sorry?" She asked looking into his eyes.
He sat there looking into her eyes debating if now was the right time to finally admit his feelings. He didn't want her to think he was saying it out of guilt or grief. He wanted her to know that he loved her and that he would always be there for her.
"Because, I'm a coward" he stated breaking eye contact.
"How?" She asked putting her hand on his cheek rubbing it softly. He took a big unsteady breath before looking at her.
"I can't admit my feelings" he whispered.
"What feelings?" She asked. Her heart started to beat a little but faster.
"My feelings toward you, but I don't want you to think that I'm telling you this out if gilt or grief."
"Are you?" She asked quietly.
"No"
"Then tell me, I believe you are telling me because you want me to know, and not for other reasons." She smiled lightly.
Be here with me now
'Cause the future is right now, right in front of you
Don't let the clock, the clock tell you what to do
A future is right now, I'm in front of you
Baby don't blink and miss
This moment
"I want to tell you- it's so hard" he spoke softly looking into her eyes.
"Please tell me." She whispered. He knew he needed to tell her. She deserved to know, he has keep it to himself for far too long. It wasn't fair to her or him. They have been partners for 8 years and she helped him through his divorce and the custody battle. She was his rock, his everything and he needed to tell her.
"I-I love you" he whispered so quiet that she almost didn't hear him.
"You w-what?" She asked, hoping she heard him right.
"I said" he took a deep breath" Olivia Benson, I love you" a smile spread on her lips.
"Say it again" she whispered.
"I love you" he says with a smile.
"Are you sure?" She asked.
"Absolutely positive" her smile grew and she took his face in her hands and looked him in the eye before brushing her lips against his. He pulled her closer tangling his hands in her hair. She sucked his bottom into her mouth and she heard him moan. They pulled apart when they needed to breathe.
All we have is this moment
Tomorrow's unspoken
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me?
"I'm glad you told me" she smiled.
"Me too" he smiled pulling her down for a quick kiss.
"You always make me feel better El" she breathed snuggling into his chest.
"You do the same for me Liv" he smiled kissing her forehead.
"I'm really glad I came to you tonight" she smiled and kissing him again.
"Me too, I'm glad you know how I feel" he murmured against her lips.
"Me too, and I love you too" she smiled. He pulled away with the biggest smile she has ever seen on his face. He hugged her tight and kissed her nose.
"What about tomorrow? What about out jobs? What about your kids?" Olivia rambled fear evident in her voice.
"Shh Liv, don't worry about tomorrow. All you need to think about is how much I love you. Stay here with me, stay in my arms and only worry about this moment." He breathed looking into her eyes.
"Okay, I love you too" she murmured as he pulled her in for a passionate kiss.
All we have is this moment
To put our love into motion
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me?
Be here with me now
I hope you liked it! Keep the reviews coming! If you have a Katy Perry song you would like me to do let me know! Thanks for reading!
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