Chapter Two:

Phil slumped down on his chair and loosened his tie; this was not how his first mission was supposed to go. First mission and he nearly gets himself and everyone around him blown up, luckily his team finally pulled together and they saved the Mike and Ace. He smiled at the thought of his team they had finally pulled together when they needed to. Sure they still had a few bits to work on but it was a start, he would need to keep an eye on Skye but he was certain she could become of their team with a bit of work, she really was good with computers.

Now would be a really good time to curl up on the sofa with Clint like they always used to after missions, order takeaway and watch some crappy program on TV and just mask themselves in the comfort of each other. He missed Clint desperately, he may have only remembered for a day but he now realizes he been without him for nearly a year and that hurts deeply. He doesn't want to think about what that's been like for Clint, coming back from Loki's control to find out his husbands gone, he shuddered at the thought. If only there was a way to contact him without Fury knowing, without SHIELD finding out he's broken protocol. Phil turned on his computer to try and find out what he could on Clint, find out whether he was still staying in their apartment or not. Clicking on Barton's file he found out that Barton hadn't sold the apartment but stayed at the Avengers tower with all the other Avengers. He was almost glad Clint didn't stay in the apartment knowing that Clint would probably hide out there and ignore the rest of the world. He smiled knowing it was probably Tasha that kicked him out into the tower telling him to man up and get on with his life. As they all lived at the tower he decided he was going to try and make a visit in the next few days, Jarvis was sure to remember him meaning he should be able to get inside without too much trouble. He just hoped he would be able to explain himself before Tasha knocked him out which he could guarantee will happen at some stage. Hearing a knock on the door he called the person in.

"Sir we have an 0-8-4" May said walking into his office.

"Is that confirmed?" Phil asked shocked 0-8-4's were very rare after all.

"They want us to go in and confirm it" May replied.

"Of course they do" Phil sighed knowing that his plan was probably going to have to delay his plan even longer; it was like the world didn't want Clint to find out.

"Is everything okay Sir?" May questioned hearing Phil's sigh.

"Yeah" Phil replied softly still thinking about Clint and unconsciously rubbed his chest where his dog tag was.

"Is it about Clint Sir because you know I'll help you however I can to make sure he finds out. I can't stand to see this lost puppy look for much longer, it doesn't do much for your rep" May replied smiling.

"Thanks but I don't think I'm ever gonna get the chance at this rate" Phil said dejectedly.

"It's only been a few days Phil we're bound to get a few hours off soon"

"But even if I do what do I say to him? I can't just walk up to him and be like 'hey I know you've been mourning me for nearly a year but don't worry I've been alive all this time' I really don't think that's gonna go down so well somehow" Phil said sarcastically.

"Just tell him the truth, yes he might be angry at first but he'll understand. He'll forgive you easily he loves you too much not to you must know that. Fury on the other hand better watch out for any arrows flying around his office" May said softly trying to reassure Phil.

"I hope your right May" he replied straightening his tie and standing up "right lets go look at this 0-8-4 so that I can get back to my plans" he said as he headed for the door.

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Looking at the plane he cringed, they hadn't even had the plane for a week and they have already blown a hole in side of it. He was still shuddering over the lecture Fury had given him, what else was he supposed to have done anyway? Plus he had really wanted that fish tank, it would have looked so nice next bar Phil thought frowning slightly. Walking back towards the back of the plane he froze at what he saw, it wasn't that someone was leaning against Lola it was more the fact of who that person was.

Clint.

Walking towards him his mind was going a mile a minute, what the hell was he supposed to say he hadn't planned Clint finding out before he told him, how had he found out anyway?

"I can explain" Phil said as he got closer to Clint who raised his eyebrow at the statement still leaning against Lola which Phil was trying really hard to cringe about.

"This I would love here" Clint said crossing his arms over his chest.

"I think this conversation would be best held in my office" Phil said not wanting his team or the maintanence guys listening in.

"Nah I think I'm good hear"

"Clint please, I wanna explain I really do but not out here" Phil pleaded

"Why you got something to hide" Clint bit back loudly causing people to turn their heads and watch them.

"No I just….." Phil stuttered not really sure how he was going to explain without Clint taking it the wrong way, he hadn't got this far in his plan yet.

"Just what Phil? Just tell me why? Didn't you want me anymore, if that was true you couldda just told me you didn't have to do the whole disappearing act" Clint asked losing his anger which was turning into desperation.

"God Clint of course I still want you" Phil said quickly

"Then why?" Clint asked anger returning to his voice

"When Loki stabbed me I did die for a few seconds or more, but they bought me back and took me to Tahiti to recover, it's a magical place by the way I should take you sometime" Phil told Clint side tracking sometime.

"And, then what?"

"Then I woke up, completely disorientated, I forgot….forgot that." Phil said drifting off not wanting to say the next part.

"Forgot what Phil" Clint said wanting Phil to spit it out.

"That I was married to you" Phil whispered looking at the ground, ashamed of himself.

"What? How?" Clint chocked.

"I don't know, I thought I was going out with Audrey but then May realised something was wrong when I told her you didn't know. She got me to look at the back of my dog tag and when I did all my memories came rushing back" Phil rushed out wanting Clint to understand that he hadn't kept him in the dark on purpose.

"When did you remember?" Clint asked softly

"Couple of days ago, I've been planning on how to tell you ever since, Fury must have known what he'd done so I knew he wanted you in the dark for some reason. So I knew I was gonna have to do it without him knowing" Phil said staring at Clint the whole time desperate for him to forgive him.

"knew the bastard was hiding something when he wanted let me see the body, kept saying it was cause they didn't know if there was any residual energy around your body from the staff" Clint muttered walking towards Phil.

"I'm so sorry Clint, I feel awful" Phil said cupping Clint's cheeks forgetting that they had an audience.

"So you should" Clint replied leaning in for a kiss, completely aware of the audience but not caring in the slightest.

"I really think we should take this to my office" Phil said breaking the kiss suddenly remembering where they are when he heard the gasps of his team.

"Or your bedroom" Clint muttered into Phil's ear causing him to cough and drag Clint to his room as quickly as he could without making it to obvious what they were about to do.

"Don't you all have work to do?" he asked his team who all jumped out of their stares and scurried off to carry on what they were doing before Phil turned up causing Clint to smirk.

"Lead the way fine Sir" Clint joked earning himself a slap on the arm for Phil who pulled him up the stairs towards his room.