Author's Notes: Me again, hope you all like so far. I'm very excited about redoing this story and adding in some bits that I thought about but never really got the chance to add in the first time around. Also please check out my other Bella/Jasper story 'Scars' and a big thanks to my beta JenJenSon for putting up with me!

Disclaimer: I don't own twilight, I don't own the characters, I make now money from writing this, it's a damn shame isn't it? The

Hideaway

Chapter Two

Bella POV

I opened my eyes, it was still light. I had fallen asleep in Edward's room. I looked at my watch, it was nearly six and Charlie would be home soon, I had to go. I got up, not seeing Jasper around the house I left. I got in my truck and headed home. I had slept for about three hours, what did Jasper think about me falling asleep in his house? Seriously, I was a danger magnet, most normal people to not fall asleep in vampires houses, especially ones that have been known to try and bite them.

I got home fifteen minutes before Charlie which gave me time to start dinner. He didn't really say anything when he came in, he did look a little surprised to see me downstairs though. I finished making his dinner for him in silence and then went upstairs. Charlie still didn't say anything, he obviously didn't want to push things and send me back into my room for the next week.

I felt bad for him, I felt guilty. He had been so worried these past few months, he'd even begun threatening to get mum to come and take me back with her. I should try to make the effort now; I didn't want to leave Forks. If this was the only place I could feel a piece of Edward and the Cullen's with me forever this is where I wanted to stay.

I thought back to Jasper, my human clumsiness had caused his control to slip and he was paying the price for it. His family had left him...because of me.

I curled up in bed and it wasn't long before I slept. I just wanted tomorrow to come and Charlie to go to work so that I could go back to the Cullen's house. I wanted to talk to Jasper, I wanted to take that haunted look out of his eyes if I could.

Jasper POV

She had been crying in her sleep too, I heard her from my room. Then she woke up and I felt her confusion, disappointment and then emptiness. She left the house and I heard her drive away.

Us leaving Folks had done Bella no good at all. Even I could see that, and I was the one who was dangerous to her. Surely Alice would have seen this, surely she could have done something, it's not like Edward wouldn't have been able to see what she saw. Perhaps they just didn't want to see, much like a child sticking their fingers in their ears and humming loudly; they had left the "problem" behind, both Bella and I.

I knew Bella would be back, she seemed to think holding onto the house was holding onto a piece of Edward. I would have to go hunting again if she was going to be around, just in case.

The next day after returning from hunting...

I could see her truck on the driveway and I could smell her in the house. She was already here. She obviously hadn't gone to school at all. Maybe she just didn't go to school anymore, not that it was really my business. I felt guilty though, it was my lack of control that had caused her all this misery.

I went straight to my room, avoiding Edward's completely. I opened the door; immediately I could smell Bella in my room. I looked around and found her curled up on the bed hugging a jumper of Alice's. Maybe it really was all of us she missed. I made a special effort to make some noise so that she heard me approach her.

She jumped and looked up at me. Her face turned bright red and she quickly dropped the jumper and stood up.

"Sorry I-" she said quickly. "I just- You weren't here- I didn't know this was-"

"Don't worry." I shrugged. "This is or rather was mine and Alice's room. I'm not mad but why are you in here exactly?" She blushed again.

"I walked past the room and saw her jumper crumpled on the floor...I only came in to pick it up and fold it up but it smelled like her...it reminded me of her hugs..." Bella's emotions were erratic now, her voice began to crack. "She was one of the best friends I had...and she befriended me no questions asked..." I tried to calm her; it seemed to work a bit. She let out a deep breath.

"You really don't just miss Edward?" I asked her.

"No! How could you think that? I miss all of you." She replied. She looked up at my doubtful expression. "Every single one. Even Rosalie."

"Bella...I am sorry about that day." I told her awkwardly but honestly.

"Jasper it wasn't really your fault." She said. "I was clumsy and you didn't actually do anything so it doesn't matter. Really I don't blame you."

"I should have had more control." I replied. I could feel my own anger building. "I screwed up everything." I suddenly felt a warm feeling fill me. Bella was stood right in front of me, her hand against my arm, huge brown eyes filled with concern. She had squashed my anger in a second with her compassion.

"It's ok Jasper." She said softly. "They didn't want me either..." I wanted to tell her that they did, but I knew right now she wouldn't believe me and it wouldn't help. I would save that conversation for another day. "It never did make much sense that I could fit in with your family. You're all so graceful." I smiled at that.

"You did fit in, right from the beginning. You're an amazing person; you didn't see us for what we were but for who we were." I said. I grinned. "Maybe in my case that wasn't such a good thing."

"When will you listen? I missed every single one of you." She said insistently.

"I wanted your blood Bella. I attacked you." I told her seriously. "And yet you're stood right here in my room with me."

"I'm not afraid of you." She said, simply.

"Not at all?" I smirked. She shook her head. We fell into silence. I wish I could say it was awkward having her stood this close to me but it wasn't. It felt wonderful, to feel all her emotions, she was such a warm and loving person it was nice to feel so warm.

"Jasper?" she said uneasily, her voice barely a whisper but she knew I could hear her. "Did Edward really not love me?"

"He loved you Bella. He left to protect you." I replied, obviously that conversation wouldn't be waiting after all. "He decided that was what was safer for you. Ironic that after I screw up and the family leaves Folks and kicks me out that I get over my bloodlust."

"What do you mean?" she asked confused.

"I don't even feel tempted by your blood." I replied. "I still get thirsty, but it's not hard to stand right next to you anymore. Ironic, I get over my bloodlust just too late. Although we should probably avoid you bleeding around me just to be safe, I'm pretty sure I don't have that much control yet."

"You don't sleep..." she said, not a question, just a fact. "What have you been doing the past month?" I couldn't help but smile at that.

"I will admit I've been very bored." I replied. "To begin with I stayed in the corner and sulked, the classic moody vampire image you humans seem so fond of. Then I started hunting once a week or so and more sulking, thinking... I just didn't think I'd be able to hold control my thirst anywhere but here by myself. What about you?"

"Me? I spent the past few months...I'm not really sure to be honest it's been a blur." she replied uneasily.

Bella POV

What had the last few months been like for me? I don't remember. It wasn't even like hell. More like purgatory. There was no point to me. The whole future I had chosen had evaporated from right in front of me. The family that had welcomed me with open arms had dropped me like I was nothing. I clutched my arm across my chest as it once again felt like it was going to rip open from the pain. I felt the pain begin to ebb away. I glanced up at Jasper; I knew he was helping me. I smiled slightly up at him. I felt him take my hand and the pain washed away.

"How did you-" I started.

"For some reason my ability doesn't work as well on humans as it does for my kind...but it works a lot better if I touch you." He shrugged.

"Thanks." I said.

"Edward thought he was doing the right thing by leaving...it didn't do any good at all did it?" he asked.

"Of course not." I replied briskly, I glanced around nervously for a moment. "So...do you want some company? You can still have alone time if that's what you want I just...I wanted to know more about you."

"About me?" he asked, he looked surprised. I was pretty amazed that I had managed to surprise a vampire, in fact Jasper looked completely baffled.

"Well, because of your thirst we never really got to know each other...I wondered if since it's just us here now and my blood isn't such a problem..." I stumbled over my words.

"It would be nice to have someone around the house." He replied. "I can't say I'll be the best company for you but I'm here most of the time, feel free to use the house as you wish. My room and Rosalie and Emmett's room have beds in if you want to sleep. That couch can't be very comfortable. Esme and Carlisle had the nicest bed but they took it with them."

"Thank you." I replied. I wasn't sure how I felt about sleeping in Rosalie's bed or Jasper's bed. I relaxed a little and sat back on the bed. Jasper stood and talked to me for the next few hours.

Jasper POV

It was surprising how good it felt to have a conversation. I had missed my family so much. Bella wasn't the same but she was fascinating and caring. I had to ease her emotions a few times but other times I enjoyed the caring, concerned and content waves coming from her. In fact we both talked like old women, neither of us had really been able to talk to anyone for the past few months so we talked about everything.

I saw her beginning to slump on the bed. She was getting tired. I looked over her figure. She was a lot slimmer than I remembered. I could pretty much guess that she had spent the past months crying and sleeping. It was a nasty rut to get into. She didn't feel like eating when she was upset, when she was upset she'd cry, crying makes you tired so she'd sleep, then wake up feeling bad so you don't eat.

I looked over again a few minutes later when waiting for a reply, she was asleep. Not eating had obviously made her exhausted and ill. I thought about getting some food in for the kitchen. I decided not to in the end because someone might see me.

I walked out of the room. Maybe I should call Edward and tell him everything. Not that he would listen. None of them would. I shook off the idea for now. What harm would it be to have her around? I could see why Edward liked her so much, she really was fascinating. She was so interested in everything I had to say. She was hurting inside and yet what she wanted to do was talk to me and make me feel better...and it was her genuinely wanting to make me feel better that made me feel better. It was like having a little piece of my family back.

Author's Notes: Again not hugely different from the original chapter but the changes are on their way. Hope you like and please feel free to check out the trailer for this story. There is a link for the video on my profile. Astarte-Lydianna xx