The bell rang loud and hard in my ears. I looked around to see if Jen was here because I was curious of whether Dawson told her or not. I didn't see her, I slowly walked out of the classroom and bumped into Dawson. I was definitely losing myself in this love fest with him. I was smiling all day in the hallways at everyone for no reason like an idiot.
Dawson: Hey, Joey I'm so sorry.
He hugged me with one arm and took my books for me. I laughed at how typical he was being. He smiled at me.
Dawson: What?
I kept laughing and stopped to explain.
Joey: Just you. You're so cheesy.
Dawson: What this?
He motioned his head toward the books and I nodded. He put my books in my class for me and we headed for lunch.
Dawson: Hey, stop
He stopped me by his locker and kissed me deeply. I kissed him back with a smile and rubbed his back with my hands, getting a little too into it. He stopped for air and smiled.
Dawson: I'm sorry, I just missed you.
I smiled and kept walking with him.
Dawson: Well, it's the weekend.
Joey: Yeah?
I looked at him and knew he was trying to ask me something.
Dawson: I'd really like to take you on our first date.
He smiled and I stopped to kiss him. Again, I felt lucky to be with him. It was the best feeling I had felt in the longest time. I remember feeling this good when he told me that he'd be devastated if I died on the night of Friday the 13th.
Joey: Well, I'd love to
I kissed him again and Jen was standing a few steps away, looking confused and maybe even a little bit depressed…
Dawson didn't sit with me in lunch that day because he knew Jen was upset about something. In the meantime, I needed to update on my life with Bessie and ask her for help.
Bessie: Help for what? I mean Jen saw you and Dawson kissing and she looked mildly upset, obviously she wasn't over Dawson.
She began to make since and it made me feel better.
Joey: Well, I guess your right, but should I say something to Jen?
Bessie: No. I don't think she'll want to hear from you, the girlfriend. The evil girlfriend who took her place.
She said in an evil voice goofing off and I laughed a little.
Joey: Bess, you're so immature, quit playing jokes on my life. And I didn't take her place. She broke up with him, he practically cried and the end. She blew it. Oh god Bessie, do you think I'm some sort of rebound I mean he really did take that break-up harshly. What if I'm rebound, Bess?
She sat down and covered my mouth. My eyebrows danced in confusion.
Bessie: Don't even say that. You know what you just said was absolute crap.
She uncovered my mouth and nodded in agreement. I did know that I'm not rebound.
Joey: Yeah, you're right. I know I mean something to him. Jen is out of the picture for sure.
Bessie: That's my sister. Now, don't you think I should be helping you with something nice to wear for your date with Dawson?
I smiled and thought about how nice I was going to dress for him. Would I wear make-up? A dress? What if I look too nice and he's not that dressed up?
Joey: I guess. Although I should call Dawson and ask him what happened during lunch. Where's Alexander?
Bessie: Napping for once.
We both smiled.
I began climbing up the ladder of Dawson's house and heard crying in the window. I leaned back before anyone could see me.
Dawson: Jen, I understand you're upset about this. I want to be here for you and I can't tell you how sorry I am for being busy with Joey. It's just that we have something now and I really lost myself in it all.
Jen: Dawson, just don't worry about me.
She sobbed and tried her hardest to wipe her tears and stop feeling helpless.
Dawson: No, I have to. I'll cancel my plans with Joey tonight and be with you.
A horrible feeling came over me and didn't leave. Why would he want to be with her just because she's not ready to see Dawson with me? I quickly went back down the ladder and ran home to think everything over. My first instinct was to cry, but Joey Potter didn't cry things out. I got my journal and began writing.