Chapter 1

I'll Never Fall in Love Again (Lei's View)

Music: Love Loves You – Vic Zhou

I watched as she left the country. She was the love of my life…. We promised that we'd always be together. We promised that we'd love each other forever. But here, she's leaving, leaving me behind. "Why? Why do you have to leave?" Just when our relationship was getting stronger, she decides to leave it all behind. "Jing, why couldn't you stay? Why couldn't you have stayed and let me love you more?" I wanted to scream.

The day the plane disappeared into the cloudy sky, I swore, that I'd never fall in love again.

It's been nearly three months since her departure. Everything is still the same. The sun shone, the next day always came. Yet, in my heart, everything was different. In my heart, the sun was a dark cloud, the breeze was a stormy tornado, and every couple I passed on the streets and at school, mocked me.

I didn't want to live on. There was no reason for me to. Ever since she walked out of my life, I refuse to look at another woman. If I let myself to another woman, I feel that my heart will be broken again. I'll never fall in love again.

I still go to school, still go to sleep, and still go on with my life. Yet, it feels as if, a lot of who I am is still amiss… I feel that my body is just doing what is has to, but my mind and heart, are elsewhere… with Jing.

My story of Teng Tang Jing is beautiful. She and I met when we were in high school. We were high school sweet hearts, said everyone. From sophomores to seniors, we were still together. I met her when I entered my sophomore year, she was a junior. When we met, it was unforgettable. I remember the first day I saw here. I was sitting in the library doing some studying. That was when I saw her. She was holding several books in her hands, when one suddenly slipped out of her books. She was having trouble trying to pick it up, so I strode over to her and put the book into her hands. She smiled at me as I put it in her hand. She whispered a "thank you" as I just stared at her beauty. Her features were flawless. I almost wanted to place my hand on her face. We stood there in silence as I continued staring at her. She soon began to feel awkward at our silence, so she broke it first, "Um, I guess, I'll see you around…?" she then turned to leave, but I stopped her.

"May I know your name?" I almost said, shyly. She turned her head around and looked at me with a smile.

"My name is Jing," she turned her head back around and walked away. I let her walk away as I guess that she had to leave.

Everyday, I went back to the library, hoping to see her, I'd go during study hall most of the time, yet I never saw her. Finally, after two weeks of waiting for her to return to the library, she finally showed. I watched her walk around in the business section of the library. I found myself walking over to her and wondering what she's looking for. She noticed my presence, and looked at me. That was when I noticed her eyes. They were a color of brown, I've never before seen, dark, yet I could see through them, to the beauty possessed by their owner. I could feel myself being drowned in them. I noticed her eyes penetrating through mine. She broke the silence. "Hi, looking for something?" I snapped out of my thoughts as I heard her voice. I nervously answered her.

"No, I was just… looking around… browsing…" I tried covering up.

After that meeting, we constantly ran into each other, and soon, we began dating. I followed her everywhere, even up to college. Now, we attend Ying De University, the most prestigious and high class school of business education, or at least, we used to attend…

Thinking back to our past, made my heart ache. I didn't want Jing to leave, but knowing her, she wouldn't change her mind.