AN: like I promised you, the second chapter

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Chapter 2
Home

Jakeob pushed open the heavy door to the chapel and stepped out side, who ever was in the small shelter of the door way moved out into the rain to let him pass, He held the door open for Amanda the girl that had dragged him down here this rainy evening, she was a nice girl and Jakeob liked talking with her, most of the time they just talked about religion, she being a Christian and he...well he had his ideas. He liked talking to her and she was a sweet girl but every once in a while she would talk him into something like this and he just couldn't say no. Jakeob stepped out into the rain and paused for Amanda to catch up, he got a glimpse of the man who had stepped out of the door way, it was the man that had just made it into the meeting at the last minute, Jakeob wouldn't have cared except once the man had sat down he had given him a strange kind of disapproving look. Jakeob also noticed the other man who had come in late, the one wearing the "God Dethroned" shirt, when he had walked in it made Jakeob feel a little less alone, just knowing there was some one else there that thought like him, or at least listened to the same music, now he was leaning against the building smoking a cigarette, if Jakeob didn't halft to leave just then he would have talked to him, but Amanda had to be home, and since he was a nice guy and had to go to the same station he would walk with her. Jakeob started to walk towards the station next to Amanda, he didn't really want to talk because he knew it would be about the meeting, and he knew that anything he said about it would not be very positive " Your walking me to the station " Amanda said to him " Yep I'll see you home" he said back to her they walked in silence all the way to the station, she knew that things like this made him uncomfortable, but she felt in her heart that threw things like this maybe, just maybe he would come to the love for Christ that she had. Jakeob pulled open the door to the station and again help it open for her " So what did you think of it tonight" she asked him as she fumbled threw her purse looking for her transit card, Jakeob thought for a second, this was the conversation he had been hoping to avoid, he took a beep breath and reached into his back pocket for his wallet " I'm not sure what to think" he started pulling his transit card out "I'm sorry Amanda you know my stance on God in the first place and well.....this didn't really change my mind" he put his card in the turnstile and stepped threw, Amanda did the same " I know" Amanda said back " but I'm glad that you came none the less". Jakeob nodded and stepped onto the escalator going up to the platform leaned on the moving railing Amanda stepped on just after
" Jakeob I just halft to ask you one thing" she said to him, Jakeob was a little surprised that she would ask to ask a question, normally they just asked and that was that, but he brushed it off "Shoot" he told her "Why did you come with me tonight, if you feel the way you do than why did you say yes when I asked you?" Jakeob didn't need to to think about the answer " Because you asked me to, and even though I think the way I do I'm an open minded person, and because sometimes I just can't say no to you" Amanda smiled, they stepped off the escalator at the top and walked to the large cement bench in the middle of the platform " thats good to hear" she told him "it means there's still hope", Jakeob smiled at her, she just would never give up. Jakeob turned his head towards the familiar sound of the train pulling up to the platform "Thats my train" Amanda said " your going the other way right?" "Ya" Jakeob replied "look's like I'll halft to talk to you later" "ya I'll give you a call later this week" she answered "Bye" he gave her a hug and a kiss on the cheek and watched as she got on the train and the doors closed behind her. He for a long time had wondered if they could ever be a couple but had decided that they were to different and it would never work, but that still didn't stop the attraction. Jakeob sat down on the cement bench and set his back pack next to him, after all he had had to sit threw tonight he needed a good dose of his music. He opened up his bag and pulled out his head phones and his black CD case, after all the scriptures and praising he had to put up with he felt like the hardest thing he could find, he flipped threw the CD case not sure exactly what could suite his mood right now, he reached the end and still couldn't make up his mind, his finger hovered above the CD marked "Marduk" the name written as a symbol incorporating an upside down cross, below that was the album title " Panzer Division Marduk" . Jakeob placed it his CD player and hit play, a few seconds later the fast grinding thrash of music hit his ears and he smiled slightly, this is what he needed right now. not to long after his train pulled in, Jakeob closed his bag and walked on, the car was empty, not to many people rode the "El" this late at night, and especially not in this weather. Jakeob's stop wasn't to far, he got off walked down from the platform and out into the rain once again. He lived in a small apartment a few blocks from the station, alone. He hurried up the stairs to his floor taking two and three steps at a time. His was the third small apartment in a row of five all only two or three rooms with a bathroom, he reached into his pocket and pulled out his keys, he also turned off the melodic metal assault in his head phones, down the hall he could hear a couple arguing very loudly, but then again they were always like this. He opened the door to his apartment and locked it behind him leaving the argument behind, he flipped on the small lamp in the corner and dropped his bag on the couch along the wall next to it. The room was over all very cluttered, clothes left on the floor stakes of books on the tables mixed with loose papers other misplaced items, the walls were adorned with posters from many different bands, most were black metal, the pictures of the bands wearing corpse paint and scowling and the camera, some bore pentagrams. Jakeob hung his coat on the hook next to his door and moved his bag there too, he lay down on the couch stared up at the ceiling, thinking. He had no real friends, sure there was Amanda but he rarely saw her, he hated his job, working at a small plastics company, he was one of the few to speak English there and he didn't like the ones who did, but he couldn't quit, it paid the bills, he had at one time dreamed of being something, anything than what he was now, dirt poor and unhappy, and it seemed as if this was it. He often thought of suicide, who would mourn him if he died, it was a serious notion to him, one that often found him holding a gun contemplating it, this time was no different. Jakeob reached under the couch and grabbed the 45 caliber hand gun he owned, he had bought it for protection, in this naborhood you needed it but now he looked at it as a release. He sat up on the couch and staired at the gun in his hands "What does it matter any way" he said out loud. Jakeob put the gun in his mouth and closed his eyes, if he was lucky he wouldn't feel a thing, he had often wondered what it would be like to be shot and he was about to find out. He cocked the weapon with his thumb and placed his finger on the trigger ready to pull " How stupid" came a whisper in his ear. Jakeob's eyes shot open and he quickly pulled the gun from his mouth, he frantically looked around the room, he could have swore he heard it, "I'm so torn I'm hearing things" he said to himself "but my minds made up" he moved to put the pistol back in his mouth when he was startled by a sudden pounding at his door, some one knocking louder than normal, Jakeob eased the hammer down and quickly tucked it under the couch, no one ever came to viset him, certanly not at this time of night. The person banged again "comeing" Jakeob shouted, maybe it was Amanda he thought does she even know where I live? and what could she want? But Jakob dident know what to think as he turned the lock, and threw open the door.



AN: there you have it chapter two, sorry to leave you hanging but it just workes out better this way trust me