Rafael not in his best condition right now .

He had been worse but this still not a pleasant feeling to deal with.

He killed Laserbeak.

It's not like he had his hand kill her by himself exactly but he had beem=n in the plan the lead to her destruction. When Laserbeak's life sigh had disappear from his computer, he knew instantly what had happened.

The bomb had gone off.

That wasn't even in the plan, hell everybody didn't expect that to coming…even Ratchet. At first they think Soundwave would notice the bomb first then overlook the virus but it end up reverse instead.

He killed a living being.

That thought alone made him almost thrown up his breakfast. Normally his face look paler than any other kids but now it pale as the snow itself. Ratchet didn't end up better than him. Truthfully the medic look worse than him three or four time. The rightful of his duty to save the life didn't help either. Even life of the enemy it's still a life. No matter who they are or what they have done. The thought still haunted him through time at school and when it end he didn't wait around to let anyone saw his ill face any further.

"Raf…are you okay?" A voice came from his back.

He look over his shoulder to see Jack approach from behind. Despite jack's worries, he didn't want his problem to fell down on the other. "Thanks for asking jack but I'm fine…really" His voice sound weak like its weight.

"Okay…if you said so" Jack lay off the topic easily but Rafael know that he actually didn't want to let him feel uncomfortable from his question. Then he jump on to blue motorcycle known as Arcee in disguise. "Will you come around the base today?"

Raf shook his head "No, I already told Bee that I want to rest for a bit. Maybe a day or a week till I really want to there again."

Jack face frown at those words. "What happened to both you and Ratchet? The two of you doesn't seem the same after we loss the that third iacon relic."

"We…had face a problem of our own." Raf didn't want to tell Jack about what had happened. Atleast not right now. "I just want to take a brak from this whole thing for a bit that's all."

Jack still had his still suspicious on his face then he shrugged his shoulder. "It's not my decision to make so I will respect that you don't want me to take a part into this" then he lean closer to Raf's face "But you have to know that you don't have to bare your problem on the shoulder alone. There always a people ready to lend a hand to you. It will be easier to share your problem with others because we are friend and friend help those friend who in need. That's all"

Rafael look into Jack's eyes and saw only truthfulness in them. "Thanks Jack. That's mean a lot to me but…This is something that only I can dealt with right now so…maybe other time perhaps? Then maybe that I can share the information with you." He said with a sad smile.

Jack nodded his head "I told you that I respect your decision so you can tell me when you ready and I hope to see you around the base very soon" He put his helmet on. "And always remember, your friends are always ready to help you." Then Jack and Arcee took off into the road.

Raf sighed with a relieve. He's really glad that he had Jack as friend. The black head teenager always has a way with his talk to made everybody around him calmer. He already feel better alone from that conversation. Maybe he should tell him about what happened…about what he and Ratchet did.

Then he heard a sound.

It's like a sound of something coming to his way really fast but before he can even turn back to look at it, he feel like he been swoop up from the ground and then blackness is the only thing in his vision.

….

The sound of something moving awoke him. Something metallic. Rafael opened his eyes to look at his surroundings to found that he is in some kind of metallic medical room. He tried to move his arms but found that it been trapped in a bracelet that glue to the bed and his legs also been trapped too. He then tried to use his little strength to break free but the thing didn't yield even a millimeter. He felt a presence on his left so he move to loo at that way to found Soundwave standing there.

Now Rafael knew what happened to him. He been kidnapped by the TLC communicator and he knew why he been kidnapped and that knowledge didn't made him feel better, worse it made him feel fear. "Err…Hello… "

Soundwave didn't move, didn't speak, didn't response.

Sweat start to show on Raf's face. He didn't like this kinf of expression at all. This expression kind of tell you that he is deeply calm or he is in the completely madness that not even the word could describe it. "Where am I?" He thought it would be best to start with simpliest question.

"Decepticon base"

The human's face show the surprise that he actually get the answer. "Why did you bring me here?" Rafael let the question flow even he already knew the answer.

"Punish and Redemption" The emotionless sound answered.

Raf knew what punish is for but the redemption? "What redemption?"

The visor on Soundwave's face didn't move when he answered. "To regain what had loss"

Now that only made the question in Raf's mind grew even more. He want to question his kidnapper again but the decepticon only move away to show what was behind him.

It was the body but not just any body, it was the body of Laserbeak. Everything on the body look exactly normal like it should had been, the wings, the blue color, and the tail. Only one thing was missing.

Life.

"Laserbeak spark: missing. Need replacement." A monotone voice came from behind him.

Rafael look at the body again. Then he saw saome sort of cable connect to the chest of the lifeless body. He look follow the where the cable will go and end up looking up above his head. Then he feel Soundwave attach something like helmet to his head.

Now he knew what the meaning of redemption.

"Wait! Soundwave I'm sorry!" He heard Soundwave step away from him. "I'm truly sorry what happened to Laserbeak. I didn't want it to end in that way. I just want a distraction for my virus to get into your system. I didn't want her to die!" He wait for a reply but not a single sound come from the con.

Then a reply came.

"Soundwave doesn't care."

Then his world went blank.