Kensuke and I were sitting in a park near our PE court; as usual we were skipping class. It´s not like we don´t want to attend or something, it´s mostly our way of life….
While others were running around me and Kaworu would sit here is this filthy park, with terrible reputation of being junky hang out and discuss life or smoke… most of the time both. Place is filthy, full of paint and random signatures but well isolated. There is absolutely no chance that anyone can see what is inside here, not to mention that you can spot anyone who is approaching. Literally perfect place to be when you don´t want to be seen.
This time me and Kensuke were sitting alone, class before Kaworu had a little fiasco with some girl that bullied Rei, after class Kaworu and Rei went somewhere and we didn´t see him since then. We know that he can manage on his own, but god dam it that was quite fucked up. I knew about his nervousness near Rei and other stuff including his life and he wanted to talk with me about "something", and I have a lot of reasons to believe that that topic would be about Rei. Maybe he wanted to confront her and tell her to back off, or maybe even confess or…
"It was a bit unexpected don´t you thing?" said Kensuke. We were sitting on a same bench and his gaze was on me all the time. Kensuke saw my disoriented look and leaned. "You know you look worried, do you know something I don´t?"
"Well not really, I should but never got a chance to talk to him."
Kensuke looked at me angrier. "You guys always do that to us."
My eyebrows twitched. "What?"
"You know… you guys always put me out of your "private conversations", god dam it I´m your friend, you know you can talk to me about anything."
I just left a sight to that, it was true. Me and Kaworu left Toji and Kenuske out of our "private" stuff, it´s not that we don´t thrust them or anything but it´s a bit delicate… "I´m sorry, if he comes we will talk here and you can pass it on Toji. Ok?"
Kensuke also sighted. "Fine… but please don´t do that to us…"
Our conversation was interrupted by a sudden arrival of Kaworu. He literally jumped out of bushes in front of us. He looked at us and started to rub his back. "Hy!"
"Oy!" me and Kensuke responded in unison.
"Sooo… you got a girlfriend…." asked Kensuke, making a devious grin.
His face puzzled like he was uncomfortable or as he was unsure if he should talk about this stuff in front of others. It was always me and him when it came to "delicate" matters… Kaworu looked at me and I nodded, it seemed like I approved this or gave him permission to speak. Kaworu didn´t take it like that of course, he took a deep breath and replied. "It seems so…"
"How do you feel about it?" I asked.
"Not really sure… I mean she is nice and all but…-"
"-But what?" Kensuke interrupted. Guy was like too happy to be a part of private talks, I can well imagine that he didn´t have many before, we all knew that he didn't have much close friends in the past and to be honest Toji is not really good with this things.
"Umm..." Nagise adverted his look like he was going to stop but after a few moments he continued. "I´m not sure… it´s like I can´t relax around her… I really don´t know… it´s stupid…"
"It´s fine…" I reassured.
"Well do you like her?" Kensuke asked. God dam it he is terrible at these things, note to myself apologize to Kaworu later. Note number two have a serious talk with Kensuke.
"I just remembered something totally cool!" I shouted.
Kaworu being Kaworu automatically realized I was saving him from awkward situation which he didn´t deserve. "What is it?" He asked. He already looked relieved, like a giant rock fell from his back,rock named Kensuke "the awkward". He knew that Kensuke would try to object but won´t be able to resume the conversation.
"Umm…" Kensuke spoke.
I immediately continued with mine. "You know that anime Magic Girls Supreme! Guess what? Shit is getting season two."
"No fucking way!" Kaworu replied. We both knew that MGS was something non-existant I pulled out of my ass.
"Yeah, there will be like… umm… new enemies and …spells …."
"Bitchin!"
"GUYS!" Kensuke roared."I m not fucking stupid ok? For fuck sake I am fucking anime otaku, I am sure that I would know if something like Magic Girls Supreme existed!"
It like I completely forgot that Kensuke is not just a mere mortal…
"Well you see…" I started.
"NO… NO, just stop it! Just tell me what am I doing wrong." Kensuke interrupted. He had that determined look on his face that we won´t go away… Running away is not an option because we all lack 20 hours of sleep.
You are doing it all wrong!
Kaworus and my gaze met and we shared a telepathic conversation. "It ´s time… "Sooner or later we would have to explain Kensuke his social awkwardness.
"Too direct!" Kaworu started.
"No style." I continued.
"Too fast."
"You need to show that you care…" This sounded so girly in my head, but it´s all true. You can´t comfort anyone if you don´t care about their problems, or at least you pretend…god dam it I can´t belive we are actually discussing this kind of stuff, we should switch this to porn… or something…
"ENOUGH! I get the bigger picture."Kensuke said looking at Kaworu. "I´m sorry man. You know what´s between you and Rei is… well between you and Rei, so if you are uncomfortable talking about it just say so, coz right now I´ m a bit ashamed…"
"No hard feelings man…" Kaworu replied. He extended his fist as to give Kensuke a brofist, and so he did.
Maybe we shouldn't let Kensuke out of these things, maybe…
"HEY WHO IS THERE!" sudden voice came. Female voice…
We all stiffed and stood up; Kaworu quickly threw his cigarette behind him and stepped on it with his right foot.
For our "relief" it wasn´t anyone in position, far worse it was Asuka and her group of girls (2 of them), commonly addressed as bitches. They only missed Hikari and they complete one of most irritating groups of girls I know. Not minding that Hikari is not bad or anything… just annoying.
"What the hell are you nerds doing here, this is our hiding spot!" Asuka demanded.
Sudden anger, so much anger, and by looking at Kenuske and Kaworu I know that I am not alone. This is telepathic transmission to Toji ;if you are there please save us…
Kaworu frowned."Is your name somewhere around? Some sign? Papers?"
"You idiot, everyone knows this is our spot!" Asuka replied angrily.
"Apparently…" I whispered.
"Said something emo kid? Asuka demanded. She crossed her hands and stared at me, glaring daggers. Not sure if she wanted to look intimidating, or look higher than us… but she was failing. At least with me, on the other hand Kensuke is pretty shaken… that guy….
I just sighted. God I just want to get rid of her, so go with the flow…. Make her go…
"I didn´t say anything!" I responded.
"Good!"
If you were not a girl….
Me, Kaworu and Kenuse exchanged glares, it was time to go. The moment we turned our back one of other two girl addressed us:" Wait."
What the fuck now…
We just turned and glared at her. She turned her back to us and started to whisper with Asuka and other girl. After a few seconds they all nodded and other one of them pulled something out of her pocket and said: "You guys know what this is?"
I just looked. Fuck I knew what that was. Plastic bag full of marihuana, sweet leaf, cause of my previous "big drug" addiction….
We just stood silent. Kaworu and Kensuke knew of my addict past, heck that we were doing that shit a lot until I said it was enough, so they were probably waiting for my response…
"Nope…" I said.
"Hey now I remember, look Shinji it´s marihuana, you remember? Dude we used to…." Kensuke babbled until he got elbow kick from Kaworu.
KENSUKE FORGET EVERYTHING I SAID EARLIER, YOU FUCKING FAILER YOU WILL DIE! CALM DOWN SHINJI YOU ARE GOOD, EVERYTHING IS FINE… NOONE WILL CALL YOU JUNKY, WE ARE OVER IT…
"Kenuske you fucking idiot!" I shouted. But after I averted my gaze to the floor.
I could already hear it again; junky Shinji,junky Shinji, junky Shini… fuck that middle schoolers, fuck all of them.. they did not know me… they don´t have a slightest fucking idea of what I was going through… and now you fuck up… how could you?
"Well you are all fucking junkies aren´t you, well we can´t actually say anything because after all this is ours… Tell you what let´s spare each other from unnecessary rumors and keep quiet about this, but of course we didn´t show you this to show off. We don´t know how to prepare this… so you do it and we will stay silent, you can even join us for one round if you want." Asuka dictated.
This was excellent suggestion: "Give it to me, and no thank you." My heart was somehow at ease now. I used to do this a lot, to be honest I learned to do this on YouTube(A/N: Fuck It I am going with the real names, disclaimer is up…)
She threw it to me along with all the necessary parts to make it. I am really not proud of this but in next ten seconds I prepared most beautiful joint this people laid their eyes on…
"Take it." I said throwing it to Asukas hand. "And keep your promise!"
I could almost feel that everyones eyes sparkled…..
"Impressive… where did you learn this kind of stuff…" Asuka asked.
"You Tube" I answered. It was true…
I turned to live and others followed. Kenuse was a bit disappointed; he was completely out of situation. I knew he wanted to stay there with them more than anything, and I really doubt he realized why I called him idiot. Well he will be wondering for a long time… Kaworu was the same as me "get-the-fuck-away-pose", at least someone…
"You know Ikari I am really interested in your past, you are really interesting. Got anything to say!" Asuka demanded.
God, that bitch acted like she owns everything. I´m sick of her.
"Yes I do, fuck off…"
Normal reply from her to this would be a roundhouse kick to the face, but for my surprise she just grinned.
"You are indeed interesting Ikari, and don´t try to run away. If I am interested I will find out! You got me!"
"Whatever…."
BITCH. Get the fuck away from my life…
"By, by." They greeted us and one of them pulled out a lighter and set my creation on fire…
So we just tuned and left, leaving them to get high and do what they want, without realizing we were actually swayed by girls, from territory that was completely neutral and belonged to us as much as them. In the past we mindlessly bashed skulls to get rid of unwanted kids in our park in Sakura Street. Oh god Toji where were you, we needed you to get rid of Queen Bitch. Instead we got Kensuke who completely ruined our talk and endangered my already crappy reputation of "emo kid".
Idiot was going to have a piece of my mind but right now I just needed to take a dump…
"I´m gonna take a dump, see you at class. Ok?" I announced.
"Sure, take your time." Kaworu replied and winked. Kenuke nodded and followed Kaworu to the benches behind the PE court…
Class is boring as fuck… I´m literally regretting not getting high just then… I looked at Asuka and her friends in the middle row, they were laughing at anything… god dam it why the fuck are they having fun, Tojis ears are bleeding in the front and they are having fun. Well fuck you Toji you deserved it for not being there when we needed you.
I still can´t realize how was our professor so dumb that he can´t notice three high girls in class, well that is above me I guess… we much be thankful that he never notices us sleeping… if he did it would be bad, really bad…
This is too boring, fuck it going back to sleep… why the fuck did I drink two cups of coffee?
Finally it was over, we stood in front of school gates and I lit a cigarette.
"I´m going to work, Kaworu going my way?" I asked. Our talk was still unfinished, and I really wanted that we do it alone. No, Kensuke still didn´t received a piece of my mind. I´m saving it for later.
"Sure." He responded. Kaworu knew he was still unclear in front of Shinji, and he really, really wanted to get over with this. He know the mystery bothered everyone and that he will have to live with consequences every single day, but at least he would be clear in front of his friend.
"Then see you losers later." Toji said. He put his arm around Kensukes neck and went along with him, hugged.
Both Toji and Kenuske turned and fare welled "By!"
"By!" We both responded.
I glared around and noticed Asuka staring at me, when she noticed that I noticed she just grinned.
What the fuck do you want?
She came closer.
What the fuck…
"I forgot to ask Kaworu, what´s with you and Wondergirl?"
Thank god, well not really any better but none the less better…
"We are dating, problem?"
"No." Asuka replied. She looked satisfied. But then she averted her gaze back to me. "I wish everyone just answered my questions without hiding anything, right Shinji? Well let´s not mind that digging will be sweeter… well unless you want to talk Ikari?"
"Suck my dick maybe?"
"You wish that I do don´t you, pervert?"
My fist could break from the clutch I m making right now…
"Well see you around Ikari." Asuka quickly said and left. "Silly klutz" she mumbled silently but I heard her…
God dam it I wanted to kill her, my cigarette almost broke in my arms….
Me and Kaworu remained alone, well not alone there were 600 more students all around us. When school was finished it was pretty crowdie around here. Well our school was disgusting from outside as it was from inside. This was more of poor kids' school than public one. In this it really didn´t matter from where you came, we have few rich, few poor and mostly average. I knew that Mana was rich as fuck, more importantly she wasn't spoiled brat like Asuka witch was probably also rich… others were probably all average… well our gang was poor but we didn´t show it… we had decent clothing and we were always hygienically flawless… well Toji more or less but anyway…
"You set?" Kaworu asked. He already finished with his smoke. And he was unsure of my stillness with this entire Asuka situation but he knew we would come to that…
"Yep!" I answered. Throwing my cigarette on the floor and stepped on it with my left foot.
After a one minute walk there was no one near us so we could talk about our "delicate" situation.
"Commencing therapy session number 200." I announced. I was just trying to break the tension and awkwardness of the short silence we shared.
Kaworu laughed but nodded and started."Well as you noticed Rei and I are dating, and I know what you all think or at least you, I know it looked like I did it out of pity but it´s not true… you know when I told you that we need to talk…"
"Yes…"
"Well to be honest I actually wanted to consult you about asking her out or not…"
"Really?" I asked in shock. I didn´t quite expect Kaworu to think about it… damn I just thaught that that relationship was based on awkwardness…
"Yeah… But it´s fine now I guess, it already happened so we can´t change that…"
"Why did you decide to ask her out, you never told me you had some sort of affection for her?"
"Well to be honest I just wanted to go on ice-cream with her or something and see how she really is, you know if her personality is half her beauty, if it were I would probably react… Anyway I already talked to her and I am really surprised..."
"What happened?" I asked. God dam it I am so curious…
"For start she apologized and thanked me, I really like polite girls…. Well she got the situation and realized that I may have just done that because of pity, and she also asked if I would like that she clears the misunderstanding and explains everything to everyone… she explained that she wouldn´t like to be in relationship with me if I only did it out of pity and did not like her…"
"So you?" I asked with high expectations…
"Yep I told her that I like her…" Kaworu announced proudly.
"Sorry for asking but do you?"
"Well to be honest… not for now… but I really thing I might in near future… right now I´m still a bit tense near her…"
"And what was her reaction?"
"Well she hugged me and promised that she will be the best girlfriend I ever had, and then she started to ask the most stupid questions up to now…."
"Like…."
"Thrust me… it is not important…"
"Fine…" I sighted. Fuck I am so curious… "Maybe later?"
"Nope…"
"Grrr" I purred. Shame, but it´s not that important I guess. "Well do you plan on going on a date?"
"Actually we didn´t speak of that, I´ll contact her on Facebook…." Kaworu replied. "And btw how are you holding up with Asuka sniffing around…"
"Well I plan to let Toji on her… or something."
"That sounds like plan… but seriously you good?"
"Yeah I really doubt she can find anything though…"
"Yeah me too, but if it get´s problematic talk to us… really. This is my road, so hear you later!"
"Thanks man, hear you later..."
We waved and parted, soon after I was in front of my destination. Manga universe, the place I worked at. Well I worked here every day after school for 3 hours. I was free on weekends so it was good. Paycheck was a bit crappy but it helped me a lot. Place was fine I worked alone as a cashier and sometimes guide for blind morons who can´t find their manga following alphabetic order… I mostly enjoyed my time here, regulars were good people and I spent most of my time just reading everything, if I continue to work here until the end of high school I will probably become one of greatest otaku ever to walk on Japanese soil…
After work I came home and did my usual routine. First of all take a piss, then make coffee, then drink coffee and in process smoke about three cigarettes. After those just relax and do nothing, studying could wait for few days, after all I was a top class student and I was mostly finished with everything until mid-terms…
I went to my computer and checked my web.
Facebook; 1 friend request…
"Hmmm?"
And it was from… guess who… "Great Asuka Langley Soryu"…. Decline….
Fuck….
YouTube; nothing special, just few new videos from the people I was following, enjoyed watching them though and even liked 4 of them.
Twitter; some announcements from few celebrities I like… again nothing special..
I was going to continue but I suddenly got a urge to continue with my memos, so I opened the word and started to write…
After two hours Skype started to ring, it was Toji. I looked at the clock and there it was 3 a.m. standard gaming time….
"Oy Shinji, you ready for a game?"
"Sure, call others and we could do the pervious…"
"You hate to lose don´t you, loser!"
"O… we will see about that you fucking douche…"
I was gonna talk to him about Asuka but fuck it, it can all wait until tomorrow… not to mention that I really need to have a serious talk with Kensuke….
End of Chapter 2.