The next day you were up early cause baby girl decided she had slept enough . You groan and rolled out of bed .You hadn't slept that much to begin with .The events of the day before kept replaying over and over in your mind.
But you couldn't be mad at baby girl .. not when she looking so sweetly looking up at you ." hey sweetheart you ready to start your day huh ?" you said changing her diaper and putting a clean outfit on her before you picked her up .
"let's go and get something to eat huh ?" you said and slip out of the bunk in search of a fresh bottle for her. you passed Rick's cell and you noticed it was empty and you hope that didn't mean he had gone back .
You walked out into the main area and stop short when you saw Rick and Hershel talking quietly at a table they looked up when you came in you gave them a small smile. "Sorry someone was hungry " you said going to cooler that held the bottles . you grab one and turned and headed back feeling Rick 's eyes on you . the whole time.
You didn't see Rick again until later that afternoon he was outside this time. you were filling up buckets with clean water and you noticed how he was just walking out along the fence. It look like he was looking for something. you sigh.. as you watch him.
" he looking for her " Hershel said as he walked up to you . your heart broke at this " he was waiting for her to call down in the boiler room " you said. " what do we do ?" you asked looking at the older man he sigh " just be here for him he got to come to grips with her death on his own plus he got his own guilt on top of it. " and his kids " I mean poor Carl and the baby girl " you said.
"they are probably what's keeping him fighting right now "Hershel replied "So we just have to be patient with him and be here for him when he is ready " you said Hershel nodded. "Alright that what we will do then ' you said .
The older man looked at you .. " you really love him don't you ?" he asked you looked at him in shock but decided not to denied it " I do I have for a while but for obvious reason never made my feelings known and now it's... well beside I don't think he felt those feeling for me any ways so it better just to be a friend than not " you said.
"Well I wouldn't dismiss them just yet .. just give it time " Hershel replied patting you on the shoulder before walking back inside. you stood there and watch Rick walk up and down the fence again Time was something that you may not have.
You had just put baby girl back down after she gotten up for another midnight feeding when you heard something coming from outside. you check on her again and then slip out looking around you didn't see anyone but heard it again it sound like someone in one their cells ..
you walked down and checked on Carl he was asleep and then you check in on Rick. That when you noticed he was tossing and turning talking in his sleep on his back. you walked in.. he was drenched in sweat and his hands were balled up in the sheets . "Lori " your heart sank...as he called out his wife name over and over again crying at the same time. Tears in your own eyes as you bend down and put a hand on his forehead.. he still for a second his breathing still rapid and heavy ..
" Lori ..I am so sorry "..his eyes flutter open before closing again and he start moving again. suddenly his one hand grab yours and held on .. " I miss you... why did you leave.." every word was cutting your heart into two.. you knew he still loved her .. just because of one mistake wouldn't have erase years of memories together.
All you could do now is comfort him back to a peaceful sleep and get out of there. you reached over and started running your fingers through his hair talking softly to him until he settled down the grip on your hand loosen just a little as he settled into a deeper more restful sleep.
You didn't leave until he was snoring softly and you were able to slip your hand away . But as soon as you did you slip out and went back to your cell and collapsed on the bed and cried until you were too tired to cry any more . He wasn't just broken he was shattered and you didn't know if all those pieces could be put back together to again.
But you were going to try not for your sake because you had already accept the fact he would never be yours . but you needed to try to his kids sake to get their dad back . To get this group's leader back again . You would try for Rick himself because he shouldn't have to live likes this. Everything that was meant to be would work out you just had to believe that.