"If only" chapter II escape is not an option.

I was barely awake when I started to hear voices coming from the out side of the car I tried to lift my head up to see who it was but my head spun and I fell back down. "...you what! Why did you... but still you could of handled it better..."

beep beep I heard the back seat car door open and felt some thing slide in next to me "hey darling... Jasper you are going to explain what happened to her head or I will kill you right now on the spot." the yelling from the voices was giving me a massive headache I groaned and tried once again to sit up.

Then I felt Edwards cool hands push me back down. "stay... you may have a concussion." Edwards voice was full of concern. "mum...James...I need to be there … I need to escape from you..." I mumbled.

"hang on... what?" Edward said " James wants me to be there...he'll let my mum free... I have to be there... away from you... your not allowed to be there... none of you are... I need to escape but I don't know how..."

"Well your not going, you need to be here with me, where its safe." he said giving me orders "No but I have to escape that's the whole idea of it... a life for a life."

"Guess what for you little miss escape is not an option." I tried to sit up so It would give me a chance to yell him but he pushed me back down. "Carlisle I need you to come and have a look at Bella's head. It badly bruised and is starting to swell .

Carlisle came around from the back of the boot where he was talking to Alice and Jasper, he opened the other back seat door so he could get to me with out Edward getting it the way. He lightly pressed my skull and I lit out a little scream, it hurt so bad like someone getting a screw driver and drilling it in to your head.

"I think she has fractured her skull, keep her head as low as possible until we get her to a hotel where we can put some ice on it."

Edward slid in properly and put his seat belt on and Carlisle did the same "Bella what could have possibly made you hit your head so hard against the window?" Edward asked his voice was full of astonishment. Alice and Jasper slid in to the front seat, Jasper started to slowly reverse out of the car park

"Because I Need to get to my FUCKING MUM, why cant you understand that. She is going to die tonight if you don't let me go save her."

"So you think you can just go out to the middle of nowhere and get yourself killed just to save your mum? If you did managed to get that far. If only you got that far if you didn't get lost, he would kill you and your mother. Cant you see that?"

I knew he had a point, I knew it as soon as James had called but I could not just sit by waiting for my mothers death to come around, I had to die instead of her or at least die trying.

Tears stared to roll down my face, I have never been able to stand thinking about my own mothers death.

Edward saw my tears then he grabbed my shoulders and lifted them up so he and I could be at eye level. "I'm sorry, I truly am but I can not live in a life where you do not exist. I never want to lose you so I am not going to take the chance. I Know that is selfish but you are just going to have to live with it."

it was at least another two hours until we stopped so I slid back down and rested my head down on Edwards lap "if my mother dies it will be because of you and if she dose I will Fucken hate you for the rest of my life." after saying that I closed my eyes and started to dream

A/N hey im Emma, if you have any comments on how you like it or how bad is it i'd be happy to read them

thanxs so much InsaintyXD