Hi I am so sorry for the late update. After i posted the first chapter i got stuck with the story until i got some much needed help from Sarah ( Donnafeltsth on twitter love ya girl) and then i got really busy in my messy life. But I'm going to try my best to update more often. Hope you guys like the chapter and Let me know what you think!
"W-what." He grips the phone tight as he finds out what happened to Donna.
No no no no.
She's hurt.
This isn't supposed to happen. She left early because of him.
He knows it.
She always stays late and now she's in an accident because of him.
With a shaky breath, he says, "I'll be right there."
He rushes outside and quickly presses the elevator button.
"Come on, come on! "
When the elevator finally turns up, he quickly presses the lobby button and calls Ray.
"I need a ride to the hospital fast" he chokes out.
When he gets out of the elevator he runs to the car and quickly tells Ray to floor it.
While In the car he slowly thinks over what happened to Donna. He didn't let the nurse finish when he was on the phone, but it must've been serious since they called him.
His anxiety getting worse as he spends more time thinking about it.
He just needs to see her.
As soon as they get to the hospital Harvey runs into the main entrance.
"I'm looking for Donna Paulsen." He says to the blonde lady who gives him one eyebrow up.
"And who might you be."
Harvey knew that if he said boss or friend then they would make him wait longer.
"I'm her fiancé."
Thankfully she believes him.
"Ok right this way."
The lady takes him to the room that she's supposed to be in.
She turns around.
"Looks like she's in surgery right now so you're going to have to wait out here. A doctor should be with you as soon as possible."
"How long will that be?"
"I'm afraid I can't say but as soon as the doctor is done we will notify you." The nurse giving him a tight smile.
Harvey nods his head in return.
He's so worried about her.
He wishes he could take back all the stuff he said to her, she wouldn't be in this mess if it wasn't for him. She would've been safe at home or at the firm but not in this hospital.
If god forbid something were to happen to her he would never forgive himself.
He feels the heat coming and closing his throat making him take off his jacket and unbutton the first few buttons of his shirt and loosen his tie.
He needs the washroom.
Running towards it he opens the door and finds the first stall.
He falls to the floor and empties himself in the toilet. He holds himself up after throwing up and lets a few tears slip down.
He doesn't want to be a mess when she would be ready to wake up so he gets up off the floor. He does his deep breathing exercises and walks towards the sink and washes his face and his hands.
He walks back to where Donna's room is supposed to be.
Still no word. He tries to find a nurse.
"It's a been an hour when can I see her? I've been waiting for so long I need to know if she's okay."
"Sir, I'm sorry we can't do anything since she's in surgery. You're going to have to wait."
"Tell me the doctors name now."
"Dr. Zander is his name. He is one of the best surgeons in this area so, please, sir sit down."
After a few minutes he sat down and he saw a doctor walking by. He introduced himself as Dr Zander and asked him who he's here for.
"Hey, I'm here for Donna Paulsen how is she doing"
"Surgery went great but since of the impact she has suffered head trauma and a partial spinal injury as well. Because of the amount of blood loss she's currently in a coma and we're not sure when she'll wake up.
Harvey's breath hitches. "Can I see her."
"Yes, she's just in this room you're welcome to talk to her since she can hear you."
Harvey felt nervous.
He approaches her bed side.
She looked awful.
Bruises everywhere.
He's never seen her look so pale.
She isn't supposed to look like that. She's supposed to be her bubbly, lively and not so broken.
Harvey wanted to break down crying because he knows he did this to her. He walks up to her and sits on the chair that's beside her hospital bed.
"Donna I'm so sorry." Harvey starts crying while holding her hand.
He continues.
"I need you to be here with me and I need you to be okay. I can't lose you." he says while running a thumb across her hand.
He just wants this nightmare to be over.
Harvey starts to get angry with himself.
It was all his fault.
Repeating the images of them fighting over and over again. He wishes he'd just manned up and told her the reason he's been so pissed off is because he wishes he could be with her and tell her how he feels and also how sorry he is for not listening to her and actually fixing the problem.
Maybe she wouldn't have gone home early and actually stayed later like she usually does and they wouldn't be in this mess.
He doesn't even know when she'll wake up, his heart breaking all over again.
He rests his head on her bed giving kisses to her hand.
He couldn't lose her.
Not ever.
He decides to talk to her more.
"Remember when we first met at the bar you were so quirky, smart and so beautiful" he says with a small smile while reminiscing when things were so simple.
"And how you persuaded me to let you come to my desk and how on instinct you knew Forstman was a bad guy. I'm so grateful for all that you do Donna." He says before he continues the nurse checks in on her.
"Mr. Specter, she probably isn't going to wake up for awhile, maybe it's best if you go home and come back in the morning."
"No, I'm not leaving her." he says, anger starts filling him.
"Okay, let us know if you need anything."
He closes his eyes when the nurse leaves and rests his head on her stomach while kissing her hand.
She looks so lifeless and he can't bear to see her like this anymore, so he decides to close his eyes since he didn't want to leave her.
He wakes up from a nightmare.
Donna was dead and it was all his fault everyone was blaming him for her death. He was holding her lifeless body in his arms.
He needs to get up and get air and water. He looks at her again and gets up about to let go of her hand but all of sudden she squeezes his hand.
"Harvey" she croaks out.