Author's Note:Ok so this part is in Charlotte's POV. The song for this chapter is Loveless by: Lc5

You're older than me
Was I too childish for you?

I couldn't help but think of that rumor and wondered about its validity. If it was true, then why? Why would he do that? What was it about me that he didn't like? Could I have been too childish for him? I bit my lip as I wondered why I was even thinking about him at all. I broke up with him because he was said to have been with a woman the third of last month.

before I knew it I had nowhere else to go

I didn't know what else to think about the rumor and I was ashamed to have not let him try and explain himself, let alone tell me if it was true or false. I sat in front of my mirror wondering what he'd seen in me when we first met. Picking up my eyeliner from the vanity, I twisted it open and pulled it from its container. I watched as the liquid slowly dripped from the point of the brush. Finally I decided that I would start to put it on. Again I wondered, did he ever really think I was pretty? Cute? I finished applying the eyeliner and stared at my bottle of mascara.

I'm not cute enough

I slowly picked it up and held it tightly within my hand. Opening it, I took no time scraping the excess off before applying it to my naked eyelashes. Upon finishing I gazed upon my reflection and my hand went up to the eyebrow piercing just above my right eye. I held the bottom of it with the tips of my fingers and reached my other hand to the tiny little ball at the top to take it off. Holding the tiny little ball, I pulled out the other piece and looked towards the trash sitting by the door. I finally stood up and walked over to it before getting on my knees and dropping them in the trash.

At last, I stood up and looked to the clothes laid out carefully on my bed. I looked towards the dress he'd bought me for my birthday. It was a light green tulle dress that I'd been eyeing at the clothes shop for quite a while. I picked up the dress and fingered the bow with a small smile remembering how he tried to stealthily take if off the rack and purchase it.

"Oh Tyler…"I said quietly to myself.

I slid on the dress and flattened the wrinkles underneath the Tulle. Looking over to my shoes my heart clenched up as the memory of last week once again came to mind. It became hard to breathe as I remembered his face and how he slowly turned and slunk off towards his car. I'd turned around and started to walk a few steps before stopping again as the sudden realization hit me. I had whipped around to see if he had reached his car or not. My feet moved on their own as I started to run towards his car. Only halfway there, I caught the front of my sandal in a crack on the ground and fell forward. By the time I was able to stand up, his car had already disappeared from the lot. I picked up the shoes with shaky hands and slowly put them on.

I'm too clumsy
I couldn't chase after you as you left

I walked out of the room and looked at my reflection in the hallway mirror. I twisted and turned trying to look at both sides. Normally, the one who would help with these things was Tyler. I couldn't help but wonder what he would say if he saw me now. Looking straight into the mirror once more, I thought I saw him standing behind me smiling as he held me. Without even thinking, I reached to touch his hand that should have been at one of my shoulders only to touch what I knew was my shoulder. His image disappeared from the mirror making me slam my palm against the mirror trying to make him reappear.

Unable to think coherently, I ran back to my room and frantically looked for my cell. I finally found it lying in the very depths of my closet where I hid it to keep myself from answering. My hands shaking, I hesitated above his number before finally tapping call.

"Please pick up…" I said shakily. There was a click so I'd suddenly become excited until I heard I'd reached his voicemail.

I'm lonely, I miss you, I want to hear your voice
I stand there clutching my cellphone

"Tyler…?" I'd started. I hadn't even noticed my roommate Amber standing in the doorway giving me a stupefied look. I continued before I heard stomping coming my way. "Tyler I-" I had been cut off by Amber screaming then snatched the phone out of my hand as she yelled at me for calling him.

"Why are you calling him? YOU broke up with HIM. Remember?"I watched as Amber put the phone up to her ear. "She didn't mean to call you. Forget this message ever existed." She'd hung up the phone and tossed it over to me. "Let's go to the mall."

If I was going to spend my life feeling like this
I'd rather not have known what love is

I followed Amber out of the room still clutching the phone in my hand. It was then I noticed that my heart had been pounding out of my chest while I was trying to leave a message. I tightened my grip on the mobile device as it sank in. I just tried to call him! Unable to stop thinking about that one fact, I wondered if breaking it off was really the right thing to do.

As if she were impatient, Amber grabbed my wrist and dragged me behind her outside. I could tell she wasn't too pleased with me as I was no longer the person she knew; the person who didn't let her breakups get to her. I was the type that others would call strong and cold hearted. It was what made mine, Amber, and Li's friendship last so long. I laughed silently to myself as I thought of how shallow our friendship really was. I slipped into Amber's passenger seat with a blank look down at my dress and wondered what people would say about it. Smiling sadly, I knew there were those who'd be shocked with my sudden wardrobe change. I never wore these kinds of dresses.

I went out wearing the slightly mature dress you picked out for me
I wanted to hear people say I looked good in it

On the way there, Amber talked the whole time about her on and off relationship with her boyfriend. Not that I listened to much of it; my replies consisted of nodding and turning my head to the window saying 'That's nice.' I gave my halfhearted replies up until we arrived. Opening the door, I stepped out of the car first and waited to walk in with Amber. I looked down at the phone I was still clutching within my hand then looked back up as Amber cleared her throat.

"Let's go." She demanded.

I slowly nodded and followed after her into the mall. Instantly upon walking in, I could see couples everywhere smiling; holding hands. How I longed to be like that once more. Amber led the way to many shops old and new. She'd browsed through everything possible leaving me to just stand there holding her things while I continuously stared at my reflection in the shop window devoid of any emotion. Amber didn't want to console me, she just wanted me to follow her around and tell her how good she looked. Not that I needed her to console me anyway. I don't think that word is even in her vocabulary. I laughed bitterly. It was doubtful that the word vocabulary was in her vocabulary. Though, none of that mattered anymore. There was no Tyler for her to be with, to laugh with, or even talk with.

What I missed the most about him was how he lit up my world when he was around.

I see my pathetic reflection in the window of a shop
You're not by my side.

We walked out of the store and I grew more and more upset as Amber started to bad mouth him. My eyes watered and before I could think, I snapped at her. "Don't talk like you know him! You know nothing! Not the way he looks when he's playing around, or how he hates greasy foods, not even how he looks when he first wakes up in the morning!" I couldn't control myself as I listed off the things I loved about him.

It hurts, I'm sad, I want to touch you
I can't put you in the past
You may be selfish but I love you
Those fun days won't leave me

When I could finally stop talking, I noticed Amber looking at me with shock written on her face. It was then that I realized what I said to her. I looked down at my feet and started to walk forward. "Let's just go."

Amber and I started walking off towards the exit when I heard him yelling for me. I froze in place as Amber continued to walk out of the building.

you held me then, saying you wouldn't let me go
Yet you're not by my side

I thought I was hearing things until I heard it once more.

"Charlotte!" I slowly turned my head hoping this wasn't some sort of dream. Finally, I saw him running towards me in desperation. My eyes widened as I saw him standing before me out of breath. I sucked in a small breath as he held my hands.

I'm lonely, I miss you, I want to hear your voice
Memories of you remain, I can't erase them

"Charlotte…"He'd started. "Give me one last chance" I stared in shock as he continued to talk. "And I'll explain everything..." He'd finished.

if I was going to spend my life feeling like this
I'd rather not have known what love is

My eyes watered and I moved my hand up to wipe my already forming tears. "You just don't know when to give up do you…?" I asked as I remembered how many texts and phone calls I'd received this last week. Well, up until I threw it in the closet anyway.

"No…I don't." Tyler had said with a small smile.

I dreamed of eternity
But it didn't exist

My heart was racing as he stared at me with a glimmer of hope. I walked a little closer to him and lay my forehead on his chest while tugging at the hem of his shirt wordlessly asking for his embrace. I closed my eyes as a tear made its way to my chin. It seemed like it would take forever for his response. I started to pull away but was pulled into a warm and never-ending embrace.

I locked away that past, and you
Because I wanted it all to go away

"Tyler… I'm sorry..."