A/N: I know, I promised I would upload earlier, but I got a killer case of Blockaus writineas aka writers block. The chapters will go between Tris and Al's perspectives. A lot of the stuff from Tris's POV will be more then less unchanged from the book though. Also, I have not yet decided whether the war will happen or not. I feel like this chapter sucks eggs, but whatever.

Tris:

I jolt awake. It takes me a minute to realize that my nightmare is over and this is part of real life. I may have had the best score for stage two, but the simulations still leak through the cracks in my wall.

The clock says that it is 8:00 and I begin to panic, before I realize that today we have off from initiation. Thank god. I can use a break. No one else in the dormitory is awake, and there is no good reason that I should be. I gently rest my aching head on my pillow, and I think happy thoughts, hoping it will put me to sleep. It doesn't.

I lay there for another hour, while my mind races, but eventually; my brain must get tired of worrying about all the troubles in my life, because I drift into a restless sleep.

It is noon by the time I wake up again. I convince myself to get out of bed and get ready. My moves are slow, and zombie-like, as I brush my hair and get dressed in my regular baggy black clothing. The thought crosses my mind of wearing something less modest, and form fitting, but I push it away, too tired to really give a shit. I slowly walk towards the cafeteria. When I get there, Will and Christina vigorously wave me over. They seem to be a little over eager, like they are trying to make up for their behavior two days ago, but I told myself I would forgive them, so I will.

I make my way over to their table and I grab some food, which tastes amazing, as always, but turns to cardboard as soon as I see who is also making his way towards our table.

"Go away Al." Christina says, with no emotion.

"I want to say sorry." He says. Part of me wants to forgive him. The other part of me wants to shoot him in the head.

"No one here wants to accept you apology." I say

"Please Tris, I wasn't thinking straight, I was depressed, please, I would ever hurt you again. I almost threw myself over the chasm last night."

"Well why didn't you? Seriously Al, you helped Peter try to throw me off the chasm, and you think we are going to be all fine? Fuck off Al."

"Calm down Tris, I'm sure you don't mean that."

"Of course I do! Why wouldn't I. it's not like that stuff actually happened, or anything."

Finally Al walks away. I automatically slump. I hate Al, and I hate that he keeps trying to apologize. What he did was unforgivable. He has to live with the consequences of what he did.

I continue eating. At least the food tastes good. Yum.

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I walk through the hallways alone. I just need some time to myself, after everything that has happened in so few days. It's like I can barely remember the meek Abnegation girl I once was.

Suddenly, I hear footsteps, and I tense up. I really shouldn't, because the Dauntless compound is crowded, and the footsteps could belong to anyone, but I can't help feeling nervous.

I begin to run, and footsteps speed up too.

Shit. I'm being followed!

I sprint faster, but I am too focused on speeding up, and getting away from my follower that I don't notice a turn in the hallway, and I ram right into the wall. I'm and idiot. I complete fucking idiot that runs into walls.

I'm too winded to get up and keep running, so my follower catches up. I'm not the least bit surprised that it's Al.

"What do you want Al?"

"To apologize."

"I thought we established that I hate you, and won't forgive you this morning."

"I'm not taking no for an answer."

I painfully push myself up. "You're just gonna have to." I say before I walk off. He steps forward and grabs my arm.

"No, Tris, I will make you forgive me."

"Get off me right now you coward, or I swear I will scream, and tell anyone who comes to help me that you tried to rape me."

"You wouldn't"

I scream louder, and longer than I ever have before.

"Someone help me. Please!" I scream. Al looks hurt, and a small part of me does want to forgive him, but I buried that part of me when I dripped my blood over the coals.

"Tris, please, I never, ever meant to hurt you." He says. His hand is still around my arm. I try to jerk free, but he doesn't let me go.

"Well you did, and you can go to your grave without my forgiveness." My voice is shaky, but cruel, and that small part of me flinches. I try to ignore it. Al is slightly taken aback.

I hear loud, quick footsteps, and thankfully, it's Four who comes into view.

"Get off of her. Now." Four says in his scarily calm voice.

"Why is it always him?" I hear Al mumble under his breath, but when he doesn't let go of my arm, Four punches him hard in his face, and Al falls backwards. At least he lets go of me. Thank god as soon as he gets up he runs off. Four would probably kill him if he attacked back. Is it bad I still worry about the fact Four could kill him?

"What was he doing to you?" Four asks, with a small trace of worry in his usually emotionless voice.

I was planning to tell whoever comes to help me that he was trying to rape me, or beat me up, but I feel like telling the truth for once.

"Nothing. I wanted him off me, so I threatened him that I would scream for help and make up a lie that he tried to rape me."

"So why isn't that what you told me."

"I don't know, I'm just angry at the world. None of this should have happened, and none of it would in Abnegation. I don't care if by saying that, it makes me a Stiff, but it's true."

His eyes dart to the wall above my head. His expression is laced with fear.

"Be careful Tris."

"Really?! Be careful Tris s all you can say?"

"No, I'm serious." He snaps, and he grabs my arm, dragging me down the hallway.

"Get off me; I will do the same thing I did to Al to you." I say coldly, although I am immediately remorseful. I shouldn't get angry and him.

"You need to be careful. They are watching you. Specifically you. I keep trying to help you, but you refuse to listen."

"Oh yeah, your help, like stabbing me in the ear, and constantly taunting me."

"I wasn't taunting you." He snaps "I was reminding you if you failed, Al would take you place."

I think back to that incident. His taunting did make me more determined to keep going. He obviously sees my understanding in my face because he says,

"If I were you, I would do a better job of hiding your intentions, and before you ask why, it's because they want everyone to be the same, and blindly follow their rules like a pack of sheep, when someone doesn't follow the pack, they want that person gone."

I don't know what to say. I want to come up with a retort of some kind, but he is completely right. I don't remember deciding to wrap arms around him but I do, and after a few seconds, he hugs me back.

"My life is screwed up."

"You have no idea."

"I feel like I should be crying."

He doesn't reply at first, but he presses his hand to my cheek and turns my face towards his. We don't talk for a while, but eventually he says,

"None of this is your fault."

"I wish I could believe that." I murmur so quietly he might not have even heard me. He just presses his lips to my forehead, and we stand there for a long time.

A/N: Thank God I got that finished. Then next chapter will have to be from Al's perspective 'cause if it was from Tris the chapter would be exactly the same as the book. Please, please review.