Hello lovlies, i didn't want to post this chapter until i finished the next one but i hadn't had time to write much...either way i decided to post it anyway. Hope you enjoy~

R&R, Love Dia

Sasuke's pov

After the club night our usual meetings came to a sudden end, for almost a month I didn't see you and I also thought I never would again. Suddenly not seeing you felt so…wrong. I had so much time on my hands to be honest I didn't know what to do with it.

Finally after a month and a few days Naruto made a group chat and invited 20 people to the beach, you weren't one of them but Sakura invited you anyway. For some reasons unknown to me it was decided a hotel with a pool would be better, since it was more…'private'?

We ended up with a group of 10, Naruto, Kiba, Garra, Shikamaru, Sakura, Temari, Ino, me, you and also your older cousin with whom you've spend most of your summer in Kiri where your mother lived. That was the reason I didn't see you, you were in Kiri so far…far, far away from Konoha, yeah that made sense.

The first day we got there we left our things in the rooms and went for a swim, or in Naruto's case just jumped in the pool as soon as the car stopped. You were wearing a nice dress, your feet in the water hair in a tight pony and a book in your hand. I couldn't help but be curious so I swam to you and looked at the book's cover for a second, I wish I could remember the name, but I can't.

I took the book out of your slender hands, action that earned me a puzzled expression, a flashback of you telling me to answer the phone then making the same expression came to my mind. For a split second I thought about you, in your white dress in the water, the material soaked and seen through, I wanted to see that so I pulled you in the pool. Worst way to find out that you didn't know how to swim. It took me a second to figure that out, and in the end I helped you but thinking back to that it was a bad idea, an idea that made you slap me quite hard and also not talk to me for 2 days.

Xxxx

When I stalked you I watched where you were going and only your smile, but now I started to notice small things, things I never forgot, like how you love cinnamon buns, how you can't stand bad smells and you'd wrinkle your nose, when you're thinking hard you're always licking your lips and many more, but there was still many things I didn't understand about you.

As I said the following 2 days you tried to avoid me but our eyes would meet in the hallways. When I had the chance I'd sit near you at lunch and our shoulders would touch for an instant.

I was in my room sitting on the bed trying to find power to get up and take a shower, that's when I heard a knock, and another one. After a few more knocks I finally got up and opened the door, fast, too fast for you, therefore your small fist 'knocked' but this time it hit my chest rather than the door. I raised a brow but you didn't mention it.

You were looking at something to your right…there was a wall, nothing on it, not a picture nothing. But you didn't say a word, you were so confusing to me, a mystery. So I talked first.

"Hi"

Finally your eyes turned to me and you smiled, sweetly, teeth showing and all. Did anyone tell you, you have perfect teeth? Your hair was in a bun allowing me to see your slender neck, I think I have a fetish for necks, is that strange? The same dress you had on the first day was in its place.

"Hey"

There was something mischievous in your eyes, were you about to say I was staring again ? because I know I was. You were bare footed which was…refreshing. I hate feet did you know? But your small ones seemed…nice?

"Why are you here?"

I leaned on the doorframe, crossed my arms and smirked at you. Your mouth formed a small 'O' and eyes widen, still no idea why. I watched you move, right hand to your hip, head slightly bent, bangs brush your forehead.

"I wanted to say I'm sorry for slapping you"

Neither of us looked at the other, the wall behind you was so much more interesting at the moment, I'm not sure where you were looking but I didn't feel your gaze on me, until you spoke again.

"You did deserve it thou, I could have died"

This time not only did I feel your eyes burn my skull but I also heard the sarcasm dripping from your words. In the end I looked at you and gave you a cheeky grin. You rolled your eyes. I moved away sending you small signals that you either come in or go away. You walked in.

"Your room is so much bigger than mine!"

Now that I think about it…it wasn't such a good idea to let you in, was it? I remember I walked right behind you, so close I could smell your hair. I felt your body tense, I didn't quite care. I moved my hand over your forearm and lowered my face to your ear.

"Wanna share it?"

Time stopped, you turned, scared. Passed by me and slammed the door. I wanted to go after you, I really did. But I didn't, I don't know why. But maybe I should have… Right, Hinata?

Xxxx

After the incident in my room we fell into old habits, you ignoring me and me stalking you. After being so close to you seeing you from far way hurt a lot.

I felt my heart beat faster each pump was painful and with every second that passed I found it harder to breath. From time to time I could feel you looking at me for a second but as soon as I raised my head you'd look away already, I never caught your eye.

Whenever I had my eyes closed I always saw the same image of you. Eyes closed, steady breath, rigid back, white legs, I still had that picture of you in my mind. For a moment between the things we said in my room you almost looked…pleased. The tension wasn't there and for a second I really thought it might work out, but...

Eyes open, arms crossed, lips parted and messy hair in a bun, even now I remember how you looked so…beautiful without even trying. As usual eyes to the right, not looking at me. After you avoided me for the whole trip you came to my room to 'talk' right before we had to leave. But you didn't even say a word for at least 5 minutes. The silence used to be something I enjoyed but this made me want to beg you to talk but at the same time I wanted you to shut up. All of a sudden I remembered our little chat into the park, good days, days when you were nothing but a mystery someone with who I'd enjoy all these awkward situations but now you were more. I didn't want things to be like that between us I wanted you to look at me and see what I see in you, but of course that could never happen.

Tank top, shorts, and bare footed if there was anyone wondering when did my 'attraction' for you turned into twisted love it was at this very moment when you were so naked, you seemed so real and vulnerable. Around you nothing made sense, not my actions, not my thoughts, nothing. At one point I was just another one of your hairs and other times I could feel that my feelings, our feelings were mutual. My thoughts contradicted themselves so many times it became a habit.

"Maybe…I do"

Finally you talked. But what you said made no sense, not at the beginning, not now, but I'm glad you said that. You looked at me and I swear I saw a fire start in your pure eyes. A bright smile followed by a guilty one. Another of those times when I thought it could work, that we could work things out.

"Maybe I do want to share a room"

I felt my heart stop, I remember blinking faster, shaking my head and looking at you, I had this smirk on , you noticed that didn't you? Because you smiled and your slim hand was in my hair scratching my scalp. Eyes locked, my knee touching your knee, I was sitting at the end of my bed and you were standing in front of me. You opened your mouth to say something and even now I am dying to hear the words you were yet to speak but the door opened.

"Hinata?"

You turned your head so fast I'm sure you got dizzy. Sakura was looking between the two of us, I felt her looking but my eyes were still glued to your neck, a few rebel stands of hair were curly and out of the messy bun. You and Sakura started to talk but no words reached me, before I could even think I was on my feet and my hand on the nape of your neck. It was so smooth. I felt you stiff but also relax quickly under my touch. At that moment, my ego rose back from hell and flew right to heaven, I could touch you and you didn't even mind, you seemed to enjoy it actually, enthusiasm ran through my body.

"Sasuke what are you doing?!"

My hand traveled down your spine and back up, I was watching the folds on your tank top. The pj, it was vivid red just like that short dress you once wore at the club. This color made your skin look just like porcelain, you were a doll, my doll.

"SASUKE!"

Before I could reach your neck again Sakura shoved my hand away. I didn't pay her any mind, because you turned around, big eyes looking at me. A star, somewhere along the way I said you were a star, but I was wrong. You were a galaxy and as every mortal I tended to reach for you until the tips of my fingers brushed your jaw. A galaxy I was ready to dive into and let it shallow me alive.

You smiled at my touch and I smiled back. Down to your collarbone, that's where I stopped. I caressed it from right to left, I stayed on the extreme right (left for you) a moment longer and felt your heart beat. Soft but fast, it was steady and made me realize just how fragile you were, just how easy it would be for me, anyone to harm you. The urge to protect you was…overwhelming. Sakura was talking wasn't she? My left hand was still in her hold that was getting tighter by the second, it became numb but all I needed was my right hand on your cheek, my thumb tapped the area under your eye and I earned a flutter of your lashes. They were so long touching your cheek. Finally Sakura had enough and she let go of my hand . You, she was looking at you. The petite smile faded and you seemed like you were about to cry.

"What are you doing?"

This time it was a whisper directed to you, I felt the sadness in her voice, her eyes were glossy as well, betrayed, that's the only emotion that comes to my mind when I think back at it, that's what she felt.

"Sakura…I don't think this has anything to do with you. Am I mistaken?"

My voice came out lower then I wanted, Sakura's green eyes opened even wider. You were sobbing onto my shirt, your ear was on my chest so I'm sure you noticed how my heart skipped thousands of beats whit each sob you let out. And with shaking hands I saw her opening the door and leaving.

Xxxx

After we came home for a few days Sakura and I were still not on talking terms, not until Naruto forced me to go to her. But it wasn't me that she wanted to see, it wasn't me that she wanted to hear 'sorry' from or who she wanted to explain that there was nothing, because...really there was nothing.

We went to her part-time job. After we got back from the trip Sakura asked around the hospital, pulled some strings and ended up as a temporary 'nurse' in the child department. Naruto dragged me there, like I said before.

"You know, I didn't really want to see you this soon"

It hurt to hear her say that, Sakura was like family and still is, I love her. I didn't really know what to say so I didn't say anything, just nodded. Naruto looked between the two of us. He didn't know what was going on, all he knew is that me and Sakura weren't on speaking terms and it bothered him.

"I just don't get it, Sasuke. You could have everyone, anyone you want! But, no! You had to choose her, Hinata out of every girl on this earth!"

I saw Naruto rise from his chair and look at me like I just murdered a person, which to him I might as well have. Sakura was 'cleaning' a table, meaning throwing things from right to left and the placing them back.

"She's not...something you can toy with. Hinata, she's..."

Sakura almost started to cry. And that's when I understood that I had to say something, something to make things better. But what could I say? I had no idea why my 2 best friends loved you some much, why they wanted you to themselves or at least that's what it seemed to me.

"Nothing...happened"

"Don't you lie to me!"

Sakura turned to me and once again she threw a empty box at me, she was so very violent lately. I was worried, she looked so...different. Crying, screaming, throwing things, I never saw her so desperate but it looked good on her. Naruto hit me because I smirked, I didn't mean to!

"I'm not lying, whatever...that was it was nothing you should worry about Sakura"

The conversation was over because she ignored me and so did Naruto. The next day both of them showed at my door like nothing happened and we went to eat something and then watch a movie, things were back to normal, normal before I met you, normal before you caught my eye.

Xxxx

I tried to get hold of you only to find out that you left for Kiri once again. Summer was almost over when you came back home. All that 'nothing' I kept telling Sakura and Naruto about seemed nothing at that time but when I saw you walking through the busy streets all these feelings came back to me and they meant something. Not sure what but...something. You didn't change much but not seeing you for so long made me forget just how beautiful you were. I was so deep in these feelings for you, I could hardly see the exit anymore and I was slowly walking deeper into the dark, losing myself along the way.

After you went to your apartment to leave your luggage you went to the park for a walk…not that I was following or anything, I just happened to pass by...(yea sure), anyway I was scared of what might happen, of what you were about to say. Our eyes met and you got up from the swing so fast I almost didn't see it, everything was blurry until you were in front of me, your arms around my waist, face buried into my shirt.

I wrapped my arms around your shoulders and put my chin on your head, that's when I noticed just how perfect you fitted into my arms. Sakura's hurt and Naruto's disappointed face rushed to me but I just ignored them because that felt right. We stayed like that for a moment before you started talking and I really wish we could have just stayed like that forever, no words were needed but you insisted on talking.

"Sasuke"

And so our routine started, you looked away, I looked over your shoulder at the tree and watched as the wind made it move in mystic ways, sad moves almost like a dance to mourn its lost finery. Summer wasn't over but trees had no more leaves. The wind was cold, it would be a long autumn in Konoha.

"Hi"

In the end I said that, just a whisper still not looking at your but noticing that you looked back at me. You wanted to say something, didn't you? The park was quiet which was unusual especially around this time of year. No kids laughter, it seemed that the world was on pause and only we were 'talking'. Finally after a few more moments I looked at you. 'beautiful' that was all I thought.

None of us said a thing, I don't know what we should have said to make it better…what could I have said? 'I missed you'? Was I even allowed to do that, what were we?

"I missed you"

You said it and it felt…painful. The words themselves were all I ever wanted from you, I guess. But the way you said it, emotionless, just like a lie, made it hurt.

"Mhm"

All I could do was nod, and I walked away. You didn't follow and I'm still not sure if I'm glad or not that you didn't. Summer was over, so was the heath, autumn was here making preparations for winter to come and kill everything. Even me. The snow would bury me alive and let me freeze, by the end of winter I would be dead.

Hinata's pov

After I got home that night wearing almost nothing, holding a pair of very high heels into my hand and walking on shaky legs because it was hard to focus I found out that my parents talked. That made my skin crawl and I wanted the earth to shallow me alive.

My parents got a divorce around the time I was 5 and my mother moved to Kiri, me my sister and my cousin both moved to Konoha with my father, but sometimes around the summer my mother would invite all of us (except my dad of course) to Kiri.

The very next day we were already on our way and I couldn't be happier. It was bad that my mom called dad instead of one of us because even over the phone all they did was fight, but I liked the idea of being in Kiri.

I love Konoha I do, but it feels so small and suffocating here around summer. For almost a month I didn't talk to anyone from home but then Sakura called to invite me to a 'trip' we were supposed to go to the beach. I turned her down so she changed to a hotel with a pool I still said no but, we all know Sakura when she wants something she gets it and that's it.

In the end we both came, me and Neji. A few other people were there, friends and you of course. We just arrived and the next second I saw Naruto take off his shirt and pants and jump into the pool. It was nice to see him like that, I almost smiled.

I didn't know how to swim so I just dipped my feet in while reading but someone (you) pulled me in the pool, it was a good thing it wasn't very deep if I was on my tip toes my mouth would be out but I panicked, out of an adrenaline bust I slapped you.

I felt strange around you, I wanted to punch you just to kiss away the pain, I wanted you to touch me so I could slap you again, I wanted your eyes to never leave me but I didn't like how your stare felt. I was…avoiding you. When our eyes did meet I'd just pretend it never happened.

After a few more thinking I decided I should talk to you, I came to your room. You opened the door and my mouth was dry. I stared at a blank wall trying to come up with something to say…anything. But you talked first, your normal 'hi'. I took the courage to look at you and I felt fascinated after just a few days ignoring you I had forgotten how perfect you looked. I smiled, I know I did.

"Hey"

You were staring and I found that funny, I didn't mind it, not now. You finally questioned why I was there and I answered honest, I just wanted to apologize. While saying this we both looked away, moments later I was staring at your jaw, nose, forehead, neck, shoulder. You smiled and I rolled my eyes, finally I came inside the room. It was awkward.

"Your room is so much bigger than mine!"

You came behind me and all of a sudden I was very aware of the closed door, of the bed, of you. You're perfection. For a moment I wanted things to take this twist and my heart skipped a few beats. Your hand was on my forearm, chin on my shoulder and lips almost touching my ear. Time stopped, your ice-lime smell made me feel drugged, my skin was once again burning and I just wanted to tell you not to move. But you opened your mouth…

"Wanna share it?"

Hearing those words freaked me out, not because you said those…I knew it was a joke! I freaked out because that sounded actually very…appealing. I had to get away so I left. I was praying for you not to come and you didn't but once I reached my room and I was alone with my thoughts I really wanted to go back to you and…I don't know. Something? Hug you? Accept your little joke? I had no idea, I was so confused and mad at myself!

I was so afraid of talking to you, I was sure I'd say something dumb and things would turn sour so...I decided to just avoid you...again. I really had to stop that. But I couldn't. Ignorance was my only self-defense. You were Sasuke, I didn't meet you long ago, but I noticed things like how high your self-esteem is and just how people around you worship you (especially girls). You were everything I wanted to be.

XXXXX

I filled my time by talking to Gaara, I had forgotten how wonderful it was just to sit next to him, out shoulders, arms, knees touching. Gaara has this way of knowing what to say and when to say it, when to be quiet, what matters not to address. Maybe him being in control all the time made me feel so good around him because I didn't have to think, just follow him around. Plus Gaara never judges anyone you can do whatever you want in front of him without having to worry. He has a silent way of letting you know when you crossed a line, telling you to stop for a moment but only with his eyes never making you feel bad.

I let my head fall to his shoulder and took his hand and intertwining out fingers, we stood like that for a few moments. Gaara was never the person I spent every day together with, but he was the kind of person that I could be apart from for ages and when we met we still would fall back to how we were, there was a long time in my life when he was my favorite person in the world.

"You didn't tell me you were coming. I found out from Ino who found out from Sakura who knew from Naruto"

Gaara squeezed my hand and murmured a small 'mhm'. He didn't apologize, he knew I forgave him the second I saw him, he had and probably still has this effect on me. I moved closer to him and breathed in his sandal wood scent. It reminded me so much of the time we lived in Suna.

When my parents were together we lived there, than the divorce came along and we moved to Konoha and mom to Kiri. I was in deep thoughts when Gaara let go of my hand and moved his arm over my shoulder, bringing me even closer. I looked at my hand and it felt so very cold but not even a second later his other hand was holding mine.

"You know…he's not that bad"

I knew he was talking about you but I chose to ignore that and Gaara didn't push it.

XXXX

I finally found some courage to go and face you. It was right before we had to leave the hotel and go back home. . During the time when I avoided you when we were in the same room I'd look at you at least once every 5 minutes, I never thought it would be this hard to avoid someone. So I went into your room. It was very strange to be in there again. I couldn't look at you, especially since you were sitting on the bed...so I was just staring at something, somewhere far away.

I tried to make it sound different, not so...needy and creepy. I tried for 5 minutes to reformulate what I was about to say to you but the silence was eating me alive so I just said whatever came out of my mouth the first time.

"Maybe I do"

Panic ran through me. What the hell was I saying ? I saw that you were confused too. Ugh! I made another pause to think again and finally I came up with an explication. It wasn't very good...but at least I said it out loud and it was a better start then I thought.

"Maybe I do want to share a room"

I almost slapped myself. But you smirked and it was so beautiful. I couldn't help but touch you. I didn't dare go for the skin so I shoved my hand into your hair. It was so soft and beautiful. I opened my mouth to say something, and to be honest I'm glad I didn't. 'I think I...like you' Yea right. Way too soon and I'm not even sure I would have had the guts to say that out loud. Anyway the door opened and Sakura came in. My blood froze. I didn't know what to do when I heard her voice.

"Hinata?"

"Sakura...uh, hey"

Sakura kept looking at both of us but you didn't say a word. In the end she looked back at me and finally asked what I knew she would. Her green eyes were narrow, arms crossed and lips glued.

"What are you doing here...?"

"Um...i was just-"

I was in the middle of making an excuse, a really lame one as well, when I felt you touch my neck and then your hand traveled down my back. At the beginning your touch scared me but in a few moments I relaxed and I felt like I was melting. I felt your stare on my back as well and I loved all the attention you were giving me. Time stopped and so did my heart. I almost laughed at my silliness from before. 'I think I like you' my ass...I liked you, a lot. But Sakura shoved you hand away and she screamed at you.

"What do you think you're doing?!"

I just turned around and smiled at you. I don't know why, but you smiled back and Sakura vanished all of a sudden. Your free hand brushed my jaw and moved down to my collarbone and stayed there for a moment. I was doing my best to make my heart beat steady because it beat like crazy. Finally you cupped my cheek and I just blinked faster because I was so confuse. This was so strange! You were so close and I was so comfortable with you being there, hell I wanted this to last longer and I wanted you to get closer and closer to me.

"Stop it..."

I heard Sakura whisper and reality came back and it was just like someone poured a bucket of ice water on me. I couldn't help but start crying. Sakura was talking with me and I didn't know what to tell her. It was like my brain turned off and I just felt the urge to cry and pour all my stress, sadness and confusion in tears and let them out. But your strong arms came around me and I felt safe, you smelled you so good and I finally calmed down. I wrapped my hands around you and let myself sink in your hold, into the warmness.

Sakura started to talk to you and all the tears came back, just hearing her voice while I was so close around you felt wrong. I wanted to push you away and tell her it was nothing and pull you closer and tell you not to let go at the same time.

"Sakura…I don't think this has anything to do with you. Am I mistaken?"

Your voice was so deep and it send chills down my spine and it felt just like when you touched it with your hand. I heard Sakura walk away and slam the door. Right as she left my tears started to flow and I just sit there. You didn't say anything. I heard your heartbeat and it calmed me after some time. I couldn't look at you, I was so ashamed so I just left.

Xxxx

In the end we left and I went with my cousin back in Kiri. I love Kiri it makes me feel so free and insignificant, like no matter what choices I make none cares, and that takes a burden from my shoulders. Well almost every day I thought about you at least once. Anyway, a few days before I left Kiri I told TenTen about you, about how we stalked each other about how awkward things were between us, about how I avoid you so freaking often and I just want to stop it, I told her about Sakura and Naruto. All she told me was 'You have to decided if you like him or not and stop playing with his feelings. Don't think so much anymore and just...go with whatever comes to your mind first'

Of course at the beginning I didn't. When I first saw you after I came back it was kind of a reflex to hug you...but after that I just said your name and you said your normal 'Hi' oh how I missed that. But after that we both looked another way. I started thinking hard again, what should I say? In the end I went with...'I missed you' but it came out so...bad. I saw how your body went rigid and you just nodded before you left. I felt so stupid, I wanted to go after you but I didn't know what to say so I just let you leave.