Felicity lay wide awake in Oliver's arms.
It really wasn't fair. As soon as the afterglow had subsided and reality had hit them they had the difficult discussion about their relationship. Oliver said his feelings hadn't changed- he knew how he felt about her but being the Arrow and Oliver Queen was too much for him to handle and he didn't feel he could inflict his personal life onto her. For once Felicity saw where he was coming from, how earnestly he spoke to her and she got it. She didn't even cry- they got dressed and crawled back into bed leaving a respectable gap between them. They talked for hours, clearing the air and agreeing that that sharing their bodies with each other wasn't a mistake…but it wasn't sensible either. They decided to stay professional from now on, back to being Team Arrow and their platonic life. She had to bring up the fact they had slept together without using protection and Oliver said they would go tomorrow morning to get the morning after pill together.
So yeah, while she got their relationship was romantically doomed it sure as hell wasn't fair that he was holding her like this.
Felicity looked down at him, Oliver was sound asleep. He had rolled over in his slumber and embraced her. She wasn't quite lying down, still propped up against her pillow. He however was using her chest as a pillow, his body tight against her side, his hand wrapped around her stomach.
He was stupidly handsome Felicity thought as she gazed at him. His eyelashes were super long… that was unfair. His nose was so cute and straight and perfect and those lips? Ugh… plump and slightly parted. It was like he was begging to be kissed. The worst part was that she really wanted to kiss him again. Who was she kidding? She was crazy about him. Sure she knew why he always put that barrier up between them but it didn't stop her feelings. Against her will she began to cry silently, too much had happened in one night. As she wept she thought he gripped her tighter in his sleep.
The next morning was grim. Oliver was trying so hard to make her feel better, to apologise silently for what they'd done… except she didn't want him to apologise. She didn't want to forget how good they felt together, how perfectly they moulded into one, but she played along and tried to forget it happened. Oliver drove them into town and they both went into a local pharmacy.
"Do you feel comfortable with me being here?" Oliver asked genuinely wondering how she was feeling.
"Yes." She said honestly "It's fine. We should be responsible. It's the right thing to do."
They approached the woman at the desk. Thankfully there was no one around.
"We need the morning after pill." Oliver said after the woman asked them if they required help.
"Certainly. Do you want to follow me in here?" she replied pointing to a small room to the side.
The woman closed the door after the entered and they all sat down.
"Okay I just need you to fill out a few details with me first." The woman said warmly
"Okay." Felicity said, she felt sick.
"Don't look so worried" the woman smiled and Felicity tried to smile back.
"When was the last time you had sex?"
"Last night." Felicity replied quickly
"Did you use any form of contraception?"
"No." Oliver said and Felicity shook her head.
The woman ticked a box and continued "When was you last period?"
Felicity counted "About two weeks ago…"
"And have you taken the emergency after pill before or have any known allergies to it?"
"No. And no again." She replied.
"Okay Felicity." The woman replied "I'll get you the pill now, you only need the one, it will be $32…"
"Are you okay?" Oliver asked her as they drove out of town.
"I'm okay, Oliver, really." She said "I just…I've never done that before."
"I know." He said softly "if you're not okay I need you to tell me."
"I promise." She said
"Okay then." He replied.
It had been three weeks since they had returned from their mission. One criminal successfully captured by the arrow and put into Iron Heights. Diggle was back from his honeymoon and all was seemingly back to normal in Arrow HQ.
Oliver and Roy strode in suited up and talking.
"Nicely handled team." Felicity said sincerely as Roy began taking his mask off.
"Thanks." They both replied in unison.
"I gotta go and meet Thea." Roy said and he hung his red suit back into the case. "I'll see you both tomorrow."
"Good night, Roy." Felicity said as Oliver slapped him on the back as a goodbye.
She turned back to her computers and began typing.
"Did you speak to Lance?" She enquired as she got up and walked across the room taking a little watering can to the taps.
"Yeah. I called him on the way here." Oliver replied
Felicity watered the fern with her mini watering can.
"Good." She said "Laurel called wanting to know info on the job, I told her to call you- I hope that's okay…."
She jumped as Oliver's strong arms slipped around her waist from behind.
"Oliver?" she said in confusion, setting the watering can down.
He said nothing, settling his chin into her shoulder and sighing. He was still in his green leather suit.
"What are you doing?" she asked gently. Against her judgement her hands closed over his, the ones that clung to her.
"I just needed this." He said honestly
"I don't understand." She replied
"I don't either." he said honestly "all I know is I've wanted to touch you every minute since we came back."
"Oliver…" she responded "You said-"
"I know what I said." He replied "I know, Felicity. But I need this."
She leaned back into his body in defeat. She felt safe in his embrace.
Just like it had happened before Oliver's lips came into contact with her neck.
Felicity's whole body shivered. Oliver pushed her dress down over her shoulders slightly and kissed the scar on her shoulder she got when she got shot by the clock king. He pulled back and then lightly traced his finger over the scar.
When she couldn't take it anymore she turned in his arms and captured his lips. Oliver groaned and instantly cupped her face tenderly.
Their lips clashed spectacularly and Felicity felt lightheaded as she poured her need for him into the kiss.
"What are we doing?" she asked him as she pulled away briefly
Oliver drew her closer into his embrace, her body squeaking against the green leather of his suit.
"I really don't know." He whispered before he kissed along her jaw.
Felicity was overwhelmed with confusion and desire and she let the latter dominate her…
"Desk?" she panted breathily in his ear
Oliver grabbed her roughly and carried her to the desk…
A/N Well, that's the start of chapter 2… to be continued?
Let me know!
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