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My eyes fluttered open and closed again as soon sunlight hit them.
Ugh-why do I keep forgetting to close the damn blinds?! every time I swear- Wait...Ciel-sebby-cake-claude-jalapeno-bard-donburi-irises! It's all coming back to me. I have to check if i'm still in the manor! If I am this might not be a dream...
My eyes flashed opened as they focused on...Sebastian?
"Sebas...uhm...why am I in your arms?" well isn't this a nice wake up call?
"You nearly rolled off the bed. I caught you right before you fell off." he said smiling.
"Oh thanks alot Sebster! though I'm kinda used to it...it's usually how I start my mornings..." this sheepish feeling in me bubbled up
"em...Sebster?" Sebastian smiled as he twitched in amusement.
"you weren't joking when you said you were prone to sleeping in weird positions" said ciel as he poshly face-palmed his red face , still dressed in his night...gown...thingy?
"you were dangling half off your bed! not to mention the coverings somehow all ended up on the floor..." Ciel continued, sighing.
"oh, oops!...Wait why are you here too?"
"you were yelling in your sleep so we ran thinking you were being attacked or something of the sorts" he said in annoyed tone. It was probably because he dragged himself all the way here, just to find out I was okay. Of course he would be annoyed by something like that...
"really? what was I saying?" I already knew the answer
"you were saying something along the lines of 'killing rats' 'was doing them a favor'...what in the blazes were you dreaming of?!" ciel asked astonished.
"Oh..." suddenly I felt this bursting emotion inside of me. At first I thought it must be realization, but no. Then I realized that it was actually tears threatening to spill down my cheeks.
"I...I...I"
No! I won't be like that anymore! There are only two types of people in this world. Those who take action and those who watch. I won't watch anymore. Never again. Never...
"I-It was just a bad dream. I think I ate too many of those dessert thingies you fixed, Sebastian!" Ciel and Sebastian exchanged confused looks at my bipolar emotions.
"Oh...right...and why the hell are you still in his arms?! Sebastian, let go!"
"Yes, my lord" he suddenly removed his strong arms leaving me to tumble onto the floor.
"Oww! Jeeze freaking nuts! Couldn't you have 'let go' over the bed?!" that didn't sound right.
"My master did not specifically order me too" Sebastian said smirking.
"...Bastard" I muttered under my breath. He simply stood there smiling pleasantly. I swear the guy gets off by watching me suffer.
"and one other thing"
"what is it shorty?" if he was gonna drop me like that I would play back too. hehe...shorty! Wait...I just realized we're the same hight...well that's depressing, I mean i'm fifteen!
Ciel grimaced looking mad
"put on some damn clothes!"
Sebastian helped us out the carriage as we stopped in front a cane shop. We were now in the middle of town with men in top hats and canes and women flouncing around with their 5 petticoats. Now this was England. Though I don't entirely understand why they couldn't have just worn one petticoat though. Those things are heavy!
We entered the cane shop and a burly man smiled wide before laying his brown eyes on ciel and asking, "welcome boy! on an errand for your father?"
If only I had a camera to take a picture of Ciel's face... for someone his size he sure does have a temper!
I knew he would be telling himself that he didn't care, but I know that once something like that is taken from you, it takes a piece of you with it. And I get it that he was reminded that they were gone but...I could totally tell he was way more pissed than sad! Jeez, I had to put my hand to my mouth from looking like I was giggling at nothing! His flinch at the word "boy" was far from unnoticeable.
"Excuse me" Sebastian said putting his hand in front of ciel to snap him out of his anger daze, "but we came here to get master's cane" he said smiling, handing the man a note.
He handed the cane over to Sebastian, smiling, "ah, so you're the owner of the cane. exactly what sort of person do you intended to have use this cane? it couldn't be that kid?" He really shouldn't have called ciel a kid. Really shouldn't have. I don't see why it bothered Ciel so much, he obviously wasn't a man...But the use of the term made ciel look like he was a time bomb about to do some seriouse shiz to this guy. He better know how to get rid of a body fast, because I'm not about to clean up his mess! wait nevermind, he has a demon butler for that.
Sebastian, knowing ciel better than just about anyone, suddenly pointed the cane at the Mister as if it was a rifle, about to fire right between his eyes. If you had only seen the man's expression alone you actually would've thought it was a rifle.
"Hmm. It doesn't bend. It's a well built cane." Sebastian said still pointing it at him. "this should cover it". As Sebastian placed a bag of coins on the table top as ciel stormed out.
"Bye bye, Mister!" I took one last look, giggling, at the man's stunned look before following ciel.
"Hmph. Finnie's idiocy is another bothersome thing. Thanks to that I got stuck getting another one" Ciel said with a sour look on his face.
"indeed. it's true that you grew, but it did take time" you could literally feel the anger radiating off Ciel as if he was some kind of nuclear explosion.
"aww, don't be like that Ciel! I'm sure Finnie didn't actually mean to, he could never do that, the sweet boy. It's just that there is a fine line between idiocy and innocence." grinning as I continued " besides I like the size you are!" he grimaced again as I pointed out his shortness. He still continued to look forward, angrily, as he ignored me. I'm beginning to get the impression that he dislikes me...like, really dislikes me.
" Well if you really want to know, your actually the same height as me..."
"Stop lying" he said annoyed, "Your obviously taller than me"
"No...I noticed this morning when i called you shorty. Now it's only because i'm wearing heels taller than yours. see?" I said peeking out my foot. Ciel looked like it was the first time he met someone older than him, though smaller than him (almost smaller), but then he quickly regained composure as we kept walking.
"Look mummy! It's Phantom's new Beter Rabbit!" A little boy said, his face pressed up against a window.
"oh you...didn't I buy you candy though?"
ciel walked through, ignoring the little boy. maybe he might not admit it, but he was still haunted by the memories of them.
"Ciel?" i said looking over at him, smiling softly at him though sad.
"What, Serene" he asked in annoyed tone without even looking at me.
"I...I'm sorry.." I said softly looking forward. ciel suddenly looked over to me, eyes wide.
"what was that?"
"Hnn?" Even if he was drowning in pain, he'll still insist he's okay. he would never ask for my help. but then again he wouldn't have to.
"Nothing to worry about, Ciel" I said still smiling. I just wish he could smile happily, just once. someday I will make that happen. To Sebastian and the others too.
she understands his pain even if he doesn't show it...hmph. she sure does let nothing get past her. Sebastian thought smiling.
"now then young Master and Miss, let us return to the mansion quickly." He said opening the carriage door, as we climbed in.
We shortly arrived at ciel's home. we walked inside as I saw Ciel freeze in fear.
"hm? what is it Youn-" Sebastian's face went into a WTF look as he gazed upon the mansion. It was covered in cute decorations of all sorts and lots of bunnies and balloons. If you ask me, honestly though a little would be cute...but this was going overboard! The pink is burning my eyes! And that's my favorite color too!
"My...My mansion" ciel said in despair.
"GYYYAAAAA! SEBASTIAN!" The servants cried running towards us.
"what in the world is going on? or more like...what's with that appearance, you two?" Bard looked seriously pissed in his pink bonnet and frilly bib, while finney just teared as his bunny ears headband dropped in sadness. Finney looked adorable while Bard just looked Ridiculous.
I laughed at the scene.
"Go ask that crazy girl over there!" Bard hooked a thumb to his left, still mad as ever. We followed his thumb towards double doors where you could just barley make out a high pitched girly voice. I can't wait to see ciel's expression when he figures out it's Lizi!
We peeked through the crack of the door to see Tanaka in a blond curly wig, and a beaming Lizi.
"but like I thought, you wearing that is... totally adorable! you look like Antoinette!" said the little Blonde, as Tanaka chuckled.
Ciel seriously jumped 5 feet in the air as if he was a frightened cat.
"shit!" I heard him say softly, under his breath.
"well, isn't that a pleasant response to your fiance." I said half smirking. why couldn't I have brought my phone when I got sucked into this world?
Lizi suddenly noticed us. you could literally feel hearts coming off of her, as she glomped the poor boy.
"Ciel! I wanted to see youuu!" she said that in such a high pitched voice, one of my ear popped. what happened to using inside voices?
"E...Elizabeth!" ciel said in shock still being glomped. I can't help but wonder how his ears are doing.
"No, no, no! call me Lizi! Aren't I always saying that?!" I'm not really too sure if Ciel's still breathing by now; the force of Lizzy's hug looked quite painful.
"just as I thought, no matter how many times I look at you, you're the cuuuuuutest!" Lizzy dragged on.
"Ahem...Miss Elizabeth..." Sebastian said looking a bit Amused.
"oh my! Sebastian, Good day!" Lizzy said finally releasing the out of breath Ciel.
"it's been quite a while since I've laid eyes on you" he said bowing.
"I brought you a Souvenir!" The Blonde said grabbing something behind her.
Lady Elizabeth turned around holding a...wha?
she placed a pink, flowery bonnet on the butler's crown, "you see!" WOW. just... It takes so much to not laugh! I could see ciel in the background shacking in laughter, clutching onto his new cane.
Sebastian looked ridiculous!
"ahh it's so cute! you're always wearing black, so I though those colors would be good!"
The look on his face was enough to send someone to a fate worse than death.
I can't take it anymore! I burst out in peals of laughter as I crumpled against the floor, my back shacking, along with the rest of the servants and Ciel (wow I didn't know he could laugh like that). I'm sure Sebastian will pound the Servants to bits later. He just looked so...
"BWAHAHHAH! OMG Sebastian you just look so...!" I cut my sentence off in laughter; there were just no words that would be enough to fit the scene displayed in front of me!
"Regard for the things I wear, that sort of great regard for me...it is a great honor." keh! suurrrree it was. I could almost see flames coming off of the violent butler. If only I had a camera right now...
"By the way, who is that super cute girl over there!" wait a second...I'm considered cute? Lizzy pointed over to me, grinning as I got back up.
"This is Lady Serene, from America. She is Currently staying with Ciel to learn of Britain's customs" Sebastian lied, still looking "cute" as ever in the Pink hat. wait why did he switch from Miss to Lady? Maybe it's so people don't get suspicious to why Ciel's hanging out with a lower class. He didn't do that with Sir Claude though...
"Awesome to meet you, Lizzy!" I said extending my hand going for a handshake. What the...? Lizzy suddenly clasped her arms around my waist enveloping me in a hug. huh? I was going to go for a hand shake but...
"You are just so cuuuute!" she said spinning me around, nearly chocking me to death
"L...Lizzi! Can't...Br...Breath!" Is Lizi secretly a body builder? because I'm about to be separated from my lower half if she keeps this up!
"oh! oops!" I crumpled onto the floor in a daze trying to catch my breath. I wouldn't be surprised if that left a mark on me.
"A... A handshake would have sufficed..." looking up, I catched ciel and sebastian snickering and grinning at me. I glared back, as my response. stupid little...jerks! I got up ruffling my dress.
"More importantly Lizi, what are you doing here? what about Grandmother?"
"I wanted to see you so I rushed out in secret and came here!" My ears...My poor ears...
over to the left I could see Sebastian and Bard talking quietly. I wonder what they are talking about. hopefully it's not jokes about my face when lizi was spinning me around, because I know for certain, I looked like a wreck.
"In secret? what were you thinking?" ciel responded
"FIANCE?!" the servants shrieked randomly. oh so that's what they were talking about.
"If she left without saying anything, then Grandmother must be worried. Sebastian. contact-" he was suddenly snatched away by Lizi as she rushed dragging him to to who-knows-where. This is why they need to put some maps around here...
"Look, look! I made the ballroom cute, didn't I!"
"Wow! It looks absolutely adorable Lizi!" I said grinning
"Thank you! Ah, that's right! Hey Ciel, Serene, since it took a lot of work to get the ballroom like this, Let's have a dance party today!
Ciel twitched "Wha...", poor boy doesn't now how to dance...heh. Thank goodness I went to the eighth grade semi-dressed dance! Unfortunately I got stuck with the dance instructor, because there were too many girls. And he was fat...really fat. Donut fat...so it was kind of hard to dance.
"Wear the clothes I picked for you, Ciel! I Think it'll definitely be cute! too bad I didn't get any for Lady Serene..."
"Oh, no, I'm fine, but thanks for thinking of me!" I said shaking my hands back and forth giving a crooked smile. yeah...I think I'll be fine, Lizi.
"Yay! Okay good! we'll all dance the night away! La la da La da!" Lizi skipped away, beaming
"Hey, who said it was fine!" Ciel said madly.
"Dancing with Ciel in the clothes I picked for him. It's like a dream! I will have to dress stylishly with all my might, too!" Lizi said dreamily, in la-la land.
"Listen to what...Elizabeth?! Hey! Listen to what people are saying!" Ciel yelled in vain.
"Kya Kya..." Elizabeth flounced off in dream state, not even realizing the words Ciel was spitting out.
A goofy grin spread across my face. well this'll be interesting.
Ciel hunched over his desk in gloom, as if it was the end of the world.
"Oh come on Ciel, be a man!" I said doing a manly pose as I swung my feet back and forth, sitting on top of his desk.
Ciel sighed "It's not like I became her Fiance, I was forced to do it"
"What about it? It's not like you have someone else in mind, and being all depressed about isn't gonna help. I mean, at least she likes you a lot, instead of hating you. I wouldn't want to get on someone who's that strong's bad side."
"It would be more profitable to obey her and follow her wishes, yes?" Sebastian put in.
"I don't have time to associate with little girls and their hobbies."
"you do know Lizi's taller than you right? not so little now is she?"
"get off of my desk." he said changing the subject, annoyed.
"hey, it's your fault for hogging the only chair here"
Ciel went on ignoring me "however, it appears that Lady Elizabeth wishes to hold a dance..." he said taking a sip of his tea deep in thought.
"young master."
"what." ciel said banging the tea cup on the table, annoying again.
"I have no proof, but ... is it true you do not have dancing instruction?"
Ciel swiveled his chair around so that we were no longer looking at him. The silence was so loud, it was the only thing heard. But you could definitely feel the iritence floating off of ciel like a smoke.
"It's no wonder" Sebastian said sighing " It seems that even if you were invited to a party, you would be a wallflower."
"It's okay Ciel! You know, dancing from my time mainly consists of people grinding and feeling each other up. So I guess not knowing something is better than that..."
"honestly?" Sebastian asked turning to me, interested.
"people from the 21 century aren't so Chivalrous with their flirting ways..." Sebastian smirked at me, amused.
"well, I'm busy with work. I don't have time to busy myself with games..." Sebastian spun his chair around,
"I'll take your word for it, but Young Master, It's often said that dance is a 'social' thing. If you can become an elite gentleman, dancing should be natural. If you were to refuse an invention from a customer's daughter, in high society, your reputation would go down the gutter..." Sebastian said darky
"Even I know how to dance Waltz!"
"someone as clumsy as you...?" Sebastian asked
I got down from the desk top, "I'm not clumsy, you stupid! We haven't even known each other that long too! Only for 3 days not counting the one where I was passed out. humph." I crossed my arms blowing out from my cheeks, as Sebastian smirked. I'm definitely sure he gets off from me being mad.
"...I get it already! It's fine like this. who would call for a home tutor?"
"from now on there won't be anytime to call for a tutor. Since just demeanor and pose are sufficient, you will master the basics in one song."
"Then who will teach me? No matter how you look at the people of this house..."
"I just said I knew how." I looked at them flatly, putting my hands on my hips "What? you don't trust me and my awesome skills?" I said flipping my too-short-to-flip hair.
"considering the description you just gave me of modern dancing..." ciel gave a shudder. I wouldn't blame him.
" though you are being insolent I will be your dance instructor." sebastian said smiling.
Ciel nearly shouted " You Idiot! Do you think I'd dance with a big, male partner like you?!"
"heh-guess your stuck with me!" I sing-songed
"I don't trust you and your 'awesome' skills" Ciel said grimacing.
"Well, that was a slap to the face" I huffed
" Do you even know how to dance the Waltz?" Ciel asked Sebastian
"If it's the winter Waltz, then please leave it to me. I often cause quite a commotion at the Schonbrunn Palace. Won't you be my partner for one song? My Lord?"
the pair got into place in the middle of the room, and readied themselves.
When the song starts, begin with your left foot." Sebastian was cut of when Ciel stepped on his foot.
"next is the natural turn" he said turning wobbly. humph. Not so natural to me.
"put your leg forward as if you're sliding" Ciel instead kicked him in the shin.
"um Ciel? you know he said sliding, not colliding, right?" I put in
Ciel looked displeased and awkward as Sebastian just stared at him flatly as if he was wondering how someone could be so bad. It was like for once Sebastian actually wondered what to do here.
"Well, I for one certainly wouldn't wan't to be the Miss Ciel had the dance to! It might be worse than Lizi's hugs!"
"It seems your talent for dancing is non-existent. It must be crushing young master."
"You're too big! what would I be doing with a big woman like that?!" Ciel asked loosing his temper. I giggled at the scene before me.
"First of all do something about that sour look." Sebastian squeezed Ciel's cheeks like he was a baby.
"It is rude to the lady. Even if it is a lie, please make it seem like you're having fun." he said continuing to squish Ciel's pale cheeks.
"Alright, smile happily"
Instead Ciel's face turned into an angry, cold one, not a happy, smiling one.
"Let go!" he slapped the gloved hand away, cross, "somehow I've...smiling. to smile happily I've forgotten."
"young Master..."
I teared at his words. It was already sad, but in person my heart felt an ache, like it really was breaking.
Once I had thought that It'd be better to make others suffer and feel how I had. I wanted them to never laugh again. to never be happy. Never smile. I wanted to torture all of their souls. I thought that then maybe...it would make all my memories vanish; out of sight out of mind. But in the end...it was only me who was tortured. If I hadn't been stopped when I was, then... I might not even be here. No, I definitely would be dead by now. I don't want anything like that to happen to Ciel.
I don't want his soul to feel like mine had. I don't want him to be tortured, inside out.
"someday you will, again." I said softly touching him. I still wake up in tears, or screaming, but I'm okay. I can be happy.
I felt his muscles tightening before swatting my arm away, angrily
"how could someone like you, possibly know? You act so carefree, as if you've never lost anything dear to you!"
closing my eyes, the memories all came back to me. Everything.
I opened my eyes, focusing directly into his Blue one.
"If I continued to go on as I was, I would have just ceased to exist."The words flowed out harshly, yet calm.
" I would have just...I'm not like you, who can shoulder any burden with a straight face, okay!" My voice started to crack and I could feel wetness in my eyes before my tone turned harsh and cold angain "..that's why I act so carefree, Ciel. I'm not like you. I would...I would have just broke." I should have long ago.
The butler looked somewhat surprised. He would've never guessed something happened to that girl. Ciel's eye widened looking into her brown speckled baby blues.
wha...what's that look in her eyes? I have never seen Serene give a such a look or even one close to that. She's always smiling or giggling, but now she looks angry and serious...like she's seen too much that she was not supposed to. Is she anything like me? Perhaps...
I don't want to think about that right now...
"but I promise you'll smile again. because I must be here for a reason..." he looked dumbfounded.
I gave Ciel a soft smile.
"You know, Ciel, If you want, you can dance with me instead of the demon" Sebastian twitched annoyed that I didnt use his name.
"what... oh. Of course" I think I might've of scared Ciel. usually I don't talk like that, but remembering everything...No. I won't think of that!
We lined up, into place. He put he hand on my back and I placed mine on his shoulder.
wh...why...are we so close to each other!? My personal space bubble is being invaded! Either way if it's someone as cute as him I don't mind- OH GOSH did I just think that? Yes, I did...I felt my face tingle, like I might be blushing. I snapped from my thoughts.
"see I told you we're the same height" I said giving a small smile, and he sort of gave the tiniest smile back and we started to dance as I instructed him. then after a while for some reason he looked at me in realization and surprise.
"what happened to your right fingers?" my thumb and pointer had 'My-little-Pony' band-aids over them. What, we ran out of the normal kind!
"uh, my finger nails fell off"
"what?!"
"Well actually they were ripped off a few years ago...and they just never grew back because the fingers were damaged too badly. It doesn't hurt though. only if you like hit it or something."
"Oh. how did they get ripped off?"
I won't answer that. I stayed silent, Ignoring and avoiding his question, looking down. He gave me an expecting look but then left it at that.
Not surprisingly, Ciel was a way better dancer when he isn't with Sebastian. I guess it was because we were the same hieght. I guess might possibly be shorter than him, but it's impossible to tell with these heels the Brits always wear.
"Nicely done, Lady Serene." Sebastian said a bit astonished. He was probably mainly surprised that I was the one giving lessons, instead of him, considering how "clumsy" I was. And maybe a bit because of my outburst back there...
We continued to dance, "Despite you two thinking I'm clumsy, In Color Guard, I was one of the best dancers on the team!"
"Color Guard...?" Ciel looked confused. I guess that hadn't been invented yet.
"It's where you dance with these huge and heavy flags! It looks very easy but, It's not. I used to do it and volleyball too, but I'm too busy with fighting these days. If Chris found out I was doing another sport he would probably tell everyone, and then I would be shunned. Stupid narcissist..."
"who's Chris? and what's this 'volleyball'?" Ciel just kept asking, didn't he.
"My jerk of a coach. He's always playing pranks and jokes on me too! but either way I still consider him my friend...sort of. And volleyball? Best sport ever! It's a game where there is two teams playing on one court divided by a net. Each team team has three touches to get the volley ball over, or the point goes to the other team. also you can only touch the ball 4 different ways- set, spike, bump, or block. If you don't that's a penalty and-"
"Okay I get it! Sorry I asked..." Ciel said, annoyed.
"We have to play it sometime, It'll be so much fun! In modern days it's the second most popular sport too! Did I mention the clothing for this sport is tight booty shorts? and you wear a-" Ciel stopped dancing and broke apart from me flushing.
"Don't you need to go change into your dancing clothes or something?" I almost forgot!
"OHMYGOSH, I totally forgot! thanks Ciel! Sebastian, you help Ciel while I dress. I'll be fine by myself this time!"
"Yes, Lady Serene."
"wh...what?! She's not your master! Only I order you! Sebastian, Go and-" I slammed the door running out. I guess I got carried away too easily.
I stood next to Lizzy In my heavy baby blue ballgown as she tried to convince Mey-Rin to take off her glasses and dance. Lizzy was chasing her around, while Mey-Rin clung to them as if she were in the middle of the Atlantic and they were a life float.
"I-I'm super far-sighted! so if I don't have these I can't see anything!" said a trembling Mey-Rin.
"It'll be fine if you see it from far away!" Lizi insisted
I sighed. It took me forever to get this dress on! I even had to ask Bard and finnie to help me (which they outright denied since it's not 'ladylike'). Eventually I got it on myself, but It still took a while. I'm actually surprised Ciel hadn't make it down here before I did. hmm? randomly Lizi gasped looking up to the stairs.
"Ciel!" Wow. If I ever have trouble picking out my clothing, i'll just give Lizi a call. Ciel looked adorable!
"look, look! Everyone else is cute too, aren't they?"
she showed a hand pointing to smiling Tanaka, dressed in traditional Japanese clothing, an awkward finnie in a cat maid's dress (his legs look so soft and skinny...how?), and a twitching Bard dressed in a sailor girl's top and long skirt with a fluffy wig. Seriously! next time i'm sucked into a different world remind me to bring a damn camera!
"you're so cuuuuute! my eyes weren't wrong wrong!" Lizi is a perfect example of a fangirl. she spun Ciel around and around, as I laughed. the poor earl! he looked nauseous!
"But Ciel is definitely the...huh?" Lizi eyes wee focused on his hand she clutched. oh great... I can't believe I forgot to tell Ciel about this! Even though, I'll move behind them so when she throws it I might be able to catch it.
"Ciel! Where's the ring I prepared for you?! There was a ring that was matched the Western Style clothing wasn't there?" Lizi's face turned dangerous as the squeezed his hand.
"Ring?" Ciel questioned before tugging his hand away "this ring is fine"
Lizi diverged "No! I went to a lot of trouble to make everything adorable! Only the ring is not cute! Are you saying you don't wan't the things I brought back for you Ciel?!" she began to bawl like a 4 year old.
ciel sighed like a disappointed parent "That's not it... This ring is-"
"Mine now!" Lizi snatched the ring off his finger and ran away
"Li-!"
" I took it! This ring is super old!" said Lizi, peering though the hole of the ring," The size of the one I chose is better,too..."
" Give it back!" the tone of his booming voice gave me shivers as the whole mansion fell into silence. all of us stood looking at ciel. If a pin had dropped you would have heard it no matter where you stood in the house.
Ciel had a certain fury about in his eyes. It looked too familiar to when I was in the orphanage. Except this time Instead of traces of hate and disgust, it was rage and ire. His expression scared me. but somewhere in those deep azure eyes, there was also a tint of melancholy.
"Give that back Elizabeth!"
her eyes went glassy with wetness "Wh...Why are you mad like that? I worked so hard..." most people think Lizi is just an annoying spoiled brat, but she really only wants to make Ciel happy. But she doesn't know how to, because she can never give him what he truly wants...and neither can I, no matter how hard I try...unless he would change his view...
"wh..what?! I just made you cute? so why are you mad like that?! you're terrible!" she says that, but in her mind, she's really just punishing herself for not being able to make him smile.
she flung her hand up "This ring I...HATE IT!"
I grunted as my body hit the floor, bruising my elbows and knees. I just barley caught it! She had hurled the piece down nearly onto the tiled floor, where it would have broke into fragments of useless material.
I looked up to see Ciel have his hand raised, about to hit Lizi-but then, in a shadowy flash of black, Sebastian appeared grasping Ciel's raised hand, and placed his cane in his hand. Ciel turned his head around to the butler. My heart nearly broke when I saw balls of water falling upon his cheek. he was crying.
"Young Master..." the emotionless in Sebastian makes me so mad. It's not his fault that he can't cry or truly laugh but...It still makes me mad that he never thinks of how other's might feel. that's probably because of his inability to feel, himself.
" You've forgotten your long-awaited cane" The butler somehow gave a soft smile. this is what I mean.
Ciel looked surprised, like he had been in a daze a few moments ago. then he cast his eye downward in guilt and anguish, as Elizabeth hickuped, crying.
"you have my deepest apologies, Miss Elizabeth. That ring is very important to our master, It has been passed down through the Phantomhive family for generations. There is only one in the world."
"eh?! That sort of important ring...and...I almost broke it..."
Ciel walked over where I was still lying on the ground, and picked up the ring from my gloved hand. he then walked over to the window and-Tossed it out the window?!
I blinked, surprised "Ciel! Why did you...?"
"Ciel?! What are you doing?" Lizi scrambled over to the Window looking out.
"I don't care...about that thing. It's just an Old ring" he didn't say that a few minutes go when he was about to hit Lizi.
"This ring is proof that the head of the Phantomhive house is 'Ciel Phantomhive'" He finished looking calm as ever. We all stared at him, eyes wide. Even Sebastian did so too.
"What's with that face?"
"B...But-hick-"
"It's a terrible face. And you call yourself a lady" he took out the handkerchief and wiped at her face.
"I wouldn't want to invite a lady with a face like that to a dance, would I?" ciel said giving a grin. "let's forget those bad things and dance until dawn with evening party etiquette shall we? M'Lady?"
She smiled and stopped crying "It really is like a dream!" and they begun to dance. Sebastian walked over to me, who was still lying on the ground, like a pancake.
he offered his hand "I can't believe Ciel just threw that out the window. but he is Ciel. he'll never stop finding ways to surprise me." I said grinning as Sebastian pulled me up.
"WHA-" I tripped! good thing Sebastian's strong, so I just landed with my head on his lower chest as he gripped my arms steadying me.
"oh...I just realized how tall you are and how short I am..."
"have you also realized how clumsy you are yet?" he said politely as he grinned, amused.
"I'm not clumsy! I just tripped over...nothing? Oh well, but, thanks a lot, anyways! I already bruised myself fighting in the Stage, and then again when I got the ring."
"Stage...?" he mumbled outloud before snapping from his thoughts "that was very courageous of you, Lady Serene"
"It's just Serene, Demon." he twitched again at my nickname for him
"and I don't know what's your defintion of Courageous but that was nothing, compared to volleyball. you are constantly diving to save the ball, so I guess i'm kinda used to it. or used to be used to it"
"Of course. I must go now" he walked off, grabbing a Violin. from where, I don't know.
well this is boring. I was invited to this dance party but I've got absolutely no one to dance with. I would ask Bard, but...no...he doesn't exactly look like he wants to. he's still dressed as a girl...and Finnie and Tanaka are dancing...and Mey-Rin is in lala land probably dreaming of her and Sebastian dancing together...I guess maybe I should just leave. I don't want to disturb everyone when they already look so happy. If they're all happy then so am I. I smiled to myself.
I turned about to leave when a hand grabbed my arm.
huh? I turned my head to see Ciel.
"wha-weren't you just dancing with Lizi?"
"I was, but then she noticed you standing here, so she said she would like to dance with Finnie, Bard, and Tanaka, since she went through the trouble to make them 'cute' also"
I giggled and looked over to see an awkward, yet smiling Bard dancing with Lizi.
"So then, will you have this dance to me, Serene?" My heart literally just jumped.
"wait-wha? what?" he wants to dance with me? I was so sure he hated me; annoyed by me!
"I thought you thought I was annoying though" I said flatly
"You are."
"well that was straight-forward wasn't it" I said twitching.
"but you're also very intriguing and surprising...along with clumsy and annoying." he said giving a grin, as he held out his hand to me.
"hmmm, okay, fine! Just don't kick me. and i'm not clumsy..." I smiled and grabbed his hand, and we started to dance to sebastian's beautiful violin playing. Is there anything that butler can't do?
I can feel his body close to mine and my my skin burned where ever his touched mine. It's such an odd feeling... I've never had before. I can feel tingling going through every fiber of me and adrenalin surging through every vein. it's like how i feel when i'm about to fight, but this...it feels pleasant and happy. I'm not sure why I feel this...
"hey, Ciel."
"yes?"
"are you having any fun?"
he blinked, "huh? yes, I suppose..." he said. I smiled at him. I'm glad.
"Me too!"
after a while Lizi came over to us,"Lady Serene, mind if I dance with Ciel again?"
"Yes! No! I mean I don't mind, I was just confused about how to- you know what, I can't talk, so just take him" I put my head in my hand. Wow way to be smooth there.
"let's go Ciel!" she grabbed his hand, smiling. he looked kinda...sad? I don't know how to describe the look in his eyes. nevertheless, i'm alone again. oh well at least I got to Ciel be happy! even if he was only happy a smidge bit. I grinned.
" 'Ey Lady Serene! would you like to dance with me?" Bard asked grinning
"Only if you call me just Serene!" I laughed. "Sure Bard! hey, you changed clothes?" he was wearing his cooking clothes.
"Lizi finally let me after dancing with me. And aren't I glad!"
"okay then let's dance, Master Chief!" We got into place and begun to dance...and why is everyone here taller than me?! he's almost Sebastian's height...
"of course, Lady Se- Wait did you just call me Chief?! Master Chief?!"
"yeah? I mean you're the only cook here, and you wear cooking clothes, so I guess you're a Master Chief! right?" he grinned ear to ear, though i'm not sure what's so special about those two words. They were true...right?
He ruffled my head, still smiling "You're so nice, Serene. You're so different from anyone else I've met before!"
"really? how am I different?" I'm confused. maybe I have a weird accent but I'm not that odd...am I?
"Ya act differently from any Lady I've met before. You say the strangest things, and you're never concerned about vanity or yourself, unlike other people... You look different too, you're kind of tan and you're hair is something I've never seen before...you have such a strand eye color and you even got a strange accent too!"
"yeah I suppose so...my eyes are like that because I was born with sectoral heterochromia. It's when one part of the eye has more pigment, so they're different colors"
"wow, that must be really rare! but ya know, those are also really good things about you too! except the hair is..." he awkwardly cut off not wanting to finish the sentence. Please don't talk about my hair. you don't have to remind me of that monstrosity...
"yeaahh...let's not talk about my hair issues as we dance, 'kay?" I just noticed that I don't feel as I did when I danced with Ciel..
" It kind of looks good too. I don't think other people would be able to wear it like that and be able to make it look nice."
"really? Thanks Bard! No one's ever really told me stuff like that" I smiled at him
"eh? Really?" He said in surprise.
"yeah. why is that surprising?"
"well...It's just that...you stand out alot..in a good way"
"hmm...I guess so" I smiled.
Me and Bard continued to dance until eventually I got a chance to dance with Finnie. Bard switched over to Mey-Rin who had finally snapped out of her dream land state.
"Isn't this fun Lady Serene?" Finnie said grinning as we danced
"yeah! By the way just call me Serene!"
"Okay, Serene!"
" Hey Finnie can I ask you a question?"
"sure!"
"Um how old are you?"
"Sixteen? Why did you ask?"
"I was just wondering because I'm almost sixteen and I find it extremely annoying that everyone in this household is taller than me! Even Ciel is! Don't tell him that though..." He would somehow use it against me.
"Aww, but I like your height! It suits you!"
"Thanks, Finnie. Though I don't get how..." I said smiling
he laughed.
I'm so glad I didn't leave. Right now I feel like I could dance forever! I'm so happy I could just vanish into nothing and I would be okay with it. Seeing everyone smile...I would be okay with it.
I knocked on Ciel's door ( I actually managed to find it). I hope he lets me stay.
"Come in" I poked my head through the hole. Ciel sighed as he saw my face.
"What, is it Serene? Wait, how did you manage to find my room...?" he muttered confused.
"Um...Is it okay if I stay here for a bit?"
"huh? why?"
" Because I don't wanna be alone, and it's lonely without you guys" Ciel looked at me for a bit before answering.
he sighed again "fine, you can stay. for now." I walked to Ciel's bed, sat next to him and bunched my knees to my chest and watched them as they continued their conversation.
"but Really now...We ended up spending today uselessly"
"Is that true? Were you not sufficiently content?" Sebastian smirked
"you're an idiot..." he went to fish off his ring but then looked down at his hand realizing the events of today.
"who's the idiot?" Sebastian asked coldly.
"It's something important to you, isn't it? You put on quite the show for Lady Elizabeth." Sebastian put his gloved hands over Ciel's. when he took them away Ciel's ring was back.
"woe...Sebatian you should totally be a magician or something..." I said drowsily. I'm seriously having trouble keeping my eyes open.
"I am Phantomhive's butler. What kind of butler would I be if I couldn't accomplish something like this?"
"A normal fucking one" I said yawning. Sebastian glared at me. I just broke the mood there, didn't I? I don't really care though, I'm too tired to know what I'm saying.
"That's right...How many times has this ring witnessed the death of its master? Grandfather...father...and then..." I can feel tears springing to my eyes. Just a second ago I was about to fall asleep but now, I feel like something is tearing at my insides. I don't want Ciel to go through so much pain...or to leave here!
"How many times has it heard the pain of death? When I close my eyes, I can hear them. those screams...If I throw it away...Maybe then I won't be able to hear them." My heart feels like someone lit it on fire.
He looked down "It's foolish isn't it?"
I sprung up and wrapped my arms around Ciel. Tears in my eyes, but not rolling down my cheeks yet. I'm sure he's had enough of girls crying so I won't do that now. I don't him to disappear into nothing after everything he's been though. I won't...NO, I can't...
"Serene!" his voice came out muffled and surprised. I let him go and gave him a small, sad smile, water filling my vision.
"Don't worry, Ciel, I promise I won't let that happen to you"
"what are you saying?"
I promise I won't. I may have been the reason why they disappeared, but I'll be the reason why Ciel doesn't. Even if it means I'll go too.
"Oh the moon is already high. It's not good for you two. please go rest now. You too, Lady Serene." Sebastian said tucking him under the covers. I walked over putting his head in my hands, and kissed his forehead. John always did that to me. I can't help but think about how Ciel had no one to kiss his forehead or tuck him in at night. no one at all.
"S-Serene!" he flushed startled, and Sebastian looked at me surprised.
"It's so you don't have bad dreams now!" I smiled at him. I hope so at least. I walked over to the door, then paused about to leave.
"G'night Ciel. Sweet Dreams, don't let the bed bugs bite. okay? and you too, Demon...Sebastian." for once Sebastian didn't react to my nickname, only looked at me still surprised. I'm not sure why though. Shouldn't I say and do what I feel and think? I walked out of the room. My new goal is to make everyone in this household happy. Even If it's only for a second out of the millions that construct their timeline.
sigh. Now, where the hell is my room again?
After finally finding my room I flopped onto my bed and got under the covers. I wish I had a bed like this at home. suddenly a pang of something hit my heart. Homesick.
I miss my friends! And John and even Chris! And I didn't even get to see John for a last time because he was a way on a business trip for his job! I miss it when he tucks me in at night, even if I'm fifteen! and I even miss getting beat up in my illegal job! but...even if there were a way to get back it wouldn't matter because there is no way I'm leaving Ciel here all alone. I'll always be there for him, Even If he hates me for it. besides I can maybe eventually see the people I care about and he never can. Call me obsessed, but I know far too well of how he feels. far too well. when I close my eyes to sleep, all my memories come back to me. I can hear my friend's words too, haunting me. the look in their eyes when I just left them there to perish...because I know if had stopped for a second there I would have too, right along with them. And I still have scars of that night on me. they don't hurt...they just remind me of what I've done. I hate reminders. I hate that night.
I can feel tears once more overfilling my eyes. I just...I don't want to remember anything from my past!
"n-no matter how many times I say it's over I can still hear his voice and the sounds of wood cracking..I remember the water filling into my lungs as I fell away...and I still- no always will remember mama's eyes when she tried to tell me something ,but nothing but red came out of her mouth...lifeless. I don't want to see Ciel's eyes looking like that. No...no I don't" I said to myself. sometimes at night I talk to myself aloud so i don't feel so alone. I like to call him Nobody. but now talking to Nobody isn't helping at all.
"I'm going to sleep now okay?" I said to Nobody. I sighed
"I'm so stupid. Nobody isn't real. there's no one there...Papa and Mama would have disagreed and told me that God was there but...I'm not sure anymore. But he must be there like they said, because if Demons exist then shouldn't angels and God too?" I sighed "I need to stop talking to myself before I start saying exactly what I think in Public! humph. I'll just go to sleep now, so please don't bother me, Nobody. But only wake me if I begin to yell. Good night." I turned over into the pillow and closed my eyes. I hope I don't dream again tonight.
Sebastian backed away from the Lady's door. he had been eavesdropping the whole time with her conversation with 'Nobody'.
well, doesn't have an interesting past. I wonder if she's anything like the Young Master. humph. I guess i'll just have to wait to see.
he strode away smirking.
"Now then. I must prepare for tomorrow"