Hello readers! I'll bet you didn't expect to see another chapter of this~ I had it marked as complete and didn't think I'd go back to it, but after finishing my T-rated Kuroko x GOM fic and then trying to write a little extra chapter for it, I wanted to write something a little more, let's just say indecent, and decided to just do it in this fic instead. And so I wrote for a few hours when I should have been asleep already and made this for all you to enjoy~ Review and favourite if you like, it would make me a very happy writer. :)
"Hey Kurokochi! I wanted to know if you were free to hang out today!" A bright voice screamed through a phones receiver, a half-asleep Kuroko on the receiving end. It took a few seconds for him to drawl out a response.
"Good morning Kise kun, I can go out today but you're gonna have to wait a little bit. I'm going back to sleep for a bit." The boy told his boyfriend, moving to put the phone down as he lied back down. But a screeching from the other end stopped him before he ended the call.
"Wait Kurokochi! It's already 10 o'clock! You can't go back to sleep now!" Kise cried out, but it didn't convince Kuroko to stay awake.
"I'm hanging up now Kise kun, you can't stop me from sleeping. I'll see you in an hour or so." His eyes were already closed as he talked, sure that what he said was true; that Kise couldn't stop him. He had hung up the phone, but he could still hear Kise's voice.
"Sorry Kurokochi, but I can make you wake up." The blonde told him with a cheeky smile as he opened the door to Kuroko's room, peeking in at his sleeping love.
"What? How did you get in my house?" Kuroko asked perplexed, his tiredness not helping with the confusion. Kise flashed another smile as he responded.
"Akashichi borrowed a spare key from your parents and had 5 copies of it made for us all. Now we can see you whenever we want!" The boy cheered out enthusiastically, ecstatic about the idea. Kuroko was less happy. But he figured that even if he asked them, he would never be able to get those keys back. So with that in mind, he begrudgingly let the issue go and shooed Kise out of his room while he changed.
"Eeee, why do I have to leave? I've seen you naked heaps of times now!" He whined, but Kuroko simply pushed him to the door and shut it behind him. Just because he'd seen him like this before, it didn't make it any less embarrassing to change in front of him. It actually had the opposite effect, now that he knew how Kise, or any of his other boyfriends looked at him when he was undressed, it became really embarrassing to be naked in front of them in normal situations. Once he'd pick an outfit he opened the door again and was met with a hug from Kise, so tight he thought he would suffocate.
"P-please Kise kun, not so tight. I can't breath." He muffled out, gasping for air. Kise loosened his grip and told his Kurokochi sorry, before they both left the house together.
"Where are we going anyway Kise kun?" Kuroko asks, but he doesn't get any answer. Kise only places a finger on his lips and says the word 'secret' with a wink. They walk together for a while, all the while Kuroko grows more and more curious. When they finally turn into a rich looking neighbourhood, he understands where they're going.
"You're taking me to Akashi kuns house? How come?"
"I told you, it's a secret! You'll find out in a few minutes when we get there anyway. For now though, would you mind wearing this?" Kise hands Kuroko a blindfold, the same one which was used on him the first night of him and his teammates unorthodox relationship. Kuroko is hesitant to put it on, remembering what had happened the first time, so long ago now. But he trusts his boyfriends, they've given him more than enough reasons to while they've been dating. He pulls the material around his head and lets Kise tie it for him, holding onto his hand the rest of the way, partly so he doesn't run into anything, but also because he just wanted to feel his touch.
"Ok Kurokochi, step up here." The blindfolded boy does as he's instructed and steps into Akashi's house. Finally, he's arrived at their destination. He can find out what all this is about.
"Wait here a second." Kise lets go of his hand and runs a few metres forward, meeting up with the rest of the miracles in the room. Unbeknownst to Kuroko, he indicated to the others to start counting down.
"You can take off the blindfold now!" They countdown. 3, Kuroko reaches up. 2, He unties the blindfold. 1, it falls from his eyes.
"Happy anniversary Kurokochi/Kuro chin/Kuroko/Tetsuya/Tetsu!" Five voices roar into life as Kuroko looks upon the scene in front of him. The five people he loves most in the world all lined up in Akashi's living room, streamers and balloons all around and a smile on each of their faces. Kuroko fell silent, tears streaming from his eyes almost instantly. After a few seconds of shocked silence, Kuroko's face burst into a smile as he started talking.
"I can't believe it, you all did this for me?" The tears continued to roll down his face, but they were tears of happiness. He was so surprised that they would all do this for him, even more so that they had actually managed to keep it a secret from him, considering how often he's together with them.
"This, this is all so amazing. Is it really our anniversary already?" He asked the group, amazed at the fact that he really had spent a whole year in love with these people.
"One year exactly, since we all kidnapped you and had our way with you. And I have to say, kidnapping you was the best decision I've ever made." Aomine says in a snarky tone, laughing as he does. Usually Kuroko would say something about Aomine's comment, that he was treating something as bad as kidnapping so lightly. That if someone other than his teammates had done the same thing to him, Aomine wouldn't have let them live. But that wasn't important now.
"Everyone, oh god what else am I supposed to say? I love you all so much!" He yelled out in happiness as he ran into their arms, each of them readily welcoming his embrace. They all stayed like this for a few minutes, simply revelling in the feel of their Kuroko. After a while, someone finally spoke up.
"I don't mind staying like this, but we really should keep going, we planned a lot." Midorima told the group as they all, somewhat regretfully, detached themselves from Kuroko. Everyone but Murasakibara that is.
"Mido chin, can't I stay like this for a little more? I don't feel like letting Kuro chin just yet." The giant whined, but his complaints were met by a disapproving scowl from Midorima.
"If you just spend all day hugging him we can never get to anything after. And that means you won't get to do anything more intimate with him." This catches Murasakibara's attention, and he decides that he's ok with letting go of Kuroko after all.
"Ok then, now that we're all here and done with our greetings, I'd like to tell Kuroko our plan for today." Akashi instructed the group as they all looked at him with eager eyes.
"First off, I've had my maid staff prepare lunch for us, which is currently in the dining room. After that we have cake followed by Tetsuya opening his presents. And finally, I have had a room prepared for us to give Tetsuya his other present, I'm sure you all know what I mean." The red head told them, a sadistic smile making its way to his face as he mentioned the last part of the plan. With little more discussion, they all headed to the dining room to get some food. All the while, Kuroko still had a giant smile plastered on his food.
**Suddenly scene change**
All the food that had been prepared by Akashi's maids had been absolutely delicious, but Kuroko had been expecting that. He'd become kind of spoilt lately, getting used to the luxury at Akashi's house that only money could buy. After that they all shared the cake, between the five of them, Kise, Akashi, Midorima, Aomine and Kuroko demolished half of the cake. The other half went to Murasakibara's plate, and even after that he was still asking for more. The only way the group could get him to stop begging for sweets was to promise him that he could have a taste of his beloved Kuro chin later on. Every one of the presents his friends had bought him were thought out, and bought specifically for him. Murasakibara bought him vanilla sweets, Midorima bought him some odd statue of a duck he claimed for be a lucky item which would give him luck for the rest of the year, Akashi gave him a book he'd known Kuroko had been wanting to read, Aomine gave him a new pair of basketball shoes; having been with him when the last ones finally broke for good, and finally; from Kise, Kuroko received some new singlets he could wear to practice, he told him that since he'd worn them at a photo shoot before, the designers had let him keep them all. They were a bit big on Kuroko, seeing as they had fit Kise, but they still had the smell of Kise on them, which was enough to make Kuroko happy to receive them. Finally, after all the festivities were over, it was time for the main event.
"Well Tetsuya, did you like all your presents?" Akashi asked him, and he gave him an enthusiastic 'Yes! I loved them all!' within seconds.
"Aka chin, can we give him the last present now?" Murasakibara squealed out, hardly managing to keep his excitement from bursting out.
"My, my, aren't you impatient. But I guess it is time now, as long as Tetsuya wants to."
"Why wouldn't he want to? He is dating us after all." Midorima asked the obvious question before Kuroko could, but that didn't stop Kuroko from speaking up once he got the chance.
"Like Midorima said, of course I want to. Did you all forgot how much I love you?" Kuroko laughed, holding his hands out for someone to grab. Aomine held onto the right hand and Midorima the left, while they all walked together to the room Akashi had prepared earlier. Making idle chatter on the way, Kuroko asking Midorima what was special about the duck as opposed to normal lucky items, and Midorima rattling off some talk of the stars and how they affected horoscopes that nobody understood. Aomine teased him about his nonsense, but he stood firm by his beliefs. When they reached the room however, each of them was amazed; that is, everyone but Akashi of course. Their captain had set the room up quite provocatively, rose petals scattered throughout, red velvet sheets and even a bottle of wine on the bedside. The wine was more there for the look of the room, since they were all under aged anyway. But it definitely added to the atmosphere. The instant they all entered the room the group seemed to have been put under some sort of spell, their lust taking over them in a matter of seconds. Aomine's grip on Kuroko's hand tightened as he used his grip to throw Kuroko to the bed, standing over him like a predator staring down his next meal. Akashi almost spoke up against him, telling him to slow down. But looking at his team, he knew that wouldn't happen. He simply sighed and decided to let the proceedings begin.
"Well, it seems the rest of you can't wait any longer so before you lose yourselves completely I'll say this. Tetsuya, you are the best thing to ever happen to me. I am always so grateful to be loved by you. So happy anniversary, and I hope you will like your present." Kuroko looked up at his boyfriends from his spot on the bed and smiled at them, truly touched by Akashi's affection. The rest of them all said similar things, about how meeting him changed their lives, or that they were able to overcome their embarrassment through falling in love with him. All their sentiments made Kuroko feel like not the luckiest person in the world, but the luckiest person in existence, out of anyone that had ever lived or would ever lived, he was sure that no one else would be able to experience this sheer amount of happiness. He welcomed them all when they decided the time for talking was done, and descended upon him. Aomine placed his lips against his shadows lips, feeling the familiar texture. Down below, both Kise and Murasakibara were working on getting Kuroko's clothes off, not wanting to wait any longer to see all of him. Murasakibara couldn't quite figure out how to undo Kuroko's shirt, and ended up simply ripping the fabric. Once his shirt was gone Murasakibara latched onto his chest instantly, licking up and down and wetting Kuroko all over. Midorima tried to join Murasakibara but was pushed away by the unusually possessive giant. The shooter sighed in annoyance, but wasn't unsatisfied for long. While Aomine kissed his lips, Midorima placed butterfly kisses all the way from Kuroko's jaw, past his neck and to his shoulder. Each time his lips made contact Kuroko would hiss in ecstasy. During all of this, Kise had finally gotten Kuroko's shorts off, and had slipped a hand into his boxers.
"Kurokochi, can I take these off as well?" He asked the boy for his permission, even though he already knew that he would give it.
"Yes, please Kise kun. I want you to touch me there." With his words of confirmation, Kise inched down Kuroko's boxers to reveal him, already hard.
"Tch, that was quick Tetsuya. Are our kisses alone enough to get you hard?" Akashi teased him, but as he took off the last of his own clothing it was clear that he too already had an erection.
"What about you Akashi, all you've been doing so far is watching." Kuroko panted out inbetween kisses, pausing in the middle of his sentence to hiss out once more as Murasakibara sucked on his nipples.
"Oh, when did you start talking back to me? I'll have to stop that." The slightly insane boy said, but unlike the first time they had done this so long ago, it wasn't a threat. It was simply a light-hearted joke. Aomine moved out of the way so Akashi could have a turn, and undressed while he waited. Akashi brought his lips to Kuroko and silenced any more snide remarks the boy might give. When he ran his tongue over Kuroko's bottom lip asking for permission he gave it instantly, letting Akashi's tongue dart into his mouth and dance with his own. As Akashi grew more passionate so did the kiss, the feel of Akashi's lips became hard and rough for Kuroko. But he didn't mind, he liked it like this. When all the restrictions were gone and all that was left was fiery passion, that was heaven for Kuroko.
"A-aaah!" Kuroko cried out suddenly as he felt Kise's touch on his member. But within instants the feeling was gone, along with a slight scream from Kise.
"Kise kun? Is something wrong?" Kuroko asked, but all he got was screams.
"Murasakibarachi! Why did you push me off the bed?!" The blonde demanded in a high pitched voice. Murasakibara placed his hand on Kuroko's cock as he responded, sending chills down his spine.
"Mido chin promised me I could taste Kuro chin later on. This time I want to be the one who gives him a blow job." He told Kise, who had just gotten up from the floor. Kise grumbled about how Murasakibara didn't have to physically push him away, but let the other have that part of his Kurokochi. Instead, he looked up to see where he could fit in. Akashi was still kissing him, and Aomine had started giving him love bites like Midorima.
"Fine, if you want to do that then I'll get Kurokochi ready!" Kise announced as he crawled over the bed back to his Kurokochi, reaching behind him to thrust his finger inside of him.
"No, you were first last time. Today I'm going to be the first one inside of Kuroko." Midorima announced, once again denying Kise of his pleasure.
"What? So you won't let me do anything?" Kise whined, but this time it was Kuroko who replied.
"You're always the one who gets to do the most with me whenever we all have sex together, just come here and kiss me for a change." Kise couldn't resist anything Kuroko asked of him, climbing up to Kuroko's mouth and kissing him. Akashi let him do so and started to circle his tongue around Kuroko's nipple. He didn't worry about not being able to touch Tetsuya enough, he had an idea for after everyone else had had their fun. Once all the arguing had finished and Kise was content, the rest of the group started moving around. Two sensations came upon Kuroko instantaneously, Midorima's finger forced its way into his hole, and Murasakibara closed his mouth around his member, not bothering to start small, but putting the whole thing in his mouth to begin with.
"Uugh, Murasa- Mido-, aaah." Kuroko moaned out, unable to make it through either of their names entirely. After no time at all Midorima decided that Kuroko was ready for a second finger, and then a third, stretching him relentlessly, any hint of the embarrassment he would have felt a year ago vanished. After his initial deep throating, Murasakibara was more gentle, running his tongue alone Kuroko's shaft and swallowing it bit by bit, spending tortuously slow amounts of time on each centimetre of his dick before going any further. The ecstasy was almost too much to bear already.
"Ok Kuroko, I hope you're ready." Midorima said, not waiting for Kuroko to reply before slamming into him, giving no regard to controlling himself. He had lost count of how many times the group of them had done this, how many times he'd done this with just Kuroko and himself. Kuroko wasn't some innocent virgin anymore, he could take a little pain. When Midorima forced his way inside Murasakibara started to deep throat Kuroko again, pulling back and then pushing forward into his dick, forcing Kuroko to thrust into Murasakibara's mouth along with the thrusts Midorima was making into him. His attention was momentarily stolen as Akashi bit down on one of his nipples, bringing him a pain he welcomed. But as Midorima thrusted in again all other thoughts were ripped from the shadows brain. Midorima started to get rougher and rougher, grunting each time he rammed into Kuroko, ripping through inches and inches of Kuroko's ass. Kuroko cried out as he was entered, a guttural mix of Midorima's name and indescribable noises. Midorima reached forward and grabbed onto Kuroko's legs viciously, ripping them above his shoulders so that he could get a better angle. Murasakibara followed him up, not letting his mouth leave Kuroko's erection for a second. Once Midorima had Kuroko held steadily, Murasakibara reached out to him and started to rub his balls while he sucked on him, wanting to give Kuroko as much pleasure as he could. While all this was going on, Kuroko felt like his was about to release any second. Since lifting him up Midorima had started to hit his prostate with every wild thrust, sending Kuroko into a frenzy of ecstasy. As if in synch with each other, Midorima came undone into Kuroko as he seed spilled into his asshole, dripping down in white, sticky drops. At the same time Kuroko gave Murasakibara what he had wanted, sending the white liquid into his mouth and he sucked it up gratefully. As Midorima made way for him, Murasakibara brought his tongue to Kuroko's hole, and his hand to his own erection. He rubbed himself while his tongue licked up all the cum which had spilled out of Kuroko, running it over his thighs and the rim of his ass. Kuroko and Midorima breathed as if they'd just completed some sort of ultra marathon, their activities tiring them out completely. But Kuroko wasn't done just yet.
"I'm glad I waited for this, Kuro chin tastes the best after all!" Murasakibara called out in triumph, completely content with everything in the world. Kuroko tried to moan something back to him, but all that came out was a string of the letter o, all the speaking that Kuroko was capable of. He felt a rush of hot air at his ear and realised Akashi was there whispering to him.
"Tetsuya, my Tetsuya, did you enjoy that?" Akashi asked him, getting an enthusiastic nod in response.
"Good, very good. I'm sure that felt good for you, but it wasn't enough, right? You couldn't possibly be satisfied with just that." He continued on, his tone growing more and more sadistic.
"I, I can keep going. If it's for you then I can." Kuroko told his captain, a strained smile on his face. It must be hard for him to always be the one on the bottom, but Akashi knew that however much pain Kuroko might feel tomorrow, he would do anything to feel his lovers touch tonight.
"Ok, I'm happy to hear that. In that case, I want to try something new. I hope you don't mind."
"No, go ahead." Kuroko said, giving the go ahead. Akashi tapped Aomine on the shoulder to grab his attention. He had already told him about his plan earlier, so when Akashi gave him the signal, Aomine knew what to do. Murasakibara and Midorima looked on wondering what was about to transpire, but didn't interfere; they had had their turn, now they had to let everyone else have a go as well. The captain turned Kuroko on his stomach and asked him to sit on all fours. Kuroko did as he was asked, thinking he knew what was about to come next. He didn't know though, not really. Akashi and Aomine didn't warn Kuroko before they entered him, even if they had it would have made no difference.
"O-aaah! Akashi! Aomine! Uuugh!" Kuroko screamed out as he was entered, feeling like he was literally being torn apart. The two boys within him didn't let up though, they kept pushing in until they could feel nothing but Kuroko around their dicks. They both waited for a little bit, letting Kuroko catch his breath and adjust to the sudden intrusion.
"I, I don't think I can handle both of you. You'll tear me apart." Kuroko cried out with actual tears in his eyes, liquid wrenched from him along with the pain. Kise reached down and wiped away his tears, giving him a smile as he reassured him.
"I'll try my best to distract you a little, so please don't show me your crying face. I don't want to see you in pain." The blonde ran his fingers through Kuroko's powder blue hair as he comforted him, the tears slowly coming to a stop.
"Akashi, Aomine, I love you both, I want you both inside of me so much. But I don't think I'll be able to fit both of you without bursting, just you sitting still inside me is stinging." Kuroko continued to protest, but his two lovers wouldn't lose this, they would show Kuroko how wrong he was.
"You're the most amazing person I know Tetsu, you can do this. I know you can. And once you do, you'll feel amazing."
"I told you once before that you'd surpassed my expectations, I want you to do it again now. You think you can't do this, but I know you can. Surpass your expectations Tetsuya, and you'll definitely feel rewarded." The pair manage to convince Kuroko, he simply nods at them and braces himself for the pain he knows will come. Kise kept true to his promise and brought his erection to Kuroko's mouth, providing him a distraction from the initial pain. Kuroko ran his tongue up and down the shaft, thankful for Kise's thoughtfulness. The taste of pre cum and sweat excited Kuroko's taste buds, making him want more of it.
"Argh!" Kuroko screamed out around the cock in his mouth, Akashi and Aomine has thrusted in again, tearing through his walls together. Tears welled in Kuroko's eyes but he blinked them away, determined not to cry. He put all his attention into Kise, speeding up his actions. In one movement swallowing him whole and bobbing his head up and down, up and down. Spinning his tongue around the surface as he forced Kise to thrust down his throat.
"A-akashi!" He exclaimed again as they thrust into him. But it hadn't hurt as much this time. He was distracted by Kise, but still, he was finally starting to feel some sort of pleasure from the force.
"Mmm, I think I might be able to do this." He told himself, steeling himself for another thrust. Akashi and Aomine both smiled, pleased that Kuroko had finally started enjoying himself. They had hated causing Kuroko pain, but it was worth it for this reaction. Kuroko continued to deep throat Kise, but the blonde had reached the end of his stamina, cumming straight into his Kurokochi's mouth. Kuroko swallowed the liquid and licked around Kise's member for any remnants he had missed, tasting the very essence of Kise. He had lost his distraction, but it didn't matter any more. He wasn't in pain. He could feel every time Aomine and Akashi thrusted into him, feel his walls spread open wider than they ever had to accommodate them. But it didn't hurt him, it was the exact opposite. He started to scream out in ecstasy, unable to hold back his cries.
"Aomine, harder! I want you to destroy me!" He cried out provocatively, not caring who heard him. Aomine and Akashi both got rougher with him, knowing well and truly that he was ready for it. Aomine stuffed his hand into Kuroko's hair and pushed his face down into the cum soaked covers of the bed, ramming into him relentlessly all the while. Akashi let go of any restraints and pushed in as hard as he could, his sadistic side growing more and more as he plowed into his Tetsuya. The two of them found Kuroko's prostate at the same time, ramming into it as wildly as they possibly could.
"Aah, Akashi! Ao-mine! Yes! Right there!" Kuroko continued to scream without inhibition. He had spent a year with these people, during that time he had become totally comfortable screaming their names like this. They kept on hitting his prostate together, pulling out so far that only their tips were left in before pushing their whole bodies forward, their legs, their hips. The moment they hit Kuroko's prostate for god knows which time the shadow finally came undone, he sprayed the bed below him and he own chest with his cum, but Aomine and Akashi were still going. They pounded into him with seemingly endless energy. Each of them made it at least ten more wild, uninhibited thrusts before they gave Kuroko more than enough cum to fill himself. All of it sliding into him in a mixture of his two lovers. Akashi and Aomine both stayed in Kuroko for a few minutes longer, simply sitting their and feeling his warmth before pulling out and letting him relax. The room was filled with nothing but the sound of laboured breath and Kuroko gasped for the air he had forgotten to take while in such a frenzied state.
"That, that was ama-zing!" He paused to take another breath. "I can't believe, I was trying to say n-no to it." Akashi and Aomine grinned knowingly and said in unison;
"We told you so." While Kuroko caught his breath he looked around the room at the five people surrounding him, Murasakibara and Midorima both having crowded around once everything had died down. He thought back to a year ago, the first time they had ever done this. He had been scared almost to death, to find himself chained up and stripped, surrounded by familiar voices. He hadn't known why that had taken him at the time, but he had learnt of their love and had quickly learnt how much he loved them back. That time Akashi was so possessive, even though he had agreed with the rest of the group to share Kuroko, he was adamant that he was still in charge. Midorima was so embarrassed just from touching him as well. Kise, Aomine and Murasakibara all seemed like they thought that one time would be the only time, that they had to make the most of it before their beloved Kuroko would hate them forever. But all of that has changed now, the year he had spent with these people had changed all of them. Akashi still tended to get a little sadistic or controlling, but it wasn't nearly as bad as before. Now, other than sex, the only times it comes out is when he is protecting the boy he loves. Midorima can say the phrase 'I love you' easily now, and isn't embarrassed by his lust. And the rest of them, they all know that their love is reciprocated, and that it won't be going anywhere. And as for himself, Kuroko knew that he had changed too. His love for his boyfriends had become a part of him he would never give up, and he had learnt so many new things because of that, experienced amazing feelings. If he could go back to a year ago he wouldn't change a single thing. He knew that for sure. He looked into everyone's faces with sincere eyes as he spoke his next words, finally able to speak properly with his breath caught.
"Today has been indescribably amazing, you've all made me so happy to be able to celebrate a one year anniversary. I'm so glad that day a year ago happened, I can't even imagine how much worse my life would be if I never realised how in love I am with all you." Kuroko poured out his heart, thanking all his lovers so much for all the efforts they'd put into not only just the celebration today, but to the whole last beautiful year. In an uncharacteristic display, each one of them felt a single tear run down their cheeks, except for Kise who had started crying intensely.
"Kurokochi we love you so much too! This last year has been the best of my life!" Kise cried out through his tears, a truly happy smile on his face. The rest of the team took after Kise and all started to thank Kuroko for the year they had spent together.
"You've helped me become such a better person this last year. Thank you, Kuroko."
"I've always loved you Kuro chin, and you loving me back has made anything I do more fun, and anything I eat sweeter."
"You already know how grateful I am but I might as well say it again. I love you so much Tetsu, ever since I first met you and you showed me your love for basketball. Your love has made my love the sport even more!"
"Tetsuya, because of you, I have been able to control myself more, I can understand people so much clearer. You've taught me how to deal with people without using violence, and you did that by giving me so much love. Thank you." All of them speak the truth they had been waiting to say. Truly happy that they were able to thank their beloved for everything he has done for them over the past year. Kuroko held out his arms and motioned for them all to join him, which they happily did. They all lied huddled together, not caring about the sweat and cum on the bed which they rolled in. All they cared about was Kuroko, and all Kuroko cared about was each one of them. He could feel the contours of each of their bodies against his, and knew that no matter what else happened in his life, this moment right here; was what pure happiness felt like.