Chapter 2: Chapter 2

Chapter Two: Jason and the Sick Hanna

Hanna was lying on the cold tile of her bathroom floor. She had just finished a binging and purging session. Hanna couldn't decide if she hated herself for making herself sick or if liked the fact she could still binge eat all that junk food and then puke it up not really having to gain anymore weight. Silent tears made their way down her cheeks as she vaguely recalled words of comfort from none other than Allison's older brother Jason. Sure he told her looks weren't everything and that it was who you were as a person that could determine your beauty, but those were the words of someone high out of their mind.

Jason was sitting on his bed his ear buds in with the loud rock music drowning out the world around him. Yes he still got high but for some reason the only time he really did was when he had to deal with his sister and her friends. The girls intrigued him in some way, Aria was bright and funny, Spencer was intelligent and independent, Emily was loyal and caring, and Hanna was innocent and full of life. Each girl was very different and yet at the same time they had a lot in common outside of Allison.

Hanna slowly got up off the bathroom floor and made her way over to the sink. She brushed her teeth and rinsed out her mouth with mouth wash. Angrily she wiped away the tears. Yes she felt disgusted with herself every time she binged and purged, but she didn't understand why she couldn't stop. With her eyes frosting over she knew why she couldn't quit, for the first time since she met Allison, Hanna had control. Her father had recently left her and her mom, Allison was hot and cold with how she treated her friends, the kids at school were occasionally cruel because of her weight, so it made sense that binging and purging gave her the control she desperately needed.

Jason had just finished his joint after Allison had stormed into his room ready for a fight. Apparently something of hers had gone missing so of course he had to have stolen it for his little drug habit. He really shouldn't be surprised that his sister would accuse him of something like that, but it did. Even though his sister could be a cruel bitch, he would never ever steal from his family.

Hanna felt like the walls of her home were closing in on her. Her mom was working late again to earn some extra money so Hanna knew she would be home alone for most of the night. She needed to get out. The white walls and deafening silence was almost too much to bare. It was like they mocked her for her little habit.

Jason needed to get out of the house. Allison was on a rampage trying to find whatever had gone missing and it was only a matter of time before she came back and tried to start another fight with him. Jason grabbed his jacket and just walked out of the house. No one would ask questions about where he was going and honestly the fresh air would help clear his head.

Hanna was silently walking down the street when she felt a wave of dizziness come over her. Shaking her head to clear it she kept walking. In simple jeans and a long sleeve shirt she wrapped her arms around her body. Lately these dizzy spells would happen after a session of purging. She didn't understand what was happening to her. She felt her control slowly slipping away.

Jason with his hands stuffed in his pockets walked down the street. A little way up he noticed a blonde girl that looked like one of Allison's friends grabbing onto a street light to hold herself up. In the back of his mind he vaguely remembered comforting Hanna after Allison had ripped into the poor girl about her weight. Walking a little faster he started to take in the little things about her appearance. Her face looked like a pale white sheet and she had heavy bags under eyes. Once he was close enough he slowed down his approach. He didn't know why seeing her look so sick worried him but he wasn't going to leave until he knew she was okay after all that was the responsible thing to do.

Hanna started to stumble and grabbed onto the closet thing to her. She got dizzy again and felt herself getting light headed. She could feel the sweat breaking out across her body and had to fight the urge to throw up. Suddenly she felt a steadying hand on her arm. Slowly opening her eyes she saw Jason DiLaurentis standing in front of her looking more than a little concerned.

"Hey are you okay?" he heard himself ask even though by just looking at her it was obvious she was anything but okay.

"I... I don't feel good," Hanna said weakly feeling her legs start to shake.

"Here let's get you sitting down," Jason said gently grabbing her hand and leading her to a bench close by.

"Thank you," Hanna murmured as she sunk down onto the bench.

"You never answered my question," Jason said watching her closely.

"Huh?" Hanna said confused, did he ask her question? Why couldn't she remember that?

"Are you okay?" Jason asked again needing to hear her confirm that she was in fact not okay.

"No, I...I feel so weak," Hanna said closing her eyes to fight off the dizziness.

"Are you getting sick?" Jason asked but something in his gut told him it wasn't the flu or a cold making this girl feel so sick.

"She never told me it would feel like this," Hanna said not realizing she wasn't making any sense right now.

"Hanna, who never told you what?" Jason asked not liking where the conversation could be heading.

"Allison," Hanna whispered as she tried so hard to get her bearings. Somewhere little alarm bells were going off in her head, this conversation was a big no-no.

"What did she do?" Jason bit out definitely not liking that his sister played a part in this innocent girl's current condition.

"She… she told me," Hanna tried to get out weakly.

"Hanna what did Allison say?" Jason asked knowing whatever it was, was really bad.

Hanna's head rolled so she was looking up at Jason. His intense eyes bore into her glazed over ones. "Alli told me that throwing up…" Hanna said before she had to close her eyes from another dizzy spell.

"Damn it Alli," Jason murmured under his breath understanding exactly what Allison had done. How did she convince Hanna that purging her food would help anything?

"I... I just wanted to be pretty like her," Hanna said weakly as tears slowly fell down her cheeks.

"Hanna, don't you know what you're doing is dangerous!?" Jason all but yelled. "Throwing up after you eat isn't going to make anything better. If you want to lose weight do it the healthy way."

Something in Hanna snapped then. She wasn't sure if it was what he said or how scared he looked, but Hanna felt like cold water had just been thrown on her. "I hate myself," Hanna whispered as she cried harder for what she was putting herself through.

"Hanna you can stop this. Look how about we grab something to eat and you can tell me everything?" Jason suggested hoping a good meal would help put some coloring back into her.

"Okay," Hanna said feeling truly touched by his concern.

"Just promise me one thing," Jason said feeling it necessary to get it out there.

"What?" Hanna asked trying her hardest to put some attitude behind it.

Jason let out a chuckle at her attempt, "If you ever feel like you need to purge or hurt yourself talk to someone, anyone before you do something you can't take back."

Hanna let out a shaky breath. She tried to understand where he was coming from and it made sense for her to have someone to talk to when she felt that low. "I promise."